^__^
Hey, woop woop!
First I must recollect the past three days' events. Friday I went to the bookstore with Kae, and then Zarae and her awesome mom Zeah picked me up at 10, and we got cake and talked ^.^! Very joy. Yesterday at Brandi's house, we raced skateboards on our butts [XD] watched virgin suicides, two weeks notice, and some of MIB2 [LOL] Then, we wanted to make a movie about how evil her cat is, but the camera wouldn't work. Lol. So I went home and stuff.

This morning I was at church.. it was really fun. I'm feeling good. I saw a lot of people and such, and I just feel content now. At peace with the world. wee ^.^

Ah...
I HAVE to finish my project. =/
Z's picking me up again tonight ^.^
Yeah.. mucho love.
<3juliya<3

You can't notice unless I want you to
o.o
Tis me.
I woke up and my mom told me something that really pissed me off. So I got really angry and... ~.~ Fortunately, they haven't broughten something-or-another up for two days. Back to avoiding them.. I hope they just leave me alone. I've always hoped that they'd just leave me alone, actually. I tell it to them all the time now, and they just get angry. Well, heh, why wouldn't they? Eh, stupid fuck ups.

I'm in an oddly negative mood...
A few years ago I was mad at myself for being an angry, negative person. So I took on this way positive outlook. That didn't really do me much good. At all.

Hmm.. I wonder if it will eventually get to my body. If it hasn't yet? I'm just pushing it every day...

I'm not stupid, but I do stupid things because I don't get any satisfaction out of doing smart things. Does that make any sense?
Yeah...
Lol, so weird. Went over to Brandi's from 4:30 to 9, and then I went outside and sat under the stars somewhere around where I live. It was really beautiful...

Been listening to Back in Black a lot. It's kickass. Steriogram did a cover, too.

Wee!
?
*sigh*
I guess I should finish my project and practice some guitar.

Ugh, what the hell?

I'd like to fly-y, but my wings have been so denied...
Choose a band/or artist and answer only in song TITLES by that band:: Opeth

Are you female or male:: In Mist She Was Standing
Describe yourself:: Bleak
How do some people feel about you:: In My Time of Need
How do you feel about yourself:: Weakness
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend:: To Bid You Farewell
Describe your current girlfriend/boyfriend:: For Absent Friends
Describe where you want to be:: Blackwater Park
Describe what you want to be:: Black Rose Immortal
Describe how you live:: By the Pain I See in Others
Describe how you love:: Drapery Falls
Share a few words of wisdom:: Into The Frost of Winter

have fun...
Have you ever...

Hit someone forcefully: Yeah.
Seen "Are you Afraid of the Dark": Nah.
Thrown anything at a moving car: Yeah.
Been in a fist fight: I was in a lot of fights in elementary school o.o.
Laughed so hard you cried: Yes.
Hit an animal in the road? No.
Who do you sit with at lunch: Sharry, Laurel, Karly, Shelby, Jane, Joelle, Courtney...
Do you think Justin Timberlake is hot or not: No.
Who gave you a Valentine card this year: My friends all gave me one.
Favorite shoes you own: Black slip ons.
What color would you dye your hair: I would dye my hair any color.
What is something you wish you could have that someone else has: Love, motivation, a family that wouldn't screw with my head, Patience, Stability, strength
Favorite TV show: eh, Friends. I like Just Shoot Me also.
Make-up or none: Yeah.
Do you believe we landed on the moon: Sure.
What are you wearing now: Happy Bunny PJ pants, maroon tank top.
What song is stuck in your head: Down in A Hole, by Alice in Chains.
How old are you mentally: I have no idea o.o
Describe yourself in 5 words: Reaching and falling, used, confused.
Do you dream at night: Yeah.
Do you remember your dreams: The ones that terrify me.
Do you sleep with one pillow or two: two, or a big fat one.
Do you like school: I do not.
Whats ur fave subject: Art, French.
Do you have a best friend(s): I do have best friends. I have a few.
Do you have a religion: I guess so?
Do you practice it: I think about religion, and, sometimes.
Does death scare you: I don't know. Not really.
Do you watch tons of tv: I don't really watch that much...
How many times have you been to the movies in the past 6 months: um.. 30? Dunno.
Do you read magazines: At times. No subcriptions.
Whats your fave band: Alice in Chains, at the moment.
Do you wear makeup regularly: Yes.
Are you a saver or a spender: I have a lack of interest in..everything, so when I see something I want I buy it. I can always make it till my next allowance. If I had an emergency, I know where the house money is.
Which 5 people do you trust and are open with the most: Nicole, Zarae, Adam.
Can you live without the microwave: I don't use the microwave.
Which guy/girl do you wish to be with RIGHT now: At the moment, Adam.
Would you rather eat sandwiches or pasta for the rest of your life: You have a lot of spare time, eh?
Football or rugby: Neither.
What's something you ALWAYS have on you: A pen?
What do you think of guys with nailpolishes: hmm.. I don't care at all.
What's a happy memory of a time you've spent with the opposite sex: ::thinks up some happy memories::
What's the nicest thing any one has ever told you: ::thinks long and hard:: I know a few.. not everlasting, though...
What's your favorite fastfood restaurant: Wendy's
Favorite book: I like When She Hollers. But I don't really know a fave...
Did you read Fear Street books: not that I know of.
How about Sweet Valley High: No.
Babysitter's club: No.
Goosebumps: No.
Favorite show on nickelodeon (can be from the late 80's/early 90's when nick was good: I do not watch nickelodeon.
Favorite cereal: trix

