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2005 3 March :: 7.28 pm
the scale said: 127.5
when i was 120 - i could handle it
122 - i could handle it
125 - borderline
127.5 - i lost it
i cant do this.
what happened to 115?
fuck food
im giving it up for lent
i dont care that im not getting any nutrients.
i dont.
i wanna be skinnie
and not FAT!!!!!
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2005 27 February :: 7.35 pm
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: hear you me
i guess broken hearts never heal.
even though i have a boy.
why is it i can just look at your picture
and cry.
its been over two fuckin years.
why am i not over you?
after all the shit
you put me through
why do i feel like i should care about you?
will this happen again to my current boy?
i dont know how much more i can take.
I CANT FUCKIN TAKE THIS SHIT!!! WHY DO I HAVE TO FEEL SO MUCH!!?!?!?!?
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2005 26 February :: 3.36 pm
i believe in the sun
even when it is not shining
i believe in god
even when he is silent
i believe in love
even when theres no one there
but sometimes in this suffering and hopelessness despair
i believe in my heart
that someone is there
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2005 16 February :: 8.48 pm
the greatest feeling, is to wake up and have the covers perfectly warm. not too warm that you feel as if you have a fever, but a nice warm that seems to protect you and keep you in the deepest sleep. its so comfortable and i always hate to leave it. but its best when you wake up with someone beside you.
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