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2004 25 June :: 4.25 am
:: Mood: Exhausted!
:: Music: Pe Burt (Thai singer)
Too many movies... so little time... and energy!
Lol, can't believe how much time I've spent out of the house this summer! I'm so anti-social, it's a wonder really! Seen waaaaay too many movies lol! Saw HP3 with Adam around 2:30ish, saw The Stepford Wives with Yee at 8ish, then saw White Chicks at 10ish. Whew! I think I'm movied out for a while lol! Ew... I sat on gum, how gross is that?! Tre gross! Lol, still had a kick-ass time though!
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2004 23 June :: 1.41 pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Hikari instrumental (I'm very attached, it's the music on my xanga)
Drama, drama drama. I hate teenage drama...
Hate it, and yet seem to host quite of lot of it ^_^ Probably because I blow things out of proportion hehehe oh and lots of drama lately thanks to pms hahahahahah I knew I was pmsing when I started actually caring that I don't spend time out of the house. So anti-social ^_^
*Sigh* I don't think people get unhappier than me... okay, so that was a bit dramatic. It's my journal, I'll be as dramatic as I want! Anyway, on a serious note. My flag skills have severely suffered thanks to not doing Winter Guard, hm... who's fault? My mom's. I can't spend time with my only gal pal, who's fault? My mom's. I'm not happy with myself as a person, there's always something I could be doing, who say's that? My mom. hm... So, you ask why I'm not happy and there's your answer. My mom. If my grandmother wasn't so insanely christian and liked my cat, I'd be attending Flintridge Prepatory School and leading a more academic and athelethic sports life where I wouldn't have to hear my mom's 'you could be better' because I'd be performing better. Too bad she doesn't like my kitty and she is insanely christian. Wicca-Christianity, they don't exactly mix well.
So, Misty asked three girls (we said we had lots of free time) to make up a 32 beat routine. So I did, I think she'll be pleased. It's fun, festive and goes over all the basics that the newbies learned today. It's very strutty and flashy, introducing drop spins counts 9-12, fast spins 13-16. Some more flashy point 45's high and low, to the front and the back into a prep for a right single. Toss on 25 catch on 27, do half flicks 28-31 and a full flick on 32. It's hella cute ^_^ I'm so proud, it took me 15 mins to make it up ^_^ how awesome, that included breaks to run through it again and make sure I had the counts right when I wrote it down. Yayzers!
Enjoy the new Sister Princess pics, it's a japanese anime that doesn't show here so yeah. If anyone has a link to the mp3 "Love Destiny", the opening theme, please let me know cuz I love that song and I want it on my xanga. ^_^ Thanks
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2004 22 June :: 5.27 pm
:: Mood: amused
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2004 20 June :: 1.31 pm
:: Mood: anything negative
I'd love, love, love... to dance with my father again.
Father's day is a crap holiday and should be taken off the calendar. Okay, so I'm a little bitter but I have every right to be! I went ot see Day After Tomorrow with Yee last night and got home at like 1 in the morning (movie was at 10:30) but stayed up to watch InuYasha at 2 ^_^ cuz I missed the one at 11 hehe. So the babes wake me up at 9 and I take a shower. The second I step out of the bathroom my mom starts bitching at me, "Deanna you said you were going to make him breakfast in bed" and "Load the dishwasher" and it was clean so I had to take out the dirty ones and unload it then load it again. Then she fucking threatened to send me to my bitch ass grandmother's house (notice I'm swearing now, yes, I dislike my grandmother a lot) for the summer even though I have mandatory SLS meetings in August, Summer School (want to lessen my load so I'm taking Span 3 early), and CG meetings every week. And then, when I use my "inside voice" they don't listen to me/ don't hear me but when I raise my voice they bitch at me and give me, "If this is how you treat the ones close to you, this is how you'll treat your husband." HAHAHAH Hell no! Okay, so I'll be a little rough around the edges but no. They're special, they get the full out bitching because I know just how far I can push my mom before she breaks ^_^ Bill lost it already, so there's no joy in torturing him. I'm vendictive, I should do something about it... Oh well, too bad. The fucking bitch should have set up my psyciatrist appointment, she hasn't for like half a year. Not very smart.
Me: Mom, I haven't seen my psyciatrist for a long time.
Her: Yeah, I know.
Me: *Trying not to physically harm her* Then are you going to do something about that?
Her: You didn't go to DBT so I was too embarrased to make one, sorry.
HAHAHAH Hell no, you don't do that to me. I'm becoming quite attached to the phrase 'Hell no.' Anyway, I'm going now. I'll write the sentimental part later, toodlez.
