First Day of School
sucked balls. science was ok...boring and we got homework but ok. I think my science teacher is gay. Math is ok and so is English i spose cept my teacher for english is VERY annoying and i have fifty papers to be signed for math and homework in english. history was quite good. then choir. we have a messed up schedule kuz the orchestra is using the room that period. I had E lunch with roxanne, gwen, and lots of freinds like that. in order to be in choir, i have to change my lunch to c and completely mess my schedule up. i am very happy with e lunch so i guess no choir=(. that would mean i would have NO electives and 2 study halls. in study hall i was so bored i decided i dont even want one study hall. they just suck and are VERY long. i also go from honors math to honors english which is alot of brainwork for 2 periods :-/. so i shall now go to sleep...it will be grand.

I got a doggie pup on right side and a kitty kat on left
I am still working on Grapes of Wrath and school starts in fucking 2 days!!!!! i am on page 520 need like somewhere between 5 and 7 entires and need an essay. I found a great page that Gwen gave me...it has the exact answers to the essays!=b Mishellio needs to resond to me please!!!!!!! I am bored so decided to bore you all with my homework and burdens. Shane just left so now there is nobody on worth talking to. I think they should get smileys for journals. That would be nifty.

im gonna drink me some coffee!!!!!
I had a strange dream this afternoon. It goes as follows.

I was at a Monsters concert in a big arena thing and they had played so I was wallking around. The next band up was AFI. I went to get a good seat and I got the best I could which was with the band completely UNDER me while I sat in the stands. I had a camera and I was taking pictures(that were actually good) and I realized I was almost outta film. I looked and it was only 7 exposure film. Davey was dressed as a Chinese chick and kept changing makeup and outfits every song but it only took him like 5 seconds to do it. Bailey was suddenly there and she offered to go get me more film since it was only 77 cents. She left with this chick and then I found Alysha Hauer and sat with her. I then woke up.


I have not done much of anything AFI related lately. I do not like the number 7. I do not have anything against the number 7. Why is Alysha Hauer in my dreams? Why am I in a questioning mood today? I shall go take shower soon kuz bailey wants me to go with her to get her shirt back from Jana. Love, Peace, and Prosperity to like 2 people that read this, or i spose anyone that does kuz they ARE reading this....

FUCK I AM PROCRASTINATING!!!!!!!SCHOOL STARTS IN 4 DAYS!!!4!!!!!!!!!!!
I went to the Monsters! show on Saturday with Bailey. All of the bands sucked except the Monsters! in my opinion. I didnt like the guy that looked like a Latino popstar wannabe though. The Circle of Glee was gleeful. There were some stupid people sitting in chairs that were not gleeful and should be shot. Roxanne, Raab, Shane, Schylar, Andrew, and Beth were there. They were stupid. I was about to slap somebody on numerous occasions. hmm...wonder who that wouldve been kuz it takes sooo much to guess....Bai and I decorated Shane's car with flowers but I don't think he appreciated it kuz he's and ungrateful fuck. yep. The Monsters farewell show is on the 5th. Everyone should go. They rock. I have to go read GOW now. I have a LARGE amount left =(


EDITING TIME!!! i got sick of typing before. i was kinna stranded at the show after it. we used Scott's cell phone and called but bais ppl would not answer their damn phone. We finally(like ten minutes later) used Jacko's cellphone and called the grandparents and got a ride home. Then we got high and baked cakes for the stepdads bday.

orientation.
i went to bed at like 4 and got up somewhere between 7:30 and 8 so i was in a hyper tired mood and i ended up laughing all through the dudes(class prez maybe?) speech. schylar and bailey have the same pink in their hair. i also laughed at that. i dont have many classes with friends..actually only math with kim and english with gwen. what fun this year will be. i am not sharing a locker with bailey. i dunno if i AM sharin a locker. it's right next to schylars. i gonna try to get outta study hall and i wanna be in drama DAMNIT, but i know that's not possible. ill try for debate. now i want orange ice cream. yuuuummmmmmmmm

Today i scrubbed out.
i just got home kuz Lindsey and Krista came to my house and we went to the mall for a lil while after being at my house shortly. My house is boring. They were cool from what I could tell the lil time i was with em. I hate bbsittin. Krista is quiet. This AFI song is great. Which reminds me that i REELLY need to get STS and such...mainly sts. I have AOD, but it's burned =(. The doggie pup is unusually hyper today. My hands smell good. I put warm vanilla sugar lotion on and it's like the best scent. I Love Lucy is on. Now it's over.





Every body should go to www.woohu.com and find the nifty site that deletes every virus or whatever yoou may have and update periodically...it works great.

yah well so??
"and if i dont make it know that i loved you all along..."

i was thinkin who exactly i could say this for. there is only like four people. i have not felt close to hardly anyone in so long.

then i started thinkin the opposite....who could say that about me? whos life has actually improved since they have known me? who actually thinks of me as a friend? i can think of one person. Bailey. my best friend and the only one i feel actually enjoys me being around. but then again she "loves" so many people. it may be so with tiphani, but i never see her...just imernet contact. i suppose it is better knowing all this...it shall make everythnig so much easier........

