Umm yeah. Kleenex is a sweetie. Tonight was the last night of play. I will miss it but i will be trying out for tales from beneath the matress or something like that during the spring. Umm I am slowly getting over some things and people. Jessa and i are talking again.:D
Nate thinks that i belong to him now that he signed me and Kevin is a damn lyier.( of cours i am also gullable so shoot me)

I got pictures from owosso homecoming. They looked really cute.And i left my notebook with all of my songs and pictures in the choir room. Go me. But lots of love to you all and i will see you boogers on monday!!

i found a new person that i admire. It is nice. Although Kyle Kleenex thinks about strange things i admire him. He is open-- well um yeah-- anyways he thinks outside the inside of the box. kinda strange but a great guy all together.

Jessa hates me and called me a bitch. I can say that if she wants to do that it proves my point: she is willing to lose a friendship to her boyfriend. It's her choice, I can't stop her, in fact she won't even be within 2 feet of me but hey that would be wallowing and i don't want to do that. I just had a great night hanging out backstage and going to Steak and Shake. Plus kyle is crazy but that is a different story.

Oh i believe that coach adams is a nice person. She just gets irritated with her kids. Oh well. I think i will tryout for competitive cheer next year.

i found a new person that i admire. It is nice. Although Kyle Kleenex thinks about strange things i admire him. He is open-- well um yeah-- anyways he thinks outside the inside of the box. kinda strange but a great guy all together.

Jessa hates me and called me a bitch. I can say that if she wants to do that it proves my point: she is willing to lose a friendship to her boyfriend. It's her choice, I can't stop her, in fact she won't even be within 2 feet of me but hey that would be wallowing and i don't want to do that. I just had a great night hanging out backstage and going to Steak and Shake. Plus kyle is crazy but that is a different story.

Oh i believe that coach adams is a nice person. She just gets irritated with her kids. Oh well. I think i will tryout for competitive cheer next year.

i hate people!!! I hate cedar springs and i hate the winter.
I think he hates me. WEll you know what i am the victim and you can all fuck yourselves up the ass. God you all fucking sit here and treat me like crap but i am supposed to suck it up, well guess what now that everything has gone wrong then you will have to fucking deal. I don't want to hear your dumb ass bitching about oh my boyfreind this and my boyfriend that. And i don't want to hear you fucking complain about oh this person called me this or my family hates me. FUCK YOU!!! God you tell me that i am so self obsorbed. It's the exact opposite it's always jessa is the victim. Well your not your life is so damn simple and you're the one who makes it a living hell b/c thats what you keep telling yourself. You are fucking spoiled. Go buy some more fucking paxil and get over your self.

I hate all of you and i hope i die. I know you do to so don't even leave any fucking smart ass comments about it.

I AM A CHEERLEADER!!!!
My perspectives have changed, I am so happy
well excpet that jessica and i got in a fight at play. Anyways I made Varsity!!! I am so geeked.
Play starts tomorrow... everyone break a leg!
So yes I need to get $87 by firday. EEEEKKK!!! My dad will fucking go nutz but hey yeah i am proud.
Everyone smile. I don't think i can handle relationships anymore so i give up.
But sure, i will love you all forever but i am so tired.Blah

It's a nice day to start again

It's a nice day for a white wedding...

THis is out of no where
but i like you and if you know who you are then you are special.

You know i will never tell him. Ha so much for my feelings.

ANyways i am going to do cheerleading. YAY! and i am not talking to jessica.
I am just sick of matt never letting me fucking talk to her or anything. Stop being a controling bastard you fuck!!!
I woke up yelling, I went to bed yelling and playing santa monica. Jessica you say you don't care what people think and then you have a cow about stage makeup.
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK
I am done now.

I got bored today and made pictures for BSC. I gave them to kevin after school. It was nice to talk to him again.
If i could only say what you all told me to admit. But oh well another day maybe

Oh and Alanis morsette is god. HEHEHE

my parents are being bitchy again.
I spent $110 this weekend.The details go like this:
4 AE l/s tee-shirts $13.65 each
1pair of Cordueroys $44
= $104.95 +25% discount = $78.63
fuzzy shorts on sale for $2.77
pair of pj pants $19.99
also i managed to buy a purse
glittery rubber bracelets and a pair of cute pb undies. yay!!

anyways i owe my parents 75$ oh well.

It appears that mitch still hostility toward homecoming but hey what will you do?
I made the realization over today that i most likely won't be attending college and that my parents find me to be a waste of their time and money. Probly true with everyone else as well but you know what all in all i had a nice weekend.

I love food and sleep!!!!!

Umm I went to sleep with the sun shining in my window, I like it better b/c the sunlight is refreshing and takes the anxiety away.

When i woke up i made hamburger helper. I am supposed to go shopping this weekend.
Yeah i love shopping it makes me happy anyways i g2 bust and get a shower.

Party Naked!!!!

Hey Remember this one?
Josie
You're my source of most frustration
Forget when
I don't need expectations
Everything you wished came true
In the end we all blamed you
Even though, as the all know,
You weren't the only one

Why do you still keep it around
When you know it brings me down,
I'm hating everything
And I know that you dated other guys
But I got to wonder why
You'd leave it out for me

Why am I wtill hanging around
When I know you brings me down
I'm hating everything
And you are geting rides home in his car
You're making out in his front yard
I'm hating everything

Please don't remind me
Put your past behind me
It shines so bright it blinds me
I wish that it would end
Am I am not fine
Last night I saw you online
Your screen name used to be mine
Why can't we just pretend

And if we can have another day
I've got so much left to say
I'd tell you everything
And I'll laugh when I think about the past
When I see you after class
You're hating everything

Please don't remind me
Put your past behind me
It shines so bright it blinds me
I wish that it would end
Am I am not find
Last night I saw you onlone
Your screen name used to be mine
Why can't we just pretend
And she said, "I just forgot you
were there"



for old time sake...

I give up. You won't talk to me now. I don't quite feel abandon but yet i do.

Forget it. Fuck this shit. I love ryan. Iwant ryan but do i or do i say that b/c i don't have an explanation for how i do feel?
Idk whatever. the point is will you please at least say something. I don't mean to bother you and i feel that is all i am doing. God someone shoot me for being so stupid...

i have a feeling that things will never be the same agian
I didn't expect much; to tell the truth i never do.
You see it was the same thing with scott only this time for some reason i thought it would be different
It was my mistake but I was right in the end.
Now i sit here in silence trying to ignore my heart.
But Ryan is right next to me boggling my mind, making me think about him deep down inside.
Yet in the end i made one definate realization: I have feelings in some way for you

Damn me...
Yeah I need a life. I need to go shopping and pick up a guy at the mall...
Who is up for a feild trip?