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So I was a little grumpy this morn ^_^ We all know the sentimental part and I'm tired... loooong day
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2004 19 June :: 6.21 pm
:: Mood: quiz crazy
hahaha q.c again
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 Also known widely as the Fire Bird, the phoenix is a profound symbol of life and rebirth. It has a life cycle of 500 to 600 years and after that amount of time, it sets itself on fire and dies in the flames. Then, after three days, it rises again from the ashes. It is a completely benign creature who lives in dew. It is said that the phoenix has a beautiful melodious song which grows ever more mournful as its life comes to an end. It is also a symbol of the sun and immortality.
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The one about the rp sterotype is sooo true! My fav chary to rp (the one I took the quiz as) is like that. Samalica Demonte is her name, and she is the Vampire head of the large family that lives in a large manor just outside of a lucious forest but close enough to town to go hunting each night. BUAHAHAHAHAHAHA! I luv my Demonte crazyness. Cant' even name off all the charys... God there's Kii the DragonMan, Salina the insecure vamp trapped in a young girl's body, Tai Sam's ex-prized posession, Hyldon Sam's new prized posession, Warui the Fallen Angel/ Sam's secret love, Koga and Kagura (taken from InuYasha) make an appearance, there's the spirit of Hyldon's mom, ooo and there was this girl who got shot and a bunch of other charys. It wouldn't be so hard if I gave them sane American names, but they're for the most part Japanese. Hyldon is not my chary, someone rped that chary with me once and he fit in rather well so yeah. He be part of the Demonte crazy shiznaz.
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2004 19 June :: 1.13 pm
:: Mood: eh
:: Music: Hikari Instrumental
So I gave it so actual thought...
So, if we all scroll down a couple entries I made mention I want a parakeet. I did some thinking, some research, some planning and came to the conclusion that this house is not suited for a parakeet. The care, no big. The cage and treats and vet bills, also no big. The cat, yes even the cat, no big. Well, it would requiere some strategic door closing and opening throughout the day until she comes to grip that the birdie is her new sister. So I was happy, was going to present my case to my parents when Mike and Will come barging into my room (no lock on my door, how annoying is that?!) and trash my room. I can't have that while I'm away, and trust me, they'll find some way to torment my little birdie. So Dee will just wait until college second year. See, my plan is to put a down payment on an apartment and rent out the extra room(s) for the bills and stuff. Then, when I graduate I can sell it and it's practically insured to profit since real estate, for the most part, only increases in value. Plus, that means I can take my kitty with me ^_^
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2004 18 June :: 7.42 pm
:: Mood: pensive
:: Music: "You'll Think of Me" -Keith Urban
I think I should appoint Keith as my mind
I should learn to take after him ^_^
Lyrics from "You'll Think of Me"
I woke up early this morning around 4am
With the moon shining bright as headlights on the interstate
I pulled the covers over my head and tried to catch some sleep
But thoughts of us kept keeping me awake
Ever since you found yourself in someone else's arms
I've been trying my best to get along
But that's okay there's nothing left to say but.
Chorus:
Take your records, take you freedom
Take your memories, I don't need 'em
Take your space and take your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me, you'll think of me.
I went out driving trying to clear my head
I tried to sweep out all the ruins that my emotions left
I guess I'm feeling just a little tired of this
And all the baggage that seems to still exist
It seems the only blessing I have left to my name
Is not knowing what we could have been
What we should have been.
So.
Chorus:
Take your records, take you freedom
Take your memories, I don't need 'em
Take your space and take your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me, you'll think of me.
Someday I'm gonna run across your mind
Don't worry, I'll be fine
I'm gonna be alright
While you're sleeping with your pride
Wishing I could hold you tight
I'll be over you
And on with my life.
Chorus:
Take your records, take you freedom
Take your memories, I don't need 'em
Take your space and take your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me, you'll think of me.
Chorus:
Take your records, take you freedom
Take your memories, I don't need 'em
Take your space and take your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me, you'll think of me.
And you're gonna think of me
Oh someday baby, someday...
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2004 16 June :: 11.55 pm
:: Mood: uber annoyed
K, so we had out meeting and apparently I'm not guard captain I'm just on SLS. GRRRR! Plus she's like, "The person I want to be captain, will probably not be captain." Hello, soooo obvious she means me. honestly, she called me the ideal member today! sooo uber annoyed about that. And second thing that makes it point to me. She's like, let's discuss captain. And what does she say after that? She turns to the three seniors and is like, "age. how yould you feel if you're captain was younger than you?" they blank so she continues, "K, so let's say I make Deanna captain. How would you feel, not about her but her age." grrr, so annoyed! i want my captain.... sniff.... ... ... ... .. ..
