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2004 14 January :: 9.20pm
You know what pisses me off people...when the 'normal' people say not only that they are 'normal' but also when they act/think people who are not like them are strange and scum of this god forsaken planet. This chick in my Math class had to go to the office for some reason and she wanted her lil friend to go with her she said she would get lost anyways the teacher told her it was acorss the hall from the counselors office and she says "I dont know where that is I dont have issues." How fuckin lame is that. Its lil shit and comment like this that piss me off. Ya know, some people DO have issues like me and some people need help like me not everyone is like you. Not only do they say shit like this but they throw out that word that I dont like...'normal'. GGGRR it makes me wanna rip somebody to shreds. Ya I have a new doctor person now, you guys know the kind I am talking about, anyways ya shes this lil old japanese ladie who was pissing me off. She talked to me like I was this little kid with not enough brain cells to communicate with her so when she asked a question concerning me cuze I am the patient, she looked at my mom for an answer...worthless cow. Ok I feel better now that I have bitched and ranted...have a lovely day. =)
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2004 11 January :: 12.41pm
:: Mood: distressed
:: Music: Korn
Hey everybody, hope you all are doing well...last night Alexis, Jimmy, Sam, and I all went to DR and that was a lot of fun. Me and Lex tried clothes on originally it was for the guys but they left so me and Lexi showed each other the clothes it was pretty funny. Its really weird I dunno whats wrong with me I dont think I am depressed but I feel empty like something is missing??? Its pissing me off. I dunno...I dont have that many things that make me happy anymore. I have Alexis and Sam and a few other people and my parents and thats it...all the things that use to make me happy I don't have anymore. Like if I lost one of those people who are important to me I would become suicidal most likely. Like Sam whenever I am with him I feel safe and happy and I forget about all my problems and if I lost him I dont know what I would do he means so much to me its unexplainable how I feel...I am really lucky to have these people in my life and I hope they know how important they are to me and how much I care about them, they know who they are. Its really strange a few nights ago I had the weirdest dream.It started out by me and Alexis standing in a field waiting because Jimmy, Jacob, and Sam were all coming to meet us, so ya and then we see Jimmy and Jacob walking towards us and Jimmy's eyes were all red and he hugged me and I was like "wheres Sam?!" and hes like "Sam was just in a car accident...hes in the hospital right now in an acoma..." and then I started crying and then I am in the hosipital crying next to his bed and Sam wakes up and I told him I loved him and that he cant die. The next day hes out of the hospital and I go to meet him at the end of my street and hes sitting on this wall thing and I go and sit on his lap and start crying and I tell him I love him. That was basically it, there were other smaller details but thats about all. I dont think I will be writting in here for like a week, I have to concentrate on school work because I am determined to get A's and B's this quarter and I am also getting ready for my new dog. Hopefully the next time I write in here I wont be so fucked up, its selfish of me to feel like this and shit. O well.
"Deep Inside"
I'm not doing great
I feel like I'm dead
Not thinking straight
Inside my body, troubled, full of hate
I had to let it out before it's too late
Deep Inside, It can hide!
Feeling so lost and betrayed
why does this happen to me everytime
Stuck in this place, where I can't escape
Screaming and clawing from deep inside
Why won't it fade
Outside I had to lie; "I'm ok",
I hope someday, I'll stop getting pain
I guess this is a lie, I have made
Deep Inside, It can hide!
Feeling so lost and betrayed
why does this happen to me everytime
Stuck in this place, where I can't escape
Screaming and clawing from deep inside
What am I doing?
I can't believe this
I have been hiding
Wanting to be less
Giving to people,
They take from me
Always they bring drama to me
Look, look at me now
NOWWWWWWWW
Feeling so lost and betrayed
why does this happen to me everytime
Stuck in this place, where I can't escape
Screaming and clawing from deep inside
I can't stand all this fucking Pain
Please god just go away
Please god just make the pain...
