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2004 6 September :: 12.16 am
:: Mood: defeated
AIFS? I think not....
Remember how I said I was going to exchange next summer? Well I found the perfect company to go through, Mrs. Esrailian suggested it and I researched and it was sooooo awesome! You eat with a homestay family, have courses and free time. Awesome activites on the weekend and not to mention for the first three days we actually sight-see in London before heading to Madrid! Talk about perfect! Downside, the whole thing costs around $6,500 which actually is about right for this kind of program.... However, mom "doesn't have that kind of money". She said she'd try to save the money but I doubt that, then Bill said I should do home-to-home stuff because it's free except spending money. Then I got mad and raised my voice and offered to make it a loan type situation that I would pay them back when I get my dad's money when I'm 18 if that was really the issue.... Then Bill said that I'm not emotionally stable/ immature and that he doesn't think I should be allowed to get my permit since he thinks I'd have a major case of road rage. *sigh* And it's much too dark to spin saber so I'm screwed for the night.... I was so excited, I hate this... I don't even want to go anymore... I don't give a damn about school anymore... okay, this is probably temporary but still... I'm so low, as if it wasn't bad enough before. I baked! BAKED FING BROWNIES! *sigh* No amount of chocolatey goodness can pick me up now....
I don't want to die, but I don't want to live at the same time....
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2004 3 September :: 7.31 pm
:: Mood: elated
:: Music: "Tangled Up In Me" - Skye Sweetnam
You wanna know more, more, more about me...
I'm the girl leading the Slam Poetry club!!! Picked up the forms and everything today, I couldn't be happier! Anyone who's done this club form stuff want to help me out? Heh...
Concert Choir was alriight, I missed the first 10 minutes for SLS. We decided on our t-shirt design and they were so kyoote! I love SLS ^^
Omg, I was so out of it today! On my way out of Chorale, I was like "Crap you guys, who has a math quiz that she didn't study for?" And so they wished me luck and I get in and there are papers face down on the desks so I said, "Hey, are the face down papers the quiz we're supposed to take?" Then Mrs. Yamasaki gave me this weird look, "Those? Yeah, they're the quizzes and you can look at them. They're the ones you took Wednesday, was it?" LMAO! I felt so dumb and explained to her what I was thinking but she totally got me because she did a similar thing with her other class. Anyway, got a 12/12 woo! Go me!
Not much else to say... jammed my thumb yet again because I overtossed our triple in the work, my bad.
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2004 1 September :: 6.24 pm
You're a Flute. Cute, but vicious.
What is your inner musical instrument?
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Like'd the question "Okay. Time for a chair test..." my answer? "If I get first, can I call second chair my manslave? That would be motivating."
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2004 30 August :: 8.32 pm
:: Mood: embarrassed
:: Music: "Love Destiny" -- Sister Princess
OMG, I'm such a dork!
Crap… Mr. Shaull just called and I thought it was Bill so I gave him all sorts of attitude because I have a killer headache… He was like, “*All bubbly and happy* Hi! How are you!”
Me: “*pissy*Tired.”
Mr. Shaull: “I’m sorry to hear that-“
Me: “You’re really loud, it’s annoying.”
Mr. Shaull: “*Laughs slightly* Oh… this is Deanna right?”
Me: “Yup.”
Shaull: “Hello Deanna, it’s Mr. Shaull and-
Me: “Oh my! I’m soooo sorry! I thought you were Bill!”
