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2005 24 March :: 10.59pm
:: Mood: mischievous
:: Music: Bob Segar-- (Give me the) Beat Boys
lets get naked
so, i looked through kid pics today, still getting ready for that openhouse and....
i wish i was still that skinny and cute
and...
i have always been an exhibitionist... go figure
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jus4fun06
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2005 24 March :: 8.15pm
when i woke up, the sun was shining and i was happy. as the sun disappeared and the clouds began to cover... i felt loneliness sink in. i took a shower in the dark. i like taking showers in the dark. maybe its to match the loneliness i feel right now... the sadness. the water was so hott. it felt like it was peircing my skin. it hurt, but i liked the hurt. i miss feeling hurt. pain feels so good. i weighed myself. 121.5 i felt thin today and that was a plus. i was so hungry from track that i ate too much and now i feel so full. so full and fat. work tom. yay.
tonight the moon is full. do you think its telling me something.
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joslyn_julia
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2005 24 March :: 5.41pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: Coldplay-- Clocks
Flippin' A
so i like how people tell you one thing and then post something totally contradictory online, where you are likely to see it.
FUCKERS!!!!
on another note, i am really tired and i don't know why.
and none of my friends seem to care about me and what i want anymore, and i sorta feel like i am not going to have anyone this summer before i leave, which hurts... but i suppose i will live in the end so it doesn't really matter
and apparently i am high maitenence (i totally spelled that wrong)
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blondie17
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2005 24 March :: 12.03pm
last night was interesting! gosh. im so happy. he didnt end up going tojail! we stayed up all night, and then got ready. left for court. ate a donut. went actually to court. he got out with $360 fine. im so happy he didnt leave me for 30 days! um....so anyways. everyone pray for this to end up on my end! hope that he will someday realize he wants me for more.
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Fatman
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2005 24 March :: 12.36am
It's late in the evening
She's wondering what clothes to wear
She puts on her makeup
And brushes her long blonde hair
And the she asks me
Do I look alright
And I say yes
You look wonderful tonight
We go to a party
And everyone turns to see
This beautiful lady
Who's walking around with me
And then she asks me
Do you feel alright
And I say yes,
I feel wonderful tonight
I feel wonderful because I see the love shining in your eyes
And the wonder of it all is that you just don't realize
How much I love you
It's time to go home now
And I've got an aching head
So I give her the car keys
And she helps me to bed
And then I tell her
As I turn out the lights
I say my darling
You are wonderful tonight
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joslyn_julia
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2005 23 March :: 3.50pm
Woohuuu...
i want to dance whenever i look at my icon. lol.
i am soooo tired, and i missed lizzers today. :( Blh. i am trying to catch up on everything since my gpa has been sorta dropping, even though i still try with everything, maybe just not enough because i am bored with it all. oh well spring break is next week.
so apparently jamie wants to bone me or sumthing because he tried to drag me into an office and 'relieve me of my tension'. idk about that whole situation tho.... gotta keep thing strictly business, and i want to have him photograph me so... we will see.
any suggestions?
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blondie17
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2005 23 March :: 11.33am
well i do have a chance with him. down the road though. hes not ready for something with me i guess. i dont get it. he says he wants to get back with his ex. not this most recent one but one before her. god. i told him that it was nice to know that i was his 3rd choice. and he said it wasnt like that. oh well. i told him i could see him going out with me in the future and he said...yah probably. i really hope it will end up like that. i cant wait till he realizes how great this could be. we are writing a song together and we are both singing in it. i think i like it a lot. it sounds so good. my nose hurts really bad. hes comming over after work tonight and spending the night so i can take him to court tomorrow. gosh i know he sounds really naughty, but hes a real sweetheart. gosh i like him a lot. this is going to be a long journey and hopefully i end up on the right path.
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joslyn_julia
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2005 22 March :: 7.53pm
well i am crispy.
i wore a skirt, and got lots of compliments
jamie wanted me to take it off and walk around in my skivies and my thigh highs
and after school i made kells smile.
my day is always made when i can get that kid to smile, because he is only so 'content'.
lol.
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jus4fun06
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2005 22 March :: 7.16pm
curves set things off
sooth the soul
i feel dominated by angles, angles, angles.
screaming conformation
what happened to the curves.
curves that flow.
curves that sooth.
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blondie17
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2005 22 March :: 11.29am
i need to get over him. we are going shopping tonight. i need to not like him anymore. i need to just be a good friend.
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joslyn_julia
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2005 21 March :: 4.21pm
:: Mood: determined
:: Music: Cake-- Love you madly
i have been pretty happy lately, but things have been odd. i um probably got a detention because i was trying to help tanya slim jim her car, and it took the whole class period for us to still not get it done. and then kelly was nice and brought me home....
last night i got grounded. we will see how that works out. lol. me grounded yeah right.
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blondie17
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2005 21 March :: 11.44am
hahahahahahahahahahahah fucking funny. guess im a joke to everyone eh? hahahah
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blondie17
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2005 20 March :: 11.39pm
:: Mood: lonely
:: Music: dashboard confessional
friendless
so yeah. i feel as if i have no real friends. friends i can tell things too. people i can tell whats going on in my life and that let me lean on their shoulder. friends that i talk to everyday that know everything about me. friends that know that i am so depressed right now i think i might have to see somebody. friends that understand the decisions i make and why i make them. people that i have no secrets with. that instead of just being there while i cry are there for me all the time.
people that want to listen to my problems and what is going on in my life as much as im willing to listedn to theirs.
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joslyn_julia
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2005 20 March :: 9.27pm
i was at work for like 13 hours yesterday. my body hurts everywhere from it. and i am soo exhausted.
i was reading esquire and it is flippin awesome, every guy should read it. well not cedar guys because they wouldn't understand it, so every business guy should read it.
also i love nylon magazine
and
I WANT TO LOVE YOU MADLY.... *starts dancing* haha, yeah. my life feels like such a movie. lol
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blondie17
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2005 20 March :: 12.49pm
so i made yet again another mistake. this came to fast. we kissed again and................wow. how great something makes me feel can be killing the person i am feeling it with.
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