:: 2005 6 October :: 2.01 pm
:: Mood: groggy

I'm kinda sleepy
Today is just one of those days. I have nothing that I need to get done and nothing that I really feel like doing. I just feel like a lump. I was way looking forward to today until it started. I really have nothing to do today, no car either, so I was looking forward to just sleeping till I woke up then doing my homework and having a very responsible day. Well, work called at 10 and then I was up. Ashley was on a lets go out and do something kick, so I went tanning then to meijer. Bought a toaster... now I can toast my bagels YUM! So, it was a good day, just not the one I had planned.
Also talked to mom today about the car search. Dad has my car all picked out in his head, he just has to find it now. From the sounds of it he is very set on getting me a Ford. And I am really car dumb so I just kinda go with whatever he says. So Ford, car, either a Taurus or an Escourt. And I think he wants me to have a 6 cylinder so it looks like he's out to find a Ford Taurus. So if anyone you know.....
Back to my groggy feeling. Yep, I dunno what it is lately that is making me feel like this. I have moments where I'm happy and when I'm in a good mood, but really I just feel kinda hollow. Meh who knows, will get over it right? Might try the church thing, been awhile since I've gone. And now I pretty much always work on Sundays, so we'll see what I can do. Kari gets so excited about going to church on Sundays, I should find where she goes and go. OH I talked to Kari today... I love that girl and I miss her so much. We never get to work together anymore which is a shame cuz shes definitely my favorite. One day I might just go in just to see her!
Now I'm gonna take a nap and wake up in a much better mood... then shower, I smell like tanning.

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:: 2005 4 October :: 7.32 pm
:: Mood: not good

balh
Ever had those days where you just feel alone? Well today is that day. Think about it, I basically live alone, I dont really have friends at school, nor do I really have friends here in Cedar. I miss Grand Valley. I miss having people who care about me around everyday. I dont like this living in Cedar thing. It just makes me feel alone.

gimmie a ring

:: 2005 3 October :: 4.06 pm
:: Mood: grrrr

Why does my date work here and not at my apartment?
So I'm at my parents house. Why? Cuz on my way home from class today I decided to get food in Cedar. That doesn't explain while I'm here huh? Well cuz during the process of getting food my car didn't start again. Which has been a problem lately. It not starting, it squeeking, the random almost stalls, and most recently the not so important door. Well, I vowed not to tell dad about it as he does not believe these problems really exist. So after about 15 minutes of trying to start my car (not concecutively I know that if you try too much its bad) it still didnt start. So I called dad and told him what was wrong. He, of course, got grumpy. So I got grumpy back. I told him that I just needed to be picked up or he could try to start it and that it would prolly work for him since everything always works for him. I told him that its not the first time it happened (he should know that though as I've had to call mom for non-start issues before). So he got grumpy of "grrr why doesnt your car work and why dont you tell me these things" To which my not so smart answer was "because you never believe me, you think I'm just making everything up and that I'm just a dumb girl who doesnt know how to work a car!" Then my car started and I dove it here so he can look at it. Yeah, hes not gonna find anything, its been in the shop 3 times, what makes me think its gonna magically fix itself today? Grrr I hate cars. I also made the mistake of telling him that one day this is going to happen in Muskegon and then whats he gonna want me to do? That just made him more grumpy cuz I dont think he likes to think about me breaking down all the way in Muskegon. But come on folks I almost died earlier and then almost stranded somewhere else... pretty soon my almosts arent going to be almosts. (oh and I almost died by pullin out into traffic to have my car almost stall... no worries though, I pulled over and made it work)

I woke up this morning thinking it was going to be a bad day. And I thought that it was bad becasue I left my cell phone at home (at least I hope its at home.) And I thought I wouldnt do so great on my med term quiz. Turns out the phone thing does suck, but I lived without it and I did pretty well on my med terms. Dunno my grade yet, but I feel as though I didnt suck it up a lot.

So to sum up my day so far... no good
yeah for med term quiz, boo for cars
someone make me smile.

gimmie a ring

:: 2005 1 October :: 6.30 pm
:: Mood: meh

For real much better
Much Much better. Thats all I have to say. I worked today, got out at 6 instead of 5:30 cuz no one told me what time it was. Basically I worked alone today and I loved it. Gave me time to re-adjust my head. I guess every year the whole store has to count everything that it has. So I sat in the old speaker room and counted all of our candy. Fun huh? Nope, but it gave me time to think. I think that I dont think enough. I tend to push everything aside and tell myself I'll have time to deal with it later. Well guess what? I never have time later. So eventually everything gets so stuffed up that I'll freak out over something tiny. Like last night. So it was good just to sit and think things through.
I've had a lot of life changes recently and I've kinda just ran with em. Never thought them through that much. So I had time to do that. I mean think about it, I switched schools, moved, thought I'd move again, didnt move, gained a bf, and a cat (the cat was more thinking than youd ever imagine). And basically I came up with that I'm really glad with the way my life is going. While I dont have friends at school and I'm sad to leave my old ones I think it is a smart choice to switch and Im slowly making new friends, I mean come on its been 2 days. The move with Ashley I dunno about. I like it but I dont. I think my main issue is that she is never here. It'd be nice to have someone to help clean (for as little as that girls here she sure makes a mess) and to have someone here when I ligitamately have questions (I dont have the landlords number). Charlie, I can't say enough good things about. He's completely unlike my ex's which is great. If he was like any of my ex's I'd worry... afterall, they are ex's. But he treats me so wonderfully that I think it just takes some getting used to. Its sad when you have to adjust to being treated nicely. Then theres Lola. I love her to death but she is so much work. Ashley brought her home and I think hasnt fed her yet. So basically shes my responcibility, and one I dont really want. But I love her ya know, how can you get rid of a cat? If she wasnt here I'd miss her. Life would be easier, but I'd miss her.
Well, thoughts are all outta my head... now to put some med terms in!

And if you read this Charlie, call, IM, or stop by. Nothing important, just wanna say hi!

gimmie a ring

:: 2005 1 October :: 10.42 am
:: Mood: accomplished

much better
So last night was a weird mood huh? I think I'm better now. I've just about convinced myself that it's all just me being weird... Just about.

Today I'm in a pretty blah mood. Not really happy, but definitely not sad either. Just blah.

I did however wake up early and do some homework. 5/8 lessons for my med term class. So after work I just have to finish that then work on my oral comm homework (a brain dead idiot could do my oral comm homework). So yeah, big night in store for me huh?

gimmie a ring