WE'RE GONNA DIE!!!but this sucks ass
ok......new york has had a blackout....the entire state and some of the surrounding areas.....by now 25% of it all is fixed but it was out for like 12-13 hours and subways and nuttin would work....ppl gotted stuck in elevators....and i keep tryin to fix my damn computer...i have the worm that is attacking alot of windows xp so if you have one of those beware kuz its gettin all it can...i am very computer illiterate and this is the second time i THINK i have gotten rid of the bug and then my computer tells me it needs to shut down and i get a countdown....i was talkin and suddenly its gone...poo.........

YaYs it was
YaY i listenin to Jacko's radio and it's the Monsters! they are great =D and the bestest montanan band i have heard yet and sad that jacko is going away and the last show is on the 23rd:( but you all should go since it is the last show and all.....


i also have imernet back

i go home in.....like 5 hours!!! no sleep tonight!

If you were any spiffy cool MSI song, you would be
BACKMASK... Congrats.


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nifty......i have been havin troubles doing ANYTHING kuz i keep gettin logged outta stuff and its pissin me off!!!!!

haahaaa...bryce is cool...he has nfg in his lil picy thing....
Oh My GaWtH!!!!I aM So HaRdCoRe aNd PuNk AnD GoTh!!!!!!!!!!!yupyup i am whilest i sit here in my shiny poiple pants with the stars that are totally awesome and listenin to my old ska(its Losing Streak) and wearin my less than jake shirt(ironic..i didnt even notice till now) but omg my shirt is red and black so that makes me all the more goth!!! and readin Grapes Of Wrath...and fuck i gotta hurry with that im on page 34 of 581 and i have like 2 weeks to get it done:( i am SUCH a fuckin procrastinator*tear* and i dunno if i posted this b4 but i got my warped pics back and was VERY disappointed kuz hardly any of my live pics turned out kuz i am short and kept gettin pushed so i just put the camera over my head and clicked..it sucked..pics that DID turn out(not live)....lars from rancid....tim from rancid(i gotted there autographs)...half of lars from rancids face...jacko(he has coool clouds in the background also)....hairy andrew and jeanine(i swear andrew like stalks us or sumtin..i see him EVERYWHERE)...bailey and deejay....and carl(the dude that was sposed to be a fatherly figure e_e)and the best BY FAR....a pic of me and the lead singer dude from less than jake(i also got autograph)...damn...today seems to be a less than jake day^_^..i spose ill leav u all with sum great (less than jake) lyrics


107(im only puttin a verse or so so as not to bore u thoroughly=))
Unless you could see inside my head,
You couldn't possibly understand
I'm happier when things are falling apart at the seems
And you'd never know just by looking at me

And i'm strung out on the future
And burnt out on the past
Sometimes i'd rather just burn this place right to the ground


ask the magic 8 ball(cool ass beat)
What the fuck
The fuck have i become
I've become the product of the sum
Caught in an endless circle
I've become the stupidest man in the world
"chalk another one up to experience"
Y'know it doesn't make any sense
To do it all over again
And then again
Then do it all over again


bye bye all u hardcore rebels:)

WTF!?!?!??
http://www.godhatesfags.com/main/index.html

what a terrible site........no wonder i dont believe in God.....even tho it was at an antiflag site still......damn...go to purpose page

its 3 30 in the mornin and i am updattin and cant type worth shit
i REELLY feel like goin and makin out with a chick or watchin too guys make out or SUMTIN........any of u guys wanna volunteer?!!??!=D=Dill be happy...........i havent been happy for a while and i wanna be......any chicks wanna make out with me?!?!?=D






CHANGE OF SUBJECT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AFI is comin to montana!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!well not for sure but there is an EXCELLENT chance they are=D=D=D=D^_^ aaaaaa wtf was thast!?!?!??!?!??!?!?!?!??!?!??!?!?!?thundr maybe i dunno but skurreed now yes very very!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it was a rumble/vibration and i have headphones on and i still heard it aaaaaa........but afi may come with pennywise or so a source tells me

meatloaf(not food dipshits)
he is SUCH a horndog...when he will do anything for love..is he meaning LOVE or SEX???he sounds like its sex....he is a great musician tho....very catchy 10 minite songs he does have...*kuz we were barely 17 and we were barely dressed*then there is orgasmic almost sounds and the announcer like at a baseball game with bases and all *did that hurt u?*he cant even think if he really loves her until they fuck..i luv meatloaf..........*i will luv u til the end of time* prayin for the end of time so i can end my time with u.....* pure genius=D

