Shut Up!!! I can't stand you. Dumb Ass. Get the hell away from me!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! Shit!!

Yessss!!!! Me and my dad finally got the tractor tire back on. It's perfect too. Oh, and we cleaned the filter on my dirt bike and put in crank case oil, injector oil, and gas. I'm ready to go jumpin.(not really) I've had my bike for about two years and I still don't have a helmet. I saw an awesome one though when I was getting my stickers. It's only 139.99, or something like that. I'm gettin boots too, it's about time for some new ones. Gosh, I'm such a tomboy, if anyone else knows what I'm talking about, let me know. I gotta go though, cuz the Miss America Pageant is on. HAHAH (tomboy....only sometimes)

I'm going shoppin for Jon's tux tomorrow! I'm so excited!

I don't want to go back to school, only 6 more weeks till summer! I can make it!!
(just gotta keep tellin myself that)



I'm babysitting tonight for Kyla and Austin. Maybe I'll take them to get ice cream or to get a movie or something, anything to pass the time.

I called you a loser because I didn't want to listen to you complain about not having a job when just like the rest of the pathetic teenage population, you have to venture out into the real world to get a job. I have a job and I'm making my own money, I can spend it however I want, I have already paid for my woohu journal and I really don't have any sympathy for those who instead of doing something about it, they complain. Go get a job like all the rest of us have to do. Two dollars isn't that much, and if you really are that pathetic and you can't find two dollars, I'm sure that there is that much sitting in the back of your couch. Oh, and tell me, what exactly am I posing as?

Well, Spring break hasn't been that bad yet. I did stuff the first day and babysat yesterday, then I'm going babysitting tomorrow at 10 am till about 9 pm, it is going to be a long day. I am really looking forward to lunch on friday though! I got new golf shoes and a glove today, it's about time. Tomorrow I'm thinkiing about taking Brittney and Brooklyn bowling. Cuz i don't want to stay home all day with them. Maybe out to lunch too. Still thinking. Well.. when do you really know when you are able to make your own decisions anyway?















I wish I was treated my age, I'm almost 17 and have never even drove to Grand Rapids on my own yet.


























suck

Golf has finally started!!! I have my prom dress too! Prom is on my birthday though and I don't know what all of my friends are doing, I hope I'm not stuck going alone on my birthday, and not going out to dinner because all of my friends will prolly have dates. I'm such a loser.

Spring
It's the first day of spring!!!!!! I'm so happy! I spent the night last night at Dani's with Clemency. It was so much fun. We had this awesome conversation about God and what we believe, it was the coolest conversation that I had ever had, and it was with the coolest guys I have ever met. Wow! What a night, we were up until 4 am talking. Then in the mornign we had breakfast and talked more, and listened to music. It was wonderful! I love their cd too. I am now obsessed. I rode Dani's motor bike to, it was a little too muddy out for such business. I was going to their concert today at 4 but then the strong winds blew a tree down across our driveway. And my parents wern't home so we couldn't get out. Stacey and I pick up everything that we could but we still couldn't go anywhere with a huge tree trunk lying across the driveway. I think I'm going to go see Starsky and Hutch tonight with Jessie Kae, we talked about it yesterday. Well, I guess that's about it for now. I LOVE CLEMENCY!!!

Well, I can't think about it anymore. So I'm not going to.

yesterday
okay, yesterday at school, Vanessa came up to me in the parking lot and confronted me about josh, not good. I love Vanessa and I don't want her mad at me, and she was so pissed. So then I had to go with her to talk to Josh, and he has been trying to get her to like him again since they broke up, but she pretty much told him that she didn't like him anymore, and he should screw himself because there was no chance. I felt so bad because Josh likes her so much, she makes him want to be a better person. Which is exactly what he needs. So then, he was already having a shitty day because Sam was yelling at him all day and so he decieded that he was going to go to a party and get drunk because he didn't care anymore. Which made me worry like crazy all night. But I couldn't have stopped him because he was going to do it no matter what I said. He doesn't think he has anything to be better for now. When me and Josh were together, neither one of us ever even thought of Vanessa, I didn't want to hurt her, and he especially didn't, so we never would have done anything, we didn't really care what Sam thought though. I never regretted any of it, until Vanessa, I think Josh feels the same. I think he was about to break down when she said that she didn't like him. I'm hoping that it was a "not likeing your actions", more than a "not likeing you as a person ever again," because that would seriously kill Josh. I don't know what to do, but last night my cousin Devin got married. The wedding was so awesome! Everybody was dancing and getting drunk, I've never been on a slipperier dancefloor from so much spilled beer, and dropped jello shots! I danced with my cousin Jason, which was fun cuz we never had before, he was a little tipsy too. My five year old cousin Kyla sang rap to the bride and groom, it was soooo cute!!! She was really good. We didn't get home until about 1:30. My family knows how to party!! I wonder how Josh is? I hope he calls me! Gottg go though.

well, it's the day after thanksgiving and I really ate too much. we had my whole family here, so my mom made us clean like mad all week, then i have been babysitting non stop for the past few days. I'm really tired. Then we went to my cousins house untill about ten, and then my cousin Melissa came over and we stayed up talking until about 2:30, then we watched the second Lord Of The Rings DVD. I'm so tired. Now I'm babysitting my five year old cousin, Arlenea. She is in a very good mood and only wants to run around and be loud. I'M SO TIRED!!!!! Gotta Go.