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:: 2006 22 May :: 3.31pm

yup...

i dont know...

I really cant keep doing this to myself. It's just really not cool. It's not too fair to me.

I dont know...

oh well I guess. I'll get over it.

This weekend was fun all in all. I just still need to grow up, grow some sort of a back bone...or a brain, that might help, and just learn to say "No" because I feel kinda bad about myself sometimes. I feel like a bad person...

welp, might not be going to the tattoo parties much anymore...I'm not allowed to anything there. lol! damn you james!

bye....!

:: 2006 21 May :: 11.09pm
:: Mood: Exhausted
:: Music: Ridin' Dirty ~ Chamillionaire

Cuttlerville cops are total bitches.
I love my boyfriend so much.
After last night, I love him so much more.
I am finally doubt free.
And I trust him completely.
I could totally pull off the Uni-Bomber look.
Shit, I look 8 times better than him.
I don't hate my car that much anymore.
It can keep up with a crotch rocket pretty damn good.

:: 2006 19 May :: 2.54pm
:: Mood: excited but not because i have to go to work befor
:: Music: Beautiful Girl - Poe

My soon to be awesome weekend!
Welp, I've gotta work from 4 till 10 tonight...without Mindy mind you! lol (fuck!) Then it's off to James' barn for an awesome night of fun. yup...that's pretty much my plans for tonight, and then tomorrow we're probably sleeping till Sonia's grad party then I probably have to work on Sunday because that's just how lucky I am or something, I dont know...welp, yup! That's what's going on I assume. So yeah, either see ya there (where ever "There" may be...) or not see you at all! Your choice! lol!

:: 2006 18 May :: 6.49pm

Yeah, so it'd be wicked cool if anyone wanted to go to warped tour with me this summer...lol!

Tickets are about 20 dollors right now as we speak...!

Think about it...

6 No way... | Tell me...

:: 2006 18 May :: 5.50pm
:: Music: Daughters - John Mayer

I'm a bitch...oh well...*shrugs*
There's just something inside of me. Just eating me alive. I don't really know what it is either. It's kinda weird I guess. It's strange, I'll feel all happy and junk one minute and then the next I'll be sad and depressed. I don't even know what I have to be sad about. It bothers me. I wish I wasn't like this and I wish it would go away, but I don't know how to get read of it. I really wish I did though. I've been acting so weird lately. Just little things are annoying me. Like, I dont know. Someone looked at me funny today and it just pissed me off completely. I cant fucking stand Lauren. I've been so mean. I don't like being mean either. I really want to try to stop hating people, and to stop holding grudges. It's just not nice and I feel bad sometimes. I think it would make me a better person if I just got read of those nasty little habbits that I have. Habbits was the only word that came to my mind to discribe them. I dont know. I just know I'm not too nice of a person and I really should start being a little nicer. I guess it's just something else I need to work on. Good qualities that I should have to have people not hate me. lol.

:: 2006 18 May :: 2.55pm

damnit! I wish there was something to do today...

I think I have drum lessons at 7 or something..fuck!

If anyone wants to be cool and hang out till then you can call me lol

yup...

:: 2006 18 May :: 11.50am

I hate being my mothers slave.
I hate having to do laundry twice a week.
I hate being unemployed.
I hate this crappy weather. If it's going to rain, STORM DAMNIT!
I hate sleeping alone at night.
I hate when my face breaks out, I'm bloated, my body hurts and all I feel like doing is crying.

I love Mike, my friends, family, and the fact that I have my own place to live, that I worked for.
Something about that, just makes me feel like I have actually accomplished something in my life.

My sister and my brother-in-law will be up Memorial weekend. I am excited about that. I love my sister, and miss her.

Well this is all for now, until I can think of something else important or worth typing.

:: 2006 17 May :: 9.44pm
:: Music: sceaming infidellities - dashboard confessional

I just remembered something...my birth is in exactly one month! =) yay! 17 on the 17th! Golden birthday! We should get trashed...! lol!

:: 2006 17 May :: 4.11pm
:: Mood: errged!
:: Music: Let It Be - The Beatles

Grow up damnit!
Well I just got off the phone with my sister Janis, and we were talking about college and whatnot. Come to find out you cant apply for financial aid if your parents dont do there taxes...well...my dumbass parents sat there and told me to apply for financial aid and they DO NOT do their taxes...! Now how fucking stupid can you possibly be. I mean, I know I didn't know that, but I dont do taxes. They on the other hand do. And if you do taxes (or in their case NOT do taxes) shouldn't you know everything about it and what happens when you do or do not do them? I'd imagine so. Just think if I were to sign up for financial aid with out knowing that, I could have gotten them into so much trouble. Now, I'm not one to be really sympathedic as most know, but they are my parents and I love them and whatnot. I dont want anything extremely bad to happen to them. But I kinda with the whole saying "What you get is what you deserve". I dont want anything to happen to them, but if they get caught and come crying to me, I might just have to blert out a few "I told ya so"'s or something. Because, that's really stupid. I mean you'd think after 45-55 years of living, you'd decide sooner or later that it's time to grow up. Take life to the next level and just be a tid bit more mature. I mean, I'm almost 17 and I'm starting to realize this with it being our seniors' last day and all, I realize that I'm going to be a senior soon and I'm going to have to start applying to colleges and all and that I just have to get my act together here. I've gotta just stop skipping class and stop procrastnating and all. And I'm still young, my parents have had all of their lives to realize this BUT...they still haven't grown up. Sometimes I wonder if they think they are still young and invinsible...welp, they're not!

