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2005 20 November :: 10.00pm
To all smokers
I hate you.
Hm, that's a little broad. I'll clarify.
I don't hate you, I hate the decisions you make. I may not know you as a person, but I do know something about you. You sit at bars or outside on the curve smoking your fifth pack in a week, drinking your beer (or whatever the hell you drink) and itch for another one. You try and ignore the urge to scratch at it but it's always there, always in the back of your mind. And when the itch gets to be too much, you light up. It relaxes you. But it hurts you. The taste buds in your mouth scream at you in rage, for they have nothing to taste anymore. Your lung protest in agony trying to get a breath of fresh air. Mother Earth looks at you, ashamed that you would be hurting her and her people in such a way. You throw your last empty pack on the ground and rummage through your coat for the other pack that you bought with the last of your paycheck. You light up again and the itch is gone. The people next to you glare and cringe at you, you reek of this stuff. The tobacco companies love you for it and put more intoxicating chemicals into their product, telling you it's the better, smoother brand when in fact they just add more rat poison to it in hopes that you keep smoking and pass it on to your children. They don't care about you, you think, them people in their damn mansions, they don't care, but my cigarettes do, they're the only ones...You blow out the last puff of smoke and finish your beer. That's the stuff, you tell yourself, that's just what I needed. I don't need anyone but my itch. But there, behind you, all around you are the people who love you. They love you so much that they'd do anything for you, but you can't do anything for them. They see what you're doing; they see it and try to stop it. But it's useless, you've ignored them. You don't acknowledge their presence. And when you do notice them, it's too late; they've given up on you and gone. But they still love you and would do anything for you. Why would you hurt them? Why would you hurt the ones you love? They cry when they can't be with you, for you prefer something that can calm you and kill you at the same time. Instant gratification, just what the American people want, right? But it doesn't matter how much they love you, because you will only love your one and only itch.
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2005 18 November :: 8.20pm
So Katie is having her appendix removed.
Tonight.
Please pray for her.
She's still down in Kalamazoo at Bronson Hospital. I will probably go down there tomorrow, depending on how she's doing, if she's there and how the weather is faring. So if anyone wants to come along, I'll drive.
Oh, I forgot you're all not around here. Well if you want to come, find your way over here or be ready to pay me gas money to come get you.
I love you all.
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2005 13 November :: 11.46am
Yesterday was my aunt's birthday.
So I made sure that I spent time with my mom.
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2005 11 November :: 5.59am
I don't have any friends at school.
The only person I actually hang out with a lot is Jeremy and he's planning on transferring next year. I'd love to hang out a lot with Emily, my friend from French class, but all the people who live on campus have their dorm friends and dorm things.
I mean, Shayne and I used to eat lunch all the time and hang out but he goes home to eat or hangs out with other people.
I'm hoping that next semester, when a girl I know from my I & E class is in another one of my classes, that I can be friends with her. And since my classes are switching around and I'll have tons of free time, I'll have more friend time.
I mean, you all know I don't have trouble "making friends." I don't know what's going on.
But it makes me really sad.
I love you all.
P.S. I was hoping Kelly and Katie were coming home this weekend because at the Wealthy Street Theatre today and tomorrow, they're showing the Wizard of Oz with a live band playing Dark Side of the Moon. Here
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2005 9 November :: 8.21pm
I know I am awful and you might not be able to forgive me but I'm only on this site for a media study paper due tomorrow. I would not visit this site on my own free will.
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I love you all.
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2005 5 November :: 7.43pm
We're in Chicago. We being my entire family and two of Hannah's friends.
Tomorrow we're going to see the musical Wicked. Maybe then Hannah will shut up about it.
My throat hurts and I'm tired.
I love you all. And, pathetically, I miss Nick.
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2005 27 October :: 9.25pm
Jabberwocky should be made into a musical. It'd be awesome.
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2005 27 October :: 3.34pm
I'm sick.
Someone should come over and make me soup and baby me.
I love you all.
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2005 21 October :: 6.07pm
I got into a car accident today. I'm fine, the woman I hit is fine, my car was fine, her car was fine. Right now I'm in Kalamazoo visiting Katie. I'll be home on Sunday sometimes. Um. Something.
Oh, Jessa, when are you moving? Are you working at that bank yet?
Have a nice weekend. I love you all.
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2005 20 October :: 7.42am
Last night, I was watching Lost and there was a frost advisory warning that popped up and proceeded to scroll the counties that were affected across the screen. This wasn't neccessary because they had a lutle picture of the counties in west Michigan and the ones with the warning were colored blue.
Anyway, they were showing some flashback from the Korean chick so of course they were speaking Korean. With subtitles. And the warning only came up when they were talking, with the subtitles at the bottom.
So, for a while, you had no idea what was going on.
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2005 19 October :: 8.27pm
Free Tibet... I'll take it!
Look who's back, back again...
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The Dalai Lama is going to speak at Stanford in November. Oh, how I wish one day that I might be able to see Tenzin Gyatso! Either way, you can watch his lectures at Stanford live(!) on their site. So it's a nice alternative.
There's a Free Tibet group in Michigan called TIBETmichigan. Starting on Sunday, October 23, they will show Tibet-related films every Sunday until January 29. You need to RVSP [re(accent?)spondez s'il vous plai(with-a-hat)t] to attend but it would be an awesome thing to go to. It's on Monroe Center, too so it's not too far away. You know what? I will go. If anyone wants to come with, call me. Here is their calendar and here is the event.
I love you all.
P.S. French is the most beautiful language. Songs in French are the most beautiful songs. This is not open for debate.
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2005 19 October :: 6.30pm
This is the cutest thing. Ever.
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2005 18 October :: 4.20pm
Girls are bitches.
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2005 18 October :: 2.14pm
So last week, because of budget cuts, three people at work were laid off. And I mean people, not student workers, people who had worked there for 5 - 30 years.
There were two people laid off in the Registrar's and Advising office, where I work. One was the receptionist, Michele, with whom I worked and loved to death. She'd been working there for four years. Her daughter works on the floor above us. One advisor was laid off, I didn't know her very well. Across the hall, in the Registrar's office, the person who handled all the graduation stuff was laid off.
They said they chose to lay off the people whose jobs could be taken over by others.
So it was really sad on Thursday, when they told everyone what happened. Since both offices are run entirely by women, everyone was crying. Even today, people were still upset. And they had reason to be. They are all very close, throwing parties for birthdays and parties for holidays.
So that's what's been happening. It's been upsetting because everyone feels guilty that they still have a job. Especially the student workers.
I love you all.
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