we grow up. to give up.

5 All grown up | Have you given up?

:: 2009 20 January :: 4.20pm

Funny stuff in madden last night. preview for the super bowl. Samson vs staley cards vs pit. Cards win 38-36. was a good game. hopefully the super bowl will be as much of a barn burner as the game was.

edit. Why did payton get MVp again? he didnt even do that well this year. its bullshit. hes by far and away the best qb in the league right now. its so stupid. i can think of like 5 other qbs that should have gotten it. bullshit.

:: 2009 18 January :: 4.38pm

Right now is one of those moments where a nap didnt cure my bad mood..
So here's to hoping that a bowl of chocolate ice cream covered in chocolate syrup will..

4 All grown up | Have you given up?

acidtears

:: 2009 16 January :: 9.49am
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: Bella's Lullaby

Lately..
I am now on the third book in the Twilight Series. "Eclipse". So far it's a good book, unfortunately I haven't been able to read it much lately. I've been busier than usual. Hopefully this weekend will give me more reading time, or time to hang out. Because I swear, I am going to lose it if I'm forced to stay here all weekend. We were supposed to go with my dad this weekend, but he's going to be in South Carolina. So, maybe I will be able to relax this weekend. I highly doubt that, but, I still hope. Yesterday I had to clean the dining room lamp above the table, I had to clean the chairs in the dining room, and I had to do laundry. I was going to have to do dishes, but since Tanna was the last to do the dishes, her dishes were greasy and still had food on them, which meant I didn't have to do them, she did. I hate dishes. The sad thing is I would rather scrub floors, toilets, and all that deep cleaning stuff instead of do dishes.

So right now, I would definitely rather be somehwere else. Ava is screaming at the top of her lungs, she is trying to hit, kick, and bite me, and I am so sick of it. I am sick of this being what makes up my daily life. Screaming, Kicking, Yelling, Stealing, Biting, Hitting, Cigarettes, Cleaning, and what not. I deal with this everyday, while others sleep in until the afternoon. I wish I could sleep, I wish I had time to read, had time to dream. But I don't. I have to keep my head out of the clouds, or else I will get in trouble. If chores do not get done in a timely fashion, I get bitched out. But, it is pretty hard to do some of these chores, while watching a 3 year old hurricane who can scream so loud it will make your ears bleed. It gets very tiring. And, if I stay here this weekend, I will have to deal with it some more. Because god forbid any of the other kids help with her and the house. God forbid I try to get some much needed sleep. So tonight, I will be begging for an escape. Somewhere else to be; somewhere away from here. I wish there was a place to go on the weekends where not even a phone call can reach me. Somewhere I don't hear "I hate you" on a daily basis from a mouthy toddler. This is why I cannot wait until I become 18. I don't want to grow up, but if it means I can get away from this, then I am ready.

I need to escape, from hell.
Samm

6 All grown up | Have you given up?

:: 2009 15 January :: 11.23am

Bill had to put down Vader. Thats shitty and it sucks. Everyones animals are dyin : (

Edit : Om gonna cut your name into him.....

:: 2009 12 January :: 5.55pm

Maybe if you bitch a little more, he'll get impeached. good hunting.

7 All grown up | Have you given up?

chelthesmell

:: 2009 12 January :: 3.37pm
:: Mood: grateful

Brody Peter-Audley Dahlke was born January 8th 2009.
8 lbs 6 oz 21.5 inches long.
He is perfect in every way.
And I'm not just saying this because he's my baby, but he is probably the most gorgeous baby in the world. Seriously, he could be a baby model or something.
I love him.
=) <3

2 All grown up | Have you given up?

:: 2009 10 January :: 10.20am

For years, I have had dreams that have made me wake up out of a dead sleep and look around wondering if it was actually real or not.

And last night was one of those dreams.

I had a dream that I thought I was pregnant, and then a few days after thinking that, I gave birth to a 3 month old like it was nothing. And of course everyone was in shock, and my landlords filed a complaint for not being informed and I had to sign a contract that if anything ever happened like that again I would be evicted from my house. My friend Sara quit talking to me. And a group of people were standing in a circle doing tattoo's on each other, all while water was being sprayed all over them, and my baby was asleep on the bed like 4 feet away from them. Then, when I took my baby out of that room, I went into a lobby, and the neighbors I grew up next to were there, and one of them would not even look at me because I was holding a baby. And to finish off the dream, Mike and I went to Meijer to buy chocolate chip cookies.

1 All grown up | Have you given up?

:: 2009 9 January :: 12.49pm

Cant wear skinny jeans cause' my nuts dont fit
The Breslin Center was awesome. Watching the Spartans put a hurtin on OSU was the highlight of the night though. Cannot wait to go again.

Oh yeah, go Gators!

tuwang

:: 2009 7 January :: 2.48pm

I guess the advantage I have in life is that I use some sort of realism to keep me in check. I know what I can probably do, and I strive for greater things sometimes, but i don't really think beyond that. I just stick to what I know will work and I go with it.

So when it comes do dealing with certain situations I don't think about it too much if I'm convinced that there is only one really realistic solution to the issue at hand.

I see it, but maybe no one else does, but I do.

Its done me well to be in my "realistic bubble" where I know how bad things are and can potentially become...

but damn does it sure make it hard to dream...

2 All grown up | Have you given up?

:: 2009 3 January :: 12.40am

Seriously, the love of my life.

Indeed.

Oh, can't forget these little guys..

2 All grown up | Have you given up?

tuwang

:: 2009 1 January :: 7.16pm

Well that was fucking nuts. Happy New Years guys...

Thank God for this double espresso shot.

:: 2008 31 December :: 6.19pm

2008 has been a roller coaster of emotions from good to bad.
So much has happened over the course of this year that I did not imagine would.

January: I found out I was going to be an aunt.
February: I started a new job.
March: Watched grown men fight in the middle of the street like they were on UFC. Oh, did I mention they were drunk?
April: I don't think anything really exciting happened then. I'll have to get back with you.
May: Got serious about starting college.
June: My 21st birthday, Stated college, and had a blast with summer cook-outs, my cousin got married.
July: Fireworks, a good friend was killed in a motorcyle accident.
August: A friend was killed in a drinking and driving accident, Mike's cousin moved in and then a few weeks later, Mikes mom passed away.
September: We moved into a house, I got a cat, and I became an aunt, my grandma was in the hospital for a long stay.
October: 3 year anniversary with Mike.
November: 7 years since my grandpa had passed.
December: Took the civil service test to be a corrections officer, got a dog, mike's cousins girlfriend moved in, mike's cousin and girlfriend moved out, fought with his girlfriend like a high schooler and drama began. 4 years since my grandma passed.

As usual there was a drama, there were tears, there was happiness, babies were born, and wedding vows were exchanged.

It wasn't a terrible year. Probably one of the better years.

Hopefully the rest of you enjoyed your year, and if you didn't hopefully you will make next year worth while.

:: 2008 28 December :: 7.08pm

I got a new DVD burner for christmas, that I have gotten a lot of use out of the last few days.
I got a really soft fleece blanket, that I use every night now, and my cat also enjoys it.
And lastly, I got a new Nikon coolpix L18 camera.
I was not expecting that either.

I spent Christmas day arguing with a dumb high schooler.

I still have Christmas with my mom, my dad and my aunt and uncle next weekend..
Should be fun!

Work tomorrow.. not excited for it..