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:: 2004 7 January :: 11.42 pm

My mom has thoroughly convinced me I am worthless and am not worth the light of day. I do not deserve anything nor will I ever amount to anything. The way it has always been. I might as well stop applying myself...it has no point.

On another note Gwen came over today for speech. We got hardly anything done. But she said my piece made her sad. Good I spose. But not that it matters kuz I am incapable.



The little people ate the dinner that was made, including mine. Now there is no food left in the house. I don't mind I guess. I am too fat. Better not to eat.




Now I should go leave and sleep my pointless life away. It is all I can do.

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:: 2004 6 January :: 6.21 pm
:: Mood: depressed...like usual....
:: Music: IMX

= (
Willy "Wonka" Wallen has cancer! I have been very sad lately. This does not particularly help.....

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:: 2004 6 January :: 1.48 am
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: Proud Family

Really. The stars are ugly.
Well...it is around 2 o' clock. I am WAAAAYYYYYY too awake. Pooey. I just frosted my cake.



HASH(0x872efdc)
Ancient Rome (going old school Hollywood, aren't
we?)


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Today Beth told me my hair makes me look as if I'm sad. I do not think it was my hair....but Beth is a sweetie anyhow. A lot oblivious to life around her, but a sweetie nonetheless.

Barbara was disgusting. SHe had this leather shirt thing that barely covered her and a mesh t shirt see through thingy with a zipper for no reason on top. Then there were "bondage pants" or the cheap Hot Topic style only she buys...it was particularly trashy looking. So bad that it "earned" a placed here. It was funny. Whenever she walked by everyone turned away and covered their eyes. And then the sister complained about the names that had come with it like 'hoe' and 'slut'. I heard more of cheap candy whore, but whatever. I bet she was trying to be "Goffik". Pathetic. Just thoguht I hadda rant about that for a second.








I WISH I COULD SLEEEEEEEEEEP!!!!!!!! ;_;

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:: 2004 5 January :: 10.29 pm
:: Mood: It IS cold out.
:: Music: Spongebob's highly insane stupid laughter.

Well...I just found out I SCARE Alex's gf. I fucking SCARE HER!!!!! I am not a scary person...*whimper* = (



But naps are good. Too bad I was awakened by my intense procrastination of homework. So I drug myself outta here and still have not started it, But that is just who I am. Oh well.


The little girl's fish died!! AHAHAHAHAAHAA!!! She is crying over a dead goldfish. It is pathetic. I can not wait until her stupid stinky g. pig dies....I may not be very nice..but oh well.

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:: 2004 4 January :: 12.54 am
:: Mood: Rather quizzical ^_^
:: Music: over the past 4 hours it has been quite a variety..

Just a few quizzes...^_^
you listion to their voices you long to hear,
yet at the same time their song you fear,
they tell you of a lonesome future as you get near,
but listion closer.......even though what they
speak of is sad,
their voices sound uplifted and glad,
but think, before you get mad,
it is better to of loved and lost.


What do the whispers in the wind tell you?
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I have no freaking clue what that is supposed to mean. But quizzes rock!


piano
Romantic piano concerto--You take advantage of your
full register of emotions, from passionate to
thoughtful to blissful--everything springs from
deep within.


What sort of pre-20th century music are you?
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Your an ice dragon! Congrats! Out of all the
dragons, you are most powerful but do not like
to show it. A rare and special creture, you
have artistic style and are great at expressing
yourself. You think friends and Familly are the
most important, and are a hopeless romantic.
But of course, as ice goes, you can be a little
cold or harsh at times. But not to worry, you
always apoligize later!


What elemental dragon are you?
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Now this is just silly. That is pretty much everything I am not. But oh well.


Wolf in Darkness
You are a lone wolf. You love to be alone without
others to worry about or worry over you. You
find yourself seeking the dark corners, trying
to keep out of everyone else's sight. You truly
believe that silence is golden.


What kind of wolf are you?
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Righto mate.

fgvgghn
witch-- Your unique and different and can be cold
at times. you love freedom and enjoy living
life on the edge


What halloween icon are you???
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Local Punk Band. Get your closest friends together
and put your feelings into some good ole punk
music!! Make it political, make it fictional!
Whatever you do, stay true to yourself!


What kind of band should you belong to?
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PUNK RAWK BABY!!!!!


Tears in Heaven - Eric Clapton
Tears in Heaven - Eric Clapton
Your life is hell, but you still find beauty in
some things.


What Song Are You?
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Most excellent song!