Shaull: “*Laughs a lot* This is the treatment Bill gets?1 *More laughing*”
Then he went on about how “they missed me today at Girl’s 21” and blah blah blah…. Damn it, I was supposed to lead Guard Weds. Morning… damn G-21… oh well…
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2004 29 August :: 2.01 pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: "Love is a Crime" --Chicago
If I were...
if i were a month i would be: July
if i were a day of the week i would be: Saturday
if i were a time of day i would be: 6 AM
if i were a planet i would be: Pluto! ^^
if i were a sea animal i would be: sea otter or a dolphin, maybe an orca ^^
if i were a direction i would be: east
if i were a piece of furniture i would be: pull out sofa couch thing ^^
if i were a historical figure i would be: Davy Crockett, Remember the Alamo!
if i were a liquid i would be: water, running water not still water… can’t trust still water
if i were a tree i would be: sakura tree
if i were a flower/plant i would be: a deep red rose with lots of thorns, I dare you to try a pick me
if i were a kind of weather i would be: thunder storm, my favorite type of weather. So entrancing and calming
if i were a musical instrument i would be: definitely not a woodwind or brass, nothing you have to blow into… I guess guitar ^^
if i were an animal i would be: wild wolf
if i were a color i would be: red
if i were a vegetable i would be: I don’t want to be eaten… T-T
if i were a sound i would be: howling wind
if i were an element i would be: fire.. no earth… can’t choose
if i were a car i would be: not into cars… but a cute car ^^
if i were a song i would be: “My Happy Ending” - Avril or “Vindicated” –Dashboard Confessional
if i were a food i would be: ravioli, desert wise chocolate covered strawberries
if i were a place i would be: some protected forest with lots of animals ^^
if i were a material i would be: silk
if i were a taste i would be: I don’t know, probably something that tastes orgasmically good
if i were a scent i would be: nature, if you noticed nature has it’s own unique scent… maybe I’m psyco, shut up! The smell of ocean spray
if i were a word i would be: "obscurity”
if i were an object i would be: a vase
If I were a body part i would be: fingers
if i were a facial expression i would be: questioning
if i were a cartoon character i would be: Nala from the Lion King ^^ or Kikyo from InuYasha
if i were a shape i would be a: circle
if i were a number i would be: 3
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2004 28 August :: 3.31 pm
:: Mood: tired but happy
:: Music: "Boom Boom Boom Boom" --Vengaboys
all is good ^^
The Back to School Dance was last night, had a great time. Yesterday was actually a good day, I had a psychiatry appointment and we talked about how things are going and how I'm actually starting to be empathic. Mom says she's going to load $150 onto my card since I've been so good, guess it really does pay to be nice ^.~
William wants a hamster, that's the last thing this house needs... because when Cleo kills it, she'll leave it under my bed as a gift. How pleasant... She's moved past lizards, killed the cutest mouse but she prefers birds. There more of a challenge. Before you ask questions, I'm very close to my cat to the point I can sense what she would say if she could say it and no I'm not psyco. ^^ Hopefully =^.^= Anyway, Kii is off to get his first round of shots soon... Poor fellow...
Now to the dance, we picked up Yee and then went to the dance. I wore that pink A.E. overshirt, a red spaghetti top, white belt and jeans ^^ Took the overshirt off once I was in the dance though, our dress code is a bunch of b.s. Anyway, danced with friends and it was really hot. Then some random guy I don't know asked to dance with me after staring at my ass for that one song about big butts... ANYWAY, so I freaked him and he made me go really low which was actually fun until Mrs. Satterwhite (principal) shined a flashlight on us.... yeah... So I went back to my friends and we had a good time but Yee wanted to go into the middle of the crowd so Avery, Yee and I went in and found Chrissy, Mel, Gabi and Lane. That was fun, especially since Lane kept trying to get his friends to dance with us (Lane was pimpin!) and eventually his friends didn't want to and so he danced with me since he didn't have any friends who could dance well. That was fun, but by this time my legs were dying so I turned to face him (which really didn't help the situation) but he can dance... So we danced for a while and then they played a slow song and my search for Ike (who I had been looking for the entire dance) commensed yet again... but then I decided to just ask Thomas to dance because MSS guys are sexy but I couldn't find him either and then Rob asked me for like the third time.... Longest three minutes of my life... I wish I could just tell him I don't like... *sigh* Oh the tangled webs we weave. Anyway, the second the lights turn on, I find both Tom and Ike... I was pissed ^^ But I had a good time!
