A L I C I A

:: 2003 7 August :: 10.08pm
:: Mood: dissapointed
:: Music: Powerline "get to me"

what is you were sencible.

thats the question that begs that answer.

today i woke up around 8:00 and looked for my schedule, cuz i went to orientation this morning with justing, then we went to the beach on Atlantic Ave. then we went back to justins house sand some goood tunes. then i went backt o my house and made a couple of phone calls, cuz ricky and alex came back from orlando last night, and i talked to them for a lil while. then Anna called me, we talked about shyt that we could do tonite cuz its her b-day, but then i realized i already promised my mom i would go out with the family cuz its my mom's friends last day in the usa today and i would go out with them tonite, so then i had to break y plans anna, if there was any to begin with, its ok its not like she was angry, well actually she kinda was, anyways now i'm talking to her online, and she wants to go to orlando, screewwww that. haha i'm pretending that i got her a expensive present. anyway so me,tiff and mom and moms friend went out to mall (and i saw brian b and jeff g) , brandsmart, then went to the cheescake factory. now i'm stuck here w/e

tomorrow me and alex and ricky are probably hang out, do sumthing stupid but fun...god i'm a loser. anyways i'm gunna go practice some p-songs, so i'll c-ya later J

-peac-E

:: 2003 6 August :: 10.57pm
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: Powerline "not again"

...she said nothing becuase she wasn't even there

yea... i just got back from justins house...its like 11:05...todays was alright/gay/good/eh

i woke up today from the sound of my sister screaming at me cuz i didnt clean her her even tho i fuked it up a lil bit lol, so i called my boss koray, no answer as usual, then i went back to bed, i felt bad about not cleaning the car soo i help tiff clean the out side and inside, then i ate breakfast, some how i ended up cleaning up my garage with her, then i ate lunch then headed off to justins house, w/o a car :( but i didnt have to walk, he was a real pal and got his mom to come pick me upwhich was cool. i got to his house and ali was there, unfortaunatly i forgot the hose which was dumb cuz the whole point was to swing with the hose, but w/e we went to the lake and had fun anyway. then we went in the pool, justin poked ali belly button a couple of tyme and me and ali swaped liscence stories. anyways after that we hung out and made ukeleles songs...ali left, and pat and becky came over, we went BACK to the lake and jumped of the bridge, and other shit, we ate and hung out in justins room and made MORE music, the 3 of us together have unlimited untapped power of music, heh we watch ripleys and watched this guy get sand pour on his eye and this kid fuking piano, then me and justin waited out side for my "high" sister to come pick me up...

i didnt check my caller id yet so id ont if anna had called today, i'm gradually getting over her which is good.

tomorrow go to the schools oreintation to change my speech class to auto shop 2, then i might go to the bach with my mom and her friend for her last day here.
me and justin were messing w/ haley with mastubation jokes, sry haley lol

Maroone Ford is having a sale this saturda and they selling cars for $10 i doubt its tru but me and my mom are going to check it out saturday.

Powerline might have pracitce, i dunno when rickys is coming back with alex

...overall it was a meteoaker day, i need justin to healp me make a website, then it'll be all good so i'll c-ya later J

-Peac-E

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:: 2003 6 August :: 1.06am
:: Mood: artistic

there is none
listen....do you heaar that
of course you dont, your a lost cause
just like the rest of 'em
i let my life go on puase, for you

you dont see it,
but we are perfect for each other
you wont believe it
but you will never find another

its shame, no one to blame
but me, still not my fault
luckily, this is my assault

too proud to live a life of shame
too proud to hear that this is all the same

if you come for me
i will merely say
if you come for me
i will turn away

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:: 2003 5 August :: 10.21pm
:: Mood: infuriated
:: Music: me on the piano

what a day....

yea what a day it was.