Vampire
You would make a Great Vampire! Bite Me Baby! :[


!!! What should YOU be for Halloween? !!!
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WHOA! It moved! haahaaa! The George Bush one makes me laugh :)

HUNTEREE
You are Hunter Burgan! The Bassist of AFI


!!!!!~**Which member of AFI are you???**~!!!!!!
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Hunter rocks! And I AM a loser! But so what?! ^_^



You're SPORTY SPICE


!!The!!Ultimate!!Spice!!Girls!!Quiz!!
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I used to love them so much....


davey havok
You are that Sorrow-ful Davey Havok of AFI..Ooh..so
beautiful..and just dancing through Sunday.
East Bay Hardcore 4 Life!


!!What Vocalist Are You?!
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Leave me alone...



DAMN I just got disconnected from the internet = ( Oh well. Only about 30 more seconds before I am back to the quizzes...SUCCESS!!!


You are Jareth, the Goblin King!  You're a nasty piece of work who everyone is scared of.  You're also very well endowed and not afraid to show it off!  In another life you could
You are Jareth, the Goblin King! You're a nasty
piece of work who everyone is scared of.
You're also very well endowed and not afraid to
show it off! In another life you could have
been a huge glam rock superstar!


"Which 'Labyrinth' Character are you?"
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Ok. I cheated. But I just LOVE the Bowie! I hadda pick all the 'him' answers! And I am only on the 1200-1299 quizzes(seriously)


Daphne
What scooby doo Character are you??

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Welp...that's just weird. I was told I was Velma by this quiz. Maybe I have a split personality?

You're JOIN THE CLUB!


(Yet another!) What reel big fish song are you!
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RBF rocks!




You're old skool No Doubt! Ska influenced, you have
a funkadelic sound that no other band could
beat.


***Which No Doubt era are you?*** ( DONE!!!!!!)
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frank
frank..your just a sweet tranvestite hunny..and you
love it...you have a certain sexual charm..you
get what you want when you want it..including
sexual things....you have no trouble totally
exploring all the options...mad scientist? no
riff raff did all the work you just pushed him
around...people think you have issues i think
id "do" you


**what rocky horror picture show charcter are you?**
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I KNEW I'd find a RH quiz SOMEWHERE.... and I DO admit I cheated again...but nobody is going to read this far down if they have a life, now are they? ^_^


hello
Hello


*What Song by Evanescence are You?*
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It moves as well! WHOA! That's trippy! Kind of..

davey
*you are...davey havok*
You are a depressed angsty poet. (not that thats a
bad thing.) Your very mysterious and people are
enchanted by that. You prefer no to talk about
your personal life so there are always rumors
circulating about you and your sexuality. You
see beauty in pain and you feel the pain at the
core of your being. You dance in the arms of
misery.


*which member of AFI are you?*
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Righto...Hunter or Davey...well then...


HASH(0x8376f8c)
You are Cecile Caldwell

Shy, irresistible, naive.


*~*What Cruel Intentions Character Are You?*~*
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I like this movie lots. However naive? Not the last time I checked...and irresistable? FUCK no!!!! But it is a good movie....



Columbia Result
Your Columbia! Broken hearted twice. That's okay
your very sexy when your angry.


-Which Character From Rocky Horror Picture Show Are You?-
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Yup. Another one. 'Cept I did not cheat on this one. I just like her most. Awesome, eh?









That is it my friends. I have provided 20 out pf 2900 quizes and 7 hours. And after those 2900 quizzes, my computer started freaking out an acted as if it were about to explode. Oh, and the stupid fucking little people lost my fucking lip post. I have a ball but no post. My lip is more than likely going to close now. Joy.


My brother (in Seattle) just beat these guy's asses. YaY Jason!!!


Happy bday Bailey! And my bro just made a good point...we should go to Warped here then Ozzfest there...Jason lives like ten miles away from where it is held.

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:: 2004 3 January :: 6.19 am
:: Mood: fine
:: Music: Hoobastank...some weird video that I missed the name of.

Cold.
Here is a quiz. I do not necessarily agree with the results but oh well. It is a good song.


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Which AFI song are you?

Quiz brought to you by Davey-Havok.net


Javey(Jade and Davey's relationship thing that doesn't exist) is fucking stupid. I finally took time to check it out and laughed alot. Davey's fan site is stupid. The only good thing on it is this quiz. Simply because I am a quizaholic. This quiz sucked really. Bad choices for answers.

*sigh*

Nope.

EDIT: Damn Quiz won't work. Nor will the fucking link. I got This Time Imperfect. If for some whacked reason you wish to take this, then go to the davey-havok.net or whatever site and search the side bar thing and it is there.

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:: 2004 2 January :: 11.12 pm
:: Mood: cold

The stars are so damn ugly.
I really wish school would never start again. I could probably sleep through all of it and never wake up. If only people would not wake me up.

