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2004 21 November :: 4.00 pm
have you ever said, "I can change that."?
And all that she's done to him.....everything she took away...she left him with nothing...she stole his ambition, his love, and his heart...and here i am, stumbling over the broken pieces of his exsistence...and by god, hes the only one thats done something for me....he made me feel, something i haven't done in a long time....and i just want to glue the pieces back together....but i dont think he'll let me.
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2004 19 November :: 3.37 pm
ahhh yes....once again a stupid member of the female gender has fucked up my chances.
Stupid girls shouldn't hinder other girls chances. She had no right to do what she did to him, and now, the ramifications are falling on me....not that i'm saying i had an excellent chance in the first place, but this just makes it more complicated.
damn her! *stomps foot and walks away*
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2004 18 November :: 9.31 pm
aww....:D
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2004 18 November :: 5.55 pm
:: Mood: a mixture
:: Music: Beck
yeah......... :) *thinks about him*
oh yeah.......!
*sighs a daydreamy sigh*
damn you! hehe, j/p.
Today was a pretty good day. I was dead tired, but other than that i had fun :) *smiles innocently*
In other news, I'm going up to see my mom tomorrow after school...two hours of sitting and driving my car after I have to sit all damn day in school. Uh. Oh, and I saw Rachel at Meijers today! Yay! :D :D :D I think we're going to hang out sometime this weekend...maybe she'll come over and keep me company on saturday when my dad has to go in to work at 12 in the mornin. :S but we'll have fun.....she'll have to listen to me talk about him, and she'll probably talk about her him, and we'll have a blast, munchin popcorn and watchin a scary movie on the big screen. Gosh it just makes me giddy!!! Hehe! Can't wait ta talk to you tonight! Hopefully you get on!
~*~^!Amy Lynn!^~*~
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2004 17 November :: 10.16 pm
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2004 16 November :: 9.56 pm
No no no this cannot be good.....no no no....
I couldn't possibly like you. I'm setting myself up. It just wouldn't work.
Two different cultures, and you know that they would all have to comment on it.
But....
I love the way the hair falls in your eyes, and your smoldering eyes, and your lucious lips.... and the way you make me laugh, and the way you make me smile....almost everything about u...
Well, it might be able to work....I'm just not going to get my hopes up.
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2004 16 November :: 8.20 pm
"Running Blind"
Can’t find the answers
I’ve been crawling on my knees
Looking for anything
To keep me from drowning
Promises have been turned to lies
Can’t even be honest inside
Now I’m running backward
Watching my life wave me goodbye
Running blind
I’m running blind
Somebody help me see I’m running blind
Searching for nothing
Wondering if I’ll change
I’m trying everything
But everything still stays the same
I thought if I showed you I could fly
Wouldn’t need anyone by my side
Now I’m running backward
With broken wings I know I’ll die
Running blind
I’m running blind
Somebody help me see I’m running blind
Running blind
Running blind
Running blind
I can’t find the answers
I’ve been crawling on my knees
Looking for anything
To keep me from drowning
I’m running blind
Running blind
Running blind
Running blind
Running blind
Running blind
Running blind
Running blind
Running blind
One of the many songs that I can relate to right now. Eh.
