dun du-du--DUUU dun du du-DUU
Wow, I've had a REALLY floaty day XDDD Acetaminophen kicks ass. ^.^;
Been feeling creative, and practicing guitar lots. It's getting fuN! w00t...
*sigh* Laurel has really blown a fuse, and so have her parents. I'm fucking sick of them making her live in a box, and her taking it out on the people around her rather than THEM. Like the opposite of me... lol. Anyway, this has been going on for like, the entire grade. It sucks! I don't feel like I can do anything though, so it's frustrating the fuck out of me. ><
"You have to have a chaperone."
WHAT--THE--FUCK??

[/rant]
*sigh* so I guess no 311 on sunday, there has to be three people according to brandi's mom... =P

Hmm. I want sxsw tix =) And I am so seeing switchfoot on the second...

Hey guys! Guess what. I haven't talked to my dad since last saturday. This is fucking wonderful. ^.^ I thought I'd be sooo grounded, but my mom like forgot after two days. XD. ...=/ the truth has to blow up in your face eventually, though. But... I'll just wait and see.

d00m d00m d00m
wahey!
Ok so last night... me and Brandi went to the big fat culture fair thing at school to feed. XD [they have food samples from all over the world... it was cool.] After about half an hour, we had grazed the entire mpr, so we went down to the canyon =) It was really fun. We talked about much stuff. I showed her the waterfall =)) When the sun started to set, we went up... then we went to the cafe and got cokes. =D Twas TRES FUN! w00t. Got home at eight, and then I played guitar for quite a while. I can finally sing and play at the same time... and I'm getting better at stairway to heaven. ^.^ And YES I did my homework! W00t! Because of this, I got to spend all of history SLEEPING instead of catching up ^_^! Of course, Perkins didn't care. Je suis tres hereux!
painkillers O.O
XD
=D!
I'm in LA right now. Yup. We get to use the computer. I want my ipod. And and... yeah. I have to work on my project...
Look at my piccys!
This is for Adam...
Painted this for Nicole... everyone gave me a look but that's what she asked me to draw. So I did.. So there. It got cut off.
This is after magz' party a while ago, she just gave me this piccy ^.^

And now, back to my "project."
<3

How Could You? =P great song.
=).
=(.
=|.
I am listening to type o. Good stuff. I'm going to the little graders academic fair w/ brandi ^.^ That's where they have all these booths of different countries with FOOD from all over the world.
No one deserves that hell... ::hugs:: for nicole and lexa.
Lexa is coming during spring break! =)))) Joy... it'll be great.
SXSW! I am SO there. And hopefully 311 on sunday. Yeah.
....x.x....
Apparantly I am wispy. o.o;?
*sigh* well the thing is I'm avoiding my dad and have successfully done so for 3 days. making me edgy... In Flames now.
I'll share more when I'm more clearheaded.

xP xP
Ello. I am SO grounded.
from the comp =P but I will use it anyway, you know.
But, I won't be able to be on in the evenings... which is bad... =( bad bad bad
bad for me =P
I'm in Language Arts. We do nothing. fun rummy.
I got a xanga.
doom... *sigh* my dad was gone all day yesterday. x.x
so undoom... stuff is suckingishly. I'll try to scan my watercolors during study hall.
Anyway... bye.

=) I'm at jackie's house ='( but I have to go home soon
hey.. this SUCKS so much. so so much.
Yesterday, me and my mom and dad went to get jackie's gift before the party, and I was pissed because there was only crap at where we were at and there was a barnes and nobles across the street. So we got in the car and they were, of course, complaining about how ungrateful I am, and my mom said "from now on we're always getting birthday presents here because they're nice and cheap." And I was like, "NO, we're not, they're always crappy!" [But they are! Every time we can't get them what they asked for, instead we must go to that crap store. This TOTALLY set them off, but I was already in a bad mood and so were they... my dad started yelling and yelling and yelling, but I just stared out the window. I was really trying to not break down in front of them, show them they have no power over me. But he just would not stop! He started taking away stuff, like places I was planning on going, AIM, and such.. and that's when I started crying. That shut him up for like 0 seconds.
And then...
He saw some of them, and he started FREAKING OUT. And my said she thought they were a bit odd. And... they are going to murder me. I'm so scared. I'm going to have such a huge breakdown when I get home... omg it's so not funny... =''(