so i wake up and watch t.v. for like an hour as fuking usual, i wirote some new music on the piano and recorded it, then i cleaned out my sisters car so it would take away form the big dent i put on the side of the car...co i sat around the house like i was suppose to while my mom and her friend went to go pick up tiffany, but i couldnt take it...i had to go out and see her, so i took the beatn up can and drove to TCBY. i was guessing that she wasnt working cuz i didnt see her as i was driving by, i didnt have nerve to walk in. anyways i went home realy slowly, sep was there, and we were talking about how we should get like a cake or sumthing to welcome tiff back home. i mentioned that we should go to TCBY. great idea! so we drive there and we walk-in now there she was. helping anouther happy cuztomer but i'm not shure if she saw me, i definatly saw her though, she went in the back, maybe she did see me and thought i was hanging out with anouther gurl considering ewe havent hung out in like a week but the matter of the fact is , is that she probably doenst even car ha! anyway i was talking to that gurl shit i dont trmeber her anme but shes hot, i was talking to her to make it look like that i didnt care about anna hiding in the back avoiding, so i had to be reallll cool and ask the gurl if some one could write "welcome back tiff" cuz i knew anna specialized in that shyt, so then it was done after waiting, anna came out with the cake...as usual looking beuatiful...i told her i got my schedule, we both have french 3 togther first hour woop de fuking doo...she didnt sound enthussed, well just a lil....the worst part about my visit was the departure when she just said "see-ya later" wow, stabbed in the heart, reallll deep, i hope it wasnt b/c i was with my fucking sister and she got the wrong impressiong, maybe i should have done a formal introduction, w/e i told myself that i would get over this, and i'm going to, school is gunna start soon and i have othetr things that will be on my mind let along that have enuff stuff on my mind already.....so maybe i'll call her tomorrow, just like i'm gunna call my boss cuz he called me a couple of times on my cell while it wad canceeled so i didnt get hose calls he left some messges and i just now listened to them cuz before i didnt know the code for it...so tomorrow i will call him to see wats up.

Also tomorrow i am going to justins to meet up with pat and maybe chris and haley and ali to go lake swinging off his gigantic tree behind his house, we'll do that for a while then after that i dunno wat, cuz i dont have a CAR!!!!! shyt

i dunno what i'm gunna when school starts i moight have to ask josh for a ride...hopefully he'll say yes...

but now i'm gunna go cuz i have to uhhh go
c-ya

Peac-E

:: 2003 4 August :: 10.26pm
:: Mood: determined
:: Music: my sis on the piano, (she suks)

nother day
things are changing
people are changing
except......

everyone is moving to live journal wtf noooot cool

ahh its been a couple of days
(since i've written in here, and talked to her

she called me, but i always just miss her calls now that i dont got the cell.
it doesnt matter anyway

so heres wats been going on.....couple of days ago i went to mizner with pat, chris and justin and we all just did some ANARCHY lol

then we did dumthing after that the next day

today i woke up, went with justin and ali and haley anne to justins house ,then to the mall and then went to mizner, then went to the beach, then went to big louis then went to the rooftops then went back to justins house, soooo it was alright

i got a piano

Tiffany comes back tomorrow that means i got to give back the car wow thats gunna suck. ummmmm

i am determined to figure out wat makes me tick, and eliminate it. for good this time.

no job, no girl, no money
life is good

things are changing
people are changing
except......me

-Peac-E

skittlicious

:: 2003 4 August :: 9.13pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: dont be the bunny // urinetown

bah!
New York/New Jersey is ok, we got in on friday to NJ at like 2ish, and i went to sleep til 6, and then we went to eat at this place called Harold's, it was soo cool, the cakes were this big [------------------->and so on].

