rina
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2006 18 April :: 12.29am
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: x & y - coldplay
you and me are floating on a tidal wave together
i have been having these incredibly vivid dreams.
they are so detailed and perfectly played out that i continually wake up believing whatever i dreamed of was absolutely without-a-doubt real.
and lately, they've been getting so bizarre,
twisted and strange,
and just this morning i dreamt that i woke up from a very realistic dream, looked at my alarm clock, and felt terrible because it was blinking a digital and red 12:38 pm at me.
a few seconds/minutes/hours later, i woke up thinking it was past noon.
except it was actually around ten o'clock in the morning.
i've decided that waking up from a dream, in a dream, and then actually waking up is terribly disconcerting.
i hope it doesnt happen again any time soon.
1 whisper |
sweet words
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rina
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2006 12 April :: 1.35am
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: sanctuary - utada hikaru
battle scenes
she's lost her spark!, they say
as she puts on display
tired eyes from sleepless nights
she sees things backwards
twisted inversely, perhaps nervously
and slowly she admits she's ever-straining
waxing, waning, she's continually changing
gibbous to crescent, always past, never present
she's losing the fight, deciding it's right
to give up, give in; she'll never win.
2 whispered |
sweet words
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rina
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2006 11 April :: 10.44pm
:: Mood: uncreative
:: Music: passion - utada hikaru
my heart's a battleground
oh you know what they say,
about how loose lips sink ships
well baby, this sail's set for south
and i'm not waiting for your breathless reply.
sweet words
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rina
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2006 3 April :: 2.04am
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: lilium [opening version] - konishi kayo, etc.
et lingua eius loquetur indicium
i've discovered only recently,
that i might just have chronic insomnia.
i've looked through a written journal of mine and found entries about lack of sleep as far back as before april of last year.
how depressing.
it has also come to my attention that while my mother is nice, productive, etc,
i'd like her a lot better if she didn't ever speak.
i might be taking up to five ap courses next year, excluding a semester of calculus at the college.
i loathe that i feel obligated to do these ridiculous academic endeavors, for everyone's benefit but my own.
i'm seriously considering going to a college in switzerland. it's located in an italian villa and seems nearly perfect.
the only problem is that it does not offer one of the majors i'd like.
too bad, i suppose.
sweet words
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