:: 2004 30 September :: 10.20 pm
:: Mood: confused

I want this soo bad. so why am I hesitant?

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:: 2004 30 September :: 1.10 pm

Everythings going to be ok

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:: 2004 29 September :: 11.53 am

I hate all of this, and why are you acting like such a bitch lately? I don't get you. I wish everything was perfect. I think you don't realize how mean you really are to people, and everyone is completely right when they say that the world doesn't revolve around you like you seem to think it does. Not everything going on in your life is all that importnat to me. I mean, I do care, I just don't really at the moment. I can't help but think that you use me to get sympathy, and I can't tell you what I really think cuz you get mad so easily. What a sad way to live your life, I think it's time that you grew up and starting acting your age, but I think that you don't even know how to do that because you try so hard to impress people and act like you're better than you are, which you arn't, especially if you keep thinking that way. I don't understand how someone can be so self-centered, and you honestly don't care about anyone but yourself, and you Expect everyone to jump at the chance to be there for you but you don't return the favor. I can't stand that trait in people, you have to be a little bit considerate. And I know that you are going to be so mad at me when you read this but I really don't care because I dont' deserve it, and neither does anyone else. Oh, and this whole me having to beg you to go only once a week and you just expecting me to the rest of the week, isn't going to happen anymore. That's not fair, and if you can't deal with it, then I guess I'm not going. I have a LOT of other people. I have a life outside of you. Not that I don't like you or anything, it just can't be like this anymore, and it's only the fourth week of school. And even when you have a chance to meet new people, oyu don't, you just continue to think you are better and ignore them and pass up chances that you prolly won't get a gain, I mean, I don't know how someone can think so highly of themselves, to actually go around telling other people that you can do better. That just makes you look stuck up and mean. Everyone thinks so. I don't know how they couldn't. I think I need a break.

What would you do oo ooo for a Klondike bar?!

:: 2004 28 September :: 9.50 pm
:: Mood: gloomy

ouch, it hurts bad.

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:: 2004 28 September :: 9.23 pm
:: Mood: crappy
:: Music: Where's The Love

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:: 2004 28 September :: 1.28 pm

I am having a very sarcastic day, so watch out, I hope I don't hurt anyone's feelings. I'm trying to control myself.

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:: 2004 27 September :: 9.54 pm

I'm glad that I was being used to make you feel better.I'm glad that you enjoyed everything that you did to me, at the time I mean, I really hope you wouldn't do it now. Too much has happened and I'm not sure I want to go back. I don't think you could do that to me now anyway, if you could, we weren't as amazing as I thought. But I know we are.

What would you do oo ooo for a Klondike bar?!

:: 2004 26 September :: 9.27 pm

why do I feel like crying all of the sudden?

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:: 2004 26 September :: 12.41 pm

I want to be that kind of girl for once.

What would you do oo ooo for a Klondike bar?!

:: 2004 26 September :: 12.29 pm

it's gonna happen.

What would you do oo ooo for a Klondike bar?!

:: 2004 26 September :: 11.49 am

This is what I call bull shit. I don't want this to happen to me again. Why would I put myself through that. I hope I don't do something I'll regret later, but at the time, I'm sure that won't matter. I don't CARE! I CAN'T!

What would you do oo ooo for a Klondike bar?!

:: 2004 25 September :: 11.42 pm

I am so impressed with you. You went above and beyond my expectations. I'm so proud of you! I love you to death, and don't you ever think any different. Congradulations to everyone in the queen pageant. You all did wonderful, I don't know how the judges ever picked. But anyway, Yeah, I love you.


I think you're going to become something that you never even suspected. But don't let this change your ideas or ways of thinking about anything. I would feel really bad if you went down that path, it worried me when you were talking tonight. But whatever, I'll support you no matter what.


for those who don't know:

Queen: Erika Childs
Court: Becky Visser
Danielle Millering
Lindsey Gates
Jamie Innis

that's all I got
and I know what I think of you now.


This can't happen to me again. I can't let it. It would only hurt me.

What would you do oo ooo for a Klondike bar?!

:: 2004 25 September :: 11.52 am
:: Mood: cheerful

I had such a good night last night. I don't know how it could have been better. And today is going to be just as good, and I cleaned so I feel better about my house!! ahaha! and we're almost done with all of this freakin remodeling. I'm so annoyed by it all. I want it to be done!
AAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
Anyway, good luck tonight Jessie!! I'm cheerin for you! Love to all!!

