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:: 2005 5 April :: 2.13am

If I was Bob Marley, I said you "could you be loved?"
and if I was half pint, I'd ball the lord up above
and if I was Mike Tyson, I would look for a fight,
and if I was a hoodtown rat, I would be stayin up all night.
If I was the king of dark, I would get stupid-dumb.
If rhymes were valiums, I'd be comfortably numb.

If I had a shotgun, you know what i'd do.
I'd point that shit straight at the sky and shoot heaven on down for you...

6 burns | Do you want to play with fire?

:: 2005 4 April :: 1.18pm

my tummy hurts, but it was nice to sleep in. my throat still hurts much not as bad, and i feel less sick except for the damn cramps.

love you all, have a peachy break.

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:: 2005 4 April :: 8.42am
:: Mood: crappy

i doh't feel very good. my nose is all stuffy and my ears are all stuffy and i have a sore throat. i think i am sick, but everyone keeps telling me it is my allergies. all i know, is i friggin hate having to blow my nose every couple minutes.
i feel asaulted, eeeeh.

okay, i am going back to bed.

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:: 2005 4 April :: 12.29am

I just saw sin city. good yet confusing and still a little creepy

LIZ I AM SERIOUSLY WAY SORRY FOR WAKING YOU UP!!!!!
but seriously, i didn't know when you guys closed

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:: 2005 3 April :: 5.58pm

so, i really really really hate dial up. and my birthday is soooon. and then i can buy things and go places, and have more fun. haha, no j/k. but i have to watch out for jail bait. using that term loosely, i am not buying anyone cigarettes-- ever!!!!! yeah. okay, laters.

love you all, and lizzy. you need to call me.
smooches!!

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:: 2005 2 April :: 8.40pm
:: Mood: melancholy
:: Music: Bad company-- Feel like makin' love

I FEEL LIKE MAKIN' LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *dances* whoooo

had to do it. my inner child likes to do random things. i like being random like that...

baby if i think about you, i think about love
darling if i live with out you, i live without love
and if i had the sun and moon they would shine and
i would give you both night and day, lovesatisfying....

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:: 2005 2 April :: 8.04pm

you can't always get what you want....
but if you try; sometimes you might just get what you need
:)

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:: 2005 2 April :: 7.09pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: Bad Company-- ready for love

i know i shouldn't but, can i still like him the way i wanted to before everything came out. there are reasons i don't tell people how i feel. this, is one of those reasons.
kisses. and such.

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:: 2005 2 April :: 7.00pm

i am so so insecure. i hate it. but i may see my buddy next weekend. yay

oh, and i do want to go to prom i am just worried about not having a date and feeling like the third wheel to someone.

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:: 2005 1 April :: 8.08pm

I am the most unlucky man alive. My first date in five years, and I'm sick

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:: 2005 1 April :: 4.03pm

two weeks exactly. so nervous. i hope that i have money to get a tatoo or something. idk. i have to be brainwashed so i can't be jealous or angry or sad or whatever this feeling is about him. i think it is the feeling of absolute rejection.
seriously, aren't 'friends' supposed to care. what doesn't he get about that. stupid fucker!!!

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:: 2005 1 April :: 10.50am

and here is the start of one pathetic break...
me working, and no one wanting to hang out. goodie.

oh yeah, happy b-day to kasey g.

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:: 2005 31 March :: 11.39pm

Is it bad to have a cheap first date?

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:: 2005 31 March :: 3.54pm
:: Music: The Stones- Till the next goodbye

i shouldn't have seen that... i really am not ready for any of what i see on here anymore.
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Honey, is there any place that you would like to eat?
I know a coffee shop down on Fifty Second Street.
And I don't need no fancy food and I don't need no fancy wine.
And I sure don't need the tears you cry.
Till the next time we say goodbye,
till the next time we say goodbye,
till the next time we say goodbye,
I'll be thinking of you,
I'll be thinking of you.

Yeah, a movie house on Forty Second Street
ain't a very likely place for you and I to meet.
Watching the snow swirl around your hair and around your feet,
and I'm thinking to myself she surely looks a treat
Till the next time we say goodbye,
till the next time we say goodbye,
till the next time that we kiss goodnight,
I'll be thinking of you,
I'll be thinking of you.

I can't go on like this, can ya? Can ya?
I can't go on like this, can ya?

You give me a cure all from New Orleans;
now that's a recipe I sure do need.
Some cider vinegar and some elderberry wine
may cure all your ills, but it can't cure mine.
Your Lou'siana recipes have let me down;
your Lou'siana recipes have surely let me down.
Till the next time we say goodbye,
till the next time we say goodbye,
till the next time that we kiss goodnight,
Till the next time we say goodbye,
till the next time we say goodbye,
I'll be thinking of you,
I'll be thinking of you.
Till the next time that we say good bye
till the next time that we kiss goodnight
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i have been listening to this song all day, and it makes me feel so in it. *sigh* i feel so all alone. i miss my guys so much. i can't wait to feel whole again.

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:: 2005 31 March :: 11.46am

read people i need advice
one minute we are cuddling and the next minute ...he has a crush on someone. someone else. one minute i feel so close to him and the next....ive never wanted to be more far away. its weird...cause he'll put his arm around me and pull me closer and then that same night he says we are never going to be anything. exact words...."if we ever go out...which we probably wont, then well be together a long time." thats all we have more than him and any other girl is what he says. but after that he says "i think im crushing on kim" i say...well okay. i dont get how you are not ready to have something...tell me not to rush things, and then you tell me how you want to be with someone else. shes a bitch. she has a boyfriend, and the way she talks to him its like she doesnt. she tells him they need to hang out and then shell stand him up. and for some reason he likes her. i knew this would happen. when i finally get brave enough to move on hell do something to make me feel like he could like me.....like for instance....well be at a store.....i wont touch him...well just be walking...then hell grab my hand and hold on the rest of the way. i dont get this. at all and i want to stop liking him....more than anything, but everytime i make head way something happense which i guess gives me false hope. I think that we could be so perfect together. id do anything for that chance. but if we do end up together in the end....ill most likely feel as if i was never his first choice and that he was settling for me.

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