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2004 9 September :: 11.55 am
:: Music: the muffled sound of the air conditioner.
Ivan
I am going to be a weather news caster that specializes in hurricane Ivan for the remainder of this week. If the entry is about the hurricane the subject will be Ivan Updates. Post your comments.
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2004 8 September :: 11.12 pm
Okay, i've come to another conclusion. This is the scale on how to rate the excitement, or 'spiciness', or your life or a certain activity. Memorize and use the scale below. It will soon be a standard of measuring things. Trust me.
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2004 8 September :: 3.12 pm
I made a Quiz for you! Take my Quiz! and then Check out the Scoreboard! take that quiz fuckers! (they had no where else to post it)
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2004 8 September :: 9.08 am
This is a survey about not only your OPINIONS on certain issues
but your stances on these issues as well. Feel free to elaborate!
So what is your opinion/stance on or about:
Legalization of hard drugs: mary jane? yes Crack? no
Smoking in public areas: poor puppies!
Animal neglect: your mean
Global warming: kill the cows!
The middle east: fuck that shit....
Politics in the USA: no thanks
Abortion: what did the ancient chinese say about that?
The death penalty: i'll do it! pick me! can i kill them!? yay!
Education system where you live: what education system?
Child abuse: no
Sex scandals in the Catholic church: i'm w/ elise on that one 'all i want is bang bang bang!' can't wait...
De-forestation: is that like cutting some one's balls off? j/p, uhh... as long as the trees aren't in the way of a new chinse buffet!
Oil wars: yay! is that like a mud fight?
Pornography: since this will be read by mixed audiences, my opinion would have to be no opinion
The draft (forced military recruitment): huh?
Cattle feedlots: wtf mates?
Animal rights activists (like PETA): does that stand for people eating tofu all-night?
Lawyers: sure, y not?
Junk food and kids: best thing thats every happened.
Freedom of speech: OMFG! thats my favorite
Freedom of press: free laundry mats?
Sex before marriage: do it again!
Sexism today: wat?
Gay marriages: uhh....
National saftey: is there such a thing?
Anime: sure
The "furry" community: the wat?!
Suicide bombers: ...
Gun control: bang bang bang!
Love: where?!
AIDS: its cuz of black gay people! eww! cooties!
Theater food: never!
Cafeterias: i'll pass
Fast food restaurants: omg, my favorite
Homophobia: silly little boys!
Stricter security in airlines: don't they already have that?
Illegal immigration: huh?
Driver's licenses for illegal immigrants: wat?!
Alcohol: can't wait
Zoos: OMG! i can't wait! can i pet the zebra?
Eating meat: just chicken! fuck the cows...
The current president of the USA: who's that?
Halloween: OMG, i can't wait till halloween horror nights! omg omg omg omg. i'm so excited. who's going w/ we this year?
Feminism: huh?
Utilitarianism: okay, now ur really confusing me. i can't even say that word. god damn.
Mathematics: sure, y not
Organic farming: tastes sooo good
Genetically modifyed food: yea sure
Racism: uhh...i shouldn't say my opinion
Cloning animals: do it again! and agian!
Cloning human beings: omg, clone me first.
Specieism (thinking one species is better than another): like the chinese? no people are better than the chinese...
Use of animals in scientific experimentation: i'll pass
Religion: i can't stand that shit
A country gaining independence through war: sure, wtf, bring it on
War in general: okay
Public schools: schools in general? no
Chronic depression: thats why we should legalize weed! duh
Super computers: can't wait!
Weapons of mass destruction: i am one. tehe.
Violence in schools: okay!
Violence in movies and videogames: i love it!
Sit-down family dinners: they lead to arguments. lets figure out how to sit throught the drive through w/o getting in an argument first. then maybe... just MAYBE we'll move on to sitting at a table
Hospitals: kill the old people, and the stinky people in there
Passing out condoms: huh?
Planned Parenthood: sure
Affirmative action: wat?
Thanks for taking this survey! (it took forever!)
