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2005 20 January :: 9.37am
:: Music: Start From Scratch - The Game
Firsts & Lasts
::::FIRSTS::::
-First Car: That was mine: '85 Civic Hatch
-First real kiss: French: Sarah, On Lips: Shannon
-First Break Up: Allison, Haha, me and Shannon never really broke up.
-First screen name: krandall13? I think wow, but I have had so many!
-First self purchased album: Probably Aerosmith - Get a Grip
-First funeral: That I remember: My Aunt Cheri, RIP
-First pets: Joanna, my hamster.
-First piercing/tattoo: Piercing: Ears at 19 or 20?, Tattoo: Kanji symbol at 21
-First credit card: Visa at 18?
-First true love: Sounds bad, but I think I have told most girls I have been with that I love them, but they did too, the word is miss-used ALOT, but yah I did love one girl.
-First enemy: I don't have enemies, if they don't like me then whatever, but I don't dislike anyone.
-First big trip: Cross country trip with family, I think I was 11.
-First orgasim: The first time I masterbated.
-First time having sex: I was 18, four months before my birthday.
-First illegal drug taken: Weed, don't remember when but I think I was 19, which was also my age when I first drank.
::::LASTS::::
-Last car ride was with: My mom, going to work this morning.
-Last kiss: Kissing my ex on the forehead as I said good bye for the last time.
-Last good cry: Last friday at my Grandpa's Funeral, RIP gramps!
-Last beverage drank: Just drank 2 cups of coffee here at work.
-Last food consumed: Last night's dinner, Mrs. Rich brought it for us, Thanks!
-Last crush: Hmm, I'm sorta like crushing on 3 different girls right now lol.
-Last person called: My brother
-Last shoes worn: White with Red "E" Etnies, I love Etnies!
-Last item bought: Yesterday I bought: Young Buck, Lloyd Banks, Stat Quo Mixtape, DJ Green Lantern Mixtape, and 3 Alpinestars Hats (a yellow, green, and sliver)
-Last annoyance: Yesterday one way home from work.
-Last time wanting to die: Haha
-Last time scolded: LOL scolded? Um, I don't remember
-Last time you argued with someone: Can't remember
-Last time you orgasmed: HAHA last night
-Last person you saw: My mom here at work
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2005 19 January :: 12.44pm
:: Music: N*E*R*D
Just Some Gibberish
Got "The Game" cd yesterday, its damn good, this adds another guy to my list of rappers that I have to buy... Everyone from Aftermath/Shady/G-Unit and then theres Redman & Method Man... Anyway The Game's cd is 'off the chain' he has 50 Cent on like 4 tracks with him and Eminem is on one with him too. You should check it out if you in to Rap.
So yah Valentines day is round the corner, and so is my birthday... I love being born in the same month as V-Day, and Black History month... I share my b-day with the co-founder of the NAACP... And since this is gonna be my first V-day without a girlfriend since 1998 (freshman year) I think I'm gonna buy my mom and grandmas flowers or something, I dont know... oh well...
Okay here I have to use names so that you can understand the relation because its pretty confusing... Before Kristi was Allison, but that was back in 99-00... Allison has a brother named Aaron that is my brother's age... Aaron, Kyle (my brother), Cameron, and all of our friends all used to hang out at some point or another. Anyway since me and Allison broke up back in 00 I don't think we really hung out with Aaron anymore even though Kyle probably still talked to him just not that much. Oh yah Allison and Aaron lived two streets over from us, and Cameron lived down the street almost from us. Our small world, most of the guys we hung out with in Jr. High ended up knowing Kristi once we all went to high school, she came from the other Jr. High and lived at the very base of the mountain in our city.
Anyway, so they all knew each other independently as opposed to being introduced by us. So when me and Kristi broke up I found out when we got back together that she slept with Cameron... At that time when I was with her I didn't mind because we were broken up, but I didn't want to see him because it would be too weird.
Kyle and JD got invited to hang out at Aaron's with Cameron there this weekend and I didn't mind, and would have gone. Its seems wierd because he did sleep with her, but since I dont ever plan on getting back with her it shouldn't matter, plus props to him for scoring and screw her for screwing a guy I used to hang out with. Right?
Anyway I know that was outta left field, but now I'm talking to that girl I had a crush on in high school, and she is having problems with her boyfriend and wants advice... Right..... My advice, break up with him, date me!
HAHA
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2005 18 January :: 1.59pm
:: Mood: Vengeful
:: Music: Spend Some Time - Eminem
"If there's any bitches in this room, then there's something I gotta say
For all the fools who fell for the first girl who comes their way
I've been down that road and now I'm back, sittin' on square one
Tryna pick myself up where I started from...
...I never woulda thought that I'd see you outta control
Even though my penis was deep down in your hole
You should know between us we was like mates to soul
Nothing could intervene us, especially no hoes...
...I never thought I'd find someone to be mine
Lord knows I was right cuz you just crossed the line...
...I used to say I never met a girl like you before
Still ain't got a fuckin' clue as to who you truly are...
...Now I just feel stupid for the loop that you threw me for
Can't believe I almost flew the coop for some stupid whore
You used to say all you wanted was for me to be yours...
...You started getting moody on me, pretty soon we'd argue...
...Cupid could shoot another one of them God damn darts at me
It's true that I got shot in the heart
But when someone seems too good to be true, they usually are
But see, when you're in it it's too hard to see...
