:: 2004 8 July :: 12.32 pm
:: Mood: calm

hehehehe

Last night I went out with Rob.... Holy wonderful. He is such a gentleman. We went to dinner and he opens doors (car to get in and resturants), pulls out chairs, and heres the kicker... orders. It was so cute! Then we came back to my house and watched a movie all cuddled up on the couch.

And we had good talks. Even though we both say no relationship, I dunno sometimes it sounds like it without even meaning it to. He asked me if I'd bring him dinner when he is working nights for harvest. Hes like "If you dont then I wont see you for like two weeks, please come visit me" MELT! Who would say no. Then we talked about when we go to school. He wants me to visit and he wants to visit. SIGH! Emma be ready for a visitor! I dunno, great guy.... tryin not to fall for him.

Tonight I go to his house. Meet his parents and stuff I guess. I dunno he wants to cook dinner for me... I think he wants other things too... lol. Oh well. It'll be a fun night. Fun for all... maybe not all... but for me at least :-)

Ok I'm gonna stop talking now. Let me know what yall thinkin. I really wanna know.

gimmie a ring

:: 2004 6 July :: 3.47 pm
:: Mood: chipper

hi all

I'm in a good mood and I like it. Nothing special has happened. Going out with my good friend Ashley. Mal was supposed to go to. I'm getting the feeling that Mal isnt as happy with me as she used to be. I dunno what it is. But its like I only hear about her through other people, never through her anymore. Maybe its that whole not living together now thing. Hopefully things get fixed when we move to GVSU. I dunno. I miss my stupid weekly "hey what you doin this week?" I tell her and she tells me "Well lets do something on (insert day here)" Those were nice. Now I hardly see her and when I do talk to her or see her or somethin its not the same. Dunno maybe its me. Prolly is. Lotsa things are changing with me.

I'm finally truely enjoying life. And hopefully not hurting anyone in the process. I'm truely over John, even though some nights I'm more over him than others. I'm just having fun. And I've got to say, its about damn time. I like that I can go out and do things and not feel the way I did before. I'm glad that I'm out doing things and not thinking what I did before. I'm glad I'm not sitting at the damn crying anymore. I am happy now. And whatever I had to do to get happy, no matter how much some people disagree with it, it was worth it. It was worth everything, and worth all the shit people talk, and think, just to finally be happy.

gimmie a ring

:: 2004 5 July :: 1.44 pm
:: Mood: nava

not a real word but it makes sense to me

Sunday, 4th of July, my favorite holiday. Drinkin with Buckly out at RJ's. Lotsa fun. The people there were so much fun. Crazy drunk guy always with the jokes and the re-inactments. Do you know how funny it is to see drunken renactments of bouncer stories.... over and over and over again.. hillarious.

Then we had the fireworks on the bridge. I LOVE FIREWORKS! But these ones were not that good. Beautiful fireworks but in a bad location... too much neck looking upage.

Then we went back to our cars at the intersection. Did our own fireworks there. Those guys are crazy. Riding down ramps on hanger things and shopping carts. Lighting off the big magnum fireworks under construction barrels. Almost died a few times.

Then back to RJ's were there was more drinkin and sitting around a bon fire. Then everyone left. I went with Buck and had already broken cerfew by a good half hour and so just planned on sleeping in my car. But he said that his neighborhood wasnt safe... and it isnt. So I called Mal, who didnt answer her phone. So I told him I would drive to a Meijers (and not the one on 54) and sleep. So then Rob called me. Holy thank the Lord. And he told me to be really safe and drive out to a party at his friends house. So I did and then we just sat in his car for awhile then, after Seth came and sat on the roof with Shawn knocking on the windows, we decided to go inside. I met everyone and they were all super nice. Then he and I went into the spare room and the rest is history.

Woke up this morning. I love waking up with this kid. He holds me before I go to sleep and still holds me when I wake up. And he kisses me awake and he tells me I'm beautiful. And even when its a 'hey gotta get dressed the maids are here looking at us' he would say something more like. "hey hunny we've gotta get going. need me to help you get dressed" Yeah, so theres no good way to say that... but his makes me smile. And thats all that matters.

More stories to tell... but I think I wont tell. Maybe I'll tell Mal, but I really just dont know.

Ok goodbye. Thanks for reading!

gimmie a ring

:: 2004 4 July :: 2.08 pm
:: Mood: little hung over

fun times for all

Went out with Buck last night. Went out to his friend Leifs (sp). It was lotsa fun. Cutest kid ever.. Drason. Hes like 6 and autistic. But SO cute. He was so pumped about people coming over and about fireworks. It was way cute. Then the cats. My special ed cat. Crazy cute cat though. Watched some movies, played some poker. Fun times... mmm hmmm. Now I am going to go get ready for another fun night. Out to Carrie's Mom's house. East Grand Rapids-ish to hang out with basically the same people but in a different house. Ok, shower time.

gimmie a ring

:: 2004 2 July :: 8.08 pm
:: Mood: wet

Just got outta the shower you sickos

So I got home from work today and then took a shower and here I am. I'm getting ready to go hot tubbing with Jeff again. Lets hope he doesnt do another *looks down* "ya wanna" Cuz I cant laugh at the poor kid twice. Anyway, kinda geeked about hot tubbing. Its fun, makes me feel relaxed. Not to mention its kinda fun to have a guy think highly enough of you to shell out the money for a hot tub.

Tomorrow is party with Buckly. We're campin out in a tent in some guys yard and drinking till we cant drink anymore. Then we will wake up and indeed drink more. Then fireworks cuz it will be the 4th of July and who doesnt watch fire works on the fourth.

Gotta think about last years fourth though... prolly shouldnt though. I was with John. We went to the damn. I broke my shoe. lol. And we went down town. Watched fireworks on the bridge. Came home... it was the first time my parents let him stay. Ok, should stop thinking about it. I'll find a truely nice boy one day right? right

As for now, hot tubbing here I come. I should prolly get readier... ya know... find my bathing suit from last time.

Have a happy fourth everyone!

gimmie a ring