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moomoo

:: 2014 16 April :: 7.19pm

So the wedding went great, no problems the whole day. The wedding was so much fun. So nice to see everyone all together family and friends. Had so much fun dancing. I cant wait to see all my wedding pictures. It was so nice of the photographer to set up a shoot in the hall and from what I have seen you cant even tell. Many pictures to come. The honeymoon so was also very nice. So warm, nice, good food, and great time. Now back to work :(

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skife

:: 2014 14 April :: 9.48pm

things i should be doing right now:

getting ready for bed

things i'm actually doing right now:
my taxes


Procrastination: Hard work might pay off later, being lazy pays off now.

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spud

:: 2014 4 April :: 4.06am

the more things change, the more they stay the same

*greetings from michigan:
my first lengthy stay away from home has come to a close. i haven't touched any alcohol in two weeks. i still don't know what the hell i'm doing with my life. and i already miss tahoe.*

i'm beginning to remember why i really didn't miss having the internet that much.

i don't need to know about your stupid kid, or what you're having for dinner, or the 10 reasons you belong in house baratheon.

i really don't.

the only time i missed it is when there was some silly piece of trivial knowledge that i couldn't remember, or i had to file an important form, or needed to pay a bill.

that's basically it. maybe watch videos, or steal music from somewhere, since i'm online. download shit to make my laptop work when i invariably fuck it up and delete something i wasn't supposed to.

not spend hours poring through meaningless babble about shit that doesn't really matter, in the lives of people who i haven't seen in years, who are only trying to make themselves look as accomplished and successful and happy as they possibly can. apparently it's working, because what started as mild curiosity - purely for the hell of it - proceeded into nostalgia, and eventually progressed to the inevitable "what have i done with my life?!" there are also a few unfortunates thrown in that (i would assume, in the light of those apparent successes) have resorted to more of a cry for help or attention, because they are at least honest about how much life can suck sometimes, combined with buying into everyone else's bullshit.

the sad part is, it is so enticing still. sure, i don't NEED any of this stuff, but why not enjoy some diversions, right? i'll read the entirety of that blog, just because i can. i guess it was marginally entertaining. enriching my life? no. i suppose, if nothing else, it kept me occupied for three hours. and that's something. maybe. i don't know. depends on what your time is worth. and what you choose to spend it on.

time to be more discerning about what it's spent on, rather than finding ways to burn it.

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spinder

:: 2014 6 March :: 6.39pm

Cancer update: Still sucks. Dont get it.
Mortality is an odd concept. When faced with someone you love keeling over it looms large in your mind. It changes alot of how you feel about your own life.

When the protagonist of that story rolls off her death bed and decides to keep living its really a bit jarring. I'm not complaining, its wonderful, but to a certain extent I was very ready to deal with Gloria's death. A lot of mental turmoil goes into preparing for that. For the time being, though, I can continue pretending everyone will continue living forever.

I just realized something while I was typing this. Now I know which of my parents I get my procrastination streak from.

Ahhaha... Dont judge; She'd laugh.

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m&ms487

:: 2014 17 February :: 9.27am
:: Mood: pensive

I'm twenty-six and probably buying a house in a few months.

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sugarjackj

:: 2014 14 February :: 2.32am

I feel like a 16 year old girl again. Not the best time in my life...
The same man keeps breaking my heart time and time again.
I can’t help but always be there for him. I am unable to separate myself from him.

And it’s fucking killing me.

I broke up with my past 3 boyfriends. It just wasn’t right. I know this.
But how am I supposed to move on when I gave my whole heart to someone else?

That’s not fair to the men I am dating. And I know that.

What I don’t know is how to make these feelings stop.

Fuck.
After a year and a half of not being with you, you come back into my life and it’s like I’m unable to function. Paralyzed by your presence.

What the hell is my problem.
Why can’t I just leave you and be on my merry way?

I have to do something but am completely at a stand-still.
I would rather have you in my life than not. Even if it’s just as friends. Because after all, you are my greatest friend.

But emotionally I am a shit show because of it.

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spud

:: 2014 9 February :: 8.11pm

Maybe he tripped and fell on a set of knives

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moomoo

:: 2014 4 February :: 9.55pm

Two months till the wedding. Its so close. Sending invitations this week. So excited for my bridal shower. So excited for our future. Many big things happening this year.

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moomoo

:: 2014 14 January :: 12.12am
:: Mood: frustrated

So things have been going terrible lately. I had a terrible day at work Friday. Don't remember the last time I was yelled at so many times. I just felt completely worthless and could not do anything right. My self esteem was in the toilet by the time I left. I was expecting to get in some kind of trouble today at work, but instead no one said anything. So I guess that's good. Then I wake up Saturday morning ready go to the bridal show to get some last things done for the wedding. Which I feel really behind on and stressed about how much money it cost. The basement flooded. So spent the whole Saturday cleaning up water. So happy for my family and jordans dad and stepmom that spent there whole day helping clean it up. Pretty sure the carpet is ruined though. Good thing my home owners insurance will pay for it but have to pay a 500 deductible. I feel like my house smells so bad. I just cant wait for this to be over. Between this and being screwed by taxes in this house, starting to wonder if I should of moved. I do love this house, but though getting a newer house would be less problems. Just feeling very frustrated. Vent over.

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skife

:: 2013 15 December :: 11.03pm

a friend of mine post this on facebook a few days ago...

i read it and realised that i'm an introvert...
life made alot of sense afterwards.


http://www.buzzfeed.com/erinlarosa/problems-only-introverts-will-understand

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moomoo

:: 2013 15 December :: 2.43pm

4 months till the wedding. So excited for 2014. So many exciting things. Get to marry the love of my life and then try to start a family next summer. Loving our new house. Excited to start the new year.

