:: 2004 31 May :: 11.01 pm
:: Mood: confused

Just had this convo

ImWearingNikeAF1 [10:53 PM]: hello
MzMica [10:53 PM]: I thought I wasnt allowed to talk to you
MzMica [10:53 PM]: hi though
ImWearingNikeAF1 [10:53 PM]: what she dont know wont hurt her
MzMica [10:53 PM]: lol your call
ImWearingNikeAF1 [10:54 PM]: and its not like we talk abotu anything that is that big anyway
MzMica [10:54 PM]: I'm sorry if my phone call got you in trouble... I just wondered how you've been lately
ImWearingNikeAF1 [10:54 PM]: its ok
ImWearingNikeAF1 [10:54 PM]: eh im ok my car is goin to blow up but im gettin a new one anyway
ImWearingNikeAF1 [10:54 PM]: how you been ?
MzMica [10:55 PM]: fan-freakin-tastic
ImWearingNikeAF1 [10:55 PM]: find a guy ?
MzMica [10:56 PM]: lol yes, but thats not the only reason I'm happy
ImWearingNikeAF1 [10:56 PM]: why else ?
MzMica [10:56 PM]: just happy, I dunno
ImWearingNikeAF1 [10:56 PM]: lol ok
ImWearingNikeAF1 [10:57 PM]: i cant do it ive got to go
MzMica [10:57 PM]: huh
ImWearingNikeAF1 [10:57 PM]: i just cant.........bye
MzMica [10:57 PM]: John wait

Thats what I got, then he signed off. Hmmm I dunno. I refuse to read into it. But I really wish I knew what was up. Was he afraid of getting caught? cuz thatd just be sad. Or maybe theres more to it than that. I dunno. I really wish I knew.

So hey John if ya still read my journal... fill me in... please

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:: 2004 29 May :: 9.13 pm

kiss on the lips - you're sweet and simple but
quite daring. you move for the kill confidently
knowing the other person wants the same thing.


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:: 2004 29 May :: 8.40 pm
:: Mood: happy

eeeee

I'm goin drinkin and that makes me happy!

Full report tomorrow.

gimmie a ring

:: 2004 29 May :: 3.48 pm
:: Mood: gick

yes gick with a g
So I still dont feel good and now to top it all off I have crazy thinkin issues lately.

Stayed at Shawns yesterday. It was nice. Even told the parents thats where I was staying. Yep. So we babysat his little cousins. 12, 10, and 5. One girl, the 5 year old. WAY CUTE! Just really really cute kid. We watched movies played at the park. Then it got really late and she comes in the room with her pjs and asks me to paint her nails. LOL HOW CUTE. So she kicks the boys out of the room so we can have "girl talk" lol yeah girl tal at 5 years old. Basically I painted her nails and she told me all the gossip about her kindergarden class. lol. it was cute.

Then the kids went to bed and we played. It was fun of course. lol.

Ok so here is where the thinking comes in. I dont know if I want to be with Shawn. There are just some things that very much remind me of John. And I dont really want to have those things again. I mean when I was with John the things I didnt like I overlooked because I loved him. Well I dont love Shawn... I like him a lot... but come on, its been a week. So I dont know if I should break things off now before I do get all those gicky feelings in the way. I dunno. I dont feel like dating another John. Not at all.

Side note- Randy just IMed me today... actually I'm talking to him now. Hes getting married! And Tim is proposing this fall... how is it that all my ex's are getting married. Tim, Randy, Keith. lol geesh... I feel a little left out. lol.

Lets see I was thinky about other things too... oh yes... one I will not tell you all about. Its a thing. A thinkin thing. Yeah I'm done with that.

The other is that I got an e-mail from John saying that he doenst want to talk to me anymore because its pissing off his gf. And I understand. Its fine with me, I dont need to be pissing anyone off. But at the same time I feel bad for him. First thought that came to mind was WOW highschool. I think that hes making a mistake now that he will regret when he is older and can see 'damn what a controling bitch'. I dunno. His life. I just hate to see him get into a relationship like that. Not that I want him back, I just want to see him in a happy healthy relationship. You know what I mean.

So lots of thoughts today. Yes. Now I will continue to have this awkward convo with Randy

gimmie a ring

:: 2004 27 May :: 8.08 pm

still sick
Just did lotsa homework... good job me.

I dont feel good. And I'm waiting for Mal and Becca to come over to watch Old School. Yes, those are the plans for tonight.

Tomorrow more fun will be had... lots more.

I'll leave my journal at that. Although I prolly could just tell everything I think now, cuz I'm pretty sure Mal is the only one that reads this. So hey if you arent Mal leave a comment and I'll start spillin to you too. lol.

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