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2004 30 August :: 4.32 pm
:: Music: ::opens itunes::
subject? wtf. no body uses those!
sloppy joes for dinner. i can't wait :-) i love those fuckers. so cheap, yet so pleasing. tee tee why elle bitches. <3 the jes jes 5270185 o yea! today i got my fone fixed. its no longer a vibrator.
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2004 29 August :: 10.28 pm
:: Music: Streichsextett A-dur, Op.48 B80 I-Streichsextette
no subject
you no wat?! my fucking dad was like 'you can't spend the nite cuz i don't want to take you to school' lazy pos. well NEways, i mowed his fucking lawn today to, and it took me 2 hours, i got sunburned. then i had taco bell for dinner. and i did my homework. fucking health teacher has homework for us every night of the week. pos shit fat bastard. ttyl bitches. <3 the jes 3865270185 o yea, i got my fone to work. but that pos won't quit vibrating, so i have to keep the battery out of it until i have to use it, or unless its plugged in. ghetto or wat?
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2004 27 August :: 4.00 pm
:: Music: dimmu borgir
wtf is her problem?
okay so, first period i have orchestra, it was so lame today. like i'm just sick of fat ppl... like he today he had sweat on his shirt where the creases in his rolls are. grody. second is math. damn its so boring, and she's like 'okay wat's this times this children?' and it's like 'god damn! get to the meat!' third/fourth is english/world history block. its a damn long class. other wise its pretty cool. lunch! today at lunch i like walked around and ate a snickers bar and played w/ my new pimp tamagotchis and talked w/ lauren. fifth i have health, not as bad as it originally was. he's still a fat teacher. w/e. well NEways. sixth is spanish, and today we had a test on the alphabet, and like every body was like 'a....b....c....uhh...ch.... ummmmmmmmm.... d?...yea... e....' and so on and i got up their and i like so owned every body. it was so funny. every one's eyes got really big and was like 'whoa..' well i took spanish one last year, so its not to difficult. and last but NOT least is god damn fucking biology. the worst class of the day. she's so old and annoying! FUCK MRS. VON NIEDA!!!!!!!! omg, like its so god damn b o r i n g . . . well to finish up how my day went, my mom picked me up and like she's been driving me crazy. i went to bed on tuesday nite. and sometime in the nite she left and i called her in the morning and she said 'i had to go to the emergency room' and i'm like 'w/e..how the fuck and i'm supposed to get to school?' and she's like 'i called ken (the neighbor) and he said he would take you, call him' so i did and that was the last time i heard from her until thursday after noon. wtf is her problem! she's my fucking mother! why does she think she can just leave me w/o notice for days! wtf!? i'm so pissed. and then she comes back and is like 'your mean to me' and i'm like 'w/e, you diserve every thing you get' fucking i swear to god if she keeps this shit up i'm going to ... i dunno yet. but it won't be pretty. oh yea. last week we got in a fight and i got a big scratch down my face and my eye was slightly bruised. i can't stand her. but there's no way i can go live w/ my dad again. its so depressing over there. i just want my cello. :-) tehe. how nerdy. currently i'm listening to my mom suck up to ppl cuz she wants to get a job over here again. rite now she works in sanford. i just think she's lazy. she says she's looking for a job here cuz she doesn't want to drive there any more but i think it's because she hasn't been to work in two weeks and i think she got fired. fucking peice of shit. O YEA!! then yesterday she had the nerve to tell me everything's been going wrong because of me and that we need counseling together! and i'm like 'wtf!' how does her leaving me for two-three days have to do w/ me the slightest bit? i think she's on drugs. thats wat i think. fer real dawg. well i'm out. later. leave a comment bitches. <3 jes jes
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2004 26 August :: 4.18 pm
:: Music: atreyu-the new cd
uhh... yea school sucks. yea and like. okay, w/e. well this is a lame update. tee tee why elle bitches!!!111!!!111 <3jessie fo bitches!