AND I CAN'T GET MICHELLE BAER'S CONTACT INFO! ARGH!
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2004 16 June :: 7.22 pm
:: Mood: exhausted!
:: Music: Hikari Planit B Remix version
Today is great... too bad I'm soooo tired
Kk, so I got three hours of sleep last night but w/e! I'm so hyper and happy!
Kk, so I had my appointment today and they gave me a new set of contact lenses! YAY! Cuz for a while they said it irratated my eyes too much so I couldn't wear them anymore so I'm really glad! I also got these awesome glasses that have lenses that turn into sunglasses outside but go clear when there is a lack of uv lighting so I can use them like glasses and sunglasses! Plus, got non-perscription sunglasses for looks ^_^
Went to Petco after and bought some treats for Cleo. Mike wants a land turtle and Will wants a hamster, and I want a bird! I used to have one, but then we moved and Bill (being the pissy animal hater) said I couldn't bring her with me since 'birds are too loud'. Oh well, just watch me. If I do my research and I'm serious about it, I will have my pet birdie ^_^ mmm, lovers *strokes imaginary birdie*
Have guard stuff in an hour... bleh.... too tired to discuss things and it will be the first time I've seen them. Don't want to see the upperclassmen, they're going to chew me up and spit me out as CG captain. *bites nails* hopefully not....
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2004 16 June :: 1.07 am
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: Bride Wedding Song
Throw the rice and bring on the honeymoon!
Well. today has been a long day. But I went swimming with Yee to get ready for camp and that was good fun ^_^ love spending time wit her.
Have an appointment tom and color guard meeting at 5:30 bleh.... wanna sleep and lounge. oh well
Haha, okay. So, I've been married. The priest: Mark. The groom: Mark's friend Jeremy (aka Lim). HAHAH! He married us before I went to Yee's over im, it was great. I was Mrs. Lim. Then, time broke us up. Lim doesn't have any time for me, he chose school over me. So I filed for an annulment, and Mark turned into my attorney. It was funny. Lol, hahaha. This is great, I totally have to actually met this Lim guy. HAHAHAHA funny stuff. Good times.... gooooood times
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2004 15 June :: 2.33 am
:: Mood: eh
Final words, then I shall drop it. I promise
To Molly: You've been nothing but nice to me. I do know hate is a strong word, and when I'm usually writing, for lack of better wording, pissy stuff it has nothing to do with you. The pain, that's about you. I miss you. That's what I have to say about what I've written regarding you.
To Louise: The same goes for you. Your kindness, hearing you laugh again... they were what brought about my regrets of quitting track. I could have cared less about how it would look on my college application, what made me have qualms was that I gave up my last shot of being on okay terms with you.
To you both: Wow. Not sure of what else to say, but you two have one amazing relationship. I wish you both luck and pray that you two continue to share the connection that you have now.
Now, as for Carmel. Yeah, I knew the tradition was broken when our friendship ceased but I couldn't help but feel jealous, depressed. Sorry if anything further upsets anyone, but she called me pathetic first so w/e. *flinches* There I go again, okay. Let's try that again. I know that Carmel is no longer our thing, it's yours. But I love my Carmel memories, if I was in Neverland and they said think happy thoughts that would probably be one of the first things to come to mind. I was selfish, I didn't want someone else to have those memories. Partially because they were all I had left of us, all I had left were my memories and I felt that they weren't as special because just anyone could replace me and have those memories. But, Yuna was right. Sometimes, even if all you have are memories, you just have to let the memories fade, let them go, and move on with your life.
Anyone ever wonder what things would be like if I had taken the time to read Nicole's entry correctly? If my mom hadn't cancelled my much needed psyciatrist appointment the day before?
Random thought: I should but a stress ball, haha! I thought I had a handle on my temper now-a-days but apparently not. ^.^ oh well, kitty makes me happy meow! =^.^=
~*~.:.1000 No Kotoba.:.~*~
http://www.animelyrics.com/game/finalfantasyx2/1000nokotoba.htm for english trans
Kimi no kotoba wa
Yume no yasashisa kana?
Uso wo zenbu
Oikakushiteru
Zurui yo ne
Tabidatsu kimi ni
Sameta senaka misete
Kiiteita yo
Hitori tatakau no?
Zurui yo ne
"Kaettekuru kara"
Oikoshiteyuku kimi no koe
Iji hatte
Tsuyoi furi
Toki wo modoshite
Sakebeba yokatta?