I have been downloading a bunch of music videos lately. If they only would go faster. I have such a slow connection and it stinks.

I beat my little girl sister half person in Monopoly terribly. I had everything she owned and then some. What great fun, eh?

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:: 2004 1 January :: 8.17 pm
:: Mood: Annoyed and rather sickish
:: Music: stupid people talking...as always..

Another of my stupid dreams nobody will care about.
Last night I dreamed. Hence the title. It was about pretty much everyone I knew. They all were against me and constantly saying mean stuff behind my back. Then it went a level further(farther?) and everyone was plotting in groups the best ways to kill me. I was constantly hiding from everyone in order to save my life. Then I realized I did not care anymore and just sat with a smile on my face and let them all kill me in any way they wanted.


YaY I am such a happy person lately. I very much love my puppy, though. She is cute.

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:: 2004 1 January :: 6.04 am
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: pill talk....I need to take some antacids..

My legs hurt SO fucking bad. Ow. We walked like 76 blocks today, and it is cold. Then I began to feel super sick...stomach acid keeps coming up into my throat. It hurts. I wanna go to bed now....

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:: 2003 31 December :: 2.19 am
:: Mood: numb
:: Music: Warped cd stage 1

Gangs are stupid! Damn they all should die.

18.75 %

My weblog owns 18.75 % of me.
Does your weblog own you?

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:: 2003 29 December :: 9.57 pm
:: Mood: Pissed off...depressed...
:: Music: STUPID FUCKING PEOPLE

I am going to fucking killl the stupid everyone
I'm Tsunami Bomb.
Tsunami Bomb


Which Warped Tour Band Are You?
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I do like them....

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:: 2003 29 December :: 7.07 pm

2 different names, each with a different death
What will your Funeral be like? by rashock
Username
You will die by:Terrible animal attack while you were out hiking in the mountains. Seemed that you made good animal food, definately a closed casket.
Death Date:August 28, 2024
Number attending your funeral?20
How much will you leave to friends and family?$1,903,018
Created with quill18's MemeGen!





What will your Funeral be like? by rashock
Username
You will die by:Your mother warned you not to run around with scissors in your hand. You die by some freak accident. Can't really say it was pretty, your Funeral is a closed casket.
Death Date:April 13, 2034
Number attending your funeral?53
How much will you leave to friends and family?$1,785,285
Created with quill18's MemeGen!

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:: 2003 29 December :: 5.41 pm
:: Mood: dry
:: Music: fast and furious

Do I have to?
On top of sleeping for around 12 hours last night, I had a very unusual dream. It included peopele such as Bailey's gpa and gma(the wardens), this one guyy...I lived with him, but could never remember his face..I rarely saw it and it just slipped from my vision or something.., but then the little people were there, and Raab, and I believe that is about it....

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:: 2003 27 December :: 1.19 am
:: Mood: yuck...nyquil
:: Music: My leg.......always feels...dry...not smooth, not rough...dry.....

Time warp!
My hair! It is ONE color! It has been soooo long.....black....and ONE color!! Before it grew to I believe 4 different shades...and Roxanne's mom pulled back a piece of hair and it was BLONDE...like bright..and then proceeded to dying the rest of my face. Luckily it came off. Thus has to have been one of the most boring entries...HAIR....





We took Nyquil. *sleepy...*....

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:: 2003 26 December :: 8.26 pm
:: Mood: stuffy
:: Music: *smack....chomp...chew..* (Roxanne is eating.)

stupid twats
I got my AFI shirt!!! YaYYY!!! But then there was this chick in the same shirt and her friend laughed stupidly whenever they saw me. It is just SO damn funny nowadays to have the same shirt as someone else in a Hot Topic town/world.

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:: 2003 26 December :: 4.41 am

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Sixth Level of Hell - The City of Dis!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
LevelScore
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)Low
Level 2 (Lustful)Low
Level 3 (Gluttonous)Very High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)High
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)Very High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)Very High
Level 7 (Violent)Very High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)Moderate

Take the Dante's Divine Comedy Inferno Test

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:: 2003 26 December :: 3.51 am
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: *drill* of the popcan in Bailey's hands....

Thanks for the journalness Roxanne :P
DisorderRating
Paranoid:Moderate
Schizoid:Moderate
Schizotypal:Very High
Antisocial:Moderate
Borderline:Very High
Histrionic:Moderate
Narcissistic:Low
Avoidant:Moderate
Dependent:High
Obsessive-Compulsive:Moderate

-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --

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:: 2003 26 December :: 12.58 am
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Bailey talkin to Joe

God damn fuck! I can not sign in to MSN! GRRRR. That's Life. I hate you Nick. But I suppose that's life. For all I know there could be 50 emails for me. But I can not get em. But there wouldn't be because hardly anyone emails me. But that's life.


