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joslyn_julia

:: 2010 16 March :: 3.58pm

there is something to be said for the fact that everytime i go to write on a friends wall on facebook, not only do i get distracted by looking at other wall posts but then i feel so sad after being distracted that i don't write them anything...
I would say i am crazy, but that probably isn't news
Of course it could be that part of me that wants to have people want to be around me, but whats the sense in that if they all just piss me off or let me down anyways.

I guess I should just stick to reading... at least in books I can't get hurt

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spud

:: 2010 12 March :: 10.41pm

it is a tenuous thread to which we cling.

that thread is the moment. that moment is life. we live in the present tense.

and yet, somehow, none of us is able to quite realize it at the time. you look back and say, "oh yeah, hey - look - we did a thing there just then!" that thing was a moment. a point in time at which you were doing that one thing with those one people. that was a good time. hell, even if it was a bad time, you still remember it. and it is something you share. memories have this unnerving propensity to decay over time. and that decay - that shelf life - is what gives those memories their value. valuable moreso for being unique to the individuals involved, and the lack of likelihood of their passing it on to a second party, and that party's then furthering the cause.

memories die over the ages. it seems sad that we only mourn them post-mortem.

that is why when i die there better be a fuckin' party. because i want the only thing people to be able to remember is that it was a hell of a good time. in homage to a life of good times.

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valoth

:: 2010 12 March :: 2.00am

Portal 2: Please assume the party submission position
Valve, for what they lose in timing, they make up everything in scheming.


Aperture Science is built on three pillars.

Pillar one: Science without results is just witchcraft.
Pillar two: Get results or you're fired.
Pillar three: if you suspect a coworker of bein' a
witch, report them immediately. I cannot stress that enough. Witchcraft will
not be tolerated.


Portal ARG
Assume the following for all collected data:

We are cows
We are going to be in a mouse trap
Computers will be present
Glados will "lol" at us.
We are being watched from a distance, telescope/microscope
We will die
The chicken sees a light bulb
Lab coats are available.
Inertia is reversed.
*Side board: Please contact Aperture Science @(425) 822-5251 [modem number] Please use backup login for further information.

Basically I translate this into: We(player) are cows(player) moving in inertia we cannot comprehend(math probems) because we are not scientists(labcoat.) The trap is set (mouse trap.) We will die(skull) like chickens. If we see whats going to happen it will be too late (light bulb.) Glados(a computer) is watching(scope) and laughing because of this.

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spud

:: 2010 10 March :: 2.34pm

why the fuck don't i have a job?

it might have something to do with the current recession.

or it could just be that i live in michigan, and it snows a lot. i didn't realize that our frequent snowstorms were part of the economic turbulence.

then again, if you follow THEIR snowstorms link, it takes you to a page that references monthly surveys of businesses and households. at which point all of the statistics and graphs and bullshit they can muster don't apply to me, simply because i've lived here for two years and not once have gotten asked by any survey whether or not i am gainfully employed.

i always hated stats. calculus just makes so much more sense.

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m&ms487

:: 2010 9 March :: 9.40pm
:: Mood: accomplished

Spring Break is going well thus far, but seeing how I have to work the next 5 days, I'm not sure it's going to get any better. I had my endoscope on Friday morning (I love starting spring break by getting a camera shoved down my throat). They implanted a device called a Bravo Capsule in my esophagus three inches above my stomach. I carried a companion computer around with me until Sunday morning that gave real time readings of the pH level of my esophagus. I got to record every time I ate and laid down, and they will overlay that with my readings to judge if my reflux is bad enough to warrant surgery. The pH of the stomach is suppose to be fairly acidic (around 3) and the pH of the esophagus is suppose to be fairly neutral (around 7). I had a reflux incident on Saturday afternoon that read at a 1.9 and most of Saturday night I was below a pH of 4. Although the test is done, the capsule will hang around for a couple of weeks until it comes out au naturel. They also did a biopsy of my stomach during the scope because I have gastritis. The leading cause of which is a bacteria which can cause ulcers and ultimately stomach cancer if left untreated.

