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glitterkisses

:: 2004 24 November :: 8.39pm

Have You Ever?

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Have you ever hit someone forcefully?Yes
Have you ever thrown anything at a moving car?yes
Have you ever been in a fist fight?only with like family, and my neighbor
Have you ever laughed so hard you cried?yes
Have you ever hit an animal on the road?no
Have you ever seen a Beatles film?no
Have you ever cussed?oh yeah
Have you ever been on a subway?no
Have you ever taught a little kid to cuss?haha no
Have you ever cheated on a test/exam?yes
Have you ever skipped school?of course
Have you ever egged someones house?no
Have you ever gotten a computer virus?yes
Have you ever cried for no reason at all?yes
Have you ever missed someone?yes

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The Perfect Guy

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Hair color?Dark
Eye color?Brown
Height?Tall like 6 foot
Six pack?yes
Long hair or short?Either Curly hair, like the attractive curly hair, or like shaggy skater boy hair w/ highlights
Glasses? no
Piercings?cartilage is hot
Eyebrows?tamed
Big butt or little?tight
Chest hair?eww no
Buff or skinny?buff
Teeth?nice smile
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Funny or serious?funny, but knows when to be serious
Party-hopper or more stay-at-home?Stay at home w/ me, but party on special occasions
Should he be able to bake or cook?oh yeah he's gotta be able to take care of me
Does he have a best friend?yes
Is it okay for him to have a lot of female friends?ehh yeah i guess, as long as that's all they are
Out-going or shy?out going
Sarcastic or sincere?sincere
Does he love his mother?yes
Should he watch chick-flicks?only when i make him
Would he be a smoker?hell no
How about a drinking?sure
And swearing?we all do it
Would he play with your hair?when he's being corny and fun yeah
Would he have more than one girlfriend at a time?no
Would he pay for you when you're on a date?yes
Does he kiss on the first date?yes
Where would you go for dinner?AppleBeas or Olive Garden
Would he buy you flowers?yeah
Would he lay under the stars with you and spout random philosophies?aww tha'd be cute
Would he write poetry about you?eh, doens't have too, but sure
Would he use endearments?hmm...good question...lol
Would he hang out with your and YOUR friends?yes
How about you hanging out with him and HIS friends?yeah
Would he walk you up to the door at the end of the evening?yes
Would you hold hands?yes
Section 3
Does he play soccer?no
Baseball?yes
Football?yes
Basketball?yes
Water polo?no
Golf or something equally boring?who cares
Does he surf?that'd be bomb cos that'd mean i lived by the ocean
Skateboard?no
Snowboard?sure
Can he sing?yes
Play the guitar?yes
Play piano?yes
Play the drums?no
Can he keep his room clean?who cares
Is he an artist of sorts?yeah
Does he write his own music?sure
Does he have pets?YES puppies!!!
Section 4
Does he use the word dude?no
How about tight?no
Would he watch the sun rise and set with you?sure
What kind of car does he drive?who cares
How old is he?older than me
What's his name?KABONY!!!!

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glitterkisses

:: 2004 24 November :: 4.17pm

Oh my gosh. I'm flippin out. Me and Kate took a nap in my bed downstairs. And we woke up and we pop our heads up from the blinding white light coming out of my windows and huh wierd... the ground is covered in snow and it's whit eeverywhere. It's like a friecken blizzard. ugh grr I hate it.

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glitterkisses

:: 2004 24 November :: 12.10pm

Last night Cass and Heath came over and I had so much fun. We are the 3 most immature people in the world. I haven't had that much fun in a long time.

Will we're sorry, and I understand if you don't want to forgive us. It was only a joke and we didn't think you'd think it was that big of deal. But we were wrong, and we're sorry.

I feel bad about that.

I did have a great night though!

