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2005 24 January :: 2.46 pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: the velveta song =P
even tho the song says put velveta in keeep the cheddar out.. I still ate it with cheddar ;]
well you already know what happened with Cole Marcus the other day. I wish I coulda seen my face when I got that phone call. Jade came over n stayed the night on friday.. then we went to the wrestling meet where our school kicked ass!! n we talked to Cole's friend, and my old fellow day care member, Mike. He's a wrestler. Well I guess Cole's back from York by now. Jade couldn't talk to him today because he wasnt at school, I think I saw his step mom takin him home but I'm not quite sure if it was them. Or he coulda just got snowed in, in York n couldn't come bak til today. But I hope he calls. SOON. =]. but I'm beginning to think nuthin's gunna happen. It's pretty funny.. even Gary is trying to get me n Cole back together. thats just weird. But I hope u r havin fun wherever u r babes. n I know u'll have fun in Florida.. I'm commin down there in about a month.. thats if I decide to go with my dad. Im not quite sure cuzh hes making tons of stops at his brother houses on the way n all they do its drink so I'm not sure.
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2005 20 January :: 7.33 pm
:: Mood: relieved
:: Music: true --> Ryan cabrera
All this pain and where are we, back to where we started ..
Well .. were back together. For the moment, im scared that were going to break up again or sumthing. Or have another *break* ya knw. Im really nervous but gosh im soo happy i have my babi back, i swear today was the worst day ina long ass time. This is what shesaid to me..
Xoyamamaox: look i know it was only a fuckin day but i cant take the shyt i dont wanna be anyone else i thought about it EVERY FUCKIN MINUTE today and boo i honestly just wanna be with you and only you for the rest of mah life no one knows me like u do no 1 makes me feel the way u do. i went on a break searching for an answer and it was right in front of me. boo i wanna be w/ u and only you for the rest of mah life babi pleez take me bak cuhz i swear this is wat i want
Xoyamamaox: dont ask no questions just give me a straight answer yes or no
Godd ali swear shes soo good to me, and were soo in love. Its really crazy how much i love her and how i wold do anythin for her. I love her and i know we'll make it, we have to. I need her, and i cant live without her..i wont. But enough, of that for t nite luhv u tons and thanks for making me feel better, but ima go take a bubble bath luhv u tons n tons xOx !!
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2005 20 January :: 7.59 am
:: Music: Tim Mcgraw- live like you where dyin`
I'm fighting wif my kitty!
Heyy Jilly!. I just ate a big bowl of cereal n my kitty is sittin here trying to drink the milk. so I batted at her to get away n she standed up on her hind legs n batted right back at me!. how rude. Well I had a lovely time today trying to sweep of the 2 feet of snow on my car the trying to power muh lil car through the 2 feet of snow in the driveway.. just to get to lincoln to talk to caitlin witch NO ONE WAS THERE!!! 2 hour delay haha.. guess u don't get notified of these thing when u dont go there. or atleast u dont think of turnin on the tv n lookin lol.
But to answer your question on my tiptoeinthedark woohu journal. Yes I talked to both Gary and Cole that day. WHen I told u Gary said he didn't like me n e more either he just couldn't stand losing me to Cole.. that was right after he said it. And I saw Cole at Lincoln that mornin member how I said I told him I tapped my nose n he smiled n giggle at meh? lol yeh so I talked to both of them that day. Thank god I gotta talk to Cole but I can def. live without talkin to Gary. He IM'd me lastnight n said hi I was like leave me the fuck alone!!! lol.
well I hope things work out good for me n Cole
and for you and Rissa.
Love ya hun!
<333!
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2005 19 January :: 8.41 pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: our first song --> only one, yellowcard
Right when everything was perfect, it all came crashing down..
She broke up with me Ali she broke up with me, i feel like my whole world is gone and i have nothing left. Ali i really just want to die. More than anything. Ali please tell me wat to do cuhz i jus want to die. i wanna kill myself for the first time since i got outta the hospital. This is it i think. She says were going to get back together. And she says she wants to be friends. I cant do that! I cant be only friends with her. I swera to god i luhv her more than ive ever loved anyone or anythina nd i jus wanna be with her soo damn bad.
But i guess since, she needs this that im going to have to wait. I sure as hell hope we get bak together but ya know ive heard that before. But if this is going to make her happy then okay. Ali im sorry to lay this all on you, but your the only person i really feel like i can turn to now, and the only person who will listen to me, i luhv you soo fuckin much and im sorry and please pray, not that we get back together, but pray that she feels better soon, and that things get better for her. I'd really appreciate it, luhv u tons babi gurrrl <33!
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2005 18 January :: 7.12 pm
:: Mood: creative
:: Music: break down here- `Julie Roberts
lalala
TeSt .-. tEsT
what a cute new lil journal.
Lalala
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