Then Saturday got up, drove into NYC, soo much fun, waited online at tkts, saw liz <3... got tickets to URINETOWN, oh man, i'm in love, like i just cant stop listening to the music, so good! oh yeah, also had dinner at Mars 2112...weird lol...aliens, alllll over

Sunday, went to this place called Woodbury Commons HUGE outodoor mall, got some new dickies, and this coat, that i love, just dont know when ill wear it lol

today, monday, went back to NYC, got there, and walked 20 blocks to Hard Rock Cafe, then went to the Harley Davidson store, got a hoodie, it's ok, but w/e another sweater <3 i wanted more. saw melanie griffith walking down the street with her kids, shes perty. lol then went to FAO shwarz...got out and it poooooored like monsoon's, so we went and found the subway, then penn station, couldnt find where our train was, so was there forever, finally got back at like 8 after getting lost, lol who knows.

now, talking to people, and packing up again, tomorrow we're going a little more upstate, and visiting some people, and then going to the sussix county fair, w/e lol. i come home wednesday, i'm already sick of my mom, ok, lets go home!

oh yeah, jenna congrats on the tattoo!!! i'm so jealous i didnt get to go, and shoelace did <---havent called her that in a long time.

<3
mandyyy

do do do do

:: 2003 3 August :: 11.41am
:: Mood: happy

i got a job!! im working at utopia bagels.. this should be fun. laughing at all the old people. lol ashley. yup yup.. :)
tomorrow at 4 am me n the chacheroo are heading up to tampa for busch gardens n adventure island. its gonna be very fun... esp. when i get her on montu. cause i will. :)
so today i have lots to do... i have to do laundry, pack, and go buy a few things that ill need. until next time.. adios

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:: 2003 2 August :: 5.05pm

i just chopped my hair off. its very short. i like it.. just need to get used to it.

:: 2003 2 August :: 12.47am
:: Mood: listless
:: Music: Powerline "get to me"

keepin up w/ tha s.o.b.'s
uuuuuughhhhh, its 12:50
half awake, half asleep

watching CONAN... earlier tonite i watched American Wedding eh...

Alisa's asking me to sleep over her house on the 7th..i dont know what that's all about....but i know that i WANT that guitar.

Ricky's leaving tomorrow to go to orlando for 4 days...

very very soon i'm on a mission to get the powerline sign for a stage prop.

after the movie i went BACk to TCBY and went to see is she was working, i dotn beleive she was cuz she wasnt visable in the window. see earliershe wanted to somewhere on her break but since i dont have a cell phone, i got confused on where to go and i could reach her, she must have changed her loaction or sumthing cuz i was corcling the plaza for like 15 min str8. i called her cell a couple of times but no answer, she usually turns it off during work so i'm thinking w/e.

i dunno wat i'm doing tomorrow...all i know is that tiffs coming home on the 5th and that means i have to have an explantion and her car ready and i have no transportaion anywhere. that sucks soo bad

anyway, thats my life today i'm going to go waste my time...fuk it

-Peac-E

:: 2003 31 July :: 12.29pm
:: Mood: scared

schedules are here!!!!!!!!!!!!
heres mine:
pd. 1- spanish 3 pib (halcomb)
pd. 2- algebra 2 pib (doesnt say)
pd. 3- comp econ sys pib (davis.. someone shoot me now please! i dont want that fucking crackhead again!!)
pd. 4- chem 1 pib (doesnt say)
pd. 5- eng 2 pib (ammons)
pd. 6- health 1-lf mgmt skl (sicard)
pd. 7- ap art hist (stecker)

oh god.. here we go again

skittlicious

:: 2003 31 July :: 1.50am
:: Mood: creative
:: Music: weezer // island in the sun

