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2005 4 July :: 1.09 pm
so out of boredom, i will sleep all day.
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2005 4 July :: 9.51 am
:: Music: the good that won't come out of me
i feel sick to my stomach. i am becoming numb to the fact that mike is gone, and that we can never reach eachother. The hardest thing is knowing that he is probably, no he is having sex with other people. It's not something that is a set fact, but i can feel it. Trisha wants me to hook up with this guy Skyler but i really only like him as a friend. I don't want to get into something else, mostly because i don't feel like dealing with the whole leaving situation again. Plus, i do care about mike, so i really want to see him and probably be with him again in august and at christmas and so on. you know? There's an attachment that i just can't break. I wish that he felt the same about me.
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2005 3 July :: 4.09 pm
:: Music: Kaiser Chiefs- Everyday I love you less and less
Juliette wanted Romeo
Leave it to him, i gave up. didn't care and was ready to drop it all, and out of the blue he texts me to say that he just found his phone.
And once again i crave old spice and want to be in omaha.
Damn him
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2005 3 July :: 6.42 am
is it wierd to turn your air conditioning on to make it really cold, just so you can sleep with a comforter?
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2005 30 June :: 11.02 pm
romeo has juliette
and
juliette has romeo
mike has omaha
and
i have my room, to listen to music and miss him
dammit. i need to forget it all
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2005 27 June :: 5.17 pm
:: Music: The Beatles-- Here Comes the Sun
One Fine Day
Today was pretty good, i guess. i mean it could have been better but the things to make it better are far away (litterally, i mean like states away). Anyways, i got out of work early because we were dead, my new store manager kinda asked me not to leave, and i got to swim. I mean not swim but lay around on a raft and bask in the sun, while thinking of people and how i wished someone was here to swim with me.
also, my parents are going away for the weekend, and i have to stay home alone. goodie... this is why i wish mike was still here... because he could have come over and i stayed the night-- and i could have woke up in his arms. that would have been nice. But, yeah. I am single and ready to sleep (seriously sleep, you perv).
love ya,
josie
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2005 23 June :: 11.12 pm
no more games, this is it
nobody sees when you are lying in your bed, and i want to crawl in with you but i cry instead....
i want your warmth but it will only make me colder when it's over, so i can't tonight....
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2005 23 June :: 11.10 pm
Your Deadly Sins
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Wrath: 100%
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Lust: 60%
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Envy: 20%
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Greed: 20%
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Pride: 20%
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Sloth: 20%
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Gluttony: 0%
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Chance You'll Go to Hell: 34%
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You will die, after conquering the world as an evil dictator. |
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2005 23 June :: 11.04 pm
so i should really stop watching any movie with john cusack in it because it is almost all the same. i am a dork. i keep walking into getting myself hurt and once again, i am alone.
also, apparently i am an attention whore... you know why? because i am afraid to be alone. Fucking MIKE....grrrrr. die
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2005 22 June :: 10.48 pm
oh micheal, don't be upset with me. i really like you and now you are being all pissy because i have friends who are guys. please, if you care so much...(i know you do, i can tell by the way you acted today) just trust me. i don't know how else to say it, you are all that i want
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2005 22 June :: 11.02 am
:: Music: The Arcade Fire- Tunnels
i am letting go. i will let this happen. i told my mom that i want to stay with him before school starts. i think she was taken back but she didn't protest. if this is meant to be, i hope it happens.
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2005 21 June :: 7.37 pm
watch out mikey
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2005 21 June :: 7.33 pm
everything was soo good and now here i am afraid again. i am too scared to be alone. i like his hot breath on my neck and the way i make him smile when i am dancing to silence.
why does this have to happen, take me to omaha dammit. i don't want to be alone
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2005 19 June :: 10.35 pm
:: Music: Sheryl Crow-- Sweet Child of Mine
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2005 19 June :: 8.19 pm
:: Mood: contemplative
i think i am allergic to spermacide.
fuck.
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