:: 2004 1 July :: 10.18 pm
:: Mood: sleepy

My throat still hurts

Last night was a great night. I went to Jays softball game then mini golfing. Lotsa fun was had. Hes a fun kid... definitely. And he lets me cheat at mini golf! First off, points for taking me to play mini golf, then bonus points for cheating with me.

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:: 2004 30 June :: 12.25 pm
:: Mood: eh

eh.
eh.

Out with Jay again tonight. Hung out at the bowling alley with him for a long time yesterday. Brought him and his friends lunch... what a nice girl I am. Tonight its out to his softball game and then just out with him. Should be fun. Hes a nice guy. So far no huge sparks though. But I do feel really comfy. I tell him things that honestly none of you know. And I dont know if I would ever tell you guys. Sorry, love ya to death. But its nice to have a friend that doesnt have standards for you to live up to. I can tell him my mistakes and flaws and he just thinks thats normal mica, where other people would give lectures. Then again, I guess that would be true with any new friend, guy, girl, whatever.

Had a big talk with Rob last night. It was nice. Ya know, just to get everything straightened out again. We're basically exactly where we were, this whole seeing but not seeing, together but not exclusive thing. Good chat, glad we had it. Which for those of you who know me, is a rare thing that I feel like chatting about stuff like that.

Went out with Cedar peeps last night. lol. Fun times. Saw a movie... funny. "If you wanna talk go out in the hall" ... Miss Ellis (she will never be Mrs. Mativa) and her baby... fun times... should happen more often

eh.

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:: 2004 28 June :: 12.27 pm
:: Mood: not good

crying

E-mail from John:

jail time and lots of it thats what is gonna be goin on in my life just in case ya wanted to know probly 5-10 years sucks bein so close to bein 18 well have a good life im gonna go waste away now bye

Well, I guess I know whats up with him now. I wonder what happened and all that stuff. But I guess I'll never know. Damn it I hate this. I feel like its all my fault. When we were together he was such a good kid. Right before we broke up his parents were so excited because he got really good grades. They told him how smart he was and I told him. I mean seriously he's a great kid. And now this. I tried to tell him that he was changing after the break up and that I wanted him to still be John, still be the John I knew and loved. And now this. I feel like its my fault and I hate myself for it. If I never broke up with the kid maybe this wouldnt have happened. In fact, I know this wouldnt have happened. I hate myself for it...

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:: 2004 27 June :: 7.56 pm

Hmmm when was the last time I wrote? I dont really know. I choose to start my story at Thursday.

So Thursday, I went to work then to TJ's. Nothing too exciting to report. Prolly shouldda started my story at Friday.

Friday I went to work, then I went out with my Dena Pickina to buy me a new cellulos. It was a success. IM or e-mail me if you want the phone number or the two way.. if your cool enough I'll give it to ya. Then I hung out at her house. Nichole came to visit. Her and Chris broke up. So, she comes around a bit more. Its nice, shes a fun girl.

Side note- Dps place got broken into. Two big ole guys were banging on the door Thurs night and Dena and Liz were the only ones home and they didnt know em so didnt answer the door cuz it was a mean knock. So they went to sleep and when they woke up the door was open and there was money missing from Ellen and Taylors purses. Come to find out the guys were some one and his friend. Some guy Ellen wouldnt date. So they had to talk to the apartment people and get the tapes of the security cameras.

Saturday- way more interesting. Woke up and got my nails done and then replaced the antenna on my old phone for mom. Then came home and got all ready to go out with Brad. Went and met him in Rockford... no one needs to drive down death road. Well we start drivin towards Grand Haven and the boy gets sick. Pulls over on the side of the road and pukes.... attactive. So we obviously go home. I called up Phil cuz he called me earlier in the day wanting to do something. So I go to his house with the promise of some drinkin. And there is him and his friend Justin and Phils roomate all home. So we run some erronds to kill time before Rush left, he doesnt let minors drink in the house. So we get back and Rush is leaving. Score, we drink. Then we pile in Phils car and go to this Moody guys apartment. drink more. Justin and I screw around. I spit beer on his pants... lots of it. Ummm then we go back to Phils. I basically get carried outta the apartment. Then Justin drives me to Georges where my roomate DD decides not to be. So Justin (who had WAY more than me to drink) drives to Alpine for gas then back to Phils. we play around for awhile and I start to sober up. Then I drive to Mals house. Break in, scare her mom, sleep.

Sunday- Woke up at Mals, to be perfectly honest, a little confused. Then I came home watched 50 first dates then went to Robs. Played around there for awhile then went to Meijers... MAL I HAVE PICTURES OF YOUR BOOBS! And now I'm home and bored. Left alone with my thoughts.

Here they are. Boyfriends, thinking maybe I'm about ready for another one. LOL should prolly stop letting/getting in pants on the first date then huh.

I also wonder about John. Just how hes doin kinda stuff. Everytime I talk to Rob I think about John. Cuz Rob always wonders about Jen who is basically John but a girl. So it makes me wonder about him... wish I could talk to him ya know. I dont wanna get back with him but I just wish we could have an actual conversation. Like more than 5 minutes and just about whats been goin on. I mean I even wonder about his family, how are all of them doin? I dunno... wishful thinking I guess. I'll prolly never hear from the kid in my life.

And those are the thoughts and recaps from the weekend... I'll update again soon

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:: 2004 24 June :: 8.24 am
:: Mood: worky

20 minutes till I go to work
Last update was Sunday... lots has happened since then.

Monday I took my final down at ye ole CC. Went well I think. I dont think I passed it with flying colors but I dont think I should be expecting a D... then again thats what I thought about tests one and two. So, we'll see. That was my monday... I promise the week gets better.

Tuesday I worked till noon. Then came home to find that my road has a HUGE hole in it... no big deal... drive around it. Then I got ready to go meet Dan for our lunch date. Went to leave and the HUGE hole is now a HUGE trench... spans the width of the driveway and beyond. So I went to drive around and got my car stuck... never fear, diggy man saved me and the young diggy man walked me safely across the trench. So then I went to the bank and stuff then met Dan for lunch. Yummy food! Ok conversation. Things just didnt click. Didnt suck, but didnt click. So we hung out for awhile then I went out shopping. Then met up with Jeff to go to Oasis for some hot tubbing. Now THAT was fun! Lets see hung out there then afterwards with him for awhile then went to Mals. After Mals I just came home.

Then there was yesterday... Weds. I worked lots... now have a new driveway on the other side of the telephone pole... its crazy and new fun. ANYWAY! Worked then I went to go see Jasons softball game. The 2nd one got rained out so we all just hung out at the bar. drinks, talks, foods.. fun times had by all.

Each of these nights I've been talking to Brad... nice guy. Looking forward to Saturday!

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