<3 Jess

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Shinigami

:: 2004 24 November :: 10.56am

Jackie Reader
Rhetoric 150 40418
November 24, 2004
Violent Games
Teenage violence has always been a problem in the United States, but only in the past six or seven years have video-games been put in the spotlight for the cause of violence. Ever since the Littleton and Jonesboro shootings violent video-games have been put under the microscope and really had parents and educators scrutinize and criticize what games children play. As violent ‘point-and-shoot’ games become more realistic parents, and educators are putting up red flags to stop these games from getting in the hands of children, and rightly so. But the older video game population, people that are over the age of 18, are finding it hard to not be criticized themselves about the ‘violent’ games they play. Not all people are deeming video games bad though, and some are even using them as a tool for teaching. But what are some of the good and bad effects that video games have on children?
On April 20, 1999, Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold went into Columbine High School armed with guns, knives and up to 99 bombs. They killed 12 of their fellow classmates and one of their teachers, and in the end killed themselves. There were a lot of different reasons that Klebold and Harris brought guns into their school and killed their classmates, but two years after the massacre relatives of the victims were seeking damages from computer game makers, claiming that their games helped to bring about the killings. There was a total of 25 companies’ named, including Sony America, Nintendo, AOL/Time Warner, Atari, Sega of America, and many more. The group asked for $5
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billion in damages from the companies, alleging that their games created the conditions that made the massacre possible. The lawyer acting on behalf of the families, John DeCamp said the legal case they’re fighting for is to try and change the marketing and distribution of violent video and computer games that “turn children into ‘monster killers.’” After investigating into the Columbine shooting, it was found that one of the killers had a sawn-off shotgun in his lap that he called ‘Arlene,’ supposedly named after a character in Doom, a computer based, first person shooter game where you play as a lone space ranger shooting various aliens and creatures with a wide variety of weapons. Nothing yet has been solved, but the families dropped their case against Square Soft Inc. two months after the lawsuit without explanation (BBC News, Internetnews.com).
For years the military has used video games in boot camps with new recruits to train them for combat on the range. David Grossman, a retired military psychologist and West Point instructor, believes that violent video games train kids to kill in a similar fashion the way the military would train their raw recruits. Basic conditions for the way the military trains new recruits, Grossman says, is by “brutalization, classical conditioning, operant conduction, and role modeling,” and that each of these methods have parallels to the way players interact with many computer games. Kids are “brutalized” by the over-exposure to violence at a young age where they can’t yet distinguish between representation and reality. Grossman also claims that, “every time a child plays an interactive ‘point-and-shoot’ video game, he is learning the exact same conditioned reflex and motor skills” that the military uses for training and that such ‘practice,’ he claims, helped to prepare the Littleton and Jonesboro shooters for what they would do in real life.
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By that, he means to “reflexively pull the trigger, shooting accurately just like all those times [they] played video games…The result is ever more homemade pseudo-sociopaths who kill reflexively and show no remorse. Our children are learning to kill and liking it.” Many take the same distaste in video games as Grossman, but his views have flaws. There is no room left for meaning, interpretation, evaluation, or expression and he assumes that every person feels that way with no conscious or subconscious activity on the gamer’s part. But his model only works if we assume that all game players are not capable of rational thought and ignore important differences in how and why people play games (Independent School).
Leland Dawson is a 19 year old college sophomore that has been playing video games since he was five. He works at Circuit City near Pontiac and in his free time likes to hang out with his girlfriend or play video games. The most frequent games he plays are sports games, like Madden Football 2004, but he also likes to play first person shooters and fighting games. While working at Circuit City, Dawson knows what has to be done when he sells video games. He has to check the ID of the person buying the game to make sure they’re old enough to purchase the game, depending on the rating that game gets. If a parent wants to buy a game for their child, he can explain to them what the game is about. Dawson also knows about the rating system for games, as he explained it to me in more detail. There is a board called the Entertainment Rating Software Board. Every time a new game comes out they are sent a copy of screenshots, clips taken from parts of the game, and shown to the people rating the game. In addition to getting the screenshots, they also receive a ‘detailed questionnaire’ explaining what is in the game. The reviewers
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look over the screenshots and depending on what’s being shown to them, they give it an appropriate rating. The different ratings games can start from EC, early childhood, to AO, adult only. So if Dawson were to sell a game to a child that was trying to purchase an M, mature rated game, Circuit City could be fined upwards to $23,000 for the franchise alone, and he would most likely be fired. Dawson couldn’t even get through the cash register to sell a game to someone underage though; the computer system they use would kick him out if the person buying the game wasn’t 18. But parents can still buy their children mature or teen-rated video games. Some games weren’t meant for kids, Dawson says. If a parent wants to buy their 11 year old child Grand Theft Auto Vice City, supposedly one of the most controversial video games on the market, there’s nothing anyone can do to stop it. Grand Theft Auto, or GTA as fans call it, is a game were you play as a character that roams free in a city but gets caught up with the mob, drug dealers, porn stars/makers, and are given an arsenal of weapons on which to make runs and/or drop offs with. But many more controversial games are on the market such as Man Hunt, it’s exactly what the title says, you are hunted down by a group of men and instead of being killed, you must kill the group to win the game. Or Leisure Suit Larry, where the main goal of the game is to sleep with as many women as possible, with full frontal nudity scenes around every corner. So why aren’t these games being talked about by parents and educators? Those games didn’t sell well, says Dawson, because they don’t sell well it’s not controversial. Parents are ok with violence, such as GTA, but when there’s any kind of pornography involved, parents put up the red flag. “People who are naturally violent are attracted to violent things,” says Dawson. But violent games don’t
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cause violence, Dawson continues, it all comes down to the individual person. “Violent video games cause aggressive play. If we don't distinguish between aggressive play and aggressive behavior, we lose the whole value of play - which is to do things in fantasy that you don't actually have to carry out in reality,” argues Professor Geoffrey Goldstein from the University of Utrecht. Goldstein was Professor of Psychology at Temple University in Philadelphia and a visiting Professor at the University of London and is now with the Department of Social and Organizational Psychology at the University of Utrecht in the Netherlands.
There are violent actions happening with children all over the US, there is no proof or any solid evidence that video-games are the cause, or even a factor in child violence. There are plenty of ways to stop kids from playing violent games, but really the parents should be the ones to make the right decision and know what their kids are playing, knowing that even though they can play aggressively, it’s not aggressive behavior.

