well things have been really strange lately i guess for alot of things relationships have ended and it's like i dont have any say about how the last two years have gone and even like the last 4 years with others, maybe its just that i dont really get along with girls, maybe i really only understand or can stand to hang out with guys, well except for lauren i think were almost to much alike to not talk and hang out and everything, i am grateful to have a friend like you lauren, especially since you put up with all my stupid shit, but yes i would say that everything is my fault i will take the responisibilty for all of it. dont you worry....

But as lauren told me i have to be nice and everything that is my little input for the day..... i still havent talk to Bdin i really need to talk to him it has been like 2 or 3 months i think since i have talk to him, and that is really not like him, soo i am starting to get worried about him. or maybe he's happy he found a girl and everything... i would be happy for him as long as she is good for him... i love him and miss him...

well i have kinda been taking josh for granted lately which hasnt been the greatest thing but he has stood by me and been good to me the last week when he should of been an asss, but i am great ful for him.. couldnt ask for anything else, well you know other than being out of BC... but we have been talking about it... so who knows what may happen in the next 3 years, will be out of MI??? hopefully since things here dont seem to be working really well, i wont be missed thats for sure....

well im done bitchin now, going to work on hw or something like that......

rising sun