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2007 17 April :: 5.54pm
Aunt Kim almost had a fatal reaction to her insulin(sp). Thank god for Fernando. If he was being serious with me, I might be looking into a passport and a trip to Kosovo for 6 months. We'll see.
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2007 17 April :: 4.58pm
I'm sitting here, listening to music, burning a purple candle and reading over my term paper for literary analysis [see few posts previous]. I have more papers to write, but I haven't yet. I'm just enjoying playing with my candle wax. It's very soothing. And purple.
I was reading over my paper and thinking about what my professor said to me when I went to his office yesterday. He was telling me about how his wife was in Ohio defending her thesis. He said, "I'm telling you all this only because I have a feeling you will be doing this in the near future."
Doctorate. Getting a Doctorate. That's what he was talking about. Me. Getting a Doctorate. He thinks I could...I will...
I wish I had enough money. I wouldn't hesitate. I just...I don't...I can't. It's not feasible. I have to become a teacher and pay off my debts and become an adult, and, who am I kidding? What you truly want to do is never what you can do. It's what I learned in kindergarten:
No one ever said life had to be fair.
And it's not. We live in a society with a myth that's alive and well that you can work your way up. That may be true, but it's very unlikely. The rest of us just get to sit here, potential wasted, living at the hand of an unfeeling, unjust, and uncaring capitalist society.
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2007 17 April :: 4.19pm
"Sex reminds her of eating spaghetti."
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2007 16 April :: 3.50pm
Fable 2 is going to be amazing.
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2007 15 April :: 10.47pm
For you, darling
Get Your Sexy Name
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2007 15 April :: 3.26am
I think.... nevermind.
edit: This is why I have ice water for blood, and have a hard time opening up.
Fuck it.
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2007 14 April :: 11.57pm
:: Mood: calm
I officially became a brother of Kappa Kappa Psi this afternoon. Now I am an active member. There was lots of cool stuff that happened that I can't talk about, which is a little lonely, but understandable. I know I'm finally around people that understand how I feel about music, and that is the best feeling in the world.
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2007 13 April :: 8.47pm
why do I feel so alone lately? I know it sounds emo but I really do mean it since I have been hanging around 40 feet in the air on a power line the last couple days. If I died would anyone know? No seriously how long would it take for anyone to even find out, it would be the end of the day before my supervisor did if not longer prolly not till the next day when I don't come back or the day after. Then they would have to call my parents if they are even on my emergency contact list. Then who knows rachel is in France and my parents wouldn't know how to get ahold of her and might not even tell her till she got back and everyone else only heres about me if I say it or it goes through the grape vine. Like I said it is a little emo but I really do wonder what if my ladder gave way, or the line snapped, or if there was too much aprerage on the line or a thousand other things like getting in a car accident. I don't know, I just know I feel really alone right now.
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2007 12 April :: 2.11pm
Im so sick of hearing about kids wanting God to be involved in public schools. Go to a fucking private school if you want God to be a part of it. Seperation of church and state, bitch. Isnt EVER going to happen.
BTW, God damnit.
Have a nice day.
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2007 11 April :: 7.02am
I fucking hate this state. They thought that I would really like it if they held 300 dollars worth of checks i sent them anywheres from a week, to a month and a half ago, and cash them all when i had 400 dollars in my checking. YAY. Thank god its fucking pay day.
Drive respon. fee is a total fucking joke. "Hmmm, the states broke. I know, let screw the people even more other then cutting government jobs that dont do us any good."
Burn in hell you fucking bitch. I call first inline to shove a pineapple up her ass when I get there.
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2007 11 April :: 1.44am
:: Mood: cold
The crisp air feels soothing coming through the window this time at night. It penetrates the room with a sense of belonging.
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2007 9 April :: 8.43pm
just in case I didn't mention it I work at Comcast now. I am a technician. Anyway now you know I have been quiet about it for the last month and a half but I figured I mine as well mention it.
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2007 9 April :: 3.36pm
:: Mood: amused
The only way to behave to a woman is to make love to her if she is pretty, and to some one else if she is plain.
-Oscar Wilde From The Importance of Being Earnest
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2007 8 April :: 5.10pm
stupor.
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2007 6 April :: 11.48pm
:: Mood: Feel like putting up my dukes
:: Music: Clutch - 10001110101
FTP - Comment if you know what this means.
*Sigh*
Timmy = New bolt and techna on the way.
E-Cocker = Dont know. You're a moody bitch. Well try putting paint through and seeing what happens.
Celica = Gold digging bitch. 250 bucks last week, 600 bucks in two weeks and you'll be as sexy as ever.
Grey Goose L'Orange = Makes Jay feel good.
Penny Lyane (thats my dogs full name incase your inept(sp lol)) = The shit.
My homeboys = The only reason I am still here.
The Goose b0mbs got me feeling teech.
Maybe two people will get this. R.I.P. to Teech, and Unit.
I guess I'll explain. Way back in the day Bizz found two baby bunnies at Team Alpine (FFS) and he named them Teech and Unit, together you should be able to put that together. They both died liked a week later.
Grey Goose is excellent. Now I know why I paid 30 bucks for it. Its got me feeling human again.
If you dont like me, go fuck yourself.
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