Sources:
• “Columbine families sue computer game makers” BBC News Online http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/science/nature/1295920.stm (1 May, 2001)
• “Current Research Perspectives” COMPUTER AND VIDEO GAMES COME OF AGE: A NATIONAL CONFERENCE TO EXPLORE THE STATE OF AN EMERGING ENTERTAINMENT MEDIUM http://web.mit.edu/cms/games/index.html Thursday and Friday, 10 and 11 February 2000
• Dawson, Leland Personal Interview November 23, 2004
• Entertainment Software Rating Board http://www.esrb.org/ 2004
• “Make Meaning, Not War: Rethinking the Video Game Violence Debate” Independent School 63 no4 http://www.nais.org/index.cfm (Summer 2004)
• “Video Game Firms Seek Dismissal of Columbine Suit” Internetnews.com staff http://www.internetnews.com/bus-news/print.php/805431 (20, July, 2001)

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iron-cipher

:: 2004 24 November :: 1.50am

Why do you run, Why do you hide, all I want to do is be with you.

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glitterkisses

:: 2004 23 November :: 2.25pm





You Are the Stuffing




You're complicated and complex, yet all your pieces fit together.
People miss you if you're gone - but they're not sure why.








You Are the Individualist



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You are sensitive and intuitive, with others and yourself.

You are creative and dreamy... plus dramatic and unpredictable.

You're emotionally honest, real, and easily hurt.

Totally expressive, others always know exactly how you feel.



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glitterkisses

:: 2004 23 November :: 2.02pm

I feel like I'm being forced to keep moving, keep pushing along, but I just can't because I can't stop and deal with all the emotions running throught my head, let along my heart. I just can't shake it.

I forget so often that pretending to be happy doesn't make you any happier. I forgot that pretending I'm satisfied with everything won't give me any satisfaction at all. I forgot that prettending to have an ounce of hope, ins't going to give me any. Most of all I just FORGOT that pretending is only pretending, it doesn't lessen the amount of pain, or make it any less important, or suttle the emotion or tears. The tears that stream down my cheeks are the same with or without any pretending involved. If there IS any difference it's only that the tears fall heaveir when pretending.

If there's anything I can do to help myself get my head back in the game, it's be honest with myself I know what I want and I know what I need so escaping it only makes me a fool for dwelling and complaing about it.

My second worst fear is to wake up one day from my lip gloss, loud music, and shop till I drop reality and realize that's exactlly! what my reality is. That it's everything BUT living. Life is taking chances and it IS taking risks. Stepping on the edge and jumping head first into life and stop avoiding it. Stop coming up with any and every excuse to not live on the wild side for once. To go after what I want to be chasing after.

