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:: 2006 29 November :: 10.10 pm

umm, my tongue kinda hurts....
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:: 2006 27 November :: 12.12 am

and so it is....

i <3 m.w. i don't know if that heart is plutonic or not. but i enjoy the daily (sometimes 3x daily) phone calls, and the plans for winter break, and knowing i have a date to my cousins wedding. and knowing that i will have someone to wrap their arms around me!!!!!!

i love knowing that i only have 2 weeks until fall semester is done, and 3 until zales is not prioritzing my life. and i love feeling loved, by all my friends and people i have been meeting.

i don't miss michigan, but i do miss some people there. and i wish i could stop caring about people that don't want me in their lives, but i can't. and i can't talk to them, but i do care. that's just who i am.

3 find grace | Open your eyes


:: 2006 2 November :: 1.23 pm

fuck.

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:: 2006 27 October :: 10.17 pm

2 jobs plus being a full time student is killing me.
i don't eat when i work or basically on the days that i work at zales.
i hate knowing more about computers and jewelry than my bosses, aaaand
i really just wish that i could get shitfaced and not have to worry about when i need to get up the next day...
but wait, i never have time to do anything but homework and take brief intervals to vent about how much i hate or love my life depending on the day.

gah. if only life was easier... but wait, i guess then it wouldn't be life. : (

Open your eyes


:: 2006 22 October :: 7.42 pm

would getting a third job be comparable to suicide... figuratively?

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:: 2006 21 October :: 11.04 pm
:: Music: The rolling stones- luxury

so, i got the 2nd job, and now i just have to wait until life calms down.
i didn't eat for over 24 hours because i was working and then just wasn't given the option. I haven't gotten nearly enough sleep and homework is the only thing making this worse.

I am already distant... now, i may as well be gone to the kids who called me their friend.
I am so insanely busy. the next few months should be interesting. but they will be covered, i won't have to worry about being short on paying my bills... it should all be normal again.
just me, and being a workaholic to stay out of trouble. i like it.

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:: 2006 15 October :: 1.28 pm

weeeeellllllllllllllllllllllll.
i don't know how much i have to say other than
I BOUGHT A NEW CAR!!!!!!!!!
OH YEAH!
lol, my dad had heart surgery last week so, i was home. but i didn't see anyone. which is neither good nor bad.
I am now being a hermit in my quiet dorm, where i can peacefully do homework and ignore the girls down the hall. go figure.

anyways, i plan to finish my homework, find a second job, aaaaand paint or knit. something like that.
toodles!

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:: 2006 26 September :: 9.01 am

well here we are. school again. the so-called happy place.
no, things are pretty good. i have a few crazy teachers this semester but it really isnt that bad. except for the damn cold that i have recently acquired.

my parents got a new puppy. His name is riley and he is adorable. but i think i should go get ready for class, so i will see you.... wait, no.... well maybe i will run into one of you this weekend when i am at home.

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:: 2006 29 July :: 11.49 am
:: Music: Snow Patrol- Chasing Cars

I smell a little disdain in your mind... but why so much towards me?
i just had to come on to thank gunny for putting the color codes up since i am lazy and like to have things in a place that i don't have to spend an hour to change my site.

aside from that, i wish that it was the end of next month already b/c i would really like to get back to camp carthage. i miss my friends, but am concerned about the roommate situation for the coming year. this will either be very good or incredibly aweful. only time will tell.
gah i need food, before my insides deside to eat them selves.

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:: 2006 15 June :: 10.17 am

well i updated my journal settings today. something new and different.
Rather confused about today, i was supposed to work at meijer, but now i am not supposed to work until tomorrow. i really hope tina didn't just enter in the wrong day.
other than that, ultimately just burned out with life... but in love with the snow patrol release and a certain someone from the past...

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:: 2006 13 June :: 3.33 pm

yesterday was good stuff. today was a lot of work, and now alot of pain. tomorrow, who knows.

i wish everyday of the summer could be as great as yesterday....

*try to understand, just try to understand... try, try, try to understand he's a magic man..... mmmmm. he's got magic hands* :D

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:: 2006 8 June :: 5.16 pm
:: Mood: complacent
:: Music: Snow Patrol-Set fire to the third bar

It's funny to read through the past, i suppose that i have changed. whether for the better or worse only time will tell.
i rather miss the days that i was so sure about life. it's funny all that i have forgotten of the past, luckily i have the anecdotes typed so clearly here. it's all so strange. i feel like i am walking through a tunnel, but it's dusk all around. so strange.

I find the map and draw a straight line
Over rivers, farms, and state lines
The distance from here to where you'd be
It's only finger-lengths that I see
I touch the place where I'd find your face
My finger in creases of distant dark places

I hang my coat up in the first bar
There is no peace that I've found so far
The laughter penetrates my silence
As drunken men find flaws in science

Their words mostly noises
Ghosts with just voices
Your words in my memory
Are like music to me

I'm miles from where you are,
I lay down on the cold gound
I, I pray that something picks me up
And sets me down in your warm arms

After I have travelled so far
We'd set the fire to the third bar
We'd share each other like an island
Until exhausted, close our eyelids
And dreaming, pick up from
The last place we left off
Your soft skin is weeping
A joy you can't keep in

I'm miles from where you are,
I lay down on the cold gound
And I, I pray that something picks me up
and sets me down in your warm arms

And miles from where you are,
I lay down on the cold gound
and I, I pray that something picks me up
and sets me down in your warm arms

Open your eyes


:: 2006 19 April :: 10.57 pm

well, hmm... what to say. nothing i guess. i hate it here, i want to be working... i should probably stop drinking.
hmmm.... i thought i would write to clear my head, but idk. I managed to probably get myself a black eye, through a tackle that backfired. i don't care tho.
tomorrow... i am debating on going to class. since 1. i hate the class, and 2. it is a waste of time. we will see how i feel in the morning, since class doesn't start until 10.

but for lack of better things to do... here is a fucking awesome poem.
Have a nice life:
i received one kiss for the duration of the trip and it was loveless as if made by lifeless lips. Thes lips are sealed you bitch, so keep that one locked up because it's all that you'll get. Your life (in my eyes) isn't worth my time on the five-hour flight. Have a nice life and thank you so mcuh for ruining mine. I hope you and Daniel are living it up, and i hope you don't miss me and don't give a fuck. Because I'm sure with my luck this will happen again and someone will replase the distaste created by the sound of your name. This could be the last chand i have to elaborate and display the choices i made and the patiently waiting i did for the day when you'd say that "my feelings for you are quickly receding, almost as fast as your heart is beating". When it stops they will stop, when you drop then I'm off to get on with my life and leave yours with the ghost of the past.

-Kenny Vasoli
The starting line

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:: 2006 19 April :: 12.58 pm

Well, i am 19 and none of you bitches wished me a happy birthday... which makes me glad that i don't talk to almost any of you anymore.

Being home last weekend was nice. it was really good to see dani and lisa and matty. not so great to see other people. it's funny how actions really do speak louder than words. maybe people should try and synchronize what they say with what they do, so then it doesn't seem so hypocritical.

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:: 2006 11 April :: 1.25 pm




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