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2004 13 August :: 10.33 am
:: Music: muh new atreyu cd
am i like totally obsessed? i've listen to the suicide notes and butterfly kisses cd 50 times! and their new cd, the curse, i've had since sunday nite and its already been played 17 times. sweetness.
The Crimson-Atreyu
I feel it welling up inside and Robert Smith lied
Boys do cry and with blood tears in my eyes
I'm an Anne Rice novel come to life
I can't hide the monster anymore
One can only feel desolate for so long
Until one starts to change
Into something the mirror doesn't recognize
I metamorphasize
The darkness has been biding its time
To claim its latest victim
Fresh meat for carnal desires
To become what I became
I viewed the sun for the last time
Will you still hold me when you see what I have done?
Will you still kiss me the same when you taste my victim's blood?
So crimson and red, I feel it flowing from your lips
My heart is dead and so are you
And it pulses through, the desire to change
The desire to deconstruct all of my past failings
But where to begin because when you live in sin
It's hard to look at saints without them
Reflecting their jet black auras back on you
And all I have is hope, my inner burn's not fading
I'll wipe the blood from my cheek and get on with my day
And all I have is hope, and all I need is time
To bury in pine under six feet of time
The lies I told me about myself
Claw my way out, pick the splinters from under my fingernails
I won't lose hope, I won't give in
Just live and breathe and try not to die again
<3 jes jes
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2004 11 August :: 6.22 am
:: Music: atreyu duh
i have a play boy in my room that i'd really like to get out. any one interested? lol. long story. well NEways first couple days of school have sucked so far. yea. very boring. call me later. 3867605822
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2004 9 August :: 5.13 pm
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WARNING | | jessieslifeadayatatime is radioactive. Wear protective clothing at all times. |
From Go-Quiz.com
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2004 7 August :: 8.49 pm
so like thursday i caught the vo to the transfer plaza and like met up w/ ivy and carly there and we came to my house, and we chilled w/ chelsea. and like yea. did crazy stuff. u no... the norm. and like then we walked to the park and to the city center and shit like that. and then ivy left and carly slept over and we woke up and chelsea came over and we made potatos and ham burgers and elise came over and we ate all the brownies and then i went to bealls and bought hott undies and then i went to sally's and bought hair dye and then i went to albertson's and got make-up. :-) yea it was cool. and today i went to blake's. and we partayed like animals. not really. we just layed around. it was coolio. later. <3 jes jes
and OMG i almost forgot, i just ordered chinese food. werd.
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2004 3 August :: 3.04 pm
any one want to come over?...i'm bored. i want to ride the Vo. but i don't no where to. lol. call me or something... 3867605822
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2004 2 August :: 8.59 pm
:: Music: Remenissions-A7X
okay, so rite now i'm just basking in the sun reflected off of Life's shit. Life is being an asshole to me right now. Why do you always have to fuck it up! I think i'm a schitzo. cuz really half the time i don't want to do stupid shit. and then i look back, and i'm like wtf did the other jessie do! o well. live and learn... love me or not. w/e. kiss my ass.
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2004 31 July :: 3.52 pm
:: Music: right side of the bed-atreyu
i went cello shopping today. yea...
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2004 29 July :: 12.11 am
i've been some what depressed. like in a zone. not really 'wanna die' but like my life feels like watery eyes, all glazed over. but after wat happened, i shouldn't be happy anyways. i deserve it after wat i did. so stupid. so now i'm just trying to be a good kid.
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2004 27 July :: 1.37 pm
current.
[ clothes ] black shorts, black hoodie
[ mood ] :-(
[ music ] none
[ taste ] water
[ make-up ] what ever is left over from yesterday
[ hair ] messy
[ annoyance ] my stomach hurts
[ smell ] (stuffy nose)
[ thing I ought to be doing ] sleeping
[ desktop picture ] black
[ book you're reading] shadow of the hegemon
[ cd in cd player] (3 cd's) atreyu a7x korn
[ movie in vcr] badder santa
[ refreshment ] none
[ worry ] fuck, i don't want to get into it
last person.
