Faith Isn't Faith Until It's All You're Holding On To.

:: 2009 1 April :: 11.20am

I'm back in Cedar again.... I miss my apartment already.

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:: 2009 30 March :: 1.14am

It's not fair. It's just not fair.

:: 2009 25 March :: 2.04am
:: Music: Brand New

"Jesus Christ"

Jesus Christ, that's a pretty face
The kind you'd find on someone that could save
If they don't put me away
Well, it'll be a miracle

Do you believe you're missing out
That everything good is happening somewhere else?
But with nobody in your bed
The night's hard to get through

And I will die all alone
And when I arrive I won't know anyone

Well, Jesus Christ, I'm alone again
So what did you do those three days you were dead?
'cause this problem's gonna last more than the weekend.

Well, Jesus Christ, I'm not scared to die,
I'm a little bit scared of what comes after
Do I get the gold chariot?
Do I float through the ceiling?

Do I divide and fall apart?
'cause my bright is too slight to hold back all my dark
And the ship went down in sight of land
And at the gates does Thomas ask to see my hands

I know you're coming in the night like a thief
But I've had some time, O Lord, to hone my lying technique
I know you think that I'm someone you can trust
But I'm scared I'll get scared and I swear I'll try to nail you back up

So do you think that we could work out a sign
So I'll know it's you and that it's over so I won't even try

I know you're coming for the people like me
But we all got wood and nails
And we turn out hate in factories
We all got wood and nails
And we sleep inside of this machine

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m&ms487

:: 2009 23 March :: 11.27am
:: Mood: anxious

C'est Lundi.

It's the middle-end half of the semester and I can't wait for summer to get here. I feel like this semester had way more work than any previous semester. I'm writing over 16 papers, having over 15 exams, and over 2000 pages of reading (one being an 800 page novel entitled "Middlemarch"). Add to that the fraternity and working twenty eight hours a week; it's been trying.

I have class in about a half an hour: political science. It's about foreign policy, which is alright, but not my favorite. I get to take the better classes next year.

I figured it out, I only have three more semesters left, so it'll be four and a half years in total. I think I'm going to do an internship, too, since I'll be finished in December and Grad school doesn't start until August. I was thinking about doing an internship in Lansing with a congressman and seeing where that takes me. Lansing is only a fifty mile drive from Mt. Pleasant, and a few day a week wouldn't be that bad. We'll see!

For now, things are going good. I'm able to eat again and that's making me gain weight back...not too much, though. I'm still much more little than I was. C'est la vie!

:: 2009 15 March :: 5.30pm

If anyone knows anyone looking for a high grade paintball gun im selling mine for 400, which is a pretty good deal consdering i had it sold for 550 but my buyer backed out. i need to sell it fast.

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:: 2009 8 March :: 4.03pm

UFC was awesome last night. lots of killer kos. the next 2 are gonna be sweet as hell. anderson defends his belt and goes for a ufc record, 9 consecutive wins in the ufc, which he is still undefeated in. then after that rampage and rashad are gonna fight, which is going to be fantastic.

:: 2009 3 March :: 1.56am

Whoa.... its been a few days
Yawn, i am fuckin tired. I still have enough energy to post though.

MSU has clinched the big ten title and only needs one more win to secure them as the full blown winners. and considering they play indiana (1-15 big ten record, the worst team) next it should be a gravy train to that title. cant wait to get my bracket for march madness, maybe ill actually win some money this year!

When i was making my way home the other night, i saw a car in the cemetary parking lot. this cemetary is only about 200 feet up the road from my house so i was wondering what in the hell they were doing there at 12:30 at night. as i drive by i notice that there is a fucking fire in the cemetary! i go home wait about 10 minutes, and here comes the fire truck roaring by. needless to say didnt appear that much was damaged, but still pretty crazy. i assume it was a pagen sacrifical ritual where a goats blood had been spilled in the hopes someones loved one would return to them. Fucking cultist.