no need for one
somebody fucking stole my damn razor!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i was soo fucking pissed and that did not help fucking matters at all. last night i kept tellin random ppl to fuck off and if any of u were one of the ppl i did that to dont take offense and hate me or anything even tho u prolly will any how but fuck i am soo fucking pissed and it doesnt help that they keep walkin in and openin the door and walking away or try to deliberately piss me off

lil fuckers!!!!!!!
they are:
An inside out vagina dipped in crisco
faglilies
cockmittens(thanx shane)
assmonkies
buttfuckdicksucks
chicken mcpickle
pricks dicks penises and pussies
monkeyfuckers
anal kunt
dousche bag
asshole/ass
bitch
fuckernut
nimrod
dickanus/bitchanus
whore/slut
cocksmoker
idiot stick
Dorkus Malorkus
dickbag
dicklord
whorebag


and..once again i lost my train of thought....anyone wanna add to my list?

This is not usually what i look for in a guy/girl...but whatever the quiz says i spose

You should be dating a Pisces.
19 February - 20 March
Your mate is loving and caring, trusting and
hospitable, and romantic. Though he/she can be
self-pitying, temperamental or dependent, the
fishes are quite romantic in bed.


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the lil ppl get a fucking bday party. 2 in fact. one up here and one at home. i did not get one. i didnt clean the house to my mothers requirements so there for i do not deserve a bday party. typical. me and her got into an argument today and my lil bro was "standin up for me" but the parental unit would not have it so he had to "butt out now" and she would not hear of any way but her own...blah blah....all the regular stuff...cept i cant leave.





the insanity begins

screw u leave me alone!!!!!!!asshole

Visionary, revolutionary, vigilante - these descriptions all fit you well. You are thoroughly disgusted with society and humanity as a whole, and you have several rather diabolical plans to reshape it to fit your designs. You're probably a loner, and most people think you're crazy. That's just because they don't understand, though, and you'll show them someday anyway. Heh heh heh. You are known to become very passionate about many causes, have torrid love affairs, and be seen as a either a demagogue or a hero to the proletariat masses.

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Trallalalalalalalllaaaaaaaaaaa
la dee da dee da dee daaaaaaaaaaa!!! anyhow,....this is a poem me and tiph put our brainpower together to write...not completely done yet but o well who gives a fuck

I shall drown u in my tears
Suffocate u in my hate
I'll strangle u with my fears
dont try to change now, you're already too late

now the trust is gone
for now i can see
your ignorance, disblief
all strains of your conterfeit personality

for these emotions are vindictive
scratching at the walls of my soul
begging to be freed
their strength i no longer control

my dove of compassion is dead
now completely im desensitized
never to feel again
for the lies in your eyes

i shall drown you in my tears
the hate will pour like rain
to smother your stupid little world
so i'll be free once again




ya know what??? itd be cool to make this into a song.....too bad its not gonna happen kuz why in the fuck would i need a song!??!?! and i have no musical abilities so yah guess that sucks!!! o well!!!!!!!!! doo be doo be dooooo dobedobe do be do be doooooooo!!!!!!!!

DEATH.....just another part of life
*and if i dont make it know that i loved u all along just like sunny days that we ignored because were all dumb and jaded*

i was thinkin about stuff and i have my suicide/funeral song..i spose i have for quite a while now...and that got me thinkin...what would my funeral be like for when i do commit suicide?

*walked around my good intentions and found that there were none*


it will prolly be very small and i dont know where and i know who will be there and for what reasons and who would actually sad

*then a phone call made me realize im wrong*


who i would dedicate my song to...nobody has actually wanted to think...

*and if i dont make it know that i loved u all along*

why do i even attempt to bore ppl with my life? they shall not have to be bored with my death kuz if they are(i know who they will be) they just pay no attention...no harm done there...

*and i hope to god i figure out whats wrong*

its kinna like i saw it all like i was ghostlike and nobody could see me but i could see them all and i know my mom would be more ashamed than anything of me kuz suicide is a sin so she cant let anybody know the truth



i have to go now i cant type

im leavin in 2 days *cries*

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they are all fucking brainwashed and refuse to see it any other way!!!!!!
i found lots of evidence supporting how pentagrams are not evil and my mom got a dictionary but my evidence overuled hers and it even said how it was at one time used to represent christ's five wounds!but noooo...she then had nothing to say cept it was all a trick and how satanic i am kuz i wear it and when i asked her in the beginnin she didnt have any reason at all as to why it was evil in the first place. i am now very pissed at any christian wanting to object for no apparent reason kuz my mom made me mad and i have a tendency to take it out on any body and everybody. i am sooo pissed grr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!





ALSO she made me put on clothes today...i have walked around in a towel or nakee for the past 2 days and i was enjoying it greatly...i have no REASON to put on clothes so i was pissed again/more