we raise in the morning as a haunting love story. with early fog, pulsing to erase all our worries. all i can want is to kiss on my sheets to the sounds of alarm clocks, a slow ringing proverb of another long week. i could stay here all year if all this were real. we'd build a castle at the foot of my bed. and buy a tin soldier to guard against what we've said. we sleep behind the church where your parents were wed. tonight the stars trace a one-way to heaven and we are the dead. fireflies attempt to retrace the steps we take, hanging jealous, but free. and with approaching revel, the candle you brought will melt to the earth...so will we. we live to get high in the back of our trailers. we'll think we're in love with a showgirl; a sailor all we can feel is there's nothing better to find. the angels were betting, honey, we'd fall out in time...

 

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acidtears

:: 2009 8 May :: 9.17am
:: Mood: drained

The weekend.
The weekend is sort of here. I just have to stand doing chores until about 7pm. Me and the kids(except Brie) are going to our dad's for the weekend. Saturday my Grandma T. is picking me and Tanna up to go Birthday Shopping. I'll probably ask to go to goodwill, maybe Meijer. So, that should be fun. The Sunday, we are getting picked up early by my mom, Doug, Ava, and Brie and we are going to my Grandma T.'s for Mother's Day. But, Jenny brought me "The vampire chronicles" yesterday, that will help me with the empty parts of the weekend. THANK YOU JENNY!!!! :] Have fun up North. HaHa. But, we went to the new Meijer here in Cedar the other day.....wow, totally different set up from every other Meijer I have been to. Guess what they have....come on guess. Okay...they have a HALL of bread. No, not an isle.....an actual HALL. It's loaf upon loaf of bread. Along with Hostess cupcakes and more. But a hall of bread. It's strange, but it's cool. This Meijer isn't as big as Rockford's, so, it has everything except a Jewelry center, shoes, Juniors clothes, and I think one more thing. But, it's pretty cool. They also have a TON of books. The books were the first thing I saw when we walked in, and I just gasped. My mom didn't know why I was gasping so she assumed something was wrong. "What's wrong??" I just pointed and said, "They have books. Lots and lots of books. And I see a few I have, want to read, or look interesting". Yes, I said "look interesting" from afar. I am a person that does the opposite of what they tell you. They always say "Don't judge a book by it's cover"....yeah...well.....I can't do that. If it looks like a cheesy 80's advertisement on the front, I won't read it. The picture and description have to grab me. If one doesn't, then it's not going to be read by me. But, I have to go vacuum....Ava's teacher is coming over for a home visit. Bye.

-Samm
P.S.- Yesterday Brendon and Kayliegh were over...there was a Gardener snake, Brendon picked it up to throw it in the woods...and as he threw it, the snakes tail came off. HaHa.

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rayray

:: 2009 3 May :: 1.10pm

Things are starting to look up.. Other than I have 6 exams due by thursday.. and being that I have to work monday-thursday, I have no idea when i am going to be able to make it up to the college before the lab closes so that I can get all my exams in..

Kind of worried about it.. but who knows.. maybe something will work out for me..

I still have work for 2 classes to do yet.. And there are a couple of assignments for one class that I can't figure out how to do certain things.. so yeah, im screwed!

Have you given up?


tuwang

:: 2009 2 May :: 1.17am

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lb5EbZIT0b4&feature=related

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jayzulla

:: 2009 30 April :: 11.43pm

UFC
I downloaded the UFC undisputed 2009 demo. Its the best fighting game i have ever played. its so realistic. kinda sucks the only fighters you can use though are Maricio Rua and Chucky, and human vs human chuck almost always wins. Iv played probley a total of 100 rounds already. never had 1 one go to decision. every aspect of the game is almost 100% spot on. striking is fluid, movment is great, the transitioning is awesome takes a little bit of time to get used to though. the muay tai clinch is awesome, slams are awesome. the full version of the game is going to offer 80+ fighters from 5 weight classes. now all i have left to do is wait until the 22nd for the full game. absolutly cannot wait.

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rayray

:: 2009 28 April :: 7.54pm

Found a new home for her cat, and is now balling like a 3 year old..

