The Notebook

"I couldn't sleep last night because I know that it's over between us. I'm not bitter any more, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I'll be seeing you."

Good song
Baby I just don't get it
Do you enjoy being hurt?
I know you smelled the perfume, the make-up on his shirt
You don't believe his stories
You know that they're all lies
Bad as you are ,you stick around and I just don't know why

If I was ya man (baby you)
Never worry bout (what I do)
I'd be coming home (back to you)
Every night, doin' you right
You're the type of woman (deserves good thangs)
Fist full of diamonds (hand full of rings)
Baby you're a star (I just want to show you,you are)

[Chorus:]

You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me love you, love you, love you

[Verse 2:]

Listen
Your true beauty's description looks so good that it hurts
You're a dime plus ninety-nine and it's a shame
Don't even know what you're worth
Everywhere you go they stop and stare
Cause you're bad and it shows
From your head to your toes, Out of control, baby you know

If I was ya man (baby you)
Never worry bout (what I do)
I'd be coming home (back to you)
Every night doin' you right
You're the type of woman (deserves good thangs)
Fist full of diamonds (hand full of rings)
Baby you're a star (I just want to show you, you are)

[Chorus:]

You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Ooh Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me....

[Bridge:]

You deserve better girl (you know you deserve better)
We should be together girl (baby)
With me and you it's whatever girl, hey!
So can we make this thing ours?

[Chorus:]

You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me love you, love you, love you


Let me love you that's all you need baby..

Anyways.
today was decent.

I decided I need to start being myself around everyone.. I act different around certain people and I dont know why.. I hate it. yeah well that's my new goal for now


5 days until Halloween!!!! :-D

wow

well today just follows my last entry..
I guess its back to that whole game we play.. over and over again.


we'll see what tomorrow brings then update more, good day.

hm.. how does it feel.. the only person who's ever truely cared about you is just slipping away before your eyes.. maybe when you grow up you'll realize what you lost and how badly you fucked up something that you wanted and needed..

if only you had taken the time to really know me.. you would have seen what it was that always brought you back to me


you're gonna miss me..

Good Morning

Last night was amazing like woahh!
I got drunk before hand.. not intentionally but that's what you get when you wave alcohol in front of my face. baha so anyways being intoxicated at a party is key cause you know you don't give a fuck what ppl think and you just act like yourself. I don't remember anything I did the first half of the party but I had a great time anyway I love you Nicole!


now its off to work, good dayy :-)

Update
well yesterday after school meg & kate came over then we went to robbie's and the bike track after that. then we got picked up and went to party city to get our halloween costumes. we spent like an hour looking at things that were sold out and then finally decided to make our own costumes. we got witches hats and brooms with glow n' the dark tights haha we're original :-D I came home last night from the football game and realized I dont know where my witch's hat is though... so my mom got all mad and told me if I stopped smoking weed that I'd be able to remember things, like where I left my hat, bahahah. well she said she would go buy a new one for me so it's all good.

anyways I have work soon.. I don't get out til 6. then I have nikkie's partyy to go to ! :-) I love her. it will be exhilarating


well that's about it - write more later


<3kels

Bad Week.
this week sucked. It started off shitty and got worse. Bad things that happen to me just seem to have a domino effect.. once it starts it doesn't end until I'm completely miserable. It was so bad yesterday that I just left early. So early that I was only in school for about 20 minutes.. then I came home. Stayed high the whole day. Watched movies and stuff.. how productive. That's why I've dropped out of half the classes I had this year and am still in the process of dropping to 2 level English.. and that shows alot seeing as how English has always been my best subject. Mrs. Simms sucks but she's right.. I am perfectly capable of doing the work.. She just doesn't know me well enough to know I'm LAZY, I can't concentrate on anything important and I just don't care enough to stay in her class and work hard. I'd rather be able to do my work with ease.. I hate challenge, which probly isn't a good thing.

Well this is getting lengthy and I'm sick of whining. Good day.

Comments, PLEASE

Good Morning..

yeah so I haven't written all weekend.. theres really not much to write about anyway cause I do the same fuckin thing every day.. I either go to school for 6 hours or work for 6 hours then I go get high with my buddies.. usually katie n meg :-)

joey was supposed to come see me friday but I guess not.. oh well.


but last night mommy n daddy went to a party so ryan came home for the night and I had emmy katie n meg over. we tried to get ryan high but hes too cool to smoke with little 15 year old girls.

so we had a good time.. 5 MONTHS EMILY oh my god =-O



yeah well I'm gonna go get ready for work now, peace :o)