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2004 21 August :: 12.52 am
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: Band music.... hehe
Long time, no update
Since I'm tired.... I'll just put up my new and perfect schedule.
0- M:T:W:F Marching Band, W Girl’s 21, Th Concert Choir
1- Chemistry with Paige
2- 1st Semester Health with Christensen, 2nd Semester PE with Payne
3- Chorale with Shaull
4- Algebra II with Yamasaki
5- Spanish IV with Potter
6- World Lit. Honors with Bonanno
7- 3rd Quarter Track
8- Concert Choir with Shaull
8- Auxiliary Unit with Ferruci
I really wanted an advanced Spanish class but that didn't happen, Mrs. Passallo said it had to be prearranged...but I signed the honors contract for III, I think we should just pretend it was a goof and let me into advanced Spanish IV. She also gave me a hard time on the whole guard vs. marching band pe credit. She was like "the band has to march and play their instruments". Omg, like the fing guard doesn't march too! And, we have to spin things that weigh more than most instruments... most, not all, but most. ARG! ANNOYING! I'll straighten it out with Ms. Esrailian when school starts because I need that quarter to make an even year of PE. I really wanted to yell at her but I just said fine and decided I'll work it out later. BUT I WANT SPAINISH IV AP!!!! SNIFFLES!!!!
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2004 11 July :: 1.22 pm
That is sooooo fucking true like you wouldn’t believe!!!!!!
See that Nansi?! Johnny is mine!!!
lol, smile soooo is me
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2004 10 July :: 5.24 pm
:: Mood: worn out
Camp was fuuuun
Hey! I'm back from camp and it was uber fun!!!! So I don't have to explain later, Pat is Mollie's (new friend) cousin and so is Nick. Cole is Mollie's brother. I'm pretty sure that's right ^.^ Btw, I don't remember the dates so sorry. Things are a little jumbled.
Sunday: Yee slept over the night before and we left at like 10:30ish in the morning. Apparently the we didn't turn the volume on the dvd player so the ride was boring because we couldn't watch the dvd's on the way there. We got there and the cute kitchen boys, later identified as Nick and Cole, helped carry our stuff to Red Barn, our cabin. We changed into our swimsuits and we got the van for the ride to the lake. Everyone passed their swim test but I was really tired because I'm out of shape lol so on my way to the tramp I got really tired... Oye, was that embarasshing! So I refused to go in, had a 'I miss my daddy' moment. Chatted with the counselors but didn't know who they were lol! Didn't think to ask, so the first day was pretty bad. But we had fireworks and it was coolness, very pretty
Monday: Red Barn rode to the lake, I rode this awesome brown horse with a black mane and white star called Jack, who will be referred to as Jackie Boy from here on out. Love that horse, but he really liked to be in the lead. So when we got to the part where the horses gallop, he took off before I told him to and I flew up off the saddle (not off off, but into the air and landed back on it). Next to me was this girl Pria, who's been riding since she was 6, and she was on Hudini who was racing my horse. Crashed into a tree branch, didn't fall but it hit my neck. Not fun lol, was actually it was!!! When we got there I tried wakeboarding, I fell the first three times before I could even get up. The fourth time I got up for a little and then fell, ditto for the fifth and then I quit. Pat, counselor, said I did pretty good and I should try again a later day because I'll get it. Btw, Pat *swoonage* *faints* So that was fun, went on the dock and pushed counselors off. Pushed Dillion, Cowboy Chris, Tyler, Charle (aka Lysol) off. It was great when I pushed Charle off b/c he got revenge by sweeping me up bridal style, but he held me like that for a bit b/c he had to ask Chris if I knew how to swim because of what happened on the first day. So when Chris said yes he went to the edge and backflipped while still holding me! *more fainting* Some later day I pushed Charle off again, well I tried. But he saw me so he flipped me intoa hugging like posistion to try and push me in but I refused to go in unless he fell in too so we fell into the water in an embracing like posistion... hehe ^_^