*sigh* then I finally got out of the car and went into the lazer quest place, and jax and laz were there.. I asked them to hold my stuff and cried in the bathroom for a little bit. Then.. the party was pretty fun, I guess. I won both games =) hehe.. yeah. Guest list: Clemmer, Ted, Laz, Katy, Soph, Magz. And me and jax. w00t.
Sleepover.. I was about to explode. I tried calling nicole, but her phone wasn't on or something. Finally, Jackie let me on the computer and she was on [thank god.] Turns out she smashed her phone with a hammer. XD. X.X Geh. Lol.

So now I'm about to go home.. I mean hell... help =( -.-
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
=(

today's a good day
heyO!
I'd like to correct something from the survey, I realized it was wrong
[x]first bestfriend: helen wang

Anyway... the weather right now is wonderful. I love austin.
Yesterday was pretty cool... me and lauren went out to eat at dynasty and went to all these cute little shops. I bought some watercolors at joanne's and finished nicole's piccy =D twas fun. Talked to magz for like an hour.
Jax' birthday party tonight! Lazer tag and then more fun stuff. What should I get her? Hmm Hmm
::crosses fingers:: tonight the plan won't go wrong, nikki
g'luck g'luck!
yay lexa is coming! hoooooorahhhhh! w00p w00p
::dances a jig::
I must eat. I must!
amore!
-juliya

livejournal [EDIT]
I've been thinking.. teachers rarely call on me in class. I just get this feeling that they avoid me... unless it's a class with my friends, in which case I'm loud. Still, the thing is.. XD all of them kind of fear me. I think it's because I'm so sassy to adults. Just my nature =P
I HAVE NEVER BEEN STUDENT OF THE MONTH! EVER! ;_;
Well, I'm going out to eat with Lauren and Melinda right now.
[/EDIT]
I AM: who knows?
I WANT: no idea
I HAVE: not that much
I WISH: I knew
I HATE: them
I MISS: not much
I FEAR: change
I HEAR: alice in chains
I SEARCH: for the reason
I WONDER: why
I REGRET: nothing
I ALWAYS: am unsure
I AM NOT: free
I DANCE: not very well
I SING: mediocre-ly
I CRY: way too often over the dumbest things
I AM NOT ALWAYS: stable
I WRITE: poetry
I WON: a picture contest in 3rd grade. A cell phone, concert ticketsx2, an ipod. just stuff.
I LOST: myself
I CONFUSE: everyone; myself
I NEED: the reason
I SHOULD: change
MY FATHER THINKS I AM: a bitch
MY MOTHER THINKS I AM: the reason anything bad happens

3 THINGS YOU'RE OFTEN COMPLIMENTED FOR:
1. Being a good artist

2. Being nice to people

3. Listening to people


MAKES ME HAPPY: I don't know
UPSETS ME: my friends, my parents, politics, the world, religious discrimination, sexual-preference discrimination, any kind of discrimination, people being rude for no reason, people being rude, carelessness, ignorance, my clutziness, myself, my lies, my state of mind

THE PRETTIEST FEMALE YOU KNOW: Beanie
THE PRETTIEST MALE YOU KNOW: Nathan Tw.
THE WEIRDEST PERSON YOU KNOW: weird?
THE LOUDEST PERSON YOU KNOW: me/diane
THE SEXIEST PERSON YOU KNOW: shh!
YOUR CLOSE FRIENDS: They know they're my closest friends.
THE PERSON THAT KNOWS THE MOST ABOUT YOU: Nicole and Zarae

