::hums a guitar solo::
Just got off the phone with Nicole.. I'm glad she called me.
You should know... I do lose faith easily. A sign that you're still there never hurts...
I'm probably going to delete this o.o

here before me is a web of lies | it's got me so hypnotized | perhaps it can't be untied...
O.@
I was walking in the rain, and I started thinking about the past... feeling pretty shitty, and then.. "The Quiet Things That No One Ever Knows" comes on.
Oh, the fucking irony. x.x
I went down the street..
then I printed out a bunch of pictures to put in my room =). All my buddies, and some of my art. ^.^
Yeah..
So deviously deviant @.@

I'm feeling some anger...
This [awesome, of course] song by Alice in Chains really describes how I am.. a lot of the time.. a lot.....
You simply MUST love AIC, by the way. Layne's voice... wow ^_^. Yeah.
---Love, Hate, Love by Alice in Chains---

I tried to love you... I thought I could
I tried to own you, I thought I would
I want to peel the.. skin from your face
Before the real you lays to waste

You told me I'm the only one
Sweet little angel, you should have run
Lying, crying, dying to leave
Innocence creates my hell

Cheating myself still, you know more
It would be so easy with a whore
Try to understand me... little girl
My twisted passion to be your world

Lost inside my sick head
I live for you but I'm not alive
Take my hand before I kill
Still love you, I still burn

Love, hate, love

Ecstasy of an escape, leave me longing after leaving
=D.
I'm going to try to make this not-boring. Lol.
I went to Lake Travis today, to Jackie's dock, for her big fat party for everyone of d00m =)))
PICTURES!!! Yes. I took my time and gave each a caption. Enjoy ^.^
We swam, jumped off the building, ate and ate, hung in the trailer, buried katy... and I got an insane looking tanline. XD

Oh! Then it lightninged and thundered! Lol ^^ Twas mucho fun!


::points to self:: I... photograph.
When I have a camera, I just catch so many moments.. it's indescribable. Every moment is a picture. Lol.. dawned on me today.

Realizations. =).

I now have a deviantart account for poetry and such. I am devious. yes.

She who woke up at 7am is tired. ^.^
AND wahey.. I pretty much managed to avoid my parents all day! Score.

~julia~

Now I'm free from what you want, Now I'm free from what you need...
DOOM =)
Well, yesterday it finally dawned on me that guys stare at my ass.
...?
So maggie was right all along.
XD
Speaking of dawn.. that's when I woke today. =) Yes. On a saturday. at 7. yes. HAHAHAHA Yes, I AM CRAZY...
I'm leaving with Jackie, Magz, and KT for Lake Travis in half an hour. It's gonna be a really good time =)

Bad news is.. my parents keep accusing me of all this shit. =(... *sigh*

I have a sunburn =D YAY

Moot.
Can't wait til summer ^.^
~joolz~

XDDDDDDDDDDD
Caleb is SO hitting on me.
XD
I mean.. wow
....ever find out a guy has liked for a while... and you just have to grin...
ahaha
=DD lol!

But just today I start to realize that he's exactly like a certain someone...
It's funny!

makin' me smile a real smile's gonna take you a while
I love this song.
I love this song.
I love this song.
This song.
I love it.

What the Hell Have I? by Alice in Chains
The face before me flies
Laughs at me inside
Masks are made to hide the glow
Shining eyes
Distance 'tween us grows
Feeding lies

It's hard to start things over
You can feel the fire around us
All the time
Yeah

Something I should say
It takes you every day
What you give is not alive
Today
Your soul served on a plate
Throw it away

It's hard to start things over
You can feel the fire around us
All the time
Yeah

It's hard to start things over
Oh yeah
You can feel the fire around us
All the time
Yeah

It's hard to start things over
Oh yeah
You can feel the fire around us
All the time
Yeah

All the time

What the hell have i?
Little pride

---
Now, movies with Arie, then.. arbor with Kae. Mucho fun for juliya till she gets home.

::hums her song..::

The longer you're gone, the more I hate you...
[DELETED RANT]
Sure, you care.
God, I feel SO so sick.. yeah.
X__X
Really...