bye bye birdie hello alexis <3
today...
woke up late, got to JCC 30 minutes late, no one noticed, muahah. show went good, then left with jecca and mike and went shopping at the wellington mall, mike went into girlie stores, buahah. then went back to mike's, then to chaz's (bah) <3. then i had to be back at the JCC by, 5:30, cause we had another show at 7:30, i dont know why, but i had sooo much fun, like i dont know, maybe cause "annoying people" were gone tonight, and i was on head set, and i dont know, funstuff. Justin Braun came to visit the JCC and was swarmed by the acmpers, they all think he is jenn's loverr hahahaha. I saw max polin for the first time in over a year, he's changed, his style, him, but i dont know, he's different, bad different. He kept i dont know, emily noticed too, but whatever. Then we went to denny's after the show, emily, jen, alexis, taylor, lauren, max and i. it was fun, lot of laughing, and it was the first "drama experience" ever, that i felt like i belonged. i had fun thank youuuu <3. Also i'd like to say hello to my favorite buddy, Stephanieee, i saww you tonight, i sawww you! "I heart you stephanie" lol.

Right now, i'm writting a special letter to Emily, and Jen, cause i dont know, they've been beyond nice to meee lol, and including me, and heh, first time not feeling liek an outcast, in a drama related thing. weird.

Tomorrow...
We have one last morning show, and then strike, i was gonna try and leave again, btu i think i might stay and hang out, we'll see. I dont knowww.

<3
mandyyy

p.s. sierra..aka alien, favorite camper,...just with the face alone <3

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:: 2003 30 July :: 11.50pm
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: Alkaline Trio

just another day in paradise...
11:30, just got home....from TCBY, ugghh god...

today i turned in some applications forsoem restaurunts, then went to the consignment gallary to pick up some $$$ then i ran some more errands, after that i went to Ale'x to hang out for a while, then went to Pats to practice, but it was not a good practice, after that we just hung out then played 007 for a lil bit, Pat kicked all our asses....this is where it went wrong....

i dropped off jose, then alex, instaed of going home like usual i went to TCBY to see her, w/o callin, but hey i dotn got a cell anymore. anyways, i drove by a couple of tymes b4 walking in...i had to gain some courage. so then i walk up to the window, she sweeping, she looks beautiful, anyway i tap on the window and she smiles, i smile, but we were mouthing words, i couldnt come in, cuz they were closed. she asked me why i hadent called her the last couple of dayz, she obviouslt doesnt realize why, cuz i would never just not call her. so i told her that it got cancelled, she didnt believe me, then she went in the back. i left. i lost. now i'm in the missle of no where, but i'm home. tomorrow i dont know what i'm gunna do. maybe call KORAY my boss. this sucks, it sucks to be me...again...as usual...like always. ha i'm gunna go, hating myself a lil. all i can say is that, LIFE GOES ON pretty stupid but so iseverything right now, doenst make it wrong though. i miss DAD

-Peac-E

:: 2003 30 July :: 11.25pm
:: Mood: chipper
:: Music: plain white t's: stop

lalala im bored.... last night i slept at ashleys... we had so much fun just laughing at random stuff. some things never change. we went to the gym (that guy was a prick!!!) and then went to mikeys house and got eaten by bugs and watched dave break the stereo... fun? lol entertaining. then we came home and tried to watch the emperors club.... so boring though we didnt catch anything except that they all looked like harry potter. then we saw phone booth. i happened to like it... it was no pirates of the carribbean or anything but it was ok. ashley had a heart attack from all the stress. lol.. then we went to sleep a while later. today we woke up.. ate... watched the emperors club again... wrote one sentence.... took a break, ordered a pizza, ate, wrote another sentence. then it was time for me to go. lol. fun time though.
im goin to tampa on monday (hopefully) <33busch gardens<33 should be fun dear.
and tomoow maybe we'll hit the beach. we shall see... i hope so though. ok byebyes

:: 2003 30 July :: 11.36am
:: Mood: artistic
:: Music: Mest "Walking on broken glass"

just being poetic cuz i didnt write yesterday
listen to my heart beating through my chest
this is me, at my best
tell me do you miss those days when we couold have changed it
we will always have regrete
dont make other plans were set
as the time passes by
cant stop thinking why
we are the way we are
we always try to leave our scars behind
and i will always say
"dont give up dont delay,
make every moment last,
dont it all seem to fast?"