Some say we're born into the grave
AAAAH YESSS! New music! and.. new Alice in Chains music!!!! Haha, this is kickass.

Ah, but what tis not kickass at all is that plans for wednesday are off.
What do you think of my poem? ::shrugs::

By the way.. goddammit -.-

YAY much lurve!
D00M

Now I'm Free from What You Are
We who live in the dark world
We who scream in the night
We who hurt to kill the pain
We who feed on your fright

Some days we come together
Though inside we're all alone
The past eats away at our future
We still hear every shriek and every moan

We never sleep
We never heal
We cannot trust
We never feel

We'll hold you close
We won't forget
But I don't think you know us
Yet

I don't think you'll know us ever
But now your pain binds us together
Rip apart your cloth of lies
Soon we'll have you hypnotized
What makes you think that we're not real?
Just because we never feel...
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Been humming What You Are all day. And thinking a lot... Omfg, who's idea was it to put caffiene in a painkiller? XD Nice. Lol.

Didn't get to scan anything =P...

x.x read Kristen's chilling tale.. made me so angry. All I have to say... something I often think... How could they?

=(.

Also, =).
Geh. I didn't get any sleep... my stomach hurts. Gleep. *sigh*

There are some people in this world who really mean a lot to me, and I think about them often. There are also some people in this world who have convinced me that I mean a lot to them, which simply shocks me.
@.@
Off.
~Miz Juliya~

::hums:: Chase the moonli-i-ight...
=)
Ah, I feel so buzzy and peaceful. My whole body is filled with this wonderful painless feeling. OoOoO... ::spins:: ::grins::
Haha... Yeah.

Interestingness...
Well, I think something's on for wednesday... ::mucho grinning:: YAY... :)

This "shu" person helped me come to an amazing discovery.. all of the severely traumatized people I know are amazing writers. o.o;

On a similar note...
I have a composition notebook covered in magazine cut outs, and I got the week before.. life started to go on fast forward. I'm pretty sure that was in august, or very early september. *thinks* September first was when Nikki went to see TON. Lucky.. gah, I wish I'd made an effort to go...

And on another note, you have all heard the Foo Fighters' remake of Darling Nikki, yes? Is that not the most annoying song on the radio, hmm, hmm?
XD
I am so weird right now.. this is wonderful
I hope I don't pass out

Stolen from darling kris
Act your age: I really don't act anything like my age..
Born on what day of the week: lol, who cares
Chore you hate: Roomcleanin!
Dad's name: Vadim
Essentail make-up item: eyeliner
Favorite actors/actresses: Angelina Jolie
Gold or sliver: silver
Hometown: Austin
Instruments you play: Used to play flute, Guitar
Job title: ARTIST =D
Kids: One, if any
Living arrangements: Mom and Dad o.o Apartment of doom
Mom's name: Geanna
Number of socks you own: I hate socks
Overnight hospital stays: Not yet
Phobia: Mirky Water
Quote you like: "If they give you lined paper, write the other way"
Religious affiliation: Perhaps I believe there's something out there
Siblings: zer0
Time you woke up today: 6am, and on rare days 12pm
Unusual habits: Ahaha... lets not go there hun.
Vicious thing you've done: I used to bite people viciously >XD
Worst habit: You know... maybe
X-rays you've had: um, teeth?
Your favorite season: like em all =)
Zodiac sign: capricorn

Well, I'm going to do some homework n guitar, maybe poetry.. =). Byebye.

Create me... lucky enough
So uh, o.o.
I would like to direct your attention to my new CG.
Here it is.
Wee o.o
I'll try to scan paintings monday.

Making plans today? I'm contemplating. oOo. Blah.

Guitar lesson... watched "runaway jury" last night. And painted a lot. And um =P

Worrying about Kristen. x.x

Spring holiday is next week.. I have a feeling mine's gunna be awesome.
Hopefully.
Eh, mom bugging. Tata.

*juliya*

Fall in peace
=).
Talked to Adam on the phone about an hour ago. Cheered me up ^^.
Turns out plans are still on... ::smiles::

I still have a headache. How fucking ironic! XD ahaha... Well, I'm off to Lisa's now, and then I think I'm grounded so no fun =(. *sigh* I'll still find stuff to do, though. Plus, the blind waiting is almost over o.o

Worried about Kristen.

Ok, I swear.. I was thinking these EXACT thoughts in my room an hour a go... and yes, I am silly enough to read my horoscope every day.
Capricorn December 22 - January 19
You may start to feel like you're the only one among your friends with any sense, and these days, you may be right. You've got your feet firmly on the ground, which is a good place for them to be.

I'm not sure about the feet firmly on the ground.. heh.

MOOT lurve.

If you're not being used, then you're the user and loser.
::looks away in shame::
I have a messege for everyone. I hope everyone reads this.

If you want to be close to me, prepare to be driven away. Just ask the others.

I've seen it with my own eyes...

I don't want to hurt you, I just want someone to hold, I don't want to hate you, but I'm already stone cold

[ERASED EXPLANATION]

I'm going to push you away until you never come back
[ERASED POST]






If I had one wish, it would be for someone to hold on to

Create the world
Did I ever tell you I'm going to change the world? Well, I am.
YOU WATCH ME
You bet.