:: 2006 16 May :: 10.39pm

TATTOO PARTY THIS FRIDAY

BIG BIG PARTY
anyone want a tattoo or piercings replay or call

520-1993

please we need your help and support.

:: 2006 16 May :: 5.06pm

My life is so exciting.
So exciting infact, all I do is lay in bed watching movies.
But most the time I am sleeping.
I have no ambition to do anything.
I procrastinate getting up to go to the bathroom.
Completely sad and not right, I know, however I just don't feel like moving.
Hopefully things will change soon.

3 No way... | Tell me...

:: 2006 16 May :: 2.08am

Today Mike and I decided that I'm a total nerd, much like my father and brother. Go me.
I get to look forward to growing old on the couch, watching tv with my hand down my pants.
As it looks right now, my future is doomed.
Well, sort of.
My brother and my father are good people. They mean well. I love them dearly.
However, my dad is going to die a lonely miserable sex deprived old man with more electronics than fingers and toes.
And my brother, well not so sure. One day, he will get married and have kids. I hope anyway.

Also, my face is really soft. I need a job.
I'm desperate.

:: 2006 15 May :: 8.32pm
:: Music: Night Drive - All American Rejects

So, we had dance try outs today...I didn't make it. Yeah...fucking sucks. I'm still pretty pissed. But..oh well. Somethings just happen for the best. I'll have more time to work and whatnot. I think I'm going to just take dance classes at that place in Cedar or somewhere maybe. I think that would be alot more fun. I'd learn alot more cool stuff and fancier tricks and whatnot. Yeah...*sigh* I still wish I made it though. Last season was a buttload of fun. I'm going to miss it. But the best is yet to come, or atleast I keep telling myself that...I've been saying that for quite sometime now. Maybe I'll prove myself right pretty soon here. lol.

Yeah, but last weekend was a whole lot of fun, hopefully this weekend will be as well. and then the weekend after if i dont have too much fun stuff planned with mindy or anything I'm thinking of going out dancing with some of my friends, should be fun. And if not, I'll make sure everyone regrets not giving me a good time...lol!

Mindy and I desided that we are pretty comical people. We're going to starting writing down the quotes that we say because we got some real real good ones! lol!

"She's so stupid, it puzzles me that she's still alive!" - Mindy

:: 2006 14 May :: 12.27am

Today I after I spent the morning and most of the afternoon cuddling with Mike, he left me to go spend time with his daughter. So I went to go spend time with my dad and my brother. Mike called me like 4 freakin' times, after he threw this big fit about how I can't be away from him for more than an hour without calling or texting him. So I had no intention of doing so. I was going to just go on with my day. Anyway, I was doing laundry at my dads and Mike called me and I mentioned him coming over. In a way I was joking, because I am still not fond of letting my family meet my boyfriend for some reason. Anyway, he came over for a couple of hours. He seems to get along great with my dad and brother. Kind of scary, but what can you do. And then he left because he had to go to work.

Thursday he was supposed to work, but they told him they didn't need him.. So he called me and acted like he was all pissed off at me, and whatnot, and as we're talking on the phone about to start arguing, he walks in my apartment. It was cute. And I was so happy to see him..

Last night we went to his cousins and then to his uncles.. where his uncle proceeded to hit on me. Which was weird, but what can ya do.. And then we dicked around and came home and cuddled.

I miss him a lot.

My brother and I were watching Into the Blue and he asked if this guy was going to spray Jessica Alba with a hose and get her wet, and I was like no, and my brother was like "well I'd spray her with it to get her wet" and because I'm a big jerk I said "thats the only way you'd be able to get her wet".. I don't think I've witnessed my dad laugh that hard. It was funny. :)

Almost as good as when I told my dad that there was something on the tv and he goes "well your brother was probably watching porn again and started licking the tv" and I replied with "why would there be a cock in the corner of the tv?"

:) Gotta love it!

3 No way... | Tell me...

:: 2006 13 May :: 3.01pm

Two words that pretty much describe all of last night...

"Fuck It...!"

lol! It was a whole lot of fun. I can't wait for next weekend!

Things really seem to be looking up and I like it...=)

:: 2006 12 May :: 9.25pm

Oh my god. I'm crying right now. For those of you who didn't think Eddy could cry, Im am now proving you wrong.

My dad brought our dog in today and had him put to sleep. I don't know why. And the worst part is he didn't say anything to any of us, and I've been at school and work and my mom's now, and I didn't get to say goodbye to him. He took him in while everyone was gone. I'm really upset.

15 No way... | Tell me...

:: 2006 12 May :: 3.12pm
:: Music: On Step Away - Fricken A'

doop doop doobity doo...
Well, it was an okay day I suppose. Nothing too awesome happened.

Hopefully tonight will be a whole hell of a lot of fun. Tomorrow night too. Hopefully I can go. I'm pretty sure I can though. I just have to clean really...lol. But yeah. If I understood that conversation right, tomorrow we're going bowling...? I don't know. I just follow sometimes really.

Shit! I have a paper I have to type before I go anywhere or do anything...FUCK!

:: 2006 12 May :: 7.49am

Okay I know that both are important but which one is more important?
College Education or Ambition

4 No way... | Tell me...

:: 2006 11 May :: 6.40pm
:: Music: Jesse's Girl - Fricken A'

YAY!!! I found my Fricken A' CD!!! =)

2 No way... | Tell me...

:: 2006 11 May :: 5.04pm
:: Music: Kyle Quit The Band - Tenacious*D

I can't find my Fricken A' CD...=( damnit...
I dont really have anything to say, I guess I just wanted to make sure you guys knew that I was alive still.

Still living and breathing...

"What we gonna do with all the cash? Smoke Hash!" lol I love tenacious d!

:: 2006 10 May :: 6.50pm
:: Music: One Way Ticket - The Darkness

Damn, I really hate when I get that weird kind of attention. The kind that makes every worried about me. I don't like people pittying me. I don't like sympothy. I do like good advice. But not being worried about...

*emo sigh*

But I suppose that I am the one that instagates it...*shrugs*

:: 2006 9 May :: 8.28pm
:: Mood: damnit!
:: Music: shit!

fuck!
Don't ask me why I keep doing this to myself. I don't even know...and it's really starting to eat at me...

errg...!

Fuck me!

I'm a dumb bitch sometimes and I hate me for it alot...

4 No way... | Tell me...

:: 2006 9 May :: 1.46am

Going from my computer to my moms..
Wow..
I thought I was blind. Her letters are huge.
I have to be up at 5 to take my mom to the Carson City Hospital to have surgery. It is currently 1:47. I cannot sleep and have been awake for a LONG time.
I'm turning into such a hick.
Or my white trash side is showing.
Either or, Mike and I are going to some race/mud bog thing in orleans friday. Shall be interesting.
Tomorrow is going to suck. Wednesday will probably such just as much. And same goes for Thursday.
But it was nice to lay on the couch and cuddle with my skilo kitty kitty.
He's as cute as a button. I love him.

Im going to go back to the couch and cuddle with him and drink my yummy warm gatorade.

:: 2006 8 May :: 10.43pm

Dear Mr. President, Senate and Congress:

I'm planning to move myself, family, and extended family to Mexico and would like to ask you to assist me. I'm planning to simply walk across the border from U.S. into Mexico, and I'll need your help to make a few arrangements.

I plan to skip all the legal stuff like visas, passports, immigration quotas and laws. I'm sure they handle those things the same way you do here.

So, would you mind telling your buddy, President Vicente Fox, that I'm on my way over? Please let him know that I will be expecting the following:

1. Free medical care for my entire family.

2. English-speaking government bureaucrats for all services I might need, whether I use them or not.

3. All Mexico government forms, printed in Spanish, need to, also, be printed in English.

4. I want my kids to be taught Spanish by English-speaking (bi-lingual) teachers.

5. Schools need to include classes on American culture and history.

6. I want my kids to see the American flag flying on the top of the flag pole at their school.

7. Please plan to feed my kids at school for both breakfast and lunch.

8. I will need a local Mexican driver's license so I can get easy access to government services.

9. I do plan to get a car and drive in Mexico, but I don't plan to purchase car insurance, and I probably won't make and special effort to learn local traffic laws.

10. In case one of the Mexican police officers does not get the memo from Pres. Fox to leave me alone, please be sure that every patrol car has at least one English speaking officer.

11. I plan to fly the U.S. flag from my house top, put U.S. flag decals on my car, and have a gigantic celebration on July 4th. I do not want any complaints or negative comments from the locals.

12. I would also like to have a nice job without paying any taxes, or have an labor or tax laws enforced on any business I may start.

13. Please have Mr. Fox tell all the Mexican people to be extremely nice and never say a critical thing about me or my family, or about the strain we might place on their economy.

I know this is an easy request because you already do all these things for all his people who come to the U.S. from Mexico. I am sure that Pres. Fox won't mind returning the favor if you ask him nicely.

Thank you so much for your kind help.
Sincerely, U.S. Citizen and Taxpayer

:: 2006 8 May :: 9.42pm
:: Music: Elvis Presley - She's Not You

I'm so happy my Elvis CD works! YAY! Things are getting better and better little by little! =)

Going to the mall tomorrow with Mindy, Kelly, and Kevin. Should be a good time...or else I'll kill you all until you're dead...

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