Coincedence that since my life is going well i dont type that much here anymore? Not to worry though, because even though my life isnt amazing, but it is good, i wont deprive my peeps of something to do while being bored and online. School is actually not that bad. Ever since i actually started putting my nose in the books and actually doing my work. I just wrote my first paper for school that i wrote in a loooong time. Sure i was a little late in doing it and i had many technical difficulties i should be getting 100 on it. I also seem to be getting along with family a lot more than i normally do. Someone made mention about burning bridges and it made me think since they are going to be my family for at least a couple more years (at least!) i might as well be good with everyone, even though it always seems like i never fit in with my family, but im starting to think that it may be the case for most people and fail, maybe. Another wacko science experiment i might end up doing one bored couple of months or years. Highschool is going fast... not as fast as id want it to go though. The school has me thinking about college. They are always feeding us the same bs about money and school constantly shovng it down our throats. I sometimes dont even think that its as difficult as they make it out to be...so im taking care of my futire plans myself as much as possible. Stupid school. I think im going to end up studying science...maybe social science or psychology, i mean i do pretty much the same crap that they do as a hobby so i guess its a good idea...hehe. Other than that life is good. Ive been dating someone for a week or two. Shes black wich means absolutely nothing to me, but its funny to see my parents and friends reactions. silly people. i've come to a realization that life right now may not be amazing, but i dont think its sposed to be. Not because im a teenager or anything, but because of many things like the fact that ive been on a journey to figure out who i am, and i dont even know when thats going to end. Im paving my way for my future and its all going to take a lot of work depending on how awesome i want to live later on in life. Work now and play later, but at least im happy now. Of course im always waiting for the next big thing though...life is turning out to be relatively exciting.
Kent~

gettin in that spirit
alright this is officialy my first post where its safe to say that im talking to myself. shall we take a break to celebrate? OF COURSE NOT! hehe. I do have to admit that i was feeling a bit stupid because for a while there it seemed like i was complaining A LOT. apologies to anyone who was oddly unfortunate to read any of it. Im currently listening to the 2005 Victoria Secret Christmad compilation, currently on track 4 wich happens to be...Michael Bubble singing 'ill be home for christmad'...he kinda reminds me of sinatra, or at least the style he conveys...that 'loungy' style or something. hehe. hes not too bad...but anyway, amazingly long intro aside, its that time of the year that can take any ailment and make you forget about it. This sensation is even better when you dont have that many problems at all coming into the season. ive been doin that thinking that im so used to and ive actually come up with something new, wich by my current standards is odd. it was one of those thoughts that change my aspect on life a little. what if i was made this way? I complain and whine about nothing and its not my fault (possibly). i was just toying with the thought of global/human conditioning. its obvious that todays society has an effect on our media and our media has an effect on society, or at least people make big deals making it seem like this. with everyone complaining about movies and video games messing with our minds and with todays media being so cuthroat and money grubbin. maybe its a side effect that todays teens have become what they have become because of the way the world is conducted. since we cant evolve physically too much more it would make sense that our minds will keep growing. no teen wants to complain, or get sad, or deal with drama the way we normally deal with drama. do we handle things a certain way because thats what we were taught growing up. thats how not only our parents, but the world, has conditioned us to be. everything we here on the radio and in our music, everything we see on big and little screan, everything our friends and not friends say and do, and of course by every little thing our parents do since we are concieved. has the world turned us into something bad? normally id let something like this bring me down, but it actually cheers me up, because ive always found that as long as i know that there is a problem ive always been able to fix it or avoid it so it doesnt become a problem. i could possibly be the man who figures out the reason behind life. keep in touch...wait...WHO AM I TALKING TO!?!?! hehe. its good to be a little crazy.
Kent~

its not all bad.
either of become better at rolling or things just arent getting to me as much as they used to. rolling as in rolling with the punches, because i think ive gotten myself to actually believe that (despite my disbelief in fate and all things alike) all the bad things that happen to me are for a good reason, that reason being, to start or be apart of the chain reactions for the good crap that happens to me in my life. now of course id i didnt have to over analyze it id have just told you that things are better because im learning to roll with the punches. a good ammount of ok stuff is happening to me quite often so im complaining less and less every day, and with the holidays coming up and the promise of winter weather, i think things will be looking up for a while, but the thing i have to realize is that they will be looking up in a completely different way, wich i have to accept. its good to have some sort of grasp on wether or not things will be looking up.
Kent~

9.5 am on a sunday...moral is low...losing conciousness...cant...go..ALRIGHT enough with the theatrics. good morning to few and fewer. im up this early because of parents, plain and simple, no use elaborating, simply put im up because of parents. will i be happy when im away from them? whos to say anything really, of course its leaning toward yes, but we wont put my parents down for the count yet. should be a family filled funtastic funderful night. maybe with some cheetos in the middle 'if' i play me cards right. i hope everyone has a great time mostly not reading this.
Kent~