Before I went on Spring Break I applied and got accepted to present at the Women's Studies Interdisciplinary Round Table on March 15th. I am one of three presenters-of the other two, one is my former Shakespeare Professor (he has a Doctorate in English Literature) and the other is a faculty member at the Clarke Historical Library on campus. It's in the library auditorium which seats about 400 people and is the same place that they had Jennifer Granholm speak the last time she came to campus. My presentation is a Feminist Literary Criticism of Amy Lowell's poem "Patterns" and then an exploration of fashion in 2010. It posits that we need to create a dialogue about current fashion and asks if fashion is either an instrument of repression for women or a tool of freedom of expression and individuality. There will be pictures of Lady Gaga.

I am graduating in December and then on to Graduate School. I got excited today and looked at the Teach for America website. It's something that I really want to do, plus I need some kind of teaching experience if I'm ever going to get a job as a professor at any kind of college, even a community college, which is where I want to be, at least to begin with. I can't wait to get out of Michigan for a while. I want to come back, but I just need to get out and meet other people. I'm looking at a school district in South Dakota that is on a reservation, but it really just depends where I get placed if I get accepted. Things are starting to move, and it's getting exciting!

On a side note, all of my classmates and friends are getting engaged, married, and having babies, and it's scaring the crap out of me. I'm not old enough for this stuff yet!

Also, you should see Alice in Wonderland. It's quite a good film.

Michelle

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joslyn_julia

:: 2010 9 March :: 4.06pm

i love being left out.
go me

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valoth

:: 2010 8 March :: 2.02am

Mathmatical way to find VaLoth!
Math proves VaLoth

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phil-himself

:: 2010 7 March :: 5.30pm

To add to awesome weekend, started the cycle back up today and went for a drive.

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phil-himself

:: 2010 7 March :: 1.27pm

Barricade

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phil-himself

:: 2010 6 March :: 4.00pm

Ford man now, will post later.

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gillette

:: 2010 4 March :: 9.01am

a B+ is NOT that bad jessie. i can come back from this.

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spud

:: 2010 4 March :: 1.01am

so yeah. think i have a cold of some sort. that's pretty bitchin'. shan tomorrow, dad friday, kevie-poo early next week. weekend's pretty open, but the neighbors might be having a fire. that'd be fun. i like fire. and stars.

actually, i made a very important (personally) discovery tonight about the stars that i often look at. if you know the constellations cassiopeia and orion, then you can find what i'm talking about. because right in between them, there is this weird curvy group of stars. these are all visible to the naked eye on a clear night. when i first saw it, i was most struck by its resemblance to a parabolic curve. and ever since then i've wanted to figure out what constellation it is, and if i could find a mathematical equation for the curve that would best fit that group of stars (have them all be on or very near it). i'm lazy so it'll probably never happen. and i'm discouraged by the likelihood that someone else has already beat me to the punch. anyway, i discovered tonight (through the use of these programs) that the stars i was looking at belong primarily to the constellation perseus. obviously, there are some stars of perseus that i have omitted from "my" grouping, and may have stolen one or two from somewhere else, but it's still a cool pattern.

but now i'm pissed because the entire time i was trying to watch for perseid meteors, i had no idea where in the sky to look. i guess now i know for the next time. but it's frustrating that i would have been able to, had i known the name of the constellation i've been looking at for the past couple of years already. but now i do, so there.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2010 2 March :: 4.00pm

If you say "fair-i,ix" or "pacifically" onnnnne mooore timmme. Ugh

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2010 2 March :: 3.54pm

Oh my goodness I wish my teacher could fricken pronounce words like 'pharynx' and 'specifically' and that this school didn't suck so much.