What is your most overused phrase on IM: "XD/o.o"
The last image/thought you go to sleep with: nothing
Your best feature: My eyes. they're big.
Take a shower everyday: yep.
Been in love: meh
Want to get married: fuck no
Have any tattoos/where?: nope
SCREEN NAMES: StarkistPixie, The other one's for avoiding you ^^;
SIGN: Capricorn
NATURAL HAIR COLOR: blondish brown
CURRENT HAIR COLOR: reddish blonde
EYE COLOR: hazelish green

FAVORITES
NUMBER: 13, 7, and 3. I will tell you the calculator story someday.
COLOR: black/purple
DAY: friday or halloween
Month: december//october
SONG: they change too often =/ right now I like "Only For The Weak" -In Flames
FOOD: sure
SEASON: all of them
SPORT: hate em =/
DRINK: coke
VEGGIE: tomato

PREFERENCES :
CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT? don't care.
CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE? hot choco
MILK, DARK, OR WHITE CHOCOLATE? milk
VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE: choco
IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU....
CRIED? Yes
HELPED SOMEONE? Yes
BOUGHT SOMETHING? Yes
GOTTEN SICK? Yes
GONE TO THE MOVIES? Nope
SAID "I LOVE YOU"?: Yes
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER?: Yes
MISSED AN EX?: Nah
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL?: Yes
TALKED TO SOMEONE YOU CRUSH ON?: She who does not crush
HAD A SERIOUS TALK?: Yesh
MISSED SOMEONE?: Yes
HUGGED SOMEONE?: Yes

_____Basics
[x] they call me: Julia
[x] also: Joolz//Juice
[x] sex: Female
[x] my first breath of air: ...
[x] age: 14
[x] status: bleh
[x] occupation: student?
[x] nationality: Russian
[x] best friends: Nicole, Zarae, Laz
[x] most memorable memory: shut up
[x] worst?: =P
[x] first word uttered: "No" in hebrew
[x] first bestfriend: Julia Wilson
[x] college planning to go to: Julliard. =P
[x] future resident of: New York
[x] wedding: nope
[x] children: HELL NO
[x] looking forward to: Meeting Johnny Depp
[x] NOT looking forward to: =/
[x] feeling: stupid//pointless
[x] Listening: hurt-nin [now]
[x] Talking to: nicole and sophie
[x] doing: negative thinking
[x] thinking of: art class today, nicole, my dad, laurel
[x] craving: escape
[x] missing: The past
[x] hating: much
_______favorites_______
[x] song:
[x] radio station: 101x
[x] tv show: friends & just shoot me
[x] channel: WB
[x] site: =P
[x] movie: resident evil
[x] store: toy joy XD
[x] mall: meh
[x] hangout: jackie's house
[x] actor: johnny depp I guess
[x] actress: hmm julia roberts
[x] character: haruko
_______love?_______
[x] love is: warmth
[x] current love: nah
[x] love or lust?: to be honest, it doesn't really matter. love I guess.
[x] best love song: dunno, amber mehbe
[x] is it possible to be in love w/ more than one person @ the same time?: I don't think so
[x] when love hurts, you: ...don't ask

short and sweet =)
So new
So true
So real
You feel
So strong
Been long
You've been
So gone
So deep
So bright
Soak up
The light
Open your eyes
You've won the fight

d00m!!!
Please donate to the Axis-Of-Somewhat-Evil.
::maniacal laughter::
::and stuff::

AAA! hehehe
oioi something's good. I'm feeling >sort of happy< and I dunno, sorta peaceful
[[moods ever-changing]]
I've been listening to this song... at the moment I really like it ^^ cool lyrics too.
[[Heaven Beside You]]
Be what you wanna be
See what you came to see
Been what you wanna be
I don't like what I see

Like the coldest winter chill
Heaven Beside you...Hell within
Like the coldest winter chill
Heaven beside you...Hell within
Like the coldest winter chill
Put Heaven beside you
Hell within
And you think you have it still, Heaven inside you

So there's problems in your life
That's fucked up
And I'm not blind
I'm just see-through
Faded
Super jaded
And out of my mind

