Yesterday was probably one of the worst days I have had in a long time.
I managed to lock my keys in my car in the ghetto.
And apparently my body felt it neccessary to breakdown at that moment, because I balled my eyes out.
Crying in public, not my thing.
My way to work...now that was a bit of a nightmare. So many heros on the road. Thought they could drive like they weren't going to get into an accident. There were 3 fender benders, 2 slide offs, and one that was an idiot and somehow crashed into nothing, but yet, it's back in was smashed in.
It just amazes me how many people decide that they need to shop on a day where it's shitty out. There's no point.
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2009 20 February :: 12.16pm
:: Mood: contemplative
why??
-because for people like you and me, there are no real friends.
there are no perfect relationships.
and there are no right decisions.
-because there is not a good enough reason not to.
there is no eternal bliss and there is no perpetual punishment.
-because there is never happiness on the other side.
there are only fantasies that fit well inside your mind and never come to fruition.
-because we must fight off our demons every single day just to be happy.
and things weren't the way we thought they would be.
-because i'm trying, i really am.
and when i smile it's real, and when i hurt it isn't.
-because people like you and me, we need each other.
just to stay alive, and just to feel less alone.
-because there is no such thing as loneliness
there is nothing to keep us here and nothing to make us go.
every place is my prison.
and it always ends like this.
I run myself into the ground everyday with school, homework, work, the horses, my social life (the little one I have) and so on and so forth but when I come home at night I have happy boys, and Sierra, with kittens swarming at my feet and wonderful boy that adores me. Life is chaotic by I love every minute of it.
Sunday sunday sunday
Let's see...Went to the movies Sunday night. Went to see Friday the 13th. It was pretty kick ass. Anyways, after the movie, we start walking down the hallway and these 2 guys start fighting. One was punching the other in the head. Then they were on the ground fighting. There was this one chick who thought she was a fucking hero and could break them up. Next thing you know, usher of the month comes running down the hallway and starts to break them up by telling them if they don't quit, he was going to call the cops. Highlite of my night.
This semester I need 11 credits. I am taking 12 to be full time. I only have one required course left. It is, of course, the one course I cannot be on time to, ever attend or do the homework for.
I am hoping I snap out of this soon. This weekend I need to finish up my incompletes from last semester so I can get out of here on time. I also need to CLEP my French credits still.
its amazing how quickly things go, like i have felt sick all of the last two days, every time i eat i get sick to my stomach no matter what i eat. and working at taco hell doesnt help.
TJ is being so good right now. its amazing what being preggo can accomplish he now helps with all the cleaning and such. its like a little blessing.
still sittin here waiting for my taxes. after almost 3 weeks i would think they would be here since i had them direct deposited. but once we do get them i finally get to get my new computer!!! yaya
life has many changes
so, after just a short 6 months or being married im already pregnant! that sounded bad but its really not. We honestly didnt want to be pregnant yet but im soooo happy its crazy. i prayed all night that god will give me strength and i feel that this is right. its all nuts and crazy and i dont make any sense right now but who the hell cares!
in other news TACO HELL isnt really that bad i just have to deal with alot of redneck fuckers who are horrible racist and sexist. and the sadest part is my boss is in on it. but i plan to change all of that or at least try my hardest.