so this is me wanting to cry because i just saw a picture of him and i am thinking of everything he said to me this morning and how much i wish that i was in his arms right now. and how much i know that i don't ever want to lose him, but also knowing that i hopefully never will.
then hoping that he doesn't see this, because i know he read about everything else on here last night, and he knows how i feel. but it is more of a feeling that i am afraid of. Anyways, i know that when i see him at thanksgiving i am going to hold him so close and kiss him and even if he starts to undress me right there in front of the baggage claim, i will be the fucking happiest person alive; just because i am with him. *sigh*

now to sweet dreams and hopefully a very restfull sleep because i am modeling tomorrow.

I don't need a coin operated boy...
Josie || that was the dumbest thing i've done by a long shot... i have been crying all afternoon says:
hey
Josie || that was the dumbest thing i've done by a long shot... i have been crying all afternoon says:
i was wrong
Josie || Baby you're all i need, honey that's no lie says:
i don't want to lose you

You have just sent a Nudge!

mephyt says:
you haven't lost me
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Josie || Baby you're all i need, honey that's no lie says:
i am just afraid that i am going to fall for you
Josie || Baby you're all i need, honey that's no lie says:
and i don't want to get hurt again
mephyt says:
=]
Josie || Baby you're all i need, honey that's no lie says:
and i miss you so much
mephyt says:
not much to miss
Josie || Baby you're all i need, honey that's no lie says:
says you
Josie || Baby you're all i need, honey that's no lie says:
alot to miss says me
Josie || Baby you're all i need, honey that's no lie says:
according to lever there are 2000 parts that i miss. not to mention your personality and the way you are around me
mephyt says:
aww
Josie || Baby you're all i need, honey that's no lie says:
i could say the same thing you know. there's no reason that anyone could miss me but for some reason they always do
Josie || Baby you're all i need, honey that's no lie says:
and what i said is the truth
Josie || Baby you're all i need, honey that's no lie says:
i go to sleep wishing you were there, i wish i could kiss you and i wish that i could give you massages. and that's what tears me apart
Josie || Baby you're all i need, honey that's no lie says:
my dad just asked if i was typing a suicide note
mephyt says:
what?
Josie || Baby you're all i need, honey that's no lie says:
b/c i was typing
mephyt says:
thats damn shitty =/
Josie || Baby you're all i need, honey that's no lie says:
and he didn't know i was talking to you
Josie || Baby you're all i need, honey that's no lie says:
and i have been crying since the last time i talked to you
mephyt says:
why?
mephyt says:
just relax
mephyt says:
life will be ok
Josie || Baby you're all i need, honey that's no lie says:
i feel better now that i am talking to you but i was freaking out b/c i was afraid that i just pushed you away
mephyt says:
why would you have pushed me away?
mephyt says:
hold on just one sec, i have to find a copy of xp pro
Josie || Baby you're all i need, honey that's no lie says:
k
mephyt says:
just got my notebool
mephyt says:
er, notebook
Josie || Baby you're all i need, honey that's no lie says:
yay
mephyt says:
paid about 1.5k
mephyt says:
heh
Josie || Baby you're all i need, honey that's no lie says:
fun fun
mephyt says:
oh yeah
mephyt says:
it's dead sexy though
Josie || romeo had juliette and juliette had her romeo says:
i bet
Josie || romeo had juliette and juliette had her romeo says:
just like you
mephyt says:
only have 275 available total for expenditures now for the next two weeks
mephyt says:
=/
Josie || romeo had juliette and juliette had her romeo says:
what that?
Josie || romeo had juliette and juliette had her romeo says:
oh 275$
mephyt says:
yeah
Josie || romeo had juliette and juliette had her romeo says:
ic
mephyt says:
installing xp to the notebook
mephyt says:
i hate manufacturer installs
mephyt says:
heh
Josie || romeo had juliette and juliette had her romeo says:
but at least you can be sexy with your sexy notebook
Josie || romeo had juliette and juliette had her romeo says:
lol
mephyt says:
hah! exactly
Josie || romeo had juliette and juliette had her romeo says:
i still get to be not sexy
mephyt says:
aww
mephyt says:
you are too sexy
Josie || romeo had juliette and juliette had her romeo says:
thanks for the gratification on that
Josie || romeo had juliette and juliette had her romeo says:
aww
mephyt says:
hehe
Josie || romeo had juliette and juliette had her romeo says:
not sexy enough for you tho
mephyt says:
!!!
mephyt says:
grr. you're hot, chicka
mephyt says:
shaddup ;)
Josie || romeo had juliette and juliette had her romeo says:
make me....
mephyt says:
:P
Josie || romeo had juliette and juliette had her romeo says:
;)
Josie || romeo had juliette and juliette had her romeo says:
i like it when you shut me up....
mephyt says:
hehe
Josie || romeo had juliette and juliette had her romeo says:
i have to go buy grocery's tho
Josie || romeo had juliette and juliette had her romeo says:
have you looked into me coming to see you?
mephyt says:
i checked up on my miles, have about 2k so far
Josie || romeo had juliette and juliette had her romeo says:
idk what that means.
mephyt says:
in a month i should be able to fly you back and forth from anywhere in the us for pretty much free
Josie || romeo had juliette and juliette had her romeo says:
lol
Josie || romeo had juliette and juliette had her romeo says:
well, i was going to tell you that if you don't come home for thanksgiving i should just go and spend it with you where ever you are
mephyt says:
works for me, i'll be in an apartment by then, and have my own room
mephyt says:
would be grand
Josie || romeo had juliette and juliette had her romeo says:
woohu
Josie || romeo had juliette and juliette had her romeo says:
i got my phone # to my dorm, but i will give it to ya later
mephyt says:
ok
mephyt says:
i'll brb, need a smoke and some mountain dw
mephyt says:
er, dew
Josie || romeo had juliette and juliette had her romeo says:
if you are in kenosha tho... my room is in denhart hall
mephyt says:
cool
Josie || romeo had juliette and juliette had her romeo says:
i have to go get grocery.s ttyl
mephyt says:
later
mephyt says:
feel better!
Josie || romeo had juliette and juliette had her romeo says:
i do
mephyt says:
:D
Josie || romeo had juliette and juliette had her romeo says:
*kisses your cheek*
Josie || romeo had juliette and juliette had her romeo says:
i miss you kid
mephyt says:
ditto, young one