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2003 5 August :: 10.34 pm
So i have an interveiw at KFC on Friday. Woohu. I'm gonna gets me a job(her her).
J/K
but yeah it'd be cool if i did get the job since that guy from hungry howies never called since i got back. Oh well. Not sure i could handle working w/ jessa and kevin anyways.
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2003 4 August :: 11.56 am
:: Mood: sleepy
for anyone who cares i am once again, single.
But i am very interested in this polish exchange student in grand rapids. He's really nice, and i just like him alot.
on other notes have you ever been tired just b/c you have no reason to be awake. That's me right now. No guy, all my friends are working and i want to go talk to lucas. oh well. I have to put in a job ap. to KFC/A&W today. PAH. Mom won't let me get my license until i can pay for my own insurance. *stupid-cough cough* anyways if anyone wants, call. If you don't have my # it's listed.
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2003 31 July :: 12.43 pm
:: Mood: disappointed
girl in the mirror by kris heding
i made the mistake of glancing into the mirror
that girl looking back at me
i can't look her in the eye
she looks at me as if she's looking for an answer
but i've got nothing to say.
she's been crying again
her eyeliner smeared around her eyes
her lipstick is long gone
and her hair is lifeless
skin so pale it's translucent
the only bit of colour
is the blue of her eyes.
i want to tell her it will be okay
to stop crying
and stop hurting
but i don't make promises
when i can't come through with them.
so i turn to leave and turn off the light
and the girl in the mirror disappears
i know i'll see her again
and maybe next time
i'll have the answers.
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2003 28 July :: 6.40 am
:: Mood: tired
Well, I'm back from georgia. I love it in the south, it's so beautiful.
Didn't really enjoy the company though.
I will call you close friends of mine in 5 hoursish.
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2003 13 July :: 10.49 pm
:: Mood: lonely
:: Music: The Roots ft/ Eyrika Badu-- You got me
Acording to Webster...
Love is:
*1. strong affection
2. warm attachment
*3. attraction based on sexual desire
4. a beloved person
5. a score of zero in tennis
so to answer my questions of am i in love w/ john. According to webster's 1st and 3rd definitions, why yes. Yes i am in love w/ the bastard.
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2003 13 July :: 10.07 pm
:: Music: Simon and Garfunkel-- Cecilia
CAUTION: Complaints about boyfriend ahead
John = Cecilia - boobs + penis/ raging testosterone levels
now read some of these lyrics about 'Cecilia'
Cecilia, you're breaking my heart
You're shaking my confidence daily
Oh, Cecilia, I'm down on my knees
I'm begging you please to come home
Come on home
Making love in the afternoon with Cecilia
Up in my bedroom (making love)
I got up to wash my face
When I come back to bed
Someone's taken my place
HEHE. No i'm joking. it feels like that sometimes though, but he's great considering i never see him. :(
Any whoo our 3 month is toworrow, scary that we've lasted that long. Lol.
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2003 12 July :: 5.38 pm
:: Music: Simon & Garfunkel-- Scarborough Fair
mom and i went and picked blackberries along side of the white pine trail.
it was nice to talk to her and not have her nag.
i leave for atlanta in 10 days. that should be nice and a great experience. I just hope that i see john before i leave. I miss him very much.
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2003 9 July :: 4.10 pm
:: Mood: empty
:: Music: Dirty Vegas-- Days go by
To My 'best friend' aka hetero life mate (as you used to say)
On monday we started talking again. But now your distant. More distant than my boyfriend. And i realise that you might not want to listen to me complain about my life all the time, but i listened when you complained about yours.
If you don't want to be friends again that's fine. And the only reason that it's fine is because somehow in one week you changed into a person who cares less than dee, and is more self absorbed than all the models in the world. Well that might be pushing it. The point is that you weren't there when i needed you.
So i walked back to someone i thought that i needed b/c i felt empty that week that i hadn't talked or come to see you, but when i left your house monday night i felt just as shitty as i had before i called you that afternoon.