Tues.: Did arts and crafts, made a cute hemp bracelet but never got the clasp for it... We did a little sorting, had to ride Three Socks, Matt's horse, and he refused to listen to me and would go for the barn whenever I let his reins down -__- We also played kickball, our time creamed the other. The score was like 20-15 or something like that. We also did a little goat tieing, that was most definately amusing... Went to the lake, sat on the dock and pushed counselors off... same old stuff ^_^ Think we played some games as a camp, we played um... steal the bacon or something and the Michelle was like "Run if you have a crush on a counselor" so, being me, I ran since I had a crush on like every counselor lol.... It was embarasshing, only two guys and myself ran... lol
Weds: We had our little rodeo thingie and yeah, we did a little goat tie relay in our cabin and yeah... my half lost but Pat said I did really well when I tied up the little goat ^_^ This is when I started chatting with Mollie, Amelia, Lauren and Kiki. Then I began spending more time with them and it was fun, they're not perverted and they're really funny. They play guitar and they're just awesome. We played BS later that night, and it was just funny because Kiki says the funniest things. She was thinking of a comeback and she finally got one and she turned to Mollie and says, "Well you what?! You despise me!" Lol, and then when she tried to correct herself she said, "I digust you." It was funny!
Thurs: We went river rafting (this might have been weds... I don't remember lol) and I got thrown in 4 times, 5 if you count Cowboy Chris tricked me and pushed me back in lol. We slept at the lake that night and did skits and games. The marriage game was funny, I just wish someone would have called me and Pat T-T Lol, they called Yee and Jimbo, counselor. That was good, Jimbo is awesome. Anyway, so after some "marriages" and the skits they asked who had never been and Mollie and Lauren raise my hand and myself and three other people go with Chris to a the van so we can't hear. The send us out one by one, so it's my turn and I go out and they ask me to stand next to this one guy (don't remember his name but I think it was Justin). So the first guy goes, "You can not sit down until you've given us the right answer. We are the three solemn judges." Then the second guy says, "We demand honesty for your answer." And then Jimbo, the third one, finishes, "Who do you love?" I didn't know who to say without getting some weird reaction from someone so I just said it was a tough question and everyone was like, "I know who it is" because I didn't keep my mouth shut when it came to telling people which counselors I thought were cute. So I asked if they meant love love or who I had a crush on at camp and so the Cheyenne (second oldest girl's cabin) shouts out "Crush!" I didn't want to say b/c I thought they were thinking Charle and he has a girlfriend, so Jimbo told me to listen carefully and they said it again. Now, I cracked because yeah.... I just did and I blurted out really fast, "It was Charle but now it's Pat!" And everyone gasped/ clapped and I turned around and hid my face. Lol, and then I was heading back to me seat and they're like, "That's not the right answer!" It was horrible, so then the middle guy says, "Don't listen to them, listen to me." and then I got it, I had to say 'Honesty' as my answer, duh! *hits self* Then the first guy is like, "That took you a while, but we got what we wanted from you." Lol, but Terra was funny! She didn't get it and they were like practically telling her. I can't describe it, I'd have to show you in person. So we listened to some stories and went to bed.
