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2004 9 April :: 9.06pm
Jerry and his friend Matt came home. I've known Matt and his sister, Jana since I was like, 4. Matt weighed like 230+ pounds the last time I saw him. He's like, 170 now.
EH.
Jealousy.
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2004 9 April :: 7.20pm
"You missed a part
You live...
You make something of yourself...
You die.
And if you keep pushing, you just might find more happiness than you ever imagined.."
....But what was the point in doing it all if you're just gonna die?
It won't matter anymore. It's like you did it all for nothing.
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2004 9 April :: 7.15pm
Scooter found this dog earlier, and it was starving to death and it's got a broken hip and everything.
You can see like, every bone in its body. It's so sad. Mom took it to the vet and they told her to keep feeding it and everything.
Brandon's court thing went alright ...
He got fined $250. I dunno how the hell that's gonna get paid. I buzzed underneath his hair and everything for him before he went. He liked it a lot. His mom said it looked like he got a hair cut and couldn't afford the rest :D
haha ... they always hate how he does his hair though.
Seth came over not too long ago and smoked a cigarette with me. Mom hates seth but today she was pretty cool with him for some reason.
I've been cleaning out my closet. EH. It shouldn't take too much longer ...
It's just a matter of me getting off my ass again to go do it.
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2004 8 April :: 11.10pm
Oh my god ... I'm BOTHERED.
1.)Brandon
2.)Brandon saying we're getting nowhere and we probably shouldn't be together
3.) BRANDON coming up with the fact that we're getting nowhere
4.) BRANDON saying "If things don't start working out soon, we're over"
I DIDN'T DO SHIT. :(
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2004 8 April :: 8.36pm
The mommy said she'll take me to Brandon's at 6 in the morning and then I have to come straight home after court and clean my room.
Eh.
She has forgotten all about my appointment at 9 though =)
teehee *evil laugh*
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2004 8 April :: 7.37pm
Everything's always up to fucking Jeff.
JEFF IS NOT MY PARENT. Mom is.
And of course, he always says No.
At least the two of THEM are getting a long now.
Now it's just me out in the dark...
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2004 8 April :: 6.37pm
I've been thinking a whole lot ...
Seriously ...
What the hell is the point in living?
It's like, one huge experiment to see who can make it and who can't ...
Who's weaker than who.
"Die young and save yourself"
Think about how much that makes sense.
Because to me, it makes incredibly perfect sense.
You live ... and you die.
Why not sooner?
Of course ... I don't have the guts.
I'm just saying ... Think about it.
It's like putting millions of ants in a tiny aquarium and watching them fight for their lives.
One huge experiment ...
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2004 8 April :: 6.32pm
THREE fucking hours of arguing with Brandon.
Came really close to a break up but he's the one that brought it up.
If he thinks he wants to break up with me because of the shit that HE has to handle, I can't even imagine how long he'd last in my place.
Mom got pissed off and threatened to shut the phones off if we didn't stop arguing.
I'm tired...
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2004 8 April :: 4.43pm
This is just about the ending point ...
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2004 8 April :: 3.37pm
Just got off the phone with Brandon ...
It just dawned on me how much of an asshole he really is.
Ate too much today ...
Shouldn't eat tomorrow.
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2004 8 April :: 1.39pm
Mom let scooter in my room and he wouldn't stop licking me so I had NO choice but to awaken.
Eh.
Brandon has court tomorrow...
Hopefully mom let's me go with him.
I got my Driver's Ed packet but I have no proof that I'm in school. Mom's on the phone and I heard her say "Yes, she's not very fond of you" so I'm GUESSING it's the principal at River Road.
....And the two of them are plotting evil schooling things against me.
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2004 8 April :: 12.58am
I NEED to come up with the freaking will power to Water Fast for ONE week. I know I can do it if I try really really hard but its soooo hard =(
Eh.
I can do it though.
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2004 7 April :: 9.53pm
Weighed myself ...
Happy level dropped 3 knotches.
Boredom has taken control of my poor little body.
undoomness...
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2004 7 April :: 7.55pm
Talking to Gene ...
Hehe, he's the greatest.
Boredom o.o
Hopefully, Pixie comes back on soon.
Taylor ... is spanking himself with a ruler yelling "Spank me darling ... SPANK me like a monkey in July!" in a gay voice ...
Lovely.
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2004 7 April :: 4.20pm
I only have 2 dollars in change to send to Andy ... haha. I must get paper money quick.
I woke up and it felt like somebody beat me with a hammer all over my body. *sigh*
I think I should probably fill my water bed up some more.
It could have been from football yesterday, too though. o.o
I ate a whole bunch yesterday ...
Probably gained back the majority of the weight that I had lost. Haven't eaten anything yet today. Hopefully it'll stay like that.
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