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2004 16 November :: 1.05 pm
(X) I have been drunk
(x) I have kissed a member of the opposite sex
(X) I have kissed a member of the same sex
( ) I crashed a friend's car
( ) I have been to Japan
(X) I rode in a taxi
(X) I have been in love
(X) I've had sex
(X) I've had sexual relations in public
(X) I've shoplifted
( ) I have been fired
(X) I have cut myself on purpose\
(X) I have smoked pot
( ) I still smoke pot
( ) I've had a 3-some
(X) I've snuck out of my parent's house
(X) I have been tied up. (yes...in THAT way)
( ) I pissed on myself
( ) I have been arrested
(X) I've made out with a stranger
( ) I've stolen something from my job
( ) I've celebrated New Year's in Time Square
( ) I've gone on a blind date
(x) I've lied to a friend
(X) I've had a crush on a teacher
( ) I've celebrated Mardi-Gras in New Orleans
( ) I have been to Europe
(X) I've skipped school
( ) I have thrown up in a bar
( ) I have purposely set myself on fire
(X) I have eaten sushi
(X) I have been snowboarding
(X) I have been happy with myself
( ) I have met a movie star
(X) I had sex in a pool
( ) I went to a dance with someone of the same sex
( ) I've bungee jumped
(X) I have been to a pop concert
(X) I have dated someone for over a year
( ) I sold naked pictures of myself
(X) I have been in a car accident
(X) I have slept in the nude
(X) I've eaten cheesecake
( ) I've had jury duty
(X) I've hated someone without knowing them
(X) I have given oral sex
(X) I have recieved oral sex
(X) I've shot a real gun
( ) I've ran around with my trousers around my ankles
( ) I've had sex with someone within a week of meeting them
( ) I've done ecstasy
( ) I've gotten my ass kicked
( ) I've been caught smoking
(X) I've worn boxers
( ) I've milked a cow
(X) I've got in a verbal fight with a teacher
(X) I've cheated on someone
(X) had sex with a best friend
( ) Lied one time in this survey
( ) Lied more then once in this survey.
(X) Lied to a friend you see everyday
(X) Kissed a person that has a g/f or b/f
( ) Used ice cubes as a foreplay accessory
(X) Wasted time filling this out instead of doing something productive
( ) Have nude pics of yourself on your computer
( ) Walked across 8 lanes of interstate highway
( ) Have been to camp
(X) Have read books more than one time
( ) Have eaten cat food
(X) Have been pulled over by a cop (
( ) Own porn
( ) Am a Republican
(X ) Likes classic movies
(X) Own a kitty
( ) Carried a lunchbox in high school
(X) Buy gumballs to watch them swirl in the machine
(X) Likes to be dominated
(X) Likes to drive with the windows down and the music turned up
( ) Eats PB &J for breakfast because there's nothing else
Wowwie wow wow....
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2004 16 November :: 8.48 am
I dont know. I just don't know
I feel really weird right now...like I'm sick or something, but I'm not really. It's so weird. It's like a full body malaise that i'm going through.
why?
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2004 11 November :: 7.36 pm
"Live and learn, that's what it's all about"
Yeah, I like that. I really do.
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2004 5 November :: 8.08 am
It's Official
Yep. I officially have no place to stay. Living with my aunt was hell. Every morning I crawled out of the firey depths to head to school, which seemed ethereal compared to my "home". Seriously, school has never seemed like such a great place tome before.
Currently, my choices are my dad's house or moving up to clare with my mom. after talking with my dad, i dont really want to live with him, b/c we both know it would just ruin the relationship we have now. and my moms house is two hours away, and im not going to leave all my friends. there's always grandmas, but she's leaving for florida soon, so I dont know about that. hmmm....so i am pretty much going no where. i dont know where i am going to be tonight or the rest of the weekend. I mean, there's plenty of friends i could live with, but my 'rentals wont allow it. which, i have no idea why, but thats a whole other story. This day is definetly one of those that I wish could be over before it begins.
