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2004 9 December :: 2.25 pm
:: Mood: cranky
ugh! I am having the worst day, and my eyes are practically closing on me, and I have to baby-sit after school, I'm going to live my life baby-sitting I swear, I'm never going to amount to anything, just some freakin nanny or something. A LOSER!! I can't keep doing this, the job search has to begin and I'm on a mission to get outta here. I must do for myself from now on. I'm hating yearbook, and people need to be more indepentdent in there and not so needy!!
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2004 8 December :: 2.23 pm
:: Mood: grumpy
:: Music: Creed~With Arms Wide Open
Yearbook is really ughgughguhgg!!!!!!!!!! I hate it right now!! ugh! I hate everything, why does life have to piss me off so bad?
and I need to hang out with you...just us.....
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2004 6 December :: 1.02 pm
whatever, I'm done. I can't do it alone, and that's exactly what I 'm doing, at least that's what I feel like I'm doing.
And my computer at home is freakin retarded. It will connect to the internet, but won't do anything else, just a blank white screen, and if I try to go to woohu or anywhere else, it says that the site is not available or something gay like that. It pisses me off, and the other day I said that something pissed me off in front of my mom and she like blew a gasket or something. I just yelled at her, nicely, of course, and told her that piss was not a swear word, and it was really weird, but she didn't say anything back to me, she just let it go, just like that. It was nice, like I actually got somewhere with her, and she actually heard me. Heh, who knew. (oh I actually think I said, under my breath, that my dad was pissing me off)
But yeah, my notebook that I carry all around school, is full of notes to you, that you will never get, because I think of all of this stuff to tell you, but then realize that I could never actually tell you any of it, and if I did, you would prolly run for cover and never speak to me again, you would be so freaked out. And it's nothing bad, just intense I guess. Some of it, I don't know, I just can't even explain to myself what I mean, so I don't know how I would ever explain it to you, the one person that it would mean so much to me to understand. Actually, ugh look at me, I'm changing my mind again, I think that you would understand, I'm just not sure anymore, what you think, without talking about it in so long, and having no title to go by, I get confused as to what we are and what we arn't. I can't keep any of it straight, and then sometimes we kiss and sometimes we don't. I understand if it's not the time or place, but when it is, why don't we? I must have done something to make you change your mind about me. And if you read this, don't feel like you have to talk to me about it. Because you don't. I wouldn't know what to say if you did. I would get all flustered and confused and not know what to say, becasue I have no control on the english language and can only sort out my feelings in my head, not ever actually talk about them. But I really should research my current issues crap. I'll prolly write more on this later because it's the only drama my life holds at the moment, well except for that whole thing that dad told me that made me cry to even think about. But I can't talk about it becasue I will cry, it's too scary of a thought to dwell on, but I must move out of my house and get a job as soon as possible.
Anyway...
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2004 2 December :: 12.48 pm
oh wow, I hope things work out, and someday, I'll tell you exactly how it is, and how I want it to be. But right now, I'm too scared, putting yourself out there is the scariest feeling I know, and I'm not willing to do that, especially with the risk of getting hurt. I can't do it again.
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2004 1 December :: 12.33 pm
I have so much to tell you, yes, I do, oh do I ever!! But I can't, sorry. It will never happen unless you initiate it. Sorry. Yep.
Can somebody say...pointless......
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2004 30 November :: 7.29 pm
ok, so I'm at Curcuit City, and they have the freakin internet, it's so cool, I'm just standing in the freakin aisle typing away reading woohu, in the middle of the store. I came with my Aunt and Brett and Troy. Troy's gonna buy a computer and since I was at her house, they invited me, but some store worker guy is staring at me so I'm gonna go.
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2004 30 November :: 12.37 pm
I don't know anymore, I just don't know anything. It's all so perfect but yet, I don't want it to begin or end, no, I defiantly don't want it to end, that's the last thing I want, but whatever. I just really don't know what to do, or say, actually I'm so weak, I would never say anything.
Ok, I'm changing my mind again, I want it to begin.
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2004 29 November :: 1.36 pm
I have a date Thursday night. Everything is good, well..at least when I don't think about everything that isn't good.
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2004 28 November :: 12.10 pm
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: Jen~Jimmy Eat World
I hate not knowing where things are going.
In every aspect of my life.
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2004 24 November :: 10.19 am
:: Mood: stressed
I don't understand.
What else could go wrong?
Why is this happening to me?
What did I do?
Please make it all stop.
This really can't be happening. I have to get it together. I need to move out. SOON! Oh why can't I be on my own already?
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2004 23 November :: 9.23 pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: Shania Twain~From This Moment
You Are the Helper |
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You always put on a happy face and try to help those around you.
You're incredibly empathetic and care about everyone you know.
Able to see the good in others, you're thoughtful, warm, and sincere.
You connect with people who are charming and charismatic.
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2004 22 November :: 4.59 pm
My sister just ate my art project! DARN HER! Why Don't they ask or pay attention!?!? UGH@$#$(*^%*&%^
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2004 22 November :: 11.01 am
Why can't I just be it?
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2004 20 November :: 12.26 am
HE WOOOOOOOOOOONNNN!!!!!!! OH I LOVE HIM!!! It was the best fight I have ever seen, and I think prolly the most rewarding because this was his hardest opponent!!! Oh, I was freakin out!!! I love him!!! I love boxing!!! YEAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
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2004 18 November :: 12.32 pm
Yeah, I love this class, it's not like it's hard or anything, well, it is for some people, but not me, and I love it because I have all of this free time towards the end of the week, because I have my paper done. Yea!! I have learned so much tho, about the presidential election and everything else that we have to debate on, and write papers on, having to research it myself helps me to better understand it all.
What am I going to do tonight? Well see....
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2004 17 November :: 12.41 pm
:: Mood: giddy
oh baby..yes...ohhhh baaabbbyy!!! You are everything.
Remember when we went to Hoffmaster in fifth grade and went swimming in Lake Michigan even tho we weren't supposed to, but it was raining so we did anyway? That was waay fun. Do you remember that? I only think you would if you were in my class, but ya know....
I'm in current issues and our topic this week for our papers was really easy and I have all day in class today and all day in class tomorrow to do it and I was done yesterday. I must type fast or else it was too easy and I did it all wrong...hmmmm....doubtful.....ahahah
I am going to see Scrooge on OPENING NIGHT! oh yes, am I ever excited!
GO D.L.!
So last night was wonderful. And I'm keeping the golf ball for all eternity.
I am now a poker player! I have learned! I'm not quite mastered but I'm getting there!! ahhaaha
and I really have nothing to talk about, I just have nothing else to do so I'm trying to waste class time, maybe I'll go play cards in yahoo or something, maybe not....
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2004 17 November :: 9.24 am
:: Mood: content
Everything is so perfect. I love everything. How is everything everything?
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2004 16 November :: 1.25 pm
:: Mood: gloomy
oooohhh, crapp!
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2004 15 November :: 9.35 pm
:: Mood: giggly
:: Music: When I Think About Cheatin~Gretchen Wilson
wow, it even amazes me about how fast things can turn around, maybe I'm just one of those freaks who thinks everything is wrong, but it's all a big misunderstanding and it was never bad in the first place. ahaha, I hope so, it's always a nice surprise to know that you were wrong, and it's so much better than you thought! ahah, I love it when i feel like this!!
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