:: 2005 12 January :: 9.21 pm

i want to be pure. hallow. silent. perfect. thin. i want to be glass. slender. silent. perfect. mysterious. i want to be alone. the girl with the mysterious smile upon her face. thin and pretty. pretty and perfect.

sweet words

:: 2005 7 January :: 8.12 pm

people say so many things... and i know i am adopting the phillosphy of not caring what the hell people say, but i cant help but ask, am i doing something wrong?

i mean, people call me a skank... they must have a logical reason. and when i say people i dont mean a specific group of people and their friends, i mean a few random people.

is it cause i flirt too much? ---- i like flirting too much

is it the clothes i wear? ---- i like my clothes

is it my body? ---- i cant help my boob size

is it my actions? ---- i am still a virgin and i have never given head and i dont do things with random guys...

sweet words

:: 2005 5 January :: 7.37 pm

[light one small candle rather than curse the darkness]
i close my eyes...
wash away all the tears
i sit still
listening to every sound
then blocking it all out
i will clear my mind
think of nothing
want no desires
i will reach,
my perfect
...nirvana

sweet words

:: 2004 27 December :: 5.31 pm

the notes are old, they bend they fold
dont read old notes from your exes.
surprisingly, after 2 years... i still cry for what i lost.

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