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2004 10 January :: 1.20pm
:: Mood: bouncy
QUIZZES!!!!!!!! =D
 'Complete Psycho' PLEASE VOTE!!!
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 Barbie Got Back! Go you! You're the closest thing ever to a true black Barbie. Shake that fat ass of yours.
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 You're taffy!! You're a clever and kind person, but you tend to hold grudges. You are not big on dishing out forgiveness.
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 You are a dark goddess!
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 YOU ARE A WHITE ROSE!
You are a pure and innocent person. You strive for the best in all things and shy away from anything that seems morally wrong or indecent. You are simply too good of a person to engage in those sorts of behaviors. You are quite shy and tend to have few friends. However, the friends you do have regard you with love and fondness. You are extremely loyal to both your morals and your friends who support you. You can feel lonely at times, but it's a small price to pay for sticking to what you believe in. You are one of the few real innocents in the world - Congratulations!
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 YOU ARE A BIRD!
You are a creature of the air, filled with life and energy. Your freedom is precious to you - any kind of confinement is the worst punishment anyone can inflict upon you. You are an explorer and love to try new things and experiences. You are open and honest with the world, and aren't afraid to express yourself freely. Others may envy your free-spirit, so be wary of those who would seek to reign you in.
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2004 9 January :: 6.24pm
:: Mood: aggravated
This week went by so damn slow jeeze I thought it would never end. I'm so tired I hate always being tired no matter how much I sleep it doesn't matter. I will sleep 12 hours straight and when I wake up I will be awake like 5-8 hours and then be hella tired again, grrrr. My toes are cold. I get my dog in one week! It pisses me off though cuze 1)I wanted to get her today 2)The other woman who gets first pick still hasn't picked yet and if she picks the one I want I am gonna butcher her and take the dog and 3)I am a very impatient person and I hate waiting. So ya next Friday I will have my puppy. =)
IMPORTANT: IF ANYBODY HAS ANY GOOD PICTURES OF GOTHIC GIRLS IN EYELINER PLEASE EMAIL IT TO ME!!! FireHotBlondy@aol.com
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2004 6 January :: 10.35pm
:: Mood: sleepy and worried
{[Beginning]}
1-What time is it?: 8:39 PM
2-What is the date?:Janurary 6, 2004
3-Why are you filling this out?: bored
{[ Me You ]}
1-Name:Ashley Marie Everts
2-Do you like it?:its okay
3-Nicknames: Ash, Ashes, Ashy, Kiwi, Woody, Shorty
4-If you could change your first name, what would it be?: Andrea
5-DOB: what? oh i get it 7/14/03
6-Height:5'1 =) I'm tiny!
7-Hair color: Different shades of blonde, but I want black god damn it!
8-Eye color: aqua
9-Where do you live?:Phoenix, AZ
11-Do you like it? Why/Why not: I like living here ya its cool
12-Where were you born?: Palm Springs, Cali
13-Astrological sign: Cancer that kick ass crab man!
14-Shoe Size: 7-8 lol
15-School: Pinnacle Hish School aka Hell
{[ Family ]}
1-Parents' names:Debra, Thomas
2-Do you have any siblings?: yeah
3-If so, what are their names and ages?: Emily, shes 11?
4-Are your parents divorced/remarried/single?: they r married, amazing eh?
5-Pets (names and what they are): Long list... bandit hes a Pembroke welsh corgi, Panzer hes a boxer, Plummeria, shes a cocketeil, Persila a parakeet, Angel a guinea pig and my soon to be puppy Sadira, shes a shiba inu
6-Do you like your family: yeah most of the time
7-Favorite relative: My aunt sandy, pam, and roberta and my uncle mike, david
{[ Favorites ]}
1-Number:18
2-Color: black
3-Car: to many to name
4-Season: spring
5-Holiday: Christmas
6-Month: May June July
7-Day of the week:Friday
8-Grade so far: 9th
9-Sport: Equestrian Events-Show Jumping
10-Class: English, Art
11-Teacher so far: My art teachers seems cool i dunno her name i have only had her for 2 days but shes nice to me and doesn't judge me like most do and MR APPLEMAN everyone loves him
12-Drink: Pepsi baby!