Do what you wanna do
Go out and seek your truth
When I'm down and blue
Rather be me than you

Like the coldest winter chill
Heaven Beside you...Hell within
Like the coldest winter chill
Heaven Beside you...Hell within
Like the coldest winter chill
Heaven Beside you...Hell within
And you wish you had it still, Heaven inside you

So there's problems in your life
That's fucked up
But you're not blind
You're just see-through
Faded
Overrated
And out of your mind

Like the coldest winter chill
Heaven Beside you...Hell within
Like the coldest winter chill
Heaven Beside you...Hell within
Like the coldest winter chill
Heaven Beside you...Hell within
And you know you have it still, Heaven inside you

[EDIT]
it's ok *sigh*
listening to nine inch nails, johnny cash, alice in chains =) music muzak musique... c'est tres bien!
I don't think I've ever met anyone who doesn't like music =D hehe
[/EDIT]

X.X ...why did I push away? Why would I do that? Why?

this is insane.
It's foggy outside
Really foggy
And it's gray... yeah.

Seriously, I am going insane.
@.@

*sigh*
shutting them out
soon I'll be back to square one
well, you could call it square negative 13
or square five
anyway, I'll be back to that square
[heh]
am I not already?

=P so yeah. hey. what's up. don't worry, everything's fine. and you? well, that's wonderful to hear.

insane
insane
insane

such a pretty song
[downwards spiral, 1994]
I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that’s real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything
What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
I wear my crown of s**t
On my liar’s chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stain of time
The feeling disappears
You are someone else
I am still right here
What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

how.. could they?
I avoid it as much as possible... but when people judge me I just want to rip their fucking heads off. Unless you know me and I've let you know that you do... keep your fucking labels and "GET OVER IT's" to yourself!
*sigh*
I'm so angry... and no one knows.
everyone sees that image of me that simply refuses to fade
they aren't ok
I try to help
I really, truly do
I hope it makes a difference.

everyone lies, everyone leaves.
and you know it, so fuck off.
and leave.

[[>>>adam, please be ok.. don't let go...]]

>:D!
I would like to thank Nicole for getting me into metal.
BE SAFE, DAMMIT!
^^;
In Flames r0x0rz =) and so does Alice in Chains. w00t w00t.

You know what.. I really feel like griping about this... XD
First I had to go pick it up, then I had to find out why the fuck it wouldn't plug in, then I had to buy an adapter for $20, install a service package to my cpu [this took an hour.] restart, install the stinkin itunes program, restart, charge it, and figure out how to use it.
XD
but now it works!
XDDDD yeah I'm insane.
in the membrane.
got no brain.
bubye.

xP
So yeah..
yesterday sucked more than ever =P
Since I haven't updated in a while, what I've been up to:
Thursday--Went to that new cafe down the street with Brandi.. we sat and talked for an hour and decided to make it our new hangout
Friday--Many people wanted me to be their shoulder to cry on this day =P. It was alright though.. some things are clearing up. We had a blow off day, a mardi gras party in french. Then, I went to magz' house at six.. to that party she invited me to a week ago... um, kaPLAH. We all went out and I had fake fun. Then we came back. =P the highlight was watching that johnny depp movie. Then, I kept waking up in the middle of the night til 10 in the morning, and I would shoot up and wonder where the hell I was. XD it was pretty odd.
Went to.. well, nevermind.. it's another fake fun story. Got home at 2, and woop woop my mom's ready to have a fight the moment I step in the door. *sigh* well, the rest is history.

I'm sorry I was so selfish.

I wrote a poem =P but you can't read it. =).
Oh, and by the way.. PLEASE HELP JULIA WITH HER LANGUAGE ARTS PROJECT!! it's a 20 question survey [I know it's not great, but I just need some facts] and it's anonymous. Also.. hehe, it doesn't work for some reason, so you have to press enter after every answer you type and go back. *sigh* survey crap is due tomorrow.. xP
http://www.geocities.com/rainstarfire/survey1.html