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skife

:: 2013 3 December :: 8.11pm



every day... i'm miserable.

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rayray

:: 2013 11 November :: 3.12pm

Yesterday, my mom had a heart attack. This morning she had a heart cath, and it showed that she has a small blockage but they aren't doing a stent because it could cause more harm than good. I was told this morning she would be coming home tonight, but by the time I got to class, they decided to keep her for another day. And the cardiologist told her numerous times she needs to quit smoking. So I am hoping that, the heart attack and the fact she has already been told by her doctor that has been treating her for Lupus, is enough to get it in full swing..

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koalalady

:: 2013 9 November :: 6.18pm

Diane: Where's the ding?
Lloyd: It's coming. Any second now. Any second.

*ding*


moomoo

:: 2013 20 September :: 12.15pm

Almost 6 months till the wedding :) Feels more real now that its so close. Excited to go register for gifts next month and send out save the dates. My first set turned out very nice, cant wait to get the second set. Finally got shadow a pool, he is such a spoiled dog. Excited for Red flannel and to see everyone. Very happy with my decision to buy a house back in cedar. I love how quite it is and somehow things just seem cheaper. Loving life :)

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spud

:: 2013 18 September :: 9.01pm

who vs. whom

i am guilty of using who instead of whom often, but not inappropriately using whom. i mostly use it when it's following a preposition. but still. do it for the bourbon. do it for the moustaches.

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m&ms487

:: 2013 15 September :: 8.47pm
:: Music: Man on Fire-Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeros

PhDing and teaching. It involves lots of reading. And grading. Eventually, there will be writing. This year marks my 4th academic publication, and 2014 will hold conference presentations 7-9 at major conferences.

I really hope there will be some semblance of a good job at the end of all of this.

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skife

:: 2013 12 September :: 9.11pm

so, i applied for a job today that required me to write a cover letter.
I've never done that before.
adult decisions.

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skife

:: 2013 9 September :: 9.57pm

went to andy's house tonight, his mom called me earlier today to see if i could come over and get some pictures and videos off an old phone.

it was an interesting expierence. We talked about alot of things, some made me laugh, some made me sad.

Just an interesting expierence all around.

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rayray

:: 2013 2 September :: 9.41am

I started my last fall semester of college last week. So far, I hate it because I have to go to class 3 times a week. But, at least this semester is going to be a breeze compared to next semester.

My mom has lupus, but it's just the horrible rash on her face, no organs are being affected or causing it, yet. She told me that her doctor told her that she HAD to quit smoking, so she is cutting back and going to try the e-cig before she tries chantix. I'm not going to hold my breath. I want to have hope that she will quit smoking and maybe she will even quit drinking or at least cut back tremendously and live a semi-normal life. I'd like to think that at some point in my life, I can go visit her and not wreak of smoke just from sitting on her couch.

My brother had his 6 month check up to see if the cancer is back, and there are signs the cancer has come back, or it's just residue from the hodgkin's that wasn't seen in the last scan. Not sure what's going on, because he hasn't heard from his doctor or had any more tests scheduled.

Reagan so badly wants to go to school, but is too young by a week to start preschool. Preschool that I don't have to pay an arm and a leg for on top of fundraising anyway. I would love for her to go, but I think she will benefit from going to daycare a couple days a week to.

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moomoo

:: 2013 6 August :: 10.52am

Another short work of week again. I could get use to this, too bad its the last one till my wedding. I have been getting lots of stuff done with my wedding, I'm getting more and more excited. Also very excited for our honeymoon. Shadow puppy foot is finally healed. I'm so happy, now he can come camping this weekend. I see a sign already for Halloween city on Alpine. As always excited for Halloween, hopefully someone has a good party.

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m&ms487

:: 2013 31 July :: 3.18pm

We move to Indiana in five days. I start my PhD in two and a half weeks.

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liz

:: 2013 20 July :: 9.58am

In case facebook didn't tell you I'm soo excited about Kelly Clarkson concert tonight! !!!

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moomoo

:: 2013 16 July :: 10.23am

Only 3 more days of work and I'm on vacation. So ready for camping with the family. I wish Jordan could go the whole time, but at least he got some days off. Shadow puppy is going to have so much fun, I cant wait to see if he remembers from last year or not. The zoo was alright on Sunday. Binder is not that big, the best part was feeding the giraffes. The girls had fun though and it was nice to do stuff with Jordan's Family. I got my wedding dress on Saturday and for about half of what I thought it was going to cost. That's one more then I can check of the wedding list. So excited for the future.

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skife

:: 2013 15 July :: 7.43pm

sometimes i'm pissed off and i don't know why.

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spud

:: 2013 9 July :: 9.10pm
:: Mood: content

Lake Tahoe
it's hard to stay mad when you live in paradise.

seriously, i love this place. and it is making me a better person in the process.

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moomoo

:: 2013 7 July :: 11.08am

Finally feeling settled in the new house. We are loving how quite it is up here. We finally got out engagement pictures taken and they turned out great. I will have to buy some new frames for all those pictures. We got so many with the engagement, cant wait to see how much we get for the wedding. We booked out honeymoon last week. Super excited for a nice vacation. This weekend I'm going to get my dress. I feel like I'm starting to get a lot done when it comes to the wedding. It will be here before I know it.

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liz

:: 2013 13 June :: 11.05am

Todays workout kicked my ass. But it feels good to sweat from the side of my boob.

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moomoo

:: 2013 13 June :: 10.46am

Well we finally moved. I'm so excited to be in our new house. It feels huge, but def our grow into house. Now I have to get back to wedding planning. So excited to go get my dress. Looking forward to what the future will hold.

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sugarjackj

:: 2013 5 June :: 8.51pm

You're.

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