Dad: "Where are you going?"
Me: "Out."
Dad: "Out where?"
Me: "Out.. side"
Dad: "When will you be back?"
Me: "Later." *slams door*

Sat by the pool in the morning. Walked. Went places.
Now I just feel really sick.
Gene will not stop hitting on me XD
I've got some compliments on my poetry today... =)

The sun went away.
I need to go to the hospital...

They gave you love, they gave me hate. And we all know which is more vicious...
Hmm.
I hate trying to be a part of something... it's hard. Because I am not a part of it. That stupid feeling.. I wish I would just stay away...

I was... very sick last night. Couldn't sleep, couldn't breath... never mind, anyway.

Last night, before I got home, was pretty cool. Brandi and I got a little food, then walked around the lake and stuff a couple of times. We came back and fed the ducks, and then it was dark and we just sat under the bridge and talked. The sky was very clear... I liked it. :smiles:

Today's plan is with Bradiness ^^. Tomorrow I'm going out all day with Kae.. we'll be going to the movies and the bookstore. Jackie's huge enormous party is saturday, and I'll be there from morning to night. Sunday? Um, bleh. Monday we hope to throw some surprise-partyness for people who's birthday twill be ^_~.

Gleep.
My forehead hurts. O_O xD.
I guess I should get out of here before someone comes home.
Later..

Fine andrew, I'll give you $2.
Kaplah.
It is.. study hall. Something I must mention.. Alex has been acting really weird around me. Seriously, it is not just me! My friends notice. It's odd.

I wrote this during math.. free period of d00m.

Mmmhmm.

We change with every choice we make
You know your life's not yours to take
The haunting hurt keeps me awake
I'm still alive for no one's sake

Your careless words pierce through my skin
My patience now is ever thin
The walls around are caving in
I've always failed, I'll never win

I drown myself in piercing pain
I'm just a burden, just a stain
I'll hurt you if you're here to help
So stay away and save yourself

If you come back, I'll push away
Though inside I wish you'd stay
I cannot hear a word you say
For saving me, I'll make you pay

I don't heal, I just get burned
The hard way is how I have learned
Though I wish I wasn't frozen
It's too late, we are too broken.

Threw up again. =(. I feel really light headed. I want to talk to Nikki but my mom is on the phone, dammit..
Facts of life:
1] I'm really sick.
2] No one knows
3] I want to see Nicole and Adam very badly.
4] It's a miracle that I haven't passed out
5] You don't know me as well as you think
6] Doesn't matter
7] I don't want to go swimming
9] All I've eaten today is a yogurt and a cup of ramen
10] All I want is for someone to stick around.
11] I don't know..

I'm just putting shit here now so whatever. I'll think of something worthwhile to say soon.
<3

What the fucking hell..
I am so fucking sick of guys trying to take advantage of me. Goddammit, leave me alone, no I don't want a fucking ride.. -.- Fucking whores.
I can't even walk outside now, hmm? Fuck you.

StarkistPixie: why don't they notice?
FuneralPortrait9: Because they are too wrapped up in their own shit.

I know, I know.
I'm sick of wondering what I can talk about in this journal. Just messege me if you want.

I'm angry and light headed... *sigh*

Lying in a bed of broken glass, but I still smile
Ayy.
I'm talking to Nicole and Lexa, expecting a call from Nikki later =]. Feeling pretty sick. As last night. And a bit dizzy. W00t. Just.. contemplating. And listening to opeth.
Um, I don't know. I'm wondering if I should eat something or not. @.@

Blah.
d00m
-Julia-

Lighting Strikes
Woke up to the awesome sound of thunder and rain pouring down. Wonderful :).

Last night I experienced both extremes of the mood spectrum... first I blahed and tryed to doomdoom, and ladeeda so I got all scared =(.

But hey! Then I won tix to the Vans Warped Tour off the radio. Kickass. They haven't even been printed yet... hell yes.
It would be a violation of some unwritten law to not take laurel ^^. That's basically our thing: We go to concerts together. OoO Magz and Jax are having a party at the Lake. Sounds awesome. =).
Eh. Hope I feel up to going.