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2004 3 November :: 8.50 pm
Some food for thought...if you think about it, it's pretty much true
[Ma$e]
Man they love you when you up kick you when you down look around vh1 man where are they now
life is amusin' nobody like to see you cruisin' but evrybody like to see you losin, so i stop
despisin' on top a lies im livin prophet side i'll be ostracized one day i lost my rodeydum the
day i hit the podium now im back on top salty like sodium a gift to this world man rappin' wit a
ribbon why do you look for the dead among the livin' sum thought i was crazy sum thought i was
missin sum said i was lazy sum said i was diffrent i was so loaded that evrybody flowed it but
once i got to notice then i got focused and then i saw they motive so evrybody voted so i did the
way i rote it and live it the way i quote it, c'mon
[Chorus]
Gotta Survive in this life thats been givin to me but it seems that the world keeps scratchin on
me when im down at the back just keep it real, Gotta survive, Gotta survive, Gotta survive in
this life thats been givin to me so i tried and i tried to do anything when it seems that the
world keeps scratchin on me, Gotta survive, Gotta survive
[Ma$e]
Now the block tried ta tell me what im not pull up in a bot now im all a sudden hot now they
wanna stop just ta look at wat i got thought they were my homay left me out ta rot so i had ta
make it on my own take it on my own i wanted out the hood i had ta scape it on my own believe me
now its easy now cause evrybody seen me down and im on tv now but it started out with no budget
then i took it round the world and the folks love it in the beginnin man my life it was so rugget
but now i shine like a gold nugget cause i made the most of it i no how u feelin man i was weary
sum days i used ta sit there my eyes all teary thinkin ta myself do anybody hear me now i no, u
makin a dolla's not a theory, c'mon
[Chorus]
[Ma$e]
I been laughed at, talked about ridiculed, but m dot bethay is still not a bitter dude and u no
its no coincident that me n u is not so intimate i cant fake i dont shake i dont break i dont
lose i dont use i dont bruise i never lack and im neva goin back im nuttin u never sawd of im
tellin u that im immortal
[Chorus]
[Ma$e talking w/ chorus in background]
Yea, u no theres nuthin in this world that could seperate me from wat i believe from wat i've
achieved all a dis is because a him and im tellin u now as much as yall dont wanna hear dis i
could do nuthin of myself its all through him its all through him so all around the world u dont
even no sucess until u no him and him is jesus
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2004 2 November :: 6.15 pm
"God grant me the serenity to accept things I cannot change, the courage to change those that I can, and the wisdom to know the difference."
Thats so right.
P.S. Thanks Jess for the quote!
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2004 2 November :: 6.07 pm
You know who you are, and how it will always be. Luv ya.
"My Boo"
(feat. Alicia Keys)
[Usher intro:]
There's always that one person
That will always have your heart
You'll never see it coming
Cause you're blinded from the start
Know that you're that one for me
It's clear for everyone to see
Ooh baby ooh you'll always be my boo
[Alicia intro:]
I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
This is the only way
We know how to rock
I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
This is the only way
We know how to rock
[Usher Verse:]
Do you remember girl
I was the one who gave you your first kiss
Cause I remember girl
I was the one who said put your lips like this
Even before all the fame and
People screaming your name
Girl I was there when you were my baby
[Chorus:]
[Usher:]
It started when we were younger
You were mine my boo
Now another brother's taking over
But its still in your eyes my boo
Even though we used to argue it's alright
I know we haven't seen each other
In awhile but you will always be my boo
[Alicia:]
I was in love with you when we were younger
You were mine my boo
And I see it from time to time
I still feel like my boo
And I can see it no matter
How I try to hide my boo
Even though there's another man who's in my life
You will always be my boo
[Alicia Verse:]
Yes I remember boy
Cause after we kissed
I could only think about your lips
Yes I remember boy
The moment I knew you were the one
I could spend my life with
Even before all the fame
And people screaming your name
I was there and you were my baby
[Chorus:]
[Usher:]
It started when we were younger
You were mine my boo
Now another brother's taking over
But its still in your eyes my boo
Even though we used to argue it's alright
I know we haven't seen each other
In awhile but you will always be my boo
[Alicia:]
I was in love with you when we were younger
You were mine my boo
And I see it from time to time
I still feel like my boo
And I can see it no matter
How I try to hide my boo
Even though there's another man who's in my life
You will always be my boo
[Usher:]
My oh, My oh, My oh, My oh, My Boo
[Alicia:]
My oh, My oh, My oh, My oh, My Boo
[Chorus:]
[Usher:]
It started when we were younger
You were mine my boo
Now another brother's taking over
But its still in your eyes my boo
Even though we used to argue it's alright
I know we haven't seen each other
In awhile but you will always be my boo
[Alicia & Usher:]
I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
This is the only way
We know how to rock
I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
This is the only way
We know how to rock
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2004 2 November :: 2.12 pm
I'm burnt, I'm tired, I have a HUGE pile of homework, and I just don't want to deal with any of your crap.
Especially you and your only-if-you're-a-george-bush-supporter apple pie. Or the liberty chicken we're having fpr dinner tonight. I swear, if I had a source of income and if it didn't kill my dad, I'd file for emancipation and be out of my aunts house faster than you could possibly imagine.
Since when was politics a sound topic for discussion at breakfast? I'd like to digest my food without having to listen to your im-always-right banter. damn you.
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