Friday: Didn't swim or eat breaky, chatted with my friends and we drew on ourselves. Anyway, so we had a dance that night. Lol, yeah. So for slow dances they yell switch and you have to switch partners, I danced with a lot of counselors since the campers were really young/ not cute or nice. Danced with Jimbo twice, the second time he tried to twirl me into him which didn't really work lol. There was this nice counselor, he had on this red shirt that said Green Day on it and had a dragon. I danced with him twice too, he was sweet and we actually talked a lot and laughed. Mollie got Pat to ask me to dance, I was in heaven but I couldn't say anything because I was way too embarassed lol. Anyway, so skip ahead in time and the the kids under 13 left. This girl in my cabin comes up to me and tugs on my sleeve and is whispering, "Dear God, please help me!" She was refering to the guy she was dancing with so I got him off of her and freaked with him, yes the first time Dee got down and dirty on the dance floor. Lol, anyway so this kid is hella perverted. I started out facing him and then he turned me around and whispered into my ear, "I can tell you've been doing this for a long time." I was like like, "Wtf, are you high? I don't freak dance with guys." So then he says, "Oh, well for your first time I've got to tell you that you're good at what you do." I damn near beat the shit out of him but I just bit my lip and he turned me around to face him. Then the little fucker had wandering hands, but it's not like I've never been groped and he wasn't going anywhere bad so I ignore him and then he leans in and has the nerve to ask me, "What color is your thong?" That was the end of the line, but I didn't hit him, should have, but didn't. I told him off and went back to my friends. So, now for the best part. This is before ther little kids left and yeah. So Marcus is dancing with this group, trying to get them to liven up and he was dancing weird so I stopped and arched an eyebrow at him for a minute. Too bad he saw me so he came over and started dancing behind me, well he was behind me for like 10 seconds and he wasn't leaving so I decided to freak him. It was bad, sure I pushed back into him a couple times but nothing too bad.... but then another counselor came over and was like, "Whoa! No no no! You two seperate yourselves" and pushed us apart. Lol, that was hella embarasshing but fun. Damn other counselor... lol!
Anyway, I had fun and I'm going back next year before my 16th birthday since it was just too awesome. Going to keep in touch with my new friends via AIM with Lauren, and next year we're going to go the same session ^_^ I'm going to get Michelle's email and sn from Yee, Michelle was the Red Barn counselor. I had fun.... nice to be home, but I miss Jackie Boy, Genie (owner), Steve (owner), Michelle, Terra, Nicole, Rhyland, Chris, Pat *drool*, Charle *faint*, Jimbo *growl*.... and most importantly Mollie, Lauren, Kiki and Amelica ^_^
New fav song: "All for you" by Sister Hazel and new fav insult: "Unless you want your penis in a sling, don't shaving cream me."
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2004 1 July :: 10.35 pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: Jenova Absolute from FF7
I wuv my weapons! *huggles saber and rifle even though she doesn't have her saber...*
She took my saber away T-T Okay, well the real deal is we all know I'm going to be at camp which means I'll be missing next tuesday's rehearsal (practice every tues, every other thurs). Since we have a shortage of sabers, she won't order more until Mr. Ferruchi gets back from London, I need to let someone else have my saber for the week. But I got a rifle now! Right after she gave it to me she announced you had to toss a double to leave and that it applied to me too! So, I got the jist from Christiana who got her rifle on tuesday and the proper catching-ness from Sheerin (senior so she's spun rifle). How awesome is this, I caught my first double in less than 15 minutes! AHH! Go me!!!!! But now I'm pissed, my mom says I can't take my rifle to camp because it looks like a weapon (duh), but I f-ing need to practice. I'm not about to get shown up by Sara or the newbies, I don't have anything against them but damn it! Guard is my thing! I own guard! Haha, well skill no... but Misty and Ted (aka Ferruchi, I really wanna call him Ferruch... hehe) love me so nyah! I'd like to keep it that way.
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2004 30 June :: 12.07 pm
:: Mood: amused
I love how everything revolves around Satan...
What kind of disease are you?
KirbyDee: | KirbyDee is caused by Satan.
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KirbyDee creates a dire fear of cute lil' puppies in those infected by it.
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What kind of disease are you?
Deanna: | Deanna is caused by Satan.
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An infection of Deanna causes victims to write bad goth poetry.
