::strum strum::
did you have a good vday? I did. Well, I did *sigh*. It was fun. me and di and euni and their families got together and went out to eat... and to coco's cafe and such. Twas fun.

the world is filled with sorrow.

I keep finding out more and more people are not ok. I'm stuck, sorta.. cuz when you feel like this, you don't want to be around people who don't understand and who are happy, but you can't be around all the people who feel the same... x_x

many hugs and much love, my friends.

Happy Valentine's Day.
Yes, everyone, It is Valentine's Day. I have a secret! >:) I have despised v-day for most of my life. I do enjoy all the candy and such, though. I'm prolly gunna go see that adam sandler movie with sum ppl.. yeah. Hoorah.

As usual, much better than the alternative, ne?

So my mom decided to clean my bathroom yesterday [she could not resist] and she threw away all this crap.. I found out that she did and I sorta went crazy. my black eyeliner and a piece of paper that had my ----- wrapped in it... among other things, was missing. So I took the bag out of the trash can and started frantically looking for my-- stuff--- and my junk, and after this... I realized that this has turned into a bit of a problem. It's more like a nervous habit though, really.
I am the queen of nervous habits ^^;.

x_x today's the day, among other things.

love, julia

I truly hope you never ever ever feel alone =).

Umm.. well, everything is the same... I blah blahed.. details at LJ. I'm having fun talking to kristen right now. Yay =).

See, everyone says they care.. but they say it to make themselves feel better. To help them keep themselves happy. And these people don't understand. And when it matters, they are never there. so there. =).

That's what I've been thinking about lately. It hurts. Whatever. =)

bye

basket case basket case!
It's still.
It won't change unless I make it, and if I make it it will change. Then I wonder, do I really want it to change? But I do. But do I?
=).
*sigh*
~<3~

Can't say where I'm going, or with who, or when, but someday I'll be.. back again.
let's have a random rant. shall we?
x_x
I think the most annoying thing in the world is a mob of people asking you "what happened?!" "tell me!" when you don't feel like talking to them.
sorry. I love you all. I did the same thing to sharry and shelby today.
then again, I have a feeling I could actually help them...
my aim has frozen 5 times. I'm going to murder aol.
an editorial is a place where you can state your opinion freely, even if it is directly against someone's views. ne?
well, that's what I've been led to believe.
^~*~¿
I'm so not going to school tomorrow.
damn it, my wierd drive will make me go. I just... *geh* I hate letting people down. plus, what will I do at home? --- till I --- to death?

::hums the kickass guitar part::
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heyhey. Sorry about all off the excessive posting ^^;... I was gunna put them all into one, but I got comments, so no way ^_~. I'll try to keep it to a minimum today.
Yesterday I ::blank::... Well, at 5:30 I simply could not stay inside any longer, with the stupid dangerousness, so I went for a walk. After about half an hour, I ended up at the computer lab** Which was good, since I needed to talk to nicole o.o. She finally got on at like 6:50... then, I started to walk home because it was getting very dark. It was nice. I went and sat on a stone thing in the big pool near my house. It was pretty... a misting rain, a dark blue sky, the sound of water running... I sort of huddled up into a little d00m and cried a little bit. it felt good.

what? I'm not complaining or bragging. I'm just saying what happened. mweeh.

love, j

this will leave a mark...
damn it, they've screwed me over for life ~_~

I spend too much time on my AIM alt.
sorry to all the people who I hide from.

