:: 2003 24 November :: 8.35 am
:: Mood: happy

Ellz still has it goin on
I'm happy today. It just feels like a good day. A little school, a little work, a little dance, A LITTLE PACKIN TO GO HOME! Then for A LOT OF SLEEPING. I dont know why but I've been freakishly tired lately. Last night Mal and I hung up our door then I went right to bed.... had to shower this morning, I was just too tired last night. And thats been how its been going lately. I get so tired I have to wake up early the next day. Heck look at me now. 8 something in the morning and I'm showered, dressed, and sitting here with my PB&J (on a bagel cuz its morning) and OJ.... wow my food has lots of letters. And I dont have class till 9. Now if ya know me at all you see the problem here.
Ok but never the less.... I have a good feeling about today. WOO HU! (haha, like how I worked that in there?)

gimmie a ring

:: 2003 20 November :: 12.17 am
:: Mood: blah

ellz- thats who has the latest donation
So I got an 82% on a really hard exam on Tuesday. Its the hardest class I have and I've never even been close to an 82 before. But oh well. The overall HUGE amounts of happiness has been overshadowed by a new sense of self actualization.
I wont go into details because I am trying to avoid the many lectures that would be flung at me from all directions. So very vaguely I will say that as a person, overall, I feel pretty inadiquate. I just don't feel like I have much to offer. And it has been like this for awhile. But not until recently have I seen that the things that I used to comfort myself with by saying "At least you can do this..." or "At least this is right..." I have decided that I was full of shit the whole time. And now all I can do is try to make the things I used to comfort myself with reality. I will work on it, maybe one day it will work. Ok done talking... giving too many details. And I have to stop now. So please, dont everyone freak out at me at once.
Thankyou
Good day

gimmie a ring

:: 2003 13 November :: 12.00 pm
:: Mood: geeky

How do you be geeky.... hmmm
So far so good. This week has been pretty medium on the mica good week scale. I'm preparing myself to fail a test at 1 today.... quiz actually. And I get 3 drops. This will deffinately be a drop. can't say that I know what the heck is going on in this chapter.
Dyed Mal's hair last night. I must pat myself on the ass for this one. Turned out way cute. And looks like it actualy took some talent. And I have black all over my fingers but it doesnt matter cuz my roomate has cute hair! lol
Missing John like no other. But its Thursday. I have to work and am antisipating a freakishly busy night but in a way thats good. Then there is no smushy I miss you time and I can get through a week happy and good and then go to Lansing and have an ALWAYS AMAZING weekend! Best part of the week right there.
Also, for all you readers. I am choreographing a jazz dance and I would like ideas for songs. First off it Doesnt have to be to jazz music (that seems to be peoples first question). And 2nd Jazz is sorta like hip hop. But more of a flowy technique needin kinda thing. Not like clubbin crap but like jazz. More ballet-ish... BUT NOT SLOW. People have been giving me slow songs and that just doesnt work. I am looking for something stylized. Ya know maybe a latin flair, or an ethnic feel, or a sneaky sneaky ambience. (yeah big vocab, no dictionary.com). Ok if you have ideas I'd love em! thank ya thank ya

gimmie a ring

:: 2003 11 November :: 1.36 am
:: Mood: chipper

I put my hand upon your hip...
So I sit here with a funny looking cap on my head. There is also dye all over me staining me.... it looks like I have hickies all over cuz the red dye on my skin. Yet I am happy. I hope that this all turns out for me. But it has been a fun trip anyway. Now I will need to get in the shower soon. But ontop of all this hair dyeing stuff I've been thinking.
John- I've been thinking about you. And this is what I've come up with... I have never been happier. Things are going really well right now and I love it. We've had our rocky times and I am so glad that we've worked through them. So many couples break up or change for the worse when they have to do the college thing. And I just feel so lucky that we have done it. I'm not saying that it has been easy or that I would like to do it again but I am so glad that everything has worked. I am truely lucky to have such a great boyfriend. I LOVE YOU HUNNY!

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:: 2003 6 November :: 9.31 pm
:: Mood: content

Confused
Ok so that mood has passed. Still kinda ick about it all but why dwell on things. Now there is a new mood. One of confusion.

No codes will be used here as stated on Crank Yankers "The names have not been changed. Screw the Innocent"

Frist off everyone please go read journal entry dated Sept. 18 2003...

Now that that is done. Flat out everyone should know that was mica pissed because of Deline. In fact we havent talked since. He even skipped my birthday. Needless to say I dont quite consider him the friend that he was to me before. In the past Mike was the "Male-Mica" then we parted ways and I fail to see similarities in the new Mike (yes truely he has changed and I dont just say that because of the Mal situation. I know that was crap and I have made mental allowances for that... but overall there has been a change).
So I think it is odd to find him still reading my journal, but I dont mind. Beyond that I find it odd for him, of all people to be agreeing with it.
Yall read the journal entry on the 18th, so I dont see how he agrees if a similar event lead to the demise of a friendship. I'm confused on the whole Deline situation. What does he agree on? Does he see the irony of him agreeing? Cuz I sure as poo do!

gimmie a ring