Bailey has been talking to Joe for a long while now. She is boring me. Joe stinks. Not literally. But I hate that kid. Lots. Byebye for now...and Roxanne..I will call you tommorrow and such as I am here and not at home and ask if you still wanna go to the mall with me....

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:: 2003 24 December :: 10.53 pm
:: Mood: My nose is running
:: Music: A Christmas Story. 24 HOURS WORTH....

Yumm potatoe.
Another happy thought......AFI got #4 on the best of Hard Rock Live!!!! YaYYYYY AFI!!!!!!!!!!!!

...I had something else....I forgot......*shrug*..Oh well.


I remember now!! From my brother, we each get 50 bucks! That is alot for me! That is $200 just on this portion of the family! WoW I will be happy = )





Happiness shortlived. As usual. My mom says I can not stay the night with Roxanne after the holidays. Or ever again. FUCK. I hate her sometimes.

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:: 2003 24 December :: 7.50 pm
:: Mood: frustrated
:: Music: Lizzie maguire!

I got Rocky Horror! I got Rocky Horror! I got Rocky Horror! Who got Rocky Horror? I GOT ROCKY HORROR! I got awesome toe socks. AND ROCKY HORROR!!!!!!!! If I could only find the DAMN REMOTE so I could play with my ROCKY HORROR DVD, then live would be GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *angry face insert*\




FUUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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:: 2003 24 December :: 12.53 am

As I was laying down, I had a sudden flashback of one of my weirder dreams. It was when I was not obsessed with AFI, yet I had dream about them....2 in one night both having to do with flying platform things..The one I flashbacked is when I was a bellboy in a hotel and the elevator flew and there was infinitely many rooms and I lost AFI and I had their bags...I spent the entire dream getting more and more panicky for fear that I was going to be fired....it was weird...


Just thought I would share that with you all.

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:: 2003 23 December :: 5.32 pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: Let's do the time warp again!!!! It's just a jump to the left......

And it's the pelvic thrust that really drives em insaaaaaaane!!!
Green
Your the Green Lady. Not exactly a Fairy, more like
the Gardian of the forest. You care the plants
and belong with the trees. Elegant and
Beautiful. Please vote 'cause I worked so hard
on this!!


Which Beautiful Amy Brown Fairy Are You? (with pretty pics)
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Sweet Transvestite......Don't strung out by the look, Don't judge a book by its cover....I'm not much of a man by the light of day but by night I'm one hell of a lover.....


It is amazing what gets started by the simple muttering of the 7 words: It's just a jump to the left....



Why don't you stay for the night?... Or maybe a bite? I could show you my favorite obssession....

So! Come up to the lab. And seee what's on the slab. I see you shiver w/ antici..................................PATION!


So I'll remove the cords...but NOT THE SYMPTOM!

Well thast was fun. Tata.

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:: 2003 23 December :: 2.43 am
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: There's a light......... To find the truth I've even lied. But down inside I'm Bleeeeding

I am bored. So I dled Rocky Horror songs. Nifty, eh? ^_^ So far I have Science Fiction double feature, There's a light, Sweet Transvestite, Time Warp, Touch me, Meatloaf's song, and Super Heroes. But goddamnit I can not find Super Heroes in my list of songs *angry face insert* and it is my Favorite song! GRRRR


Computer messing up.......


Ok Better. I was nearly about to die due to losing all my death!!! *GASP*!!

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:: 2003 22 December :: 10.10 pm

Though I am not too much of a fan of chocolate :-/......
cho
You're chocolate. You're the old soul type, people
feel that they have known you their entire
life. Many often open up to you for they view
you as thoughtful and trustworthy. Although
people trust you, you have a hard time trusting
them. You prefer to keep your feelings bottled
up inside, or display them very quietly. It is
alright to open up every once in a while.


Which kind of candy are you?
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:: 2003 22 December :: 9.38 pm
:: Mood: bitchy
:: Music: Exsanguiation - guess who sings it.......Now..God Called in Sick Today.

FUCK CJEFKJJFJSDM!!!!!!
My fucking mom is irritating me and putting me in a bad mood. God damn it. And I can not leave today because she hates Roxanne.

I walked very far today. I suppose it was not THAT far,.....but as much as I get out it IS far :P 4 Miles. You determine how UNFAR that is to you : p


I should slap you and your mom Nicko.


I have 3 obsessions: RHPS, AFI, and Pop Rocks!!!!!!! ^_^

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