13-Candy: Chocolate and gummy thingies
14-Food: Ice Cream, Chinese, Sushi
15-Fruit: hhmm...cherries
16-Veggie: PEAS
17-Dessert: ANYTHING!!!
18-TV show: uh i dont watch that much tv but i like Bernie Mac and a couple others
19-Radio station: 103.9
20-CD: idk
21-Movie: Girl, Interuppted anD Trapped in a Purple Haze and Schindlers List and XXX!
22-Songs: uhm....too many.
23-Word: weenie =)
24-Phrase: i have many
25-Animal: Dog, Horse, Black Panther, Tiger
26-Flower: Plummeria
27-Clothing store:hhmm to many
{[ this or that ]}
1-Me/You: wha???
2-AOL/AIM : aim
3-CD/Cassette: CD
4-DVD/VCR: dvd
5-Radio/CD: depends
6-Jeans/Khakis:jeans for god sakes
7-Car/Truck: truck man!
8-Corvette/Camero:hhmm probly camero
9-Strong/Weak: strong.
10-Upset/Pissed: pissed
11-Tall/Short: depends
12-Lunch/Dinner:dinner i dont eat lunch or breakfast
13-Abercrombie/Hollister:Hollister that have denim skirts...and thats it i dont shop either but if i see a denim mini i will buy it
14-Gap/Old Navy: eeeww
15-Nsync/BSB:nah
16-Britney/Christina:Christina
17-Love/Lust: love
18-Rocky Horror Picture Show/ Grease:huh?
19-Inside/Outside: in but outside if its raining!
20-Lipstick/Lipgloss:good question...
21-Silver/Gold: silver
22-Piercings/Tattoos: Piercings i gess
23-Football/Basketball:?
24-Thunder/Lightning: lightning.
25-This/That:wtf
{[ Friends ]}
1-Who is your best guy friend?: ????
2-Do you get along with people easily?: depends if i like them or not if i dont like them i will let them know it but the select few i like i am a good person and i got their back (hopefully they think this as well)
3-Why/Why not: cuze i am i a god damn fuckin bitch thats why u piece of shit survey!!!!
4-Who have you known the longest?: Alexis, 10 years
5-Who do you dislike the most?: hhmm the most? there r many but the one i would have the most fun killing would be doug and ryan
6-Was your crush/bf/gf a close friend before you liked them?:lol no not really
7-Craziesest" were a;ready all pretty crazy but lexi i guess and momo when shes hyper
8-Loudest: momo and leesha
10-Quietest: libby
11-Sweetest: all of them
12-Most caring: stephy
13-Most understanding: lexi, stephy
14-Best dressed: all in there own lil way
15-Biggest flirt: momo
16-Most likely to have a 2 year relationship:leesh libby stephy lex
17-Cutest couple: i dunno?
18-Most loyal: Stehpy and lexi
19-Most athletic: leesha
20-If you were stuck with only 2 friends, who would you pick and why?: lexi and stephy i think
21-If you could date ONE guy friend, who would you date and why?:sam cuze hes my bf and hes wonderful and i dont need any other guy when i have him
22-If you were the opposite sex, which member of the same sex (as you are now) would you date and why?:wft?
23-Most likely to be on a Most Wanted show:alexis lol
24-Most likely to be a stripper: all of my girls!
25-Doctor: hmmm?
26-Teacher: ??
27-Stay at home Mom:???
28-One you'd travel across the world for:sam alexis and stephanie
29-If you could take 5 friends to paradise with you to live, who would you take and why would they be the best?: ???
31-Who would do anything for a thousand credits?: wtf.
32-Who has the nicest parents?: wendy!