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:: 2004 24 September :: 4.38 pm

Everything might not be as bad as it seemed at the time. I think everything will be ok. But this can't go on. It's my senior year, and I'm going to live it like I want to. You arn't going to prevent me from doing anything that I WANT to do. I'm my own person, not your person. Thanks for unserstanding. Yeah right!

What would you do oo ooo for a Klondike bar?!

:: 2004 23 September :: 9.31 pm

I never said one word.

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:: 2004 23 September :: 12.41 pm
:: Mood: angry

ok, I really don't know why, I'm the one who is always at fault. Just because she is who she is, doesn't mean that I can't be my own person too. I have things to do. She is not the boss of me, and thankfully she never will be. She should learn to not come running to you everytime she has a problem with me.

You know I'm not going to back down or say sorry. That's not what I do. And no matter what punishment I get for it, it's not gonna happen. So don't even bother giving me that as a ultimatim. I don't care anymore. This whole thing is getting old, and I'm not hurting anybody, that fact of it is that it just annoys you, and you are doing anything in your power to make me stop, and it won't happen. I don't CARE!! and everytime you punish me for it, now, it just annoys me, and makes me want to be a bigger bitch to you. And it makes me more pissed off. I think you would be sorry if something happened to me and your last words to me were "go to your room, I don't wanna look at you the rest of the night" yeah, I remember that stuff. It doesn't feel the greatest to know that you arn't wanted around. And that you just annoy everybody. Well, too bad I guess, I'm not changing for you. And if I continue to get grounded for everything I say, the next time you talk to me, I won't answer, because I only get punished for it. It's sad that you don't want to hear anything that I say, and it doesn't matter because you won't listen anyway. What you say goes, and it doesn't matter if you're wrong. Sure, I can take it for now, but if some random night, I'm not home, don't come looking for me, just be relieved that I'm not there to get yelled at and to make you mad. I'm only good for one reason, obviously, and that's for you to take out your frustration on. She says one little thing to you, and you don't even wait to hear my side of things, you just freak out on me, and when I try to tell you what happened, I get grounded for mouthing off, and every extra o word I say, I get a week added on, yeah, and you wonder why I don't tell you things, or why I lie. If you would only think about it for a second, I really think that you would figure it out, and I also bet that you don't even remember why I'm grounded, I'm sure you know the jist of why, but do you even remember what I said? I don't think so, because if you did, I wouldn't be grounded. I think all of this is retarded and my next step will be something I don't think would look very good for you.I hope you start thinking sbout what I'm saying before you punish me. When you do what you are doing, it doesn't help anyone or anything. It only makes me hate you more, and to be more sarcastic. Which I know you don't deal with well. I think your problem is that nobody has ever stood up to you before and your control freak attitude won't let you accept it. You're used to being in control and even a single step away from that makes you totally crazy. And you think I'm annoying. Try listening to some of the stuff that you yell at me for. I think that you are the only person in the world that yells about them. It makes me laugh, you make me laugh. It used to bother me, but now, I just think you're being more immature than I am. I hope you grow up soon.


Anyway, I just wanted to get that out somehow because if I told you, I would be grounded for the rest of my life, and I want you to know, that you make "coming home" miserable, and the times when you arn't there, are the best. And you should talk to me more often, I wasn't used to it, that's why I didn't think you were talking to me. Ooops! my mistake. But whatever, when I tried to tell you that, I just got another week, so why do I even bother?

What would you do oo ooo for a Klondike bar?!

:: 2004 22 September :: 1.13 pm

why is everything so gay all the time? why can't it just be like it used to be? I don't understand, I need to move on like the rest of the world seems capable of doing.

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:: 2004 21 September :: 12.41 pm

I hope 6th hour surprises me. I need change and something exciting to happen, like making out in the revolving door or something just as risky!!

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:: 2004 20 September :: 6.34 pm
:: Mood: crappy

what the heck? why can't things be like they were before? I hate how they are now. Everything is way too different,and I don't know who my true friends are anymore. I don't know what to do. I guess I never knew.

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:: 2004 20 September :: 2.21 pm

Kourtney!! you need to shut up!!!

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