The only cure forA Deanna is to paint everything you own a bright hot pink. This includes family members, small children, and pets. | |
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2004 28 June :: 8.15 pm
:: Mood: pissed, stressed, borderling suicidal
:: Music: Going Under- Evanesence
... grrr....
So I went to pick up the babies with my mom, then we went to Foothill because she paid too much for my summer school and then to Petco to buy Cleo some treats. Now, I wasn't about to bring up the ball python thing because I ended that months ago when she screamed at the snake book I bought. Borrowed two from the library, bought two via amazon.com. Anyway, so I went looking for her and she was in the reptile section and she was like, "Hey Dee, they have that snake you want and it's on sale. If you hold it, I'll get it for your birthday." I wasn't swayed because I thought it was a joke but she kept saying it, so I got my hopes up and as soon as I said sure she acts like she never said it. So I drop it and we pay but William was still in the store so we waited and the cashier lady just so happened to go back and take one of the ball pythons out and I was like, "Mom! That's the snake I want!" And she said "if you hold it..." which is like an unwritten rule in our house, if you want an animal you must hold it. Dumb rule, but whatever. I actually do my research so it doesn't matter to me, it's when the babies get involved that it gets bad. ANYWAY! So I asked her if I could and she said yeah, so I held it and talked to my mom about what I would do when I went to college and blah blah... I don't have to live in a dorm first year, I'm going to put a downpayment on an apartment (dad left me money when he died, only to be used when I'm 18) and rent out the extra rooms to pay the loan and blah blah blah so I could take it with me. I don't care if I don't live in a dorm 1st year, I just want to take Cleo Misty and be able to have a snake.... *sigh* I thought I learned she lied about animals when I was little... guess I got caught up in the promise and wanted to believe it was true. She was like, "We can take a vote" Hmmm let's see the results would be: Me- Yes, obviously. Mike- Yes cuz he loves me. Will- No cuz he hates me. Bill- No cuz he hates animal. Darin- No cuz he hates me. Mom- No cuz she hates snakes, or some other stupid reason. It's as fruitless as trying to get her to let me spend the night at Yee's... I think I'm going to hurl, and my head feels like it's going to explode....
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2004 28 June :: 5.26 pm
:: Mood: -__-
:: Music: Fan Ja - Pe Bird (Thai singer)
I was great until I got home... the story of my life
So Julia had this speed clinic thing today from 12-2 and I went, wooo go me! Anyway, so it was great. We worked on our strides and form, my main concern is not collasping into my hips and minor concern is using more of my arms. Otherwise, I'm all good. I'm so hyped up now! WOO! I feel great, tired but great! But then I came home and my mom bitched at me -__-
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2004 28 June :: 1.07 pm
:: Mood: tired/ nautious
:: Music: Change The World (InuYasha opening) by V6
*yawn*
So yesterday we celebrated my cousin Fuji's 17th birthday. No offense to my cousin, but it was a waste of my time since she didn't really spend her time with us but with her friends. Who, I prersonally think along with a good majority, are a bunch of retards. ^_^
Went home with my cousin Vena and we saw The Notebook, very good movie. Kind of easy to guess the next move but it's really good, it made me cry and we all know I don't cry. ^_^ Plus, you could hear all of these girls sniffling throughout the movie and guys, there are some pretty steaming scenes ^.~ Lol, but it made me wish Adam was back (well, more that I already did but not the point) ^_^ Anyway, it was a great movie.... *dreamy sigh*
Have that running clinic today at twelve, bleh... I feel sick but I have to go. But camp this sunday! YAY!!!!!!!! *happy dance* I need to go shopping for summer clothes and I need a cute two piece, I don't like the ones I have.
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2004 27 June :: 4.13 pm
:: Mood: excited
:: Music: freckles from rurouni kenshin
camp in one week!
woot woot! have camp with yee in a week! woot woot!
anyway, at my cuz's house to celebrate her b-day woot woot!
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