How fucking funny...:
Kristen: anywho
rainstarfire: anydoom
Kristen: lol
rainstarfire: ^^
Kristen: boredom
rainstarfire: yer
Kristen: PIXIE!
Kristen: I'm coming for you!!!!
rainstarfire: UH OH
Kristen: We're gonna run away and steal nate on the way!!!
rainstarfire: xD
Kristen: =)
rainstarfire: we'd scare the crap out of him
rainstarfire: GOD
rainstarfire: you're HILARIOUS!
rainstarfire: XD
Kristen: lol
rainstarfire: YOURE COMING FOR ME!
rainstarfire: AH
Kristen: YES!!!
Kristen: I (Me) Am coming for YOU
Kristen: and weeeee.... are going somewhere
Kristen: *ponders*
rainstarfire: YAY
rainstarfire: lets go to an amusement park
Kristen: yeah!!
rainstarfire: ^^
rainstarfire: Kristen: PIXIE!
Kristen: I'm coming for you!!!!
rainstarfire: wtf?
rainstarfire: XD
rainstarfire: XDDD
Kristen: lol
rainstarfire: ok I'm done, promise
Kristen: lol... =)
Kristen: collageof_frozenfear: Oooookay! You come kidnap me, me and you will go kidnap pixie, and me you and pixie will go kidnap this guy, Nate that she likes and then we're running away to ireland or something
collageof_frozenfear: wait
collageof_frozenfear: pit stop at an amusement park
collageof_frozenfear: k?
Andrew: lol
Kristen: haha
rainstarfire: XD
rainstarfire: this conversation must be saved
Kristen: lol
Kristen: go for it
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1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.

2. How long have you known me?

3. When & how did we meet?

4. What was your first impression?

5. If you could "hook me up" with ANYONE, who would it be?

6. What do you think my biggest weakness is?

7. What makes me happy?

8. What makes me sad?

9. What reminds you of me?

10. If you could give me anything what would it be?

11. When was the last time you saw me?

12. What have you always wanted to tell me?

13. Describe me in one word.

14. Are you going to put this on your page and see what I say about you?
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Good survey. Good people who fill out survey.
Doom.
I'm uh..
well now. many fun to talk to people online right now. Julia un bored. Juliadoom!
mwa... haha

Stay away, Don't follow
hmm...
Very stressful day. I, of course, didn't do any sleeping, but today it was really getting to me. I woke up right at 6 [that's... EARLY.] because that is what I do, and I washed my hair in the sink [LOL] because I didn't want to wake my parents. Quite odd, really. Then I went back to bed, but no sleeping.
It was early release day.. ugh. I can't describe how much I hated school today. All of my "friends" just frustrate and annoy me now. Laurel knows SHIT about me, to be honest, because I always felt she was too naive to understand. She is so like them all... I told her something once [a few months ago] because for some reason I thought she was strong enough for me to rely on her, but that just broke her down. And that ended with me breaking down in public, so it obviously will do no good. No matter, I've learned my lesson, "friends."

-.- sorry.

~.~ I had a stomach ache all day. ~.~
agh

May I rant?
Ok, take no notice please. This isn't me speaking.. um, it's my friend Juliya @.@

YOU can't stop me! Leave me alone! Stop bothering me! Don't ask me anything! Don't be so sensitive! Don't be so INsensitive! Stop, stop stop

[/juliya rant]

Aha...
Ok, Lauren came over after school. We went to the cafe. That's about it.

never again
=) Hey.
[very weird, but.. wow. I must share.]
Last night was wonderful. I was talking to Kristen, and I realized that my parents would be out until 11. It dawned on me that I was completely FREE, at NIGHT, and I could go anywhere I wanted to then. No hw. ^.^. After some encouragement, I headed out at 9. The sky was completely clear, and the moon was glowing above me... there weren't any people around, and I didn't need them. I was just amazed... happy, by myself. I ran, spun, and walked down to the cafe, and got a coke. Then, I walked into a very very long, deserted parking lot, plugged my ipod into my ears, and just sang, danced and spun under the stars.
Complete and total freedom. Not one person near to judge me. And I wouldn't even care.

Ah... what's YOUR freedom? I'm pretty sure that it's not really being in a house....

much love. hugs to kristen. ^_____^

it's lunch time at school btw o.o

Claw away at my sanity
Yeah o.o
I did my speech today. Yes. Finally.. it was thrilling. They liked it. My voice shook. I got my damn point across.
Yurp!
Europe!
Lol.

Someone said something to me today that REALLY hurt my feelings... -.-. Out of ignorance, but god, was that a low.

Hmm... The pain came back last night. It was like.. someone was stabbing me in the heart with a needle. I'm not trying to make some simile about "love hurting," I'm speaking literally. Went away though. Remember exactly two weeks from then, Kristen? When I called you? Yeah.. so ironic. o.o.. It is out of hand.. I just don't feel that way.

>.< I'm being such a whore. I need to get my mind off all this... Going to get sodas with Brandi.

We're planning a petition against the sex ed program, the laws that allow abuse, and the law that makes you say the pledge.

Sorry. I was being negative. =/

Byebye o.o
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Don't IM or anything to talk about "stuff"... I've already dumped my shit on enough people. -.- so I feel guilty. Go paint a picture.