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Snargle!

:: 2005 6 November :: 12.18pm

so the weekend went well. at least the parts i remember.
drinking always makes me feel better about things that make me sad and so now since im not drunk just let me throw this weight off my chest.

FUCK YOU PJ FRENCH.
You are not my friend, you will never again be my friend, do not call me, do not comment, do not even bother trying. You are an asshole and apparently our relationship meant nothing to you. For all of the things I've done, and there have been some bad ones, You are still worse you are still the lowest. I cannot believe your nerve. I cannot believe it at all. Thank God I have Ray who is a decent guy and not an asshole. I can't believe I was with you for so long. You fucking prick.

okay so that was my say, work sucked, but my weekend was good. we stayed at kristens. it was great. we babysat for her adorable kids, who love me and ray, Hayes got up this morning and woke me up to ask if I would watch cartoons with him, how could i say no. And Haven has the biggest crush on ray. so damn cute.
things couldnt be going any better.

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liz	:: 2005 4 November :: 12.06am so funny thing of the day, besides the doughnut thing. "they aren't even boxers they are I can see all your junk trunks" leave a comment

skife

:: 2005 3 November :: 7.49pm

so yeah, i've got a leak in the brake system.... there is no fluid in the master cylinder and the brakes are squishy as poo...

i'm angry.

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liz	:: 2005 3 November :: 12.51pm and so the biggest highlight of my day, or at least what made me laugh the most. "I saw a fat guy eatin' a doughnut once" leave a comment

liz

:: 2005 2 November :: 2.17pm

"Cold"

Looking back at me I see
That I never really got it right
I never stopped to think of you
I'm always wrapped up in
Things I cannot win
You are the antidote that gets me by
Something strong
Like a drug that gets me high

[Chorus x2:]
What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold

To you I'm sorry about all the lies
Maybe in a different light
You could see me stand on my own again
Cause now i can see
You were the antidote that got me by
Something strong like a drug that got me high

[Chorus x2]

I never meant to be so cold

I never really wanted you to see
The screwed up side of me that I keep
Locked inside of me so deep
It always seems to get to me
I never really wanted you to go
So many things you should have known
I guess for me theres just no hope
I never meant to be so cold

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liz

:: 2005 2 November :: 2.14pm

so ive got some sources.
two
and i need like 5
but two is enough until i have more time and energy.
like friday. while ray is at school.
he is at school right now but im tired. and have to work soonish.
whatever.

****edit

crossfades "cold"
is a kick ass song.

ive been listening to it for like an hour.

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liz

:: 2005 2 November :: 1.20pm

so yeah.
just woke up, didnt go to class again.
failing out of college is looking pretty damn good right now.
boyfriends are way too much of a distraction.
way too much.
so its 1:21.
Ive got to work at 4
Ive got a paper due tomorrow.
well a rough draft which means that i can really just jot some shit down and turn it to my peer editor, then work on it friday.
good.
I need to study like mad though.
for all of my classes, except for the one where the paper is due.
spanish is whooping my ass mostly because i never go.
Im going to fail that shit for sure.
ive got to start trying.
ray was like well your either going to fail miserabley or your going to kick your ass into gear and get done what you need to get done, thats your decision I can push you to get your work done all i want but until you decide that you want to its all a hill of beans.
man alive.
we watched house of wax last night it was stupid as hell.
stupid stupid.
paris hilton's role in that movie was nothing more than to show the world her ass a little bit more.
fucking retarded.
i knew it was going to be retarded but kaylee rented it so i watched it.
whatever.
stupid.
I have about three laundry baskets full of laundry that i need to do. but im waiting until saturday because im going to go to kristins and use her washer for free.
she is way cool.
she said we can stay with her whenever we want and use her washer and dryer and all that good shit.
it might have something to do with ray babysitting for free but whatever.
thats cool too.
its kind of a ill scratch your back if you scratch mine situation.
you know.
plus she is just really cool all around.
but that laundry.
man im telling you. might not make it till saturday.
there is a shit load of it.
mind you its two peoples so that makes quite the difference.
huh.
also need to go grocery shopping because this place is tapped.
there is nothing left to eat.
i just ate a grilled cheese sandwhich but it was cheap ass meijer cheese and disgusting.
i threw my sandwhich away which puts me at no food, no dinner, nothing and that blows.
tomorrow is pay day though so that is uber cool.
i could totally use some money, not that it will last long what with my bills that are all overdue and that late fees that accompany them.
shit.
okay that is about it for today because im going to get up off my ass and do something productive, get a start on that paper actually, sounds pretty damn good.