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gillette

:: 2010 27 February :: 2.21pm

i will not let you dictate my happiness anymore. if you want me, fine. if you don't, then leave me the fuck alone.

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phil-himself

:: 2010 25 February :: 2.14pm

It's god damn 2010 and people still don't know how to do the most simple things on their work computers. Now I could understand if you don't use a computer much, but these people, it's a part of their damn jobs. The company gives them these machines that are a part of doing their jobs, they don't know anything about these machines so really they don't know how to do their jobs. Do your damn job.

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gillette

:: 2010 24 February :: 10.37pm

Kevin

I got a few ideas, but I want some more that are implied nude photos.

10:28pmJessie

what do you mean by that, nude but just covered up or something?

10:29pmKevin

yeah

but I want it to seem that me being naked fits, compared to me being naked just to be naked

10:31pmJessie

oic..maybe in a bath tub then

10:32pmKevin

I was thinking shower, me standing under a shower head that's on with me leaning against the wall and one of my legs bent just enough to cover my............you know

10:35pmJessie

yea.that's a good idea.

10:35pmKevin

or me sitting on the side of a bed and the camera being off to the side, making it clearly obvious that i'm naked

10:36pmJessie

yea that;s a good one too

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phil-himself

:: 2010 19 February :: 3.38pm

being able to RDP with DDNS amuses me

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valoth

:: 2010 18 February :: 11.06pm

More carbon and emissions means more heat.
More heat means more melting ice.
More melting ice means more cold water in the ocean.
Heat produces more water in the air system.
More water in the air system means more clouds.
More clouds means more rain.
More rain means cooling air.
Cooling air means snow.
Snow means things are freezing.

Freezing comes after a great warming. This makes plenty of sense!

Why do people insist on saying that heavy snow in Washington DC means global warming is a giant hoax? If anything this is further proof of severe weather in places that shouldnt receive such things. More constant hurricanes, heavy snow in spaces it shouldnt be, warm winters in places it shouldnt be. Cmon.

Im not a conspiracy theory person but seriously this one is a no brainer. This whole thing seems like a very slow process that is playing out as it should and being suprised or skeptic of it is just stupid.

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valoth

:: 2010 18 February :: 3.54am

Wishlist PC
Housing: Antec Nine Hundred Two Black Steel ATX Mid Tower
Storage:Western Digital 500GB 7200 RPM SATA
Mainboard: ASUS M4A78T-E AM3 AMD 790GX HDMI ATX AMD Motherboard
Memory: G.SKILL Trident 4GB 2x2GB DDR3 1600(PC3 12800)
Processor: AMD Phenom II X4 965 Black Edition 3.4GHz Socket AM3 125W Quad-Core
Graphics:XFX Radeon 4890 1GB GDDR5 PCI Express 2.0 x16 (CrossFireX)
PSU:Antec TPQ-850 850W ATX12V CrossFire Ready 80+BRONZE
OS: Windows 7 Home Premium 64-bit OEM

Estimated total cost before tax and shipping: $905

This if my Asus version I have decided upon. Im still working on a Intel chipset version.
With any luck a system like this would leave me able to enjoy things for at least a couple more years. Quad core processing isnt really taken advantage of by much of any gaming company. So really aside from using 2 cores to the maximum and running miscellaneous on the third core I have an entire core to let sit and twiddle its thumbs. Not to mention I can overclock it down the line and push the processor into the 4.0GHz region or higher.

My M2N only allows me to run a x13 multiplier and a 215FSB at max! I was so angry. Which is why I am looking at alternative pc formats with Intel. I hope to find a good board that lets me adjust things more in bios. Maxing me out at 7% is just silly. Not to mention I couldnt change my multiplier.

Ideally on current machine: x15 @ 245 with a yeild of 3675MHZ would be fantastic but I dont have a bloomin clue if the proccesor would run that. I assume it can just fine. Its rated high but bios denies such a drastic change in performance.

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