33-Who is like your adopted sister/brother?:lexi
34-Who is the most like you?: lexi
{[ Love + Relationships ]}
1-Do you have a bf/gf?:yes =)
2-If not, do you have a crush?:..
3-If so, who?: ..
4-What about them do you like so much?:Its a very long list
5-How long have you known them?: I've known about him since like mid 8th grade
6.-What are they like?: wonderful
7.-Made you cry?no
8-If you're single, why do you think you are?:i'm not
9-Who was your first love (if you've had one)?: .....
10-Do you miss them (if you're not still together)?: no
11-Who is one person you've liked but NEVER said a thing?: no one
12-Who is the most beautiful person you know?: most of my friends in a different way, theyre all beautiful people
{[ Past ]}
1-If you could take back one thing you did, what would it be and why?: dating ryan
2-Do you have any regrets?:^^^
3-Last thing you said: uhhh
4-Last song you heard: uh i cant remeber
5-Last person you talked to: i am talking to sam and tony this moment?
{[ Present ]}
1-What are you doing right now?:doing this and thinking about getting something to drink
2-What CD is in your CD player?:Tool Mix
3-Are you cold?: kinda lol
4-How are you sitting?:i am sitting indian style in this cold chair
5-Is there music on?: no
6-What time is it?: 9:14
7-Where are your parents?: one at work and one in living room
{[ Future ]}
1-How old will you be when you graduate high school?:17
2-Are you going to get married?: 50/50
3-Although you cant tell who you'll marry, is there anyone you'd wish it would be?:?
4-Are you going to have children?: fuck nah
5-If yes, how many?: zip zero none
6-What will you name them?:nonexisitent
7-Do you want to go to University?:?
8-Which college: haven;t chosen yet
9-What kind of job will you have:???
10-What's your expectations for when your 25?: colledge
{[ Have you ever ]}
1-Drank: ya
2-Smoked: .....
3-Skinny Dipped: yes
4-Prank called the police:no
5-Been followed, etc. by the police:not police no
6-Been high: no
7-Met someone off the net:ya
8-Been in a fist fight: no *sigh* they wouldn;t fuckin hit me back
9-Punched your sibling/parent: sibling ya i gave her a black eye
10-Wished you'd die: every other day
11-Tried to commit suicide: not intentionally no
12-Broken a bone: no
13-Driven illegally: no
14-Thrown things at your parents: no
15-Had parents throw things at you: no
16-Runaway: yeah
17-Filled out a survey this long?:ya
{[ Others ]}
1-Do you write in cursive or print?: print
2-Are you a lefty, righty, or ambidextrous: right
3-Do you believe in Gods?: ya
4-What do you think of rainbows?:fuckin annoying i dont like the colors
5-Do you have any piercings/tattoos?:My ears and i will be getting tattos around 2
6-If not, do you want any, where?: uh huh
7-What do you think of Eminem?: hhmm
8-Is Tupac Shakur really dead?: ?ya?
9-What do you think of Britney and Justin?:both weenie haha britany is retarted she married while she was drunk whut a moron
10-If you could live anywhere else, where would you live?:oregon
11-Do you drive? yea
12-Do you have braces or glasses?:braces
13-Like milk and cookies?: screw the milk i like cookies
14-Ever worn black nail polish?:yes indeed!
15-What color nail polish do you have on?: clear on finger nails and this ugly color on my toes i thought it was a red and its this pinkish purplish reddish shit i am color blind
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16-Do you do things even when your parents say no?: yeah a lot
17-What is your favorite song to "rock out" to?: ?
18-Ever taken anything from a hotel?: soap!19-Did you talk to your crush/bf/gf today?: yes i talk to him everyday
20-If so, for how long?: idk i dont time it
21-If not, why not?: ....
22-Do you think this is stupidly long?: good question, i think some of these questions r stupid but hey i'm bored
23-Did you like it?: sure, whut ever flips ur burger
24-Why/Why not: !?!?!?!
{[ Finish ]}
1-What time is it?: 9:24
2-What is the date?: still the same u piece of...