Ikanai de to namida koboshitara?
Ima wa dekiru
Donna koto mo
Ienakatta
1000 no kotoba wo
Haruka na
Kimi no senaka ni okuru yo
Tsubasa ni kaete
Ienakatta
1000 no kotoba wa
Kizutsuita
kimi no senaka ni yorisoi
Dakishimeru
Yume no tsuduki wa
Kimi wo omoinagara
Ano hi no koto
Wasureta furishite
Zurui yo ne
"Tegami wo kaku kara"
Shisen sorashita kimi no koe
Iji hatte
Tsuyoi furi
Toki wo modoshite
Okoreba yokatta?
Matenai yo to kata wo otoshitara?
Ima wa dekiru
Donna koto mo
Kikoeteru?
1000 no kotoba wo
Mienai Kimi no senaka ni okuru yo
Tsubasa ni kaete
Kikoeteru?
1000 no kotoba wa
Tsukareta
Kimi no senaka ni yorisoi
Dakishimeru
Ienakatta
1000 no kotoba wo
Lalalala..
Kimi no senaka ni okuru yo
Tsubaksa ni kaete
Kikoeteru?
1000 no kotoba wa
Lalalala..
Kimi no senaka ni yorisoi
Lalalalala....
~*~.:.Real Emotion.:.~*~
http://www.animelyrics.com/game/finalfantasyx2/realemotion.htm for english trans
What can i do for you
What can i do for you (yeah heh)
What can i do for you (alright)
What can i do for you
I can hear you
What can i do for you (ooo oh)
What can i do for you (ooh baby)
What can i do for you
Ano hi kokoro no kanata ni egaiteta basho ni iru Tohou ni kuretetari suru keredo mou modorenai
Yume ni mita katachi to wa
Nanimokamo ga chigau
Genjitsu ni wa... memai sae suru
Riaru na sekai ni yureteru kanjyou
Maketakunai
Mou tada hashiru shikanai kono mune ni
Kikoetekuru
Kimi wa hitori jyanai
What can I do for you
What can I do for you
What can I do for you
I can hear you
What can I do for you
What can I do for you
What can I do for you
Kesshite furimuki wa shinai anata ni wa toyoranai
Nanika ga areba kanarazu suguni kite kureru kara
Ima boku ni dekiru koto
Sore wa shinjiru koto...
Shinjitsu nara kono mune ni aru
Riaru na sekai ni yureteru kanjyou
Sasaeru no wa
Sou anata ga oshietekureta subete
Ima no watashi
Daraka, hitori jyanai
What can I do for you
What can I do for you
What can I do for you
What can I do for you
What what what
What can I do for you
What can I do for you
I can hear you
Riaru na sekai ni yureteru kanjyou
Kanjitemo
Anata ga me o tojita nara soko ni iru
Kizuna ga aru
Dakara, hitori jyanai
Riaru na sekai ni yureteru kanjyou
Maketakunai
Mou tada hashiru shikanai kono mune ni
Kikoete kuru
Kimi wa hitori jyanai
What can i do for you (yeah heh)
What can i do for you (alright)
What can i do for you
I can hear you
What can i do for you (ooo oh)
What can i do for you (ooh baby)
What can i do for you (yeah, heh)
I can hear you
I can hear you
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2004 15 June :: 12.05 am
:: Mood: awesome
:: Music: Like Dur or w/e it's called, it was playing at A.E
Haha, ignore my previous downtrodden state
Totally went to the mall today with Yee, it was hella fun! We ate awesome food and then shopped around for her other's friend b-day present. I got: 1) a cute, short, white skirt from Forever 21. 2) two purses with matching wallets (one of the set is for Yee's early b-day prez) from Pac sun. 3) two tube tops and two overshirts from American Eagle (aka A.E.). I think that's all, I don't remember lol! But I spent $310!!! LOL! hahaha, only $20 of it was mine, the rest my mom gave me ^.^
lol, did the math wrong... i only spent 210 (which is still quite the chunk of change)
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2004 14 June :: 2.02 pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: "Going Under" performed by Evanesence
In the wise words of Garfield, "I hate monday's"
As if it wasn't bad enough that the new trio left for Carmel today, my mom seems to have made it her mission to ruin my life. First, she gets all pissy and refuses to let me hang out with Yee unless it's under her supervision. Then, she doesn't send the last $300 for the camp I was supposed to go to with Yee and now I can't go and you have no idea how pissed I am about that. And, to make matters worse she screwed up my registration form at foothill and fucked up my foreign language plans. Honestly, someone just kill me cuz I'm too big of a wimp to do it myself.
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