The ad was on craigslist for like 3 hours..

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rayray

:: 2009 27 April :: 6.08pm

I've been putting some serious thought into a career path, and I still have no clue what I want to do with my life.
I want out of this factory crap.
I keep thinking that there is a job out there that I will enjoy every moment of, and the people won't irritate me.
But lets be serious, that doesn't exsist.
At least not for me.

Any suggestions?

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rayray

:: 2009 24 April :: 3.45pm

Well here is another thing to add to the list of things that keep making my life worse..

Mike's daughters mom and step dad are buying the house that I want more than anything so that their welfare kids can rent it from them..
I am super fucking pissed because they knew that I wanted that house, and was trying to get it..
Right now I am beyond super fucking pissed.

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rayray

:: 2009 21 April :: 5.54pm
:: Music: Hate my life - Theory of a Deadman

Not sure if it is because of the rain, or the sudden load of shit that has been dumped on me lately, but the song "Hate my life - Theory of a Deadman" is my theme song for the moment.. One verse in particular.

I still hate my job, my boss is a dick
"I don't get paid nearly enough
To put up with all of your shit"


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rayray

:: 2009 21 April :: 2.43pm

Growing up I was never told that cheating was a good or bad thing. I have formed my own opinions on the subject.

But I can't believe she has the audacity to ask me not to be mad at him. I can understand that she wouldn't want my brother to know. But I honestly cannot believe she can ask me not to be mad at him. I may not have a lot of respect for the woman and she has done somf pretty questionable things in her life but I figured she'd make things right by not forgiving someone for doing the same thing she has done to every guy she has been with.

Makes me sick.

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rayray

:: 2009 20 April :: 10.55pm

So right now out of all the things that were bugging me the only thing left is how emotionally disconnected I feel from my family. Well, I guess you can add friends to that too.

I feel like everyone is against me. Sometimes when I spend time with my family I feel like they aren't even my family and it is a horrible feeling.

Will it ever go away?

Have you given up?


rayray

:: 2009 17 April :: 11.50am

Things are better already..
It took them forever to get my check thing situated and really it didnt get situated but whatever..
The owner of the company gave me cash.. Went to the bank, withdrew money and said "here you go, when you get your check in the mail just cash it, and give me back the same amount I just gave you."
Because my check went to my old address it will take up to a week for the tranfer of address to go through or whatever..
Yay!

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rayray

:: 2009 16 April :: 7.39pm

Things in my life couldn't be any more crappy..
I have a bitch trying to aggravate me to leave Mike, because she thinks I am not qualified to take care of her sister..
I want to buy a house, but that is not going the way I had planned..
I barely have credit, so I can't get a loan, they want me to get a credit card, but I can't get a credit card because I barely have credit..
I didn't get my paycheck today, and who knows when I will get one..
Apparently it got mailed out, or so they think, they aren't really sure.. My check NEVER gets mailed out..
So I have to wait until tomorrow to see if I get it..
But here is the real kicker, they asked me to verify my address, and they only have my old address on file.. So my check was sent to that address.. Delaying it just a couple of more days..
I asked them to re-issue me a new one and void the one they sent out..
But their response was "we have to wait and see if you get it"
Leaving me to wait until fucking MONDAY to see if I get a check and if I don't then they will re-issue me a new one, and have someone from Owosso drop it off at work for me..

Fucking A.. Not to mention, my boss and I have been going rounds all week because he is a fucking moron..

So I right now, I am ready to just quit life. I want to cry, curl up in a ball and sleep for like a month..

3 All grown up | Have you given up?


jes

:: 2009 16 April :: 5.00pm

My family lost a lot today with the house burning down. Everything is gone BUT my family and I thank God for that. Please be praying!! We need prayer.

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tuwang

:: 2009 17 April :: 1.30am

so I'm really drunk....


prime minister Aso gave me 12000 yen today...

while making my poor ass happy, it also made me sad for the people working here.

I suppose they had the right idea in that I will spend it IN japan and not send it anywhere else or save it for America.

good night.

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rayray

:: 2009 12 April :: 7.20pm

So I had Easter dinner with both my parents, at my moms house..

Apparently hell froze over..

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