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2005 6 July :: 3.27pm
:: Mood: chipper
random bitching
well it's official...im 19 years old. big frickin woot.
tommy and amanda took me out to lunch even tho i have a develish eye.
ive been thinking. what is the point to all the shit that i do? is it really worth it to sleep around and get drunk every other nite? what benefit does it do for me? i dont do it for anybody else - jus for the hell of it. i quit smoking pot and shit like that...random drug tests at michigans adventures are to thank for that one. but why? why do it? i have no idea.
my ma is worried. she thinks that im not taking care of myself just cuz i lost 2 lbs in two days. who cares how much i weigh. i know i dont care. i eat when im hungry and i eat what i can afford...which pretty much consists of ritz bits and pringles. i like fake cheese. it's delicious.
i get to see my hailey gorgeous today. shes getting so big. she'll be 1 in a week!! i love that girl so much.
im gunna head out to my ma's pretty soon so im out - cya.
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joslyn_julia
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2005 5 July :: 10.53pm
:: Mood: smitten
so here i am bubbling with excitement because i finally talked to mike. and it is all good, but i won't see him untill christmas. i think that will be okay though, everything is wearing off but i will still miss him. i'll post a pic of us as my icon in a few days.
i just wish i could tell him how i feel.
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unbleachedblond
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2005 5 July :: 4.16pm
:: Mood: blah
life is so confusing. i got sent home at 7:45 last friday nite for swearing at coleen. yet theyre pissed at me for not coming to work tonite (i got pink eye). yea life's fun like that.
tomorrow im 19. big frickin woot. it's my only day off, yet i cant really do anything cuz im contagious for 24 hours. my ma wants me to come over, but it would have to be at nite.
hailey will be 1 in two weeks. im excited for her. shes gunna have frosting smeared all over her. i love that girl.
anyways im out. cya.
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joslyn_julia
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2005 5 July :: 4.09pm
:: Music: THe Dresden Dolls- Half Jack
in full circle
you would never guess who i saw today.
it's all so strange, seeing people who you used to know and hearing about people that you used to be friends with.
i am excited about all of it.
I think that skyler likes me alot but i am not entirely excited about the prospect. You see he isn't any of the things that i like in a guy. He isn't very talkative and he doesn't like video games, he isn't spontaneous and he is just kinda bland. Anyways, i am back into the video games, i want to skateboard again, and i just want to be one of the guys. Not totally one of the guys, but i want it to be the way that it was when i hung out with the guys. I miss it. I am excited, everything is coming in full circle.
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joslyn_julia
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2005 4 July :: 1.09pm
so out of boredom, i will sleep all day.
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joslyn_julia
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2005 4 July :: 9.51am
:: Music: the good that won't come out of me
i feel sick to my stomach. i am becoming numb to the fact that mike is gone, and that we can never reach eachother. The hardest thing is knowing that he is probably, no he is having sex with other people. It's not something that is a set fact, but i can feel it. Trisha wants me to hook up with this guy Skyler but i really only like him as a friend. I don't want to get into something else, mostly because i don't feel like dealing with the whole leaving situation again. Plus, i do care about mike, so i really want to see him and probably be with him again in august and at christmas and so on. you know? There's an attachment that i just can't break. I wish that he felt the same about me.
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joslyn_julia
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2005 3 July :: 4.09pm
:: Music: Kaiser Chiefs- Everyday I love you less and less
Juliette wanted Romeo
Leave it to him, i gave up. didn't care and was ready to drop it all, and out of the blue he texts me to say that he just found his phone.
And once again i crave old spice and want to be in omaha.
Damn him
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joslyn_julia
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2005 3 July :: 6.42am
is it wierd to turn your air conditioning on to make it really cold, just so you can sleep with a comforter?
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joslyn_julia
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2005 30 June :: 11.02pm
romeo has juliette
and
juliette has romeo
mike has omaha
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i have my room, to listen to music and miss him
dammit. i need to forget it all
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joslyn_julia
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2005 27 June :: 5.17pm
:: Music: The Beatles-- Here Comes the Sun
One Fine Day
Today was pretty good, i guess. i mean it could have been better but the things to make it better are far away (litterally, i mean like states away). Anyways, i got out of work early because we were dead, my new store manager kinda asked me not to leave, and i got to swim. I mean not swim but lay around on a raft and bask in the sun, while thinking of people and how i wished someone was here to swim with me.
also, my parents are going away for the weekend, and i have to stay home alone. goodie... this is why i wish mike was still here... because he could have come over and i stayed the night-- and i could have woke up in his arms. that would have been nice. But, yeah. I am single and ready to sleep (seriously sleep, you perv).
love ya,
josie
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joslyn_julia
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2005 23 June :: 11.12pm
no more games, this is it
nobody sees when you are lying in your bed, and i want to crawl in with you but i cry instead....
i want your warmth but it will only make me colder when it's over, so i can't tonight....
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joslyn_julia
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2005 23 June :: 11.10pm
Your Deadly Sins
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Wrath: 100%
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Lust: 60%
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Envy: 20%
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Greed: 20%
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Pride: 20%
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Sloth: 20%
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Gluttony: 0%
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Chance You'll Go to Hell: 34%
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joslyn_julia
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2005 23 June :: 11.04pm
so i should really stop watching any movie with john cusack in it because it is almost all the same. i am a dork. i keep walking into getting myself hurt and once again, i am alone.
also, apparently i am an attention whore... you know why? because i am afraid to be alone. Fucking MIKE....grrrrr. die
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2005 23 June :: 1.23am
Just a little update of what I'm doing with myself this summer.
For starters, I'm working at Bed Bath & Beyond. It's not the kind of job I pictured myself working, but it's a job and it pays. And it's not tough work either. Next week my summer class at MCC starts. HIST 201 for 8 hours a week for a 7.5 weeks. I hope it's not as bad as ratemyprofessor says it is. I wanted this summer to be all about learning, so in my spare time I'm reading books (so far I've read 5 and I'm working on Catcher in the Rye right now), practicing piano, learning card games/tricks, and attempting to pick up guitar, although I'm lazy and it takes a lot of paitience, which I've seemed to've lost. So far I've been to chicago once, to visit Keith, Sara, and Theresa, college pals. I want to go back once more, but Keith's gonna be gone by then. Future roommate right there. Right now my parents and sister are gone on vacation. I decided to stay here and work instead, so I have the house to myself. It's actually kinda tough to run a household, to water the lawn, feed the pets, do the chores...plus it's not very fun being by myself all day. But the situation did allow me to throw a little get together at my house with a few people. I got drunk for the first time in muskegon and for the first time with some of my friends. I've seen everyone at least once, including joslyn, except for Kenesha. It's hard because she works so much. I'm feeling really lonely right now. But I'm sure that'll pass. I'm gonna hang out with Katie tomorrow. I'll be happy to see her.
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