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2003 8 July :: 10.40 pm
:: Mood: sick and dying
:: Music: Liz Phair-- Dance of the Seven Veils
Romance is the epitemy of heartbreak
I know it doesn't mean anything but when we talked the other day he talked about having kids. It was weird and even though he didn't mean anything by it, I felt like he was asking me to have his children.
On other notes i did something to my right rib cage in the spring and it hurts. It has bothered me off and on for 3 months but it has been extremely painful since thursday or friday. That causes me to loose sleep.
I haven't talked to john, like really talked to him for quite some time. He seems to be very busy at work and i miss him very much.
It's almost like we are dead to each other, well maybe me to him. I'm not sure about the whole bit anymore. But i have the week off work so i'm getting a tan in that new pool of ours. quite nice if i do say so myself
i hope that your all having a great summer.
<3 Josie
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2003 26 June :: 2.03 pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: Aerosmith- Ragdoll
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2003 22 June :: 5.22 pm
:: Mood: impressed
:: Music: Liz Phair-- Fuck and run
He called for no reason.
Just to see how i was and what i was up to.
If he asked i would say yes-- to anything just about. I'm crazy about him, just plain head over heals in love.
So i'm happy for once. How are all of you?
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2003 17 June :: 9.05 pm
:: Music: Liz Phair-- Dance of the Seven Veils
Johhny my love, get out of the business
It makes me wanna rough you up so badly
I have turned to you, my friends and still i get no reply. No suggestions on how to not hurt anymore. I went to the lady- she said i have always be hurt in relationships and that's why i get sick. Now the question is how can that change. I love him. Maybe not love, but i do care. Unforetunatly whenever we talk i get dizzy and when i see him i get sick.
So Johnny my love, We got us a witness
now all we gotta do is get a preacher
He can probably skip the 'until death' part
Because Johnny my love you're already dead
For john, you won't read this and that's okay but you won't answer the phone. I'm sorry that i have been a bitch latly but you won't listen and you gave up. What i want to know is should i give up on this. It feels like an addiction, that i f i don't have you i'll have nothing else to do. Just like you and your marijauna. i can't continue this.
Oh yeah happy birthday.
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2003 28 May :: 5.35 pm
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2003 28 May :: 5.11 pm
here are some quizes b/c i was bored.
Have fun...
-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.
http://quizilla.com/users/vinacross/quizzes/What%20Kind%20of%20Girlfriend%20Are%20You%3F/"> What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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Goddess of winter, with a cold exterior but deep
down a warm, caring heart.
http://quizilla.com/users/SpazMatazz/quizzes/What%20element%20would%20you%20rein%20over%3F%20(For%20Girls)/"> What element would you rein over? (For Girls)
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You come from the Ocean. You've always been drawn
to the sea, the sound of the waves, the crystal
blue water, near the sea is where you belong.
http://quizilla.com/users/daddysgirl/quizzes/Where%20Did%20Your%20Soul%20Originate%3F/"> Where Did Your Soul Originate?
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Princeton
You're smart, you're thin, you're pretty, and
goddamit, people love you. You are destined for
great, great things, little Princetonian. Let
there be a never-ending stream of Country-Club-
Like institutions in your unmarred future.
http://quizilla.com/users/coolhound/quizzes/Which%20Ivy%20League%20University%20is%20right%20for%20YOU%3F/"> Which Ivy League University is right for YOU?
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Young. Really young. I'd say anywhere from 15-35.
But you'll go out with a bang. You'll get in a
car accident or be shot. You'll never have to
see yourself get old. Sad though. Really sad.
By the way, its common knowledge that more
people with great goals and aspirations die
young. And if you want to die old, you'll die
young and vice versa.
http://quizilla.com/users/emilyr16/quizzes/At%20what%20age%20will%20you%20die%3F%20/"> At what age will you die?
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2003 25 May :: 7.26 pm
well, haven't updated in a while sooo....
this weekend we did yard work. yeah. *cough cough*
still kinda sick which sucks but eh. tomorrrow i am breaking up with him. if you don't know him or the story you don't want to. you will end up hating him or at least being slightly disgusted. but that's all.
hugs n kisses
jos
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