we raise in the morning as a haunting love story. with early fog, pulsing to erase all our worries. all i can want is to kiss on my sheets to the sounds of alarm clocks, a slow ringing proverb of another long week. i could stay here all year if all this were real. we'd build a castle at the foot of my bed. and buy a tin soldier to guard against what we've said. we sleep behind the church where your parents were wed. tonight the stars trace a one-way to heaven and we are the dead. fireflies attempt to retrace the steps we take, hanging jealous, but free. and with approaching revel, the candle you brought will melt to the earth...so will we. we live to get high in the back of our trailers. we'll think we're in love with a showgirl; a sailor all we can feel is there's nothing better to find. the angels were betting, honey, we'd fall out in time...

 

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jayzulla

:: 2009 8 September :: 8.35pm

Quinton Rampage Jackson will be playing the role of B.A. Baracus in the upcoming A Team movie. Only thing that sucks about it is he had to cancel his fight with Rashad.

Have you given up?


acidtears

:: 2009 8 September :: 6.32am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: "Be my rain" By: Zeraphine

Ugh
Back to school for me. Leaving in about 20 minutes. I'm tired, bored, and school will increase both of those. But, I have to do it. Wish me luck. :P

-Samm

Have you given up?


acidtears

:: 2009 5 September :: 4.48pm
:: Mood: dorky
:: Music: "Don't let me down" By: Dana Fuchs

Random conversations are the best.
Samm: Yeah, I like Frosty the Snowman.
He got my toes a tappin' in his movie.

Mike: It's like I've known you my whole life...

Samm: What??

Mike: My toes tap too Samm... My toes tap too...

Have you given up?


acidtears

:: 2009 4 September :: 2.50pm

When I was young I knew everything
She a punk who rarely ever took advice
Now I'm guilt stricken,
Sobbing with my head on the floor
Stop a baby's breath and a shoe full of rice

I can't be held responsible
She was touching her face
I won't be held responsible
She fell in love in the first place

For the life of me I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise and
We'd never compromise
For the life of me I cannot believe
We'd ever die for these sins
We were merely freshmen

My best friend took a week's
Vacation to forget her
His girl took a weeks's worth of
Valium and slept
And now he's guilt stricken sobbing with his
Head on the floor
Thinks about her now and how he never really
Wept he says

I can't be held responsible
She was touching her face
I won't be held responsible
She fell in love in the first place

For the life of me I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise and
We'd never compromise
For the life of me I cannot believe
We'd ever die for these sins
We were merely freshmen

hey yeah
hey yeah
hey yeah

We've tried to wash our hands of all this
We never talk of our lacking relationships
And how we're guilt stricken sobbing with our
Heads on the floor
We fell through the ice when we tried not to
Slip, we'd say

I can't be held responsible
She was touching her face
And I won't be held responsible
She fell in love in the first place

For the life of me I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise and
We'd never compromise
For the life of me I cannot believe
We'd ever die for these sins
We were merely freshmen

For the life of me I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise and
We'd never compromise
For the life of me I cannot believe
We'd ever die for these sins
We were merely freshmen
We were merely freshmen

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chelthesmell

:: 2009 4 September :: 12.40am
:: Mood: curious

Is there anything cool going on this weekend???

3 All grown up | Have you given up?


rayray

:: 2009 31 August :: 5.36pm

I had a pretty eventful week..
It was a good ending to a very filled week.
Only worked 3 days last week and only one day was a full 8 hour day.
I got to spend time with some friends I haven't seen in a very long time.
Spent some quality time at home, watching movies.
Worked on some homework.

Maybe I will stop procrastinating so much, and not wait until the last minute to finish 6 weeks worth of work this time..
But probably won't..

I won't ever change..
Well at least I don't ever stop procrastinating..

Have you given up?


acidtears

:: 2009 27 August :: 12.44pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: "L.E.S. Artistes" By: Santogold

Omg...haha
Yes, The Tru Blood drink is coming out soon. In less than a month. I'm excited.