3-Why did you just do this?: bordom god damn it u asked me this question already wtf is wrong with u cant u remeber!!!!
I hope your doing okay Steph I missed you and I hope your okay, I love you.
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2004 5 January :: 7.35pm
:: Mood: cheerful
I had a lovely day! Winter break ended and we went back to school today. I have gym with Lexi =) and then I have art. Our math class had a lot of ppl taken out of it cuze they were "distractive" Momo left *tear* but Amanda Sikes left too which means TOTAL SWEETNESS BABY! I hate that goddamn bitch. So even though were in school again and I dont like school, I think this semester is gonna kick wicked ass! =D
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2004 4 January :: 4.31pm
:: Mood: gloomy
:: Music: My dad is watching football so all I hear is yelling...
 Ghost or spirit: You are a lost soul. Very calm and sweet, you are often the one who asks: What if? With a clever mind, you want to explore the world on a different level. Without the answers, you aren't ready to move on. You are most likely very creative and find yourself thinking things through on a different level. (please rate my quiz)
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 You, my friend are a true individual. You most likely hate trends and are creative. By seeing things differently, people either admire you or think you are a bit strange. I'm guessing you are a lot like me. Perhaps a Good Charlotte hater? I hope so. An inspiration to us all, continue being you! (If you like GC, I'm sorry, I am just expressing an opinion)
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 Rain: You are the sound of rain. You have two important sides. There is your strong, powerful side and your calm, gentle side. Both are very important. Rain also reflects a bit of darkness in your personality. It isn't bad, just shows that along with the good, you also can see bad, which can come in handy. (please rate my quiz)
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2004 3 January :: 4.07pm
:: Mood: Sad & Cold
:: Music: Goo Goo Dolls-Iris
Its really cold and I'm sad...I wanna go cry in my bedroom or something, I'm gonna go get something to eat.
Iris
And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
And sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yhea you bleed just to know you're alive
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
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2004 2 January :: 10.00pm
:: Mood: depressed
Hi guys...hope you all had a good New Year (if you considerate that a holiday...i personally dont give a fuck but some people think of it as a holiday? go figure) School starts back up Monday, oh joy. I hate school and 3/4 the student population, not to mention the evil teachers that top everything off. It pisses me off...a lot of people are changing and it seems like no one is real anymore. I dont really care anymore I guess. As long as I have the people who mean the most to me I'll survive.
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2003 29 December :: 4.59pm
:: Mood: mellow
"...I know what its like to want to die, how it hurts to smile, how you try to fit in with people but you just cant...how you hurt yourself on the outside to kill the pain on the inside..."
^ from the movie "Girl, Interrupted"
I saw that movie last night on TV...and that HAS to be one of the best movies I have ever seen in my life. Its such a good movie and if any of you have the time to see it I encourage you to take the opportunity. It has changed my out look on suicide a lot and its made me think about depression and death etc. Its hard to explain what I think but if you see the movie I think you will understand where I am coming from...so again if you have ever wanted to die at any given point in your life and you've suffered from depression see the movie...
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2003 28 December :: 9.25pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: Kittie
Hey there people, its so fuckin cold...freezing my bum off. I dont really have to much to say, life is kinda stupid right now a lot of people with probs and lots of drama, but i gota stick by them like a good friend. Hopefully shit will get better soon for them, good things take awhile. Life for me has been good for a change so its nice to be happy or somewhat happy. Heres some more quizzes, goddamn these things are addicting!
 You are naturally born with a gift, whether it be poetry, writing or song. You love beauty and creativity, and usually are highly intelligent. Others view you as mysterious and dreamy, yet also bold since you hold firm in your beliefs.
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 Crackwhore Yellow
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 -Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're the kind of chick that can hang out with your boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't care about presents or about going to fancy placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy being around your boyfriend.
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Your soul is bound to the White Rose: The Pure.
"I've been waiting in the dark for a long time, shining my beacon of hope through the shadow. If you see me, don't you hide your eyes from me."