Edit: I got pretty sweet at street fighter 4. pretty dope game. however, if you get pissed off when you lose in fighting games, i suggest getting high before you play. you might want to break a controller otherwise. ^^

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:: 2009 25 February :: 10.58pm

I love pie and I love people who love pie.

:)

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m&ms487

:: 2009 18 February :: 11.42am

So... I'm a lot less grumpy than I was this morning. I finally finished my paper on Structuralism, although it's not a full two pages. I think it'll be fine. Who cares how Torodov uses Saussures concepts in order to analyze narrative plot?!?! Gah.

So, I have to work tonight, still have a few more classes today. I have a french oral exam tomorrow, then I have Literary theory, band, meeting, then I get to sleep in on Friday morning. Woot!

I hope i get my grade back for my political science (foreign policy) exam. I'm not sure how I did.

I'm super busy and I've been grumpy to Rueben. Sorry, dear!

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:: 2009 14 February :: 3.03pm

Im a pill poppin animal
Last night was pretty fun. didnt do that well in madden though. only went 1 - 2 -.- . However i went 39 and 6 in COD4, whatchu know bought the golden uzi? Im so high you couldnt reach me with a fucking antenna

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:: 2009 12 February :: 2.19pm

The "It" Team
MSU - 54
UoM - 42

Ah, the great feeling of success.

m&ms487

:: 2009 10 February :: 3.05pm

Rueben, I'm sitting up at a computer on the fourth floor of the library by the big windows because our phones don't work. Again.

Ahhh. I also forgot my literary theory book. See, I thought I was suppose to write a paper on this horrible forty page article about reader response theory and it turns out it's on the eleven page less scary one that I actually understood, except the only problem is that I didn't bring my book, so I can't do that paper. But, I did do my paper that is due on Friday for my Victorian Literature and Thought class, so I'm a little ahead, but still behind :(

It's super nice out today and I feel like I want to be outside but I'm stuck in here in the library because that's where Rueben knows I will be because our phones don't work because SOMEBODY didn't pay the bill. I guess we probably should have checked that out after what happened last time. Oh well. I think I'll go through and plan my future now. I'm not doing French anymore. Well, I am. I'm in French 102 this semester, but I'm NOT fulfilling my BA requirement and taking a whole nother year of it and killing myself. No siree. So, that means that I'm switching to a Bachelor of Science which won't be quite so bad and I really only have english class, political science classes and three science classes to take for it. Yippee.

AHH. I'm sick, too. bah. I'm feeling better since I wrote my paper and I know that it's fanfuckingtastic. I feel a little crazy right now. AHH. Woohudotcom. bah. Fifty more minutes until Rueben is done with his lab. Then I can go to the store, get my pills, buy some cookies, go home, write my other paper, maybe, go to uband, go to the concert, go home, go to bed, go to class, go to work, go home, go to bed......

:: 2009 5 February :: 4.02pm
:: Music: T.i. - Sitting on top of the world

Phelps.
I think the media needs to get off the back of Phelps. Sure he has a picture of him smoke out of a bong. So the fuck what? Then some shitty police department starts talking about how their going to launch an investigation. On fucking what? Seriously? How the the hell are they going to launch an investigation on him over a PICTURE! for christ sakes for all they know is could have been tabacco in the bong (until phelps spoke publically on the subject). The mother fucker holds the all time gold medals, hes an American hero in millions of peoples eyes and this is the thanks he gets for it? I mean who even knows how long ago the photo was taken? i personally think its all bullshit, and if phelps whats to continue smoke a little bit of pot, fuck it. the mans earned his chance to sit back and fucking relax. Also, nobody bitch about him putting chinas shitty air in his lungs, but he puts a little THC in there and everyone losses their heads. Fuck the media, I support Phelps smoking all the pot he feels the need for. Infact, i want him to make a youtube video with all of his gold medals around his neck, and him just sitting there token. Thats just me though.

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:: 2009 5 February :: 2.52pm

Msu - vs Indiana next, then at Ann arbor to make michigan our bitch. T-Walt is going to make Manny Harris his bitch. Bad year to be a UoM fan. Fuck them though. They fucked college football, and themselves in the ass. Go State!