[ you touched ] chelsea
[ you talked to ] blake's answering machine
[ you hugged ] my mom
[ you instant messaged ] Adam
[ you yelled at ] my mom
[ you kissed ] i don't kiss and tell!
favorite.
[ food ] chinese
[ drink ] water
[ color ] black red pink
[ album ] i dunno
[ shoes ] many
[ candy ] laffy taffy, banana flavor
[ animal ] cat
[ tv show ] Reno 911, The Assistant
[ movie ] Fight Club, Donnie Darko, Blow
[ dance ] wtf?
[ song ] dilated-atreyu
[ vegetable] i don't think i have one
[ fruit ] berries
[ cartoon ] south park
are you.
[ understanding ] sometimes
[ open-minded ] yea, i guess
[ arrogant ] i don't think so
[ insecure ] no
[ hungry ] yea
[ friendly ] if i want to be
[ shy ] not really
[ hyper ] sometimes
[ trusting ] no
Who do you want to
[ kill ] uhh... yea sure
[ slap ] i dunno
[ get really wasted with ] ...:-)
[ get high with ] ....:-)
[ tickle] blake
[ kiss] ...
[ look like ] i dunno
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2004 27 July :: 3.26 am
:: Mood: yucky
wow.
okay so yesterday, which ended 3 hours and 13 minutes ago, sucked total ass. i'm not going to get into it. well NEways, i was catchin the Vo to the mall and like it hit some old lady's car in the ass. yea. and i called my mom and she came and got us and took us the rest of the way there. and like as i was walking to my mom's car. the old lady was like touching her car and was like 'it was a beautiful car' and i was like ' yea that needs a car wash!' lol. it was so funny. and i'm like 'its just cosmetic and it needs a carwash' it was a black toyota solara convertable and needed a carwash, it had water spots. lol. now i'm going to stop talking. i started taking my meds again today. so i think i mite be getting better again. i was starting to go down hill and shit. yea. well NEways. i'm out. later.
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2004 26 July :: 3.03 pm
:: Music: a7x
okay.
i woke up at 130 today. i had fun sleeping in. hehe. now i'm like really bored. and i don't no wat to do. i haven't updated the past couple of days cuz i deleted my cookies and like woohu told me to log in and i forgot my user name...and password. and then i forgot to check my email for the info. lol. i feel stupid. call me. 7605822 <3 jes jes
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2004 22 July :: 6.31 pm
black rasberry custard w/ rasberries on top....mmmm
today i beat another level of zelda and had a hot pocket for breakfast. then i cleaned up a bit and went and had custard at ritter's. it was super good. and now i'm like super bored. and i don't no wat to do. tomorrow nite i mite go glo bowling, if you wanna come give me a ring. <3 jes jes 386.760.5822
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2004 22 July :: 12.50 pm
okay so this morning i woke up and played zelda for an hour. and listened to atreyu. and then like i dunno. now i'm updating this. thats it. later. <3 jes jes
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2004 21 July :: 1.28 pm
last nite i had two chewy bars. they were good. and then its like 115 and i think i'm going to go eat some thing. i haven't eaten yet today....lol. later.
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2004 21 July :: 1.44 am
Disorder Info
Eccentric Personality Disorders: Paranoid, Schizoid, Schizotypal
Individuals with these disorders often appear odd or peculiar.
Paranoid Personality Disorder - individual generally tends to interpret the actions of others as threatening.
Schizoid Personality Disorder - individual generally detached from social relationships, and shows a narrow range of emotional expression in various social settings.
Schizotypal Personality Disorder - individual is uncomfortable in close relationships, has thought or perceptual distortions, and peculiarities of behavior.
Dramatic Personality Disorders: Antisocial, Borderline, Histrionic, and Narcissistic
Individuals with these disorders have intense, unstable emotions, distorted self-perception, and/or behavioral impulsiveness.