I wish I had the balls to actually do it, or someone to help me. because I'll just wake up tomorrow and I'll be the exact same way I am every other day.

My only concern is proving it to my self, proving me wrong if no one else can.

Jess

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Shinigami

:: 2004 23 November :: 12.47pm

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glitterkisses

:: 2004 22 November :: 6.06pm

I wish it could be more, but it never will be, because you're too different from me. I wish we were the same, oh God do I wish.

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glitterkisses

:: 2004 22 November :: 5.58pm

Me and Kate just got home from Meijers to get Jessica's birthday present, and we fell in love with the cutest little gerible. And there only 5.99 and the bedding was cheap, and the cage, and everything.I had moeny and we were already picking out names and were soooo exctied, then we called her mom. and yeah it has to be approved by the fadge with will never happen. Lol he doesn't really think we can take care of ourselves let alone another living object. :( I want a puppy.

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shinigami

:: 2004 22 November :: 10.00am

I haven't died! It's a slower process than that...
So, I still don't have a working computer at my disposial. It sucks because I have a paper to write and a lab to do, on the computer, and I hate coming to the OC to do it. I just want a new fricking computer and be done with it.

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stay_c

:: 2004 22 November :: 9.50am
:: Mood: hungover

I should be sleeping
i had an awesome weekend. drew came up here to big rapids to go hunting with his cousin jack. i stayed with him at jacks saturday and sunday night. i spent all day sunday sleeping off saturday nights drunkeness, and so far to day i just want to sleep off last night (although it wasn't as bad) and drew wants us to come back up here again next weekend too..... i don't know how well i'll be able to handle this but i'm sure gonna try!

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glitterkisses

:: 2004 22 November :: 8.59am

Have you ever just felt like you will never be good enough for any of your wishes, or your desires, fantasy's, or even your dreams? Let alone your reality?

I feel like I can be surrounded by a sea of people, yet I still feel as empty and alone as ever.

I take a good hard look around and all I see is everyone that I love living their fairy tales. Like there's a prince for every princess except for me.

It's tearing me apart pieces by peices and theres almost nothing left. No hope, no faith, no dreams, or confidence.

I get lost in lyrics to songs, stories in books, plots in movies, but their all lies, their JUST storys, but I can't help but let me hopes roll of of it, because I don't have story of my own to tell.

I've lost my family, all my friens are happy and I'm not about to ruin it for them just because I can't take care of myself.

I look in the mirror and all I see is this stupid, shallow, vain, insenstitive, selfish, rude, loveless girl with no hope and no future and I each day that passes bye I hate myself more and more for not changing it.

There's three in the hall
From those pictures in the closet
Two in the bedroom
From the night I lost it
And one deep insdie me
Determinded to stay
They don't get any bigger
But they don't go away

Holes in and around me
I keep fallin back into
Holes dig in and surrond me
God knows what I'm gonna do
To fill in these holes left by you

I poured drink after drink
But nothing hut bottom
I've been on my knees
Admitted my problems
The love that we made
Is still brealy an echo
And I'll try anything
In these vacent hallows

There's two trhought my hands
and one through my feet
From this cross that'll bear
Till the day that I see
It's quit and it's blame
It's shame and it's hell
Seeking the truth
I dug them myself.

*Jess

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glitterkisses

:: 2004 21 November :: 9.02pm

Pappy just left. Thanx Jess.I needed you tonight.

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glitterkisses

:: 2004 21 November :: 10.25am

I just have to listen to my own advice. Things will get better with time. I know they will. They have too. There's no where else that they could go. As lonely as I feel, I am going to save myself, and someone will come a long. And life will never be perfect, but the more time that passes by I feel more like family, and I love it more and more here and right now..I don't think I could ever leave it, because it is home and these people ARE family. I love them with all my heart. Blood related or not. The Schaubs are probably 4 of the most loving, greatest people I will ever know. Me and Kate have become best friends, she's like a sister to me, and nothing will ever break us apart after this. Lol we can tolerate each other even while pmsing, that's something.

God, I am so glad we only have two days this week. I would go insane if we didn't. I can't wait for Christmas. I love the Christmas mood with the snow, and Everyone's Christmas lights, that's my fav. part is going through town and seeing everyone's lights, baking, family gatherings, Christmas shopping for everyone, all the good stuff.

<3 Jess

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