NAME A BAND THAT...

YOU LIKE: Opeth, TON, Alice in Chains, NIN, Soilwork...
YOU DISLIKE: Yellowcard, Something Corporate, GC, NFG, Blink 182
IS NAMED AFTER A PIECE OF FOOD: Korn.
WAS IN YOUR TOWN RECENTLY: 311, Steriogram
YOU HAVE MET: Steriogram was the most recent.
YOU LIKED WHEN YOU WERE A TEENAGER: ::is a teenager::
YOU SAW FOR YOUR VERY FIRST CONCERT: It's shameful to say.
YOU WANTED TO SEE IN CONCERT BUT WAS SOLD OUT: I wanted to see the rejects once.

Do you like forks with three metal pokers, or four?: who cares?
Would you ever wear a hat with cat ears on it?: yes.
How many MP3's do you have on your computer?: I don't count. Lots.
How often do you get teased for your musical taste?: Dunno. Rarely, I guess.
Are you fascinated by death?: Yes.
Do you have posters on your wall? Yes.
What did you have for breakfast this morning?: I'm about to eat... grapes.
If you were a tree, what kind of tree would you be?: Willow
What was the last book you read? Was it good?: To be honest, I forget. Langauge arts totally made me hate books this year. A good one this year was Violet and Clare..
Do you have a Livejournal?: Yes.
What does your favourite t-shirt look like?: It says "Opeth" on it, has a blurry image of someone, it's black, its too big for me.
Are you going to college? What will you major in?: I plan to.. art? design? maybe even graphic design?
Have you ever eating raw sugar by itself?: Yes!
How often do you use Google?: many times daily
Have you ever owned one of those little Chevron cars?: ?
What was the last thing you won?: Lazer tag? An argument with my parents.
Do you own any comic books?: No.
What kind of deodorant do you use?: Secret? Lol. !
Where was the last place far from home that you visited?: umm... dallas?
Do you paint your left or right hand fingernails first?: left..
What about for your feet?: right?
Have you ever gone to a grocery store late at night? What did you get?: Um, ?
What's the most expensive item you've ever paid for?: Er... maybe those black pants I have. I forget.
How often do you drink soda?: Pretty often.
What's the best name you can come up with for a snake?: ?
Would you or have you ever begged online people for money?: No
Was it successful?: ?
What kind of people are you attracted to?: To be honest? People I can't figure out. What kind of attraction?: Any attraction?
Do you work? Where at?: No.
Have you ever worked at Subway? Was it fun?: No. It probably wouldn't be.
Do you want to have children? How many? If any, one.
What's the scariest thing you've ever done?: Hmm.. I rarely get scared, honestly. A little freaked, but things just don't scare me that much. Dunno.
How long have you had your AIM/MSN/Yahoo name?: 2 years.
Do you think fish are cute?: Sure.
Where will you be posting this?: LJ, woohu.
If you found an ant on your food, would you still eat it?: I'd take off the ant and eat it if I was very hungry.
Are you any good at math? What about quadratic equations?: I'm pretty good at math. Quadratic equations are ok.
Do you like your family?: My family is so fucked up. No. Not at all.