D00M x.x
I love that x__x face. *sigh*
The most sleep I ever get is 7 hours. =/. usually about 4, though. Makes it really hard to function.
X~X~X~X~X~X
KARLY!!!! *tears her hair out in frustration*
X~X~X~X~X~X
*~*
I was going to say something now, but who cares? I don't even care about my own thoughts. =/ I don't really care about anything, at the moment. Why should I? It isn't important.
^^; sorry. negative outburst. it's monday, ya know?
I sort of crawled through the day, taking every blow off class opportunity to sleep. We're doing a "story of my life" proj in french, and we're supposed to list 8 things that are happening right now... >.> I don't feel like sharing.
::forces smile:: =). ::melts away::
my doom is your doom
your doom is my doom
e-doom is free-doom
let free-doom ring
XD I made that up in math last week.
::grins at her stereo and starts playing air guitar::
bye =)

x__x
I've been realizing in the past few weeks... unless you look at me with light shining on my face, the dark rings around my eyes make me look like I'm on drugs x.x. I'm truly without sleep.

my d00m is your d00m
Day?
..Laurel came over. We finished our theatre proj, and then she sat thru my guitar lesson. I learned "electrocute" >:D. It's kickass.
Then, I talked on aim. I drew a pixie on the moon for Kristin. Yay.

*~*My friend laurel. XD.*~*

Anyway, um.. another frickin week of doom. I want to go with nicole, but I don't think I can get the money.. haHA you don't know what I'm talking about O.X *sigh*

love, j

it's sad
o.o this is the first saturday night I've stayed at home in like.. ever =). Though it's not the greatest, I got to do a lot of thinking. I've *duh* thought about this a lot...: I know exactly [I think] why I'm so screwed up now. All those memories.. add up to my current screwed upness =). At least I've figured myself out a bit, eh? *sigh*
Also, I painted a pretty good sunset with my oils ^^.
And then, I painted my nails sparkly black. And, I'm aLmOsT done with my new layout!!! I really like it. check it out. Suggestions?
Oh, and make sure to give me your site link for teh links if I don't know it.
=) Now I'm going to draw something for Kristin.
Then, I'm going to watch mad tv and snl. and get high on caffiene. and not sleep. and think. and hopefully, avoide a d00m like last last saturday. >.>

love, j

aAaAaAaAa
yo O.O
Last night>> Opeth concert :D!! It was a kick ass show. I got an awesome tee, and we were in the second row. But we couldn't stay for the whole thing of Opeth =/ cuz my parents were the only ones who could pick us up ~.~. at the end of the concert this guy [he was not in my age range] started hitting on me ~.~; I just sort of tried to edge away, but it was pretty "moshed up" up there. Then he started making me really uncomfortable, and he grabbed my ass. what a fuck up. x_x THEN, since we stayed in there till 11:40 [just like, 10 or 20 minutes late ^^;] the rents gave me this mondo lecture, threatening to never take me to the backroom again, and telling me I smelled like marijauna. XD

*sigh*

I love LOVE LOVE LOVE this song! If you don't have this damn cd, download it illegally this very second.

We were.. electrocute
In our has-been 1980's suits
Sssso electrocute
Everyone we knew said it too

That's when even strangers knew our names,
Ten years later sighed, "what a shame"

Ssso Electrocute
How on you I've wasted my youth

Your cold eyes of Coney Island Sand,
Hair dyed the blood of a foolish man,

So proud to be by your side
We were a team no one denied

Even though I still miss your lips
You're about as real as your ^^;

Anyway, it's too sunny for me to brood. So I plan to go out with Maggie and Jackie tonight. and I can't go to mangathon because my parents are gone till 3 -.-
love, j

rays of sunlight
I'm going to paste the same entry as from my LJ. Sorry to bore yall ^_~ I simply don't have much more to say today.
Here it is.

=).
When it's raining, I am crying. When the sun shines, I turn my face towards the sky and absorb the glow with a smile. When the sky is grey, I sleep, and light candles. And when the night is clear, starry, and lit by the moon... I feel like I can fly, and become a part of it all.
it's nothing special to most people, but the earth is beautiful.

^^;

Just some thoughts.

Today was good. We got to draw outside today in art, and it was great. I took more piccys for my photos from school place. Check them out for no reason? Lol. ^^

Opeth is tonight *grin* It's going to kick ass.

Laurel gave me her screenplay to read today O.@ I finished it by 3rd period XD [about 100 pages].. It's weird because she's never let me read any writing of hers before, even though I've tried begging. =D

I wore lots of black eyeliner and pink highlights today >:D hehehe

love love love