Antisocial Personality Disorder - individual shows a pervasive disregard for, and violation of, the rights of others.
Borderline Personality Disorder - individual shows a generalized pattern of instability in interpersonal relationships, self-image, and observable emotions, and significant impulsiveness.
Histrionic Personality Disorder - individual often displays excessive emotionality and attention seeking in various contexts. They tend to overreact to other people, and are often perceived as shallow and self-centered.
Narcissistic Personality Disorder - individual has a grandiose view of themselves, a need for admiration, and a lack of empathy that begins by early adulthood and is present in various situations. These individuals are very demanding in their relationships.
Anxious Personality Disorders: Avoidant, Dependent, Obsessive-Compulsive
Individuals with these disorders often appear anxious or fearful.
Avoidant Personality Disorder - individual is socially inhibited, feels inadequate, and is oversensitive to criticism
Dependent Personality Disorder - individual shows an extreme need to be taken care of that leads to fears of separation, and passive and clinging behavior.
Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder - individual is preoccupied with orderliness, perfectionism, and control at the expense of flexibility, openness, and efficiency.
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2004 21 July :: 1.14 am
:: Music: Good idea......(starts playing atreyu)
Laffy Taffy and Mexicans
So today i went to blake and kyle's. and like i wanted to go to the circle k and like blake couldn't go cuz he was in trouble. so kyle and i went. its like at least 3/4 a mile there and then back. lol. wen we got there i got like two laffy taffys, sobe, and M & M's for my sister. on the way back we stopped and sat on top of this hill and ate all the shit we bought. and then as we were walking back i was feeling hyper and then mexican guy was running and i jumped in front of him and went "BLUWAH!" and he like jumped and then he was like "wat you got a problem!?" and kyle was like "she's weird" and he's like "yea i thought so!" LMAO it was so funny. he fucking tryed to pick a fite w/ me. lol. and then like these black guys were cat calling kyle. (he was carrying my purse) lol. it was great. then wen we got back we were all just chillin and kyle licked me. hehe. i'm out later. <3 jes jes. 760.5822
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2004 20 July :: 2.42 am
:: Music: The Crimson-Atreyu
It's 231 AM
So i'm like hungry rite and i go to the fridge and i get out some whipped cream and frozen berries. and like i don't like strawberries in my berry mix. and like the mix i bought today had strawberries. and thats not cool. so i sucked the whipped cream off of them and put them back in the bowl. will some body call me rite now. i'm bored. i miss evan. 386.547.4861
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2004 19 July :: 11.33 pm
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2004 18 July :: 2.52 pm
so like i'm on the fone and elise goes 'guess wat i'm doing?' and i'm like 'i dunno' 'i'm eating breakfast' and i'm like 'Oh! i forgot.' and it was like 230 and i'm like 'i'm gonna have pizza from last nite.' and then i was like 'but it was out all nite, i don't really care, i'll eat it anyways.' and then i'm like walking around, and then i feel like shit crawling on me and i'm like WTF?! and then i fucking remembered that there are like ants in the house rite now and its gross!! so like i threw the pizza in the box again and turned on the light and was like HOLY SHIT! and i was on speaker at elise's house and like her mom heard and then like now her mom doesn't like me. and i was like totally freaking out. lol. so then i threw the box in the garbage out side. i paid 20 dollars for the mother fucking pizza. and like i had two pieces last nite and now the rest in gone to WASTE AWAY IN THE BIG STINKY GARBAGE W/ ANTS! and now like i have the chills and shit and like i subconsciously think i have ants crawling on me. and its gross still. lol. well thats it. i'm out. later. <3 jes jes
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2004 18 July :: 11.43 am