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acidtears

:: 2009 24 August :: 5.00pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: "Sleepwalking" By: Analog Sway

Sleep walking through the party
Just like everybody
Your denim was your weapon
Shhh everybody listen.
Your boots a deadly venom...
Your lust was your addiction
You ask for no permission and
My body is the victim

Your eyes met mine across the room then
Boom

She knew she had me so she started dancing over slowly
She smiled at me as my jaw dropped to the floor.
I stood speechless and still
She went right for the kill
She took my hand and whispered,
I can show you so much more

Twist my lips in submission
From all your k k kissin
You got what Ive been missin
Shhhh boys just keep on wishin
Tonight youre on a mission
Keep me on one condition
That this becomes tradition
My body is the victim

Your eyes meet mine across the room then
Boom

Sleepless dreaming, sleepless feeling
When I saw her dance
I saw her dancing

Have you given up?


jayzulla

:: 2009 24 August :: 12.42am

Little buzzed. Weak night. Check my baby mama, flip rovers not hondas! lol....

Have you given up?


acidtears

:: 2009 23 August :: 6.31pm
:: Mood: content

:P
HUGO STIGLITZ!

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rayray

:: 2009 19 August :: 4.30pm

Apparently sucks at life like the rest of society.
Still don't know to deal with frustration and stress..
Should be able to just ignore it after all these years, but if it hasn't happened yet, then it probably won't ever happen.
I need a job that I like..
Maybe then I won't be so frustrated and in super-bitch mode when I come home..

Have you given up?


acidtears

:: 2009 18 August :: 9.44am
:: Mood: content
:: Music: "Sweet Dreams" By: Beyonce

:]
He's amazing.

Have you given up?


rayray

:: 2009 16 August :: 8.36pm

I am in kind of a crappy mood today.
I don't deal with frustation well at all.
And I am stressed about this financial aid crap.
I just want it to all be done with already..
I have to get papers up to MCC as soon as I can, that will finish processing my financial aid..
Yeah it sounds easy considering I live like 5 miles from the college.
But I leave at 6:40 in the morning, and they don't open until like 8 or 9.. and I get out of work at 4.. and the financial aid office closes at 4:30.. and i can't get from belding to sydney with enough time to get everything situated..
So hopefully they will let me fax the papers and then go from there..

I found an online program for what I want to do, but it is not covered by financial aid or student loans, and you have to make payments on its for a year..

It's crap. I feel like I am in a rut and that it doesnt matter what I do or how hard I work toward something, that I wont ever get out of it..
I want to be successful, and have money, love and everything else..
But once an obstacle comes in my path, and I get frustrated I am just ready to give up because I get so upset.

Will it ever change?

Have you given up?


rayray

:: 2009 11 August :: 7.53pm

So Katie's daughters surgery was yesterday and they were able to get all of the tumor.
Worst case scenario after surgery was that she wasnt going to be able to talk, walk or have any sort of movement because of the location of the tumor.
Thankfully, the surgery went very well and she was talking today.
Tomorrow they will see if she is able to walk and do all the of the other things on her own that she was doing before the surgery.

And today I was informed of more bad news.
My friend Sara's dad was in a bad car accident and is in ICU and on a ventilator.

Finally signed up for classes for fall semester today.
Then realized that today was first day of late registration and tuition was supposed to be paid same day as sign ups..
Oh well..
I guess we will just wait and see if my student loan processes right away or not..

All of this bad news has me in a slump.
That and working full days.
Im physically exhausted and don't feel like doing a damn thing.
I have a severe lack of ambition.

Have you given up?


rayray

:: 2009 9 August :: 12.03pm

After a long stressful week, I finally got a weekend to relax.
Found a friends daughter that is almost 2, has a brain tumor..
Found out that same day that a kid I went to school with was found dead in greenville..
Houses and cars are being broken into right next to our house, but nothing of ours has been messed with..
Shell Station was robbed at gunpoint last night, and thats like 2-3 blocks from my house..

I should lay out in the sun, but it doesnt seem to be shining all that much in my yard..
Bummer!

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