Loving the chorus.
[Down in a Hole] [Alice in Chains]
Bury me softly in this womb
I give this part of me for you
Sand rains down and here I sit
Holding rare flowers
In a tomb...in bloom

Down in a hole and I don’t know if I can be saved
See my heart I decorate it like a grave
You don’t understand who they
Thought I was supposed to be
Look at me now a man
Who won’t let himself be

Down in a hole, feelin’ so small
Down in a hole, losin’ my soul
I’d like to fly,
But my wings have been so denied

Down in a hole and they’ve put all
The stones in their place
I’ve eaten the sun so my tongue
Has been burned of the taste
I have been guilty
Of kicking myself in the teeth
I will speak no more
Of my feelings beneath

Down in a hole, feelin’ so small
Down in a hole, losin’ my soul
I’d like to fly but my
Wings have been so denied

Bury me softly in this womb
Oh I want to be inside of you
I give this part of me for you
Oh I want to be inside of you
Sand rains down and here I sit
Holding rare flowers (oh I want to be inside of you)
In a tomb...in bloom
Oh I want to be inside...

Down in a hole, feelin’ so small
Down in a hole, losin’ my soul
Down in a hole, feelin’ so small
Down in a hole, outta control
I’d like to fly but my
Wings have been so denied

Ah, good times. Having a very fun convo with Nikki on aim.

FuneralPortrait9: My Dad has some pills for his eyes
FuneralPortrait9: To relieve pain or something
StarkistPixie: and?
StarkistPixie: o.o'
StarkistPixie: geh
FuneralPortrait9: And I think to many because an hour ago he was yelling "PEEP PEEP PEEP" in the kitchen
FuneralPortrait9: he took to many*
StarkistPixie: xD
FuneralPortrait9: XD
StarkistPixie: !!!
StarkistPixie: PEEP PEEP PEEP?
StarkistPixie: seriously?
FuneralPortrait9: Seriously
FuneralPortrait9: I should have recorded it
StarkistPixie: xD; ::cracks up::
StarkistPixie: that is so retarted
FuneralPortrait9: I know XD
FuneralPortrait9: Atleast he seems happy.
StarkistPixie: xD.. lol. good for him. you've made my day because now I am imaging some guy yelling PEEP PEEP PEEP in the kitchen.
FuneralPortrait9: XD
FuneralPortrait9: And my dad, of all guys.
StarkistPixie: ^___^
StarkistPixie: for some reason, I imagine your dad as a fat guy with a moustache.
FuneralPortrait9: o.o
StarkistPixie: =P
StarkistPixie: o.o
FuneralPortrait9: He does havea moustache and he is kind of heavy, but really tall.
FuneralPortrait9: have a*
StarkistPixie: ah
StarkistPixie: well, thank you for painting the picture for me o.o
StarkistPixie: woop woop! ::manifests a bowl of tangerines::
FuneralPortrait9: ....XD
StarkistPixie: ^^;;
FuneralPortrait9: Good times.

Ahhh ^^ Good Times indeed.
Mmm, going out with kae and then maybe brandi's house tonight.. there's a dance, but I am just sick of the ignorant fools that go to my school. =) Mm.
I am deeply concerned about Adam and Courtney. Feeling helpless and hoping, oh please, let them be ok.
Also, worried about a list of people, and you are probably on that list. =P

StarkistPixie: remember that time you scared the crap out of rita and pretended to be sharry stalking her?
FuneralPortrait9: XD Yes
FuneralPortrait9: Was she really scared?
StarkistPixie: XD that was fun
StarkistPixie: um
StarkistPixie: she talked about it
StarkistPixie: she sounded pretty freaked out =]
StarkistPixie: >:]
FuneralPortrait9: Ha!
FuneralPortrait9: We are awesome.
StarkistPixie: We so are.
StarkistPixie: ^.^
FuneralPortrait9: ^.~

Yeah.

Choose a band/or artist and answer only in song TITLES by that band:: Alice in Chains

Are you female or male:: Sunshine..?
Describe yourself:: Confusion
How do some people feel about you:: Love, Hate, Love
How do you feel about yourself:: Killer is Me
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend:: Over Now
Describe your current girlfriend/boyfriend:: I Can't Remember
Describe where you want to be:: So Close
Describe what you want to be:: Heaven Beside You
Describe how you live:: Hate To Feel
Describe how you love:: Real Thing
Share a few words of wisdom:: Don't Follow

bloody whores!
Have you ever had the urge to call everyone in sight a whore? I HAVE x_x
UGH! Why are people treated so fucking badly?
x_x I am so fucking worried about Adam.
>. I just want to kick all these people's asses... the ones who are whores. Whores whores whores. I can say no more, for that is what they are.