okay so, i went to my dad's on thursday. everything was so so. the saturday morning comes along and aurora walks in my room and was like 'ur job today is to mow the lawn' i had done it last sunday. and then i'm like 'i don't feel good.' and she's like 'neither do the rest of it. but if you want to live you you have to do your jobs' and the i'm like 'well i only came over to visit just to be nice' and she's like' well to the rest of us its not coming off as nice, mow the lawn.' and i'm like 'i'm not Fucking mowing the lawn.' and she like starts yellin and shit and was like 'give me the fone', cuz i was on the fone, and i'm like 'no' and she came up and took it and turned it off. and then i go 'you bitch!' and she left. and then as i was walking to my bathroom, i saw her and was like, 'physcho bitch' it was great. then my mom came and got me and i went to evan's for a few hours and came home and had pizza and played zelda for 2 hours and watched tv till 4. now i'm like really sleepy still and i don't feel the greatest. o yea, i had this crazy dream last nite. here's how it goes: so i was in the car w/ a bunch of random ppl and i went to this drive through restruant place. but it was like a bbq restruant. and then i pulled up and ordered like a ribs happy meal or something like that w/ a lite beer and i told the drivethrough lady i didn't want to get fat. LMAO it was so funny. and then to pay for it i had to get out of the car (don't ask) and like this hobo guy came up stole a quarter from me. i yelled at him. but i don't no wat i said. okay that was my dream, well i'm going to go now. later. <3 jes jes 386.760.5822
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2004 16 July :: 11.59 am
so yesterday was okay. like i came to my dad's. i haven't spent one nite here all summer. i went roller blading around my neighbor hood twice (4 miles) in 30 minutes. then i came home and jumped in the pool naked and then went in the hot tub and then back in the pool and then in the sauna and then back in the pool. it was awesome. then my dad came home. he's still a bitch face. i tryed to go to sleep like at 10:15 but it was happening. so i looked through magazines. and listened to the avenged sevenfold one and a half times. then i put the atreyu cd in and fell asleep. i woke up at 1130. thats early for me. dammit i am still super bored. later. <3 jes jes. 386.437.3037
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2004 15 July :: 2.03 pm
an X if its true, a _ if its false. add one of your own at the end.
(x) I have never been drunk
(x) I never have smoked pot
(_) I never have kissed a member of the opposite sex
(_) I never have kissed a member of the same sex
(x) I never crashed a friend's car
(x) I have never been to Japan
(_) I have never ridden in a taxi
(_) I never have been in love
(x) I never have had sex
(_) I never have been dumped
(_) I never shoplifted
(x) I never have been fired
(_) I have never cut myself on purpose
(_) I never have been in a fist fight
(_) I never snuck out of my parent's house
(x) I never have been arrested
(_) I never made out with a stranger
(x) I never stole anything from my job
(x) I never celebrated New Year's in Time Square
(x) I never went on a blind date
(_) I never lied to a friend
(x) I never had a crush on a teacher
(x) I never celebrated Mardi-Gras in New Orleans
(x) I never have been to Europe
(_) I never skipped school
(x) I never slept with a co-worker
(x) I never have thrown up in a bar
(x) I never have purposely set myself on fire
(_) I never have eaten sushi
(x) I never have been snowboarding
(_) I never have been happy with myself
(x) I never have met a movie star
(x) I never bungee jumped
(_) I never have been to a rock concert
(x) I never have dated someone for over a year
(_) I never ate a mango
(_) I never killed anyone before (i tryed)
(_) I never went sailing
(_) I have never had a job (does working for my parents count?)
(_) I have never told someone how much they meant to me.
(x) I never have gone sky diving
(x) I never ran outside and danced in the street naked.
(x) I have never had a lesbian/gay close friend.
(x) I have never watched C-SPAN for over an hour.
(_) I have never been out of the country
(x) I have never made out in a carwash.
(x) I have never had cum come out of my nose during a blow job
(_) I have never gone night swimming with a hot person of the opposite sex
(_) I have never eaten peanut butter.
(x) I have never seen Citizen Kane all the way through.
(x) I have never broken a bone.
(x) I have never been able to think of original "I have nevers"
(_) I have never enjoyed eating veal
(x) I have never been whale watching
(_) I have never stayed up until 10 AM listening to music
(_) I have never seen real boobies
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