Late Night/Early Morning
i find that i dont sleep as much as id want to. wich is kind of odd considering i have the time to sleep. what could be wrong? 4:24 in the a.m. with school in a few hours, all i can say is thank ___ its friday (insert religious figure ____ ). ive been struggling the past few days with myself because it seems that something has really altered who i am, and im worried that ive already changed and i cant turn back. nobody ever talks about the bad stuff of anything yet its there to bite you in the ass whenever is most inconvinient. am i more of a bad person in the end? i dont think i have ever been this secluded ever. ive never not had friends. exactly how does anyone (mostly me) expect to be motivated if absolutely nothing currently in my life motivated me to do anything...on a lighter note i have actually been motivated these past few days...to find out where the new bridge goes that they spent like 3 months putting up, causing so many traffic jams. it looks like its some sort of walking or bike path, wich for some strange frickin reason is appealing to me. go figure indeed....is it considered journal etiquette to keep listening to the same song that you put even though this is your 3rd time listening to it? DAMNIT i need some woohu buddies to clue me in on the happenings of all this. im such a...n00b i believe they are called.hehe...trying not to fall into the stereotypical behavior for most journal-ers i will tell you that ive been suprisingly chipper these past few days. i could either be possibly accepting things as they are or they are puping something through the air vents at school. ive really been wanting to talk about my love life, but its been hard because thats always a touchy subject, i dont have much to talk about because i havent known love since early middle school (if it really was love). but since then its not that i havent had the opportunity to fall back in love...well...actually yes it is, because i havent dated anybody for longer than a few weeks since middle school. pathetic? no of course not...at least not untill i tell you that since early middle school ive been with 3 girls. i dont get how i actually forgot the feeling, cause i remember how amazed i was at the time. i do miss it, but im not talking about it...so...im going to go jump in the shower and watch some toons before i head into class.

~often times i wonder if im talking to myself through an online journal i paid 5 dollars for~

Kent~

Its just another day.
In the life of me. Absolutely nothing is going on in my life (whats new eh). People come up to me and ask 'whats new?' and i reply 'not a damn thing' and of course i say this outloud to nobody because there really wasnt anyone there in the first place. forgive me if a sound bitter at the many many bad turns of events called my life. I was thinking to myself how when you break it down, you have two ways to live. You can either work your ass off your entire life just to make sure your life doesnt have 'too' many problems. and i say too many problems because no matter how hard you work yourll always have problems. or you could be a bum. work your ass off or be a bum. There is no middle ground of anything. Worry about material things and money and bills or not worry about them at all and get used to a bums life...to me its crappy, why does it take so much to be happy? nobody wants to live on the streets all there lives and nobody ever smiles once when they have to pay for something in there life. double edged sword that will cut you no matter what you do in life...my old friends used to tell me how listening to me and my ideals makes them want to lemming off a cliff...(for those of you who have no idea what 'lemming of a cliff' means..i Its just my cute way of saying 'Jump of a cliff') so ill say right now if you have been reading this do not think about anything i say for longer than it takes you to read it in your head. I talk all the time and sometimes i forget what comes out.hehe. since there isnt anything to be said about today, im done. i hope whoever is reading this has a masculine child. everyone be happy
Kent~

Up to speed.
alright so pretty much my life up untill now has been...life-ish. being in highschool is as lame as everyone whos been to highschool has proclaimed many times before in the past. the only complaints i have is everyone is literally stuck up pieces of ignorant crap that for the life of me i cant seem to get along with, and i'm not sure the quality of the school is up to par, but since i dont know exactly what 'par' is (seeing as this has been my only highschool) i cant really complain, so all in all im ok with school for now and i have little to no complaints. i 'will' say that if something in my life doesnt change drasticaly before the end of school i will end up going crazy and possibly killing many people, because while i have no problems with school...i do have problems with the rest of my life (or what little life i do have)... im in a completely new place. i dont now anybody and everybody who i come in contact with at school is a bunch of jerks. if i had to break it down to its roots than id have to say my main problem with my life right now is the fact that im alone, and always amazingly bored. i go to school and come home. the only real friend i truly did have had to move away because if he didnt he would have died...so that kinda sucked. im sick of how life just keeps proving that all its supposed to do is kick us constantly even when we are down. everyone watch as the worlds biggest optimist becomes a pessimist! ive been dealing with it for a while now so its gotten to a point where it doesnt hurt as much as it used to, so im not complaining about it but i am...if that makes sense. i just want something to change. i just want to meet a nice girl, someone who i can talk to, cause hot damn i miss talking to people. sometimes its unbearable and the rest of the time its just 'whatever'. im thinking really hard and i cant seem to remember my last happy moment that didnt involve some altered state inducing substance...*sigh*...just another thing to add to my list of crap that i dont neccasarily like about my life...a substance abuse problem. i dont think ill ever let it get that far. of course this is all pessimism. believe that this isnt complaining. this is long awaited venting. it just sucks that i have to do it to a website...
Kent~

Life is
My first ever official journal entry. Im the slowest teen in the world. I dont even know what to say. hehe..i guess ill start with an intro.. im Kent Solice born and raised in Newark New Jersey. Highschool is not my friend, and long walks on the beach dont beat midnite picnics on the same beach with a wonderuful girl. I'm here because i like making friends and i was just never good at it in the "real world", that and ive always wanted to talk to myself..hehe. Hopefully i didnt waste 5 bucks on this..:-)...ill write soon, and i promise as soon as i can figure out how to make things not bland. Then I'll do it.
Kent~