You could say I'm having a problem, but my conciousness doesn't think it is.
upset now because I'm worried about Adam. Before the day was.. alright. I finished my speech, and read it to most of my art class. They thought it was great... which made my day. Also, it shocked the crap out of them =). Now, I'm done about a week early. Yay.
Can't wait to read it to my language art class.

Say, how about the whores that go to your school? Ever feel like they're all the same? Yeah? THEY ARE.
Whores, and they will pay for their ignorance.
Hmm. Sorry about that. Actually I'm not, but I have to wrap it up in a neat little package, eh.

I wish I had the courage and ability to simply open myself up to the world so they would stop judging me. It is.. somewhat of an impossibility.

My parents are yelling at me right now.
And anything they don't know for facts, I know somewhere in the back of their ignorant minds they do know. They're just that much of whores. And I feel like they're taunting me! Just like all of the other whores.
Whores!
People say all sorts of things when they are furious and defensive.

So many people around me gave up hope, and I feel like I can't keep up with them...

Gah, it's so STUPID... my inner battle. Any, um.. balanced person would think I was crazy.

@_@
I'm going to go buy a coke.

.:help:.
='(
Like she said, when you want to cry you can't, when you don't want to you can't stop.
I feel like shit o.o
Nicole and Kristen are unreachable.
My parents are going to murder me, seriously... =( =( =(... I know what it meant! I know what it meant now.. I know what they meant, I know the feeling, I know the eternity of it... I understand

I'm so close to, "I WISH I'D NEVER GOTTEN MYSELF INTO THIS MESS"... but no, unavoidable in any case
=(!
*sigh*

....drowning myself....

You have the talent... to make me feel like dirt
HEY o.o
Ok, everyone... you've all heard Alice in Chains, RIGHT?! I think I have like 20 or 30 songs of theirs on my ipod [I only have 83 on there]. They fucking kick! W00P ;). They have such a great sound, a lot of peaceful and evil. Hehe...
I do love them. ^.^

Enough of that... school today. x_x We [Di and I] could not have had a worse monday. I remember slaving away at our goddamn spirals together a week ago, and we got 50's, dammit! Because we didn't organize them! WTF! It's HISTORY class! Ahhh.... I cannot explain how many times we walked into class today to find out we were behind, and about to have a hell week. And that "WHAT?" Look on our faces...

='( Life is getting to diane. Be a happy Di =). *sigh*

I scanned my piccys! Yeah... some photos from november [or october o.o] that laurel brought today. The rejects//hoobastank concert. No, I do not like them. But I did. Whatever =P

A piccy I had fun smearing. I like it.
Eternal.
Ok.. this is me xD... imitating Laurel, with my awesome hair that I had [but I didn't know it was awesome at the time =)] wearing Sky's hoodie that I almost stole... =) But he wanted to keep it =(. Sky is so cool.
This is the one I did in school that Di almost paid me for. >=D. Lolz. [No.] Wee!
This, apparantly, is diane's family and co... I think it's a particularly hilarious piccy xD She is the one with the desperate expression and the can on her head. LOL

Heh... fun stuff.

Hmm. Some very NOT FUN stuff today and yesterday.
Kristen =(

Bleh.
Brandi and I shall tape our own sitcom and go a-walking today.

Nick Fox just wants to talk about himself and his problems. >.< He's annoying. I was right about him x.x
That would be Nikki's ex. Grr. Hope he gets over himself soon.

Well, yeah. I did a custom list for my livejournal so now I can add everyone as a friend. Wee.

Wee! I am going to SXSW, RIGHT NOW!
Kae playing with my bangles on the way home from taking lives. And a haircut. WEE!

wow...
A pretty unusual series of events last night. I did not go to where I was planning to go, my parents did ignore me and leave once again, I did end up at a breaking point, and someone did tell me..
"Anywhere you go, I'll follow."
...O_________________O...

I hope I make some good decisions and things even out. =P
<33juliya<33