The White Rose is associated with purity, honor, and chastity. It is governed by the goddess Artemis and its sign is The Cross, or Agape.
As a White Rose, you are a person of your word. You may have a strong moral code, but regardless of your virtue, you always stay true to yourself. To you, love is the most pure of emotional forms and it's just a matter of waiting for it to bless you. Some people may say you are too idealistic, but it's only because you don't want to mess things up.
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 A GAME-BOY. Youre like a tomboy without the love of sports. Reality sucks, but as long as you have your electronics you feel you can cope. Time goes unnoticed when youre locked in your room hooked up to your Nintendo, rocking to your favourite collection of guitar-driven albums.
Your virtues: Intelligence, sense-of-humour, individuality.
Your flaws: Inability to cope with real life, action-freak spirit, reclusive nature.
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2003 25 December :: 6.38pm
:: Mood: mellow
:: Music: Fuckin Annoying Christmas Music
MERRY FUCKIN CHRISTMAS BITCHES!!!!
Hello people and Happy Holidays, ya know it dont seem like Christmas to me, dunno why, I think its cuze Phoenix just started getting a bit colder a few weeks ago, so maybe thats the problem! THE TEMPERATURE! Oh well. I don't have much to say at the moment but here are some quizzes I am taking cuze I'm bored. =)
 Bondage movie! You're into BSDM (Bondage & Discipline, Dominance & Submission) and chances are, you're fond of whips, chains, harnesses, and tight leather outfits. You like to mix a little pain with a LOT of pleasure, baby!
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Your Bedroom Personality Is Aggressive!
You are in control. Period.
What this means:
You decide when, how often, and how to have sex.
Your partner gets little to no say...
Your sex style tends toward sadistic, even if you don't inflict pain.
What your lovers love about you:
You are an ideal mistress or master.
Your lover has the luxury of experiencing pleasure
While relaxing and letting go.
What your lovers can't stand about you:
You are at times overly demanding and bossy
If your lover isn't in the mood, (s)he won't dare tell you
And sexual input? Forget it... you won't even listen.
What's *Your* Bedroom Personality?
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2003 14 December :: 7.01pm
:: Mood: blah
I feel like shit...this girl at my church, well her dad just died last night...her name is Raina. Its so sad cuze her father was a really good person who was always laughing and helping people out around the church and any moron could tell he loved his son and daughter and his wife...but he died last night in a motorcycle accident. I hope her and her family will be alright..........still working on my math paper it has to be at least 25 pages in length, fucking teacher, all he wnated us to do was copy out of the fuckin book so instead of doing other thins that must be done he makes us do this shit and right when finals are coming...wonderful. This week is gonna be a good one though, cuze its very short and this week is the last before winter break! YIPPY SKIPPY! =D I had some other stuff I wanted to say but I cant remeber now...well people I am gonna work on my paper now, I cant stall any longer *sigh* buh bye
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2003 11 December :: 6.23pm
:: Mood: resting and thinking
:: Music: piano music by Sally Harman
I didn't go to school today again...I've been really tired, so tomorrow I am going to stay home from school again because I am not ready for finals since I have been sick. Yesterday Steph informed me shes going to the hospital for her cutting as soon as they have a bed open for her. I hope it helps at least a little, I love her very much and it hurts to see her in pain everyday...hopefully they will be able to get her on the right track with medication and stuff...if this doesn't help I am going to be scared. Its not fair...some of the kindest people that I know have had some of the hardest lives...they didn't deserve any of it, but I guess its their experiences that have made them such strong and wonderful people. I think to myself sometimes "damn I have such a sucky life" but then I look at my friends and their lives and I see how much pain they have to indoor, whether they have drug addicts for parents or if they get beaten, or if they just don't have parents at all...it makes me think twice about my life and how I should never take ANYTHING for granted. I hope that the people who have to live everyday in pain will be able to truely be happy one day...
help me
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