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liz

:: 2005 1 November :: 6.10pm

wow,
everything is craziness.
I cannot fucking take this life anymore.
like seriously. I am fucking going nuts.
i just dont know what to do with myself or with anything.
oh and pj french,
so kristin from photo center right?
when is she going to go out with you.
how about never.
god.
we got to drinking and she realized who you were and who i was. and I am absolutely thrilled to hear that you were hitting on other girls while you were so "in love" with me.
thats fantastic.
this is like at the end of my list of irritations but at the moment the one i can vent about.

oh and rays ex, yeah she got his nextel bill.
with my number
and now she is calling it.
fantastic.

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liz

:: 2005 31 October :: 10.20am

what is going on with me?
I am fucked up beyond all believe.
my life is going down but i havent been this happy in so long.
its outstanding.
my body needs a good stretch,
then im going to take some sleep, and then im going to get up and go have some halloween hot wings and then go to work.
come to walmart if you want to see lizzys super cool fairy costume that she looks super cute in!.
har har.

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liz

:: 2005 31 October :: 2.22am

I am sad. I miss my friends.
I am having a Dani lauer withdrawal.
I want to have a big big party, and see everyone who I miss. Also. I want everything to be okay. right, and perfect and happiness.
It is, just not like it should be.
I mean like not screwy,
It's so not traditional.
so crazy.
im happy though.

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liz	:: 2005 27 October :: 11.27pm so it occurs to me that i hate a lot of people. Im done hating people though because im not in high school anymore. so there. suck on that. 4 comments \| leave a comment

liz

:: 2005 27 October :: 3.55pm

well today is taco night. Tomorrow doctors appointment in edmore. god the drive is shitty, also gotta go to the cedar post office. effing a.
so much stuff to do so little time. a paper to finish tonight. cannot be anymore late because i will fail more than I already am going to. shit shit shitty. just waiting for this class to start now. i hope the distractions of my life at the moment will just chill out for awhile. i dont know why i say it like that, hes been on me to do that paper since it was due last week. effing a.
but at least its taco night and then im going to deb to try and find a top for my halloween costume. its so cool.
lol.
i love halloween.

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liz	:: 2005 27 October :: 10.58am "Your not crispy or cheesy but you are fast and easy." quite the contradiction since five minutes ago I didn't put out. leave a comment

liz	:: 2005 26 October :: 12.17am I have the ass kickingest fairy costume ever. its fantastic only i dont have a top so that sucks. any ideas throw them my way. 5 comments \| leave a comment

liz

:: 2005 25 October :: 6.24pm

For the first time in a long time I'm with someone who doesn't know everything about me. who wants to learn, who laughs when i get upset because im lost but then cries later when i get upset with him for being mean to me. who kisses my shoulder when i get out of the shower. who has dinner waiting when i get home, who is angry because i lent him money, who doesnt let me go to sleep at night because he wants to spend the night talking but then gets upset when i sleep through my first class. I don't want high school. everything is too hard. I'm in a new chapter of my life. maybe a new book I don't know. I miss it all so much, this song just reminds me of everything that i used to have, i get the impression that the writer is singing the song to his new love and trying to explain his childhood to her but she was somewhere else completely and he realized through her that he is living entirely too much in the past, the future thats what its about.

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