...In most cases, Stat's attitude is fuck-a-bitch
My only motive is to get head and fuck a bitch
But you was different, thought we shared a covenant
Even held your hand in public, we sufferin' because of this
Shorty on some whole 'notha other shit
Tryna play sick thinkin' i'mma trick off rick
I'll admit, I was caught in the mix, down to commit
Feed you the best of me, I shoulda fed you piss
We started off closer than close
But who coulda predicted to know, your triflin' ways woulda stopped our growth
And the final result, back in that same boat
I ask myself, do I love these hoes? NO!...
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2005 17 January :: 3.09am
:: Music: Earache My Eye - KoRn
Four Element Tattoos
I was thinking that Kyle (my brother), Joe, Tom (Joe's brother), and me should all get a tattoo symbolizing a different element, and it would sort of bond all of us. We talked a little about it but here is just something I came up with.
Well here are the four elements and definations:
Fire: (Kevin) 
Definition: Alchemical symbol for fire. One of the four alchemical elements, Fire has the properties hot and dry, and symbolizes emotions. In alchemical tradition, the elemental spirits of fire are Salamanders.
Water: (Tom) 
Definition: One of the four alchemical elements, water has the properties cold and moist, and symbolizes intuition. In ritual magick and Wicca, the elemental spirits of water are Undines.
Air: (Joe) 
Definition: Alchemical symbol for air. One of the four alchemical elements, Air has the qualities of coolness and dryness, associations with breath, life, communication, and the holy spirit. In the Latin Alchemical language, it is Flatus, gas. In Ritual Magick and Kabbalah, it is the element overseen by the Archangel, Raphael. The ruler of Air is Peralda, and the elemental spirits associated with air are Sylphs. In Astrology, it rules the signs Aquarius, Gemini, and Libra. The elemental sybols are derived from the hexagram.
Earth: (Kyle) 
Definition: Alchemical symbol for earth. One of the four alchemical elements, earth has the properties cold and dry, and symbolizes physical sensation. In esoteric tradition, earth represents the manifestation of matter.
and here is kind of what I was thinking....
Fire: 
Water: 
Air: 
Earth: 
Of course you can make yours however you want but this was just a thought, and Joe is the only one that claimed air, after reading fire I was surprized to see it mention emotion... Tom and Kyle just kind of picked like they didn't care, then again me and Joe don't think they will do it anyway.
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2005 17 January :: 2.24am
:: Mood: Happy
:: Music: Positive Vibes - Kottonmouth Kings
Bro's before Hoe's
Well tonight while we were all hanging out Jacob came over and hung out and everything was normal and everything is straight. That bitch thought that my bro would abandon me but he isn't stupid, like her.
Happy because tomorrow I think we are gonna be celebrating the Birthday of Martin Luther King Jr. by having some carne asada and drinking some beers.
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2005 16 January :: 1.57am
:: Mood: Unexplainable hate and pain
What Did I Do To Deserve This?
As if things couldn't get any worse. Today I find out that kristi has called one of my best buds to hang out. He is the only guy I have that I can go hang out with and have a great time. All my other friends are fun but they are mostly all in relationships so they usually don't want to go anywhere, but he isn't so we can do tons of things. It turns out also that kristi has been hanging out with a girl that I still talk to, one that my group of friends introduced her too. I don't really care that she is hanging out with her, I just wish I would have known this a long time ago, so I would'nt be in contact with her.
I am trying to make sense of all this because why after breaking my heart then getting back with me just to treat me like dirt and then finally ending it does she feel she needs to be friends with a guy that I have been friends with since forever? I mean she has a ton of other friends and she doesn't need him, yet she still contacts him. Maybe after I am completely over her (which it appears she is completely over me) then she can exsist in my world but right now it can't happen without totally fucking up everything I thought I knew.
I really wish I could just move away from all this leave it behind me and start over. It's like I can't meet anyone that she doesn't already hangout with or has already been with. This year is starting out so great so far, death in the family, ex-girlfriend (of only 2 months) who I thought still cared enough about me to stay away while I try and recover, is now trying to fuck it up.
There are just so many feelings and emotions going through me right now that I can't even explain. I really hate her for this more than I even thought anyone could hate someone, and I really wish that we would have never happened because of what is going on now. Life is so fucked up right now in these aspects its hard to be happy in situations that shouldn't even be affected by this.
This also puts a severe damper on me ever wanting to be with another female, the things they are capable of are astounding. Everyone always says that guys are the assholes and they ruin girls lifes, but I see it both ways there are just as many girls that are backstabbing bitches that live just to make others hurt.
Please don't take offense to this... Unless you are guilty of such things but I really don't see my self trusting anyone ever again, except for the ones that I know I can trust (parents, brother, and a few cousins).
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2005 13 January :: 2.51pm
:: Music: Jump - N*E*R*D
Kevin
Fill it out!
I _____ Kevin.
Kevin is _____.
Kevin thinks a lot about _______.
When I think of _________, I think of Kevin.
If I were alone in a room with Kevin, _____.
Kevin needs _____.
I want to ____ Kevin.
Someday Kevin will _____.
Kevin reminds me of _____.
Without Kevin, _____.
Memories of Kevin are _____.
Kevin can be _____.
_____ is how I describe meeting Kevin.
Worst thing about Kevin is _____.
Best thing about Kevin is _____.
I am ________